The Upload

Track 1 off Self Titled Album

prod. @horoshamusic and @sorrow_bringer 

song about driving high af and bein sad

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long way home [+horosha & sorrow bringer]

💎💙🗡🖤💎💙🗡🖤💎💙🗡🖤

Lyrics:
Will u love me im insane
Cried too much now im so drained
Im a rockstar, feel my pain
And i need u back but i wont say that to ur face

Im in my head all day
I miss you when its late 
Im fucking up my brain
Your the drug i crave


Im bleedin for the racks
Got a knife in my back
U know i care but i cant
Do nothin bout that

Its all in the past


They say i dont belong here and maybe i dont
But who knows
I make everybody leave me alone
Its my fault 

I been wipin up the blood from my phone
Did u call
Baby i get high but i know
That ill fall

Will u love me im insane
Cried too much now im so drained
Im a rockstar, feel my pain
And i need u back but i wont say that to ur face

Im in my head all day
I miss you when its late 
Im fucking up my brain
Your the drug i crave

Im dragging myself down through life
Despite telling everyone that im fine
My head is in a cloud i cant clear out my mind 
And honestly i'm nervous when i see all the eyes

CRIED TOO MUCH NOW I'M SO DRAINED (Prod. Discent)

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
stop
(what)
where did we go wrong
like.. it hasn't even been long
i always search for u
but hell, i don't have a clue
i might've made you a song
but
does that even have a cost?
no
well baby it's all that i've got
hoping that we could just stop
listen here u need to know
come closer this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love you and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
please don't go it's me i'll kill

i trusted you, i guess rn ur dead to me
i look at you and every time i grit my teeth
she said we're friends but na ur not friends w me
and i swear u would never get along w me
look
u were the only friend i ever had
but i still have all these cuts along my back
thought i'd never forgive you
never thought you'd be an issue
and i put every bit of my trust in her
now i have a hard time trusting anyone
forget you, i wanna be alone
i hate you, thought you were my bro

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i love you

this song was written/recorded in early 2020

mastering by Brian Sheil

SPOTIFY + APPLE

youth

wayside remix!
featuring @oni_boy
produced by @nevrfall :)
cover art by @ejcarrmusic lmfao
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
[decks]
its 2 in the morning
i dont wanna waste
any second with u
cuz there’s nothing to delay
i been bored and confused
till u made everything
seem a little more in color
i want u to be with me

im scared to fall by the wayside
too tough to see how the days fly by
and all this is great, well in hindsight
cuz everything could change overnight, oh my

i dont wanna lose u now
i feel so safe in your arms when the moon is out
i lose it when you’re not around
im glad im something special to u

[verse - oni boy]
i feel so dead when you’re not around me
just tell me you love me and touch on my body
cause once i start loving you know there’s no stopping
and inside my head girl you’re the only topic

suffocate me
i wanna fucking choke
consuming all your love
it’s not enough to know
i wanna feel you now
but i can’t replicate
cause all this other love
is feeling fucking fake

cause every day i wake up without you
it’s just not enough to pray to be with you
i’ll hop in the whip and drive past the bay view
the dreams become real it’ll be just us two

i don’t wanna waste my time
i gotta be by your side
and make you mine
but the timings never fucking right
drowning deep inside the tides
lost in the lines 

[pre-chorus]
im scared to fall by the wayside
too tough to see how the days fly by
and all this is great, well in hindsight
cuz everything could change overnight

[decks]
its 2 in the morning
i dont wanna waste
any second with u
cuz there’s nothing to delay
i been bored and confused
till u made everything
seem a little more in color
i want u to be with me

[decks & oni boy]
im scared to fall by the wayside
too tough to see how the days fly by
and all this is great, well in hindsight
cuz everything could change overnight, oh my

wayside

wayside w/ oni boy [nevrfall]

Prod. Flowers for You

my entire discography: https://open.spotify.com/user/lukeee117/playlist/2gRn7V9QfxZxFaJJdS00EP?si=vUv0Ie1qQc2dhn8mHtwk0w&dl_branch=1

alright, that's fine w/ skele

new summer bop! first song off my new ep 'june' :)
produced by @prodmichael
cover art by me
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
and i can feel it on me when u got my hand
know that this could be forever
let my eyes close shut trace names in the sand
as the sunshine melts the weather
give me 5 more days
im just tryna find my way
in the dark i gotta make this place
our home
cuz there’s no place like

this town i dont think i can exit
i got a few loose ends and a screw i could mention
knocked down but i got ur attention
and i dont think i can handle the tension
just give me 5 more days
im just tryna find my way
in the dark i gotta make this place
our home
cuz there’s no place like home

where u been at?
i been callin
up ur phone since 5 o clock
yeah i know you got a job
but i don’t have the time at all
say my name like once and i swear that i’ll b there
i dont feel like one’s enough to make it a fear
all my friends get drunk im not one for the beer
i just take them home cuz they know i can steer yea
x2

see my name in lights,
least thats the dream, right
this city holds me back
from every finding bliss in life
almost every minute
i step back, 3rd person mirror image
and i find myself in the corner hidden
where im supposed to be, its written

and i can feel it on me when u got my hand
know that this could be forever
let my eyes close shut trace names in the sand
as the sunshine melts the weather
give me 5 more days
im just tryna find my way
in the dark i gotta make this place
our home
cuz there’s no place like

