produced by (nevrfall) the best

kill some time w me
#imalwaystrappedinmyheadsoitsalwaysaboutme

wait4me ik u hated me, dont go
hard to say i've engraved my fate oh
rip out out my day think its time to sleep
u think i like the way that your sick of me oh

why u sick of me, uh figure it out
listen why u mean to me, just in my house
i got bees on me they fly around
their at peace w me; buzzing sounds
are you killing trees w me, knock that pine down
do you wannna sleep w me, till the world dies down?

wait 4me ik u hated me, dont go
hard to say i've engraved my fate oh
rip out out my day think its time to sleep
u think i like the way that your sick of me oh

wait4me

produced by @AVXiD, SHOW DA HOMIE LOVE THIS EP WOULDNT BE POSSIBLE WITHOUT AVXID <3

mix n master by me
sample from the vanity of existence.

original name was perception 2 but i been making a lot of pt.2's lately but it does kinda sound like perception lol


lyrics:

its all about the perception of everyone around me
i want everyone to be proud of me
but in reality it dont mean shit
so sit down itll be quick
same shit different day
woke up today less depressed than yesterday
still all i can fucking