(dont let gooo) this town i dont think i can exit
i got a few loose ends and a screw i could mention
knocked down but i got ur attention
and i dont think i can handle the tension
just give me 5 more days
im just tryna find my way
in the dark i gotta make this place
our home
cuz there’s no place like home

spotify!

five more days! [xmichaelwarren]

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/album/1fU1ZV5uQZ0PoNeusSE2W1?si=tGyWYAy8SNqFH6w4off4lQ&dl_branch=1

mix/master by auras 

support; 

vagrxnt:
@iamvagrxnt
instagram.com/iamvagrxnt/

saint tomorrow: 
@saint_tomorrow
twitter.com/saint_tomorrow

IIRRRRRRRby
@irby314
twitter.com/irby314

co prod @resident_music

lyrics:

verse 1 (auras): 
im trying not to break
at the weight on my chest 
know that i will will collapse 
at the sound of it 
and i’m always wrong 
when it comes to this 
and she won’t call me 
“its just another bad week”
try and saving 
just another mistake 
bad week 
know my heart is gonna break soon
just want you to know that i would die for you 


chorus (vagrxnt): 
and we lost touch 
like dying stars and broken hearts 
drowning faster than we can swim
hearts like glass and paper thin 
and we lost touch 
holdin on to words and thoughts 
hurting faster than we can heal 
dont let drink ourselves to sleep 
dont let me

verse 2(auras): 
and babe we lost touch but i hate to say 
that your palace don’t want me to stay
i really hope you 
can forgive me 
i’m tryin im begging 
under my bed sheets 
and she won’t call me 
“its just another bad week”
try and saving 
just another mistake 
bad week 
know my heart is gonna break soon
just want you to know that i would die for you

I love and miss u so much <3

auras x vagrxnt - we lost touch (prod. irby x st tmrw)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0ZSKl5rjtjWLQ3HI1moWyf
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F8BufMqlNQI

Artist:
@decksmusic

Produced by
@sadboiforever

Lyrics:
i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

and we watched as the stars fell down to earth
weather warm and the breeze gave a sudden burst
of life
to you and i
i remember
we started again that night

and it's easy to say
that i miss yesterday
but its all in my head now
that you're in my head now

and i'm frightened for sure
but you know that i'm yours
baby grab my hand
we could have one last dance

take me home
i need to see myself in the mirror
myself in the mirror
wake me up
'cause i have to see a little bit clearer
a little bit clearer

i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

i've been waiting for something, then i found her
i'm accustomed to silence so thats a first
maybe its all in my head
but i fuck up, then make up, and do it again

and we watched as the stars fell down to earth
weather warm and the breeze gave a sudden burst
of life
to you and i
i remember
we started again that night

and it's easy to say
that i miss yesterday
but its all in my head now
that you're in my head now

decks - one last dance (2001)

prod @jolst and @pekarot666

lyrics: 
i been tryin to figure out this mess but
i been so caught up in this web you've spun
oh god this cant be real...
i just need some time to heal and...

disappear from existence for a little while 
cuz all i wanted to do was
see you smile..
and it hurts so bad to
give your all to someone that does not want it
and its driving me crazy...
and maybe we can roll this back baby?
baby...

im fucking stuck here
and there is no escape
i swear this isnt what i wanted
oh, and now im right back where i fuckin started

and give me a reason why i should stick around
i would be better off gone for good
gone for good..

i just wanna disappear
i just wanna disappear

i think that i too....

disappear from existence for a little while 
cuz all i wanted to do was
see you smile..
and it hurts so bad to
give your all to someone that does not want it
and its driving me crazy...
and maybe we can roll this back baby?
baby...

im fuckings stuck here...

disappear from existence [+jolst & pekarot]

ty for listening <3 
w/ @sxdtune !

// sxdtune
you're always in my dreams
get the fuck out
cause i still dream about you

cause i will never let go, of you
you will always be burnt in my skin
i will never let go
i will never let go

i saw you yesterday
did you see me too? cause i saw you
i wonder what you thought when you saw me
would you wanna talk if I walked up?

no, cause what you did to me was so rude
i gave you all of me and you gave me parts of you
and i still hold on cause i can't let go
but sometime i will lose the bones and fly away

cause i will never let go, of you
you will always be burnt in my skin
i will never let go
i will never let go

// geist
i will never let go

wished we would work but i know that it wasn’t to be
and you know i love you more than you could ever love me

stole my heart and tossed it
knew that it was better in the garbage
and i still
hold on to your pretty little lies cause
i need you now

// sxdtune
cause i will never let go, of you
you will always be burnt in my skin
i will never let go
i will never let go

sxdtune & i'm geist - never letting go [vagrxnt]

prod me

i've been
searching for a trail to follow
i've been 
trying to predict tomorrow 
i've been 
feeling so hollow
so give me sum insurance that u'll stay and u ain't borrowed 
i've been
searching for a trail to follow
i've been 
trying to predict tomorrow 
i've been 
feeling so hollow
so give me sum insurance that u'll stay and u ain't borrowed so

if this is the last time that i'll see your face
tell me and i won't let it go to waste 
i'll talk about our days 
while dancin with my hands on ur waist 
so please take me away 
like u always take my pain-

i've been
searching for a trail to follow
i've been 
trying to predict tomorrow 
i've been 
feeling so hollow
so give me sum insurance that u'll stay and u ain't borrowed 
i've been
searching for a trail to follow
i've been 
trying to predict tomorrow 
i've been 
feeling so hollow
so give me sum insurance that u'll stay and u ain't borrowed so

take me away like u always take my pain

Mixed/Mastered By Me https://soundcloud.com/sadboykana & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/lindenblossom & https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
-
[Lyrics]

(kana)
Why do i keep trying?
Questioning my life now
God i feel so tired
Always being let down
And you were just a liar
Girl you got me fucked up
Walking down the wire
You're wastin my time love
Quit textin my phone up
I swear that i'm so done
I swear i'm not in love
Left me feelin so numb
Pictures on my walls i
Burnt it all to ashes
Made sure that i left them
How you left me
I'm damaged

(akiradoves)
i feel so dead when i'm holding my hand 
the tears on your chest babe i don't understand 
tell me why you lie tell me why you're cold 
and i don't wanna wait anymore
so tell me why you're gone
somewhere around my heart hurts
sometimes i feel useful 
but most the times i feel like i am nothing

(auby)
you make me forget the things that i said
i don't wanna hurt you but you make me upset
i need to focus on myself instead
don't know if you want this
it's all in my head

suffering w/ kana & auby (linden & nevrfall)

angel w/ skele

Hi, i been hella struggling to make anything for a while now. 
Feel like i lost my edge n i cant hit a note for shit anymore, never feel content w what i make n i end up scrapping stuff without really giving it a chance.

Sorry i been gone so long. Love to all you that still listen daily. Thank you for 4k on misunderstood and message to my older self. 
I want to get better and do more but the mental barrier can be so unbreakable sometimes.
Even tho this isnt the best i could do, I hope you enjoy
<3


Lyrics

backed out too soon
never leavin my room
Problems never go away man
Gonna be a while till i face that
words i produce never make sense
2 mins from painting the ceiling 
dont ever tell me you get it 
You can never know what im feeling 
but if you ask 
I Say im fine
But I feel stranded without you by my side
I cant make it
But i dont mind
Will you miss me when i die

been like 4 days
and im just wishing someone save me from this dark place 
i got nobody i swear no one even know my name
i hate this feeling like im motherfucking suffocating
Please just end my pain
x2

I never have any energy
I been lacking on the calories
Feel my body rot yeah im not dead but i can tell you that im bouta be
Nothing left to see here, nothing left inside of me
I know ive not got much time left, could you believe im just 19?

And what i can give you?
that you cannot get from somebody else
Im nothing special
Im better off, dying-by myself
you call me crazy, but did you ever stop to check on yourself
struggling lately, if by now you could not fuckin tell

been like 4 days
and im just wishing someone save me from this dark place 
i got nobody i swear no one even know my name
i hate this feeling like im motherfucking suffocating
Please just end my pain
x2

4 days (nobel beat)

Mixed/Mastered by Brian Sheil

lyrics:

After all this do you wanna hang out
Get a coffee or something
‘Cause for whatever reason
You’ve been on my mind again
Just like last summer, but things were different then
Does it ever cross your conscience
That these songs could be about you
I bet not
Even I almost completely forgot
And as each day goes by
We fly further away
But still acting like we’re not

So where would you wanna go
Pretend we’ll see each other tomorrow
‘Cause I don’t wanna count on the fall
Waiting and waiting, aren’t we sick of it all

So what would you tell me
To make me feel better
Think of July
Think of warmer weather
And I couldn’t blame you
If you stayed away
‘Cause my heart and lungs are cold
They long for better days
Does it ever cross your conscience
That I mean everything I say
I bet not
By now you must’ve completely forgot
We’re still so different in the end
That’s probably why we’ll just stay friends
You’re the midnight sky
While I’m stuck in the sunset

So where would you wanna go
Pretend we’ll see each other tomorrow
‘Cause I don’t wanna count on the fall
Waiting and waiting, aren’t we sick of it all

See you in a month
See you in a year
Say hello again
Then you’ll disappear
See you in a month
See you in a year
Say hello again
Then you’ll disappear

I guess I’ll just stick to daydreams
‘Cause nothing ever stays the way that it seems
I’ll see you in another life
As we say goodbye and we fade into the night

tomorrow

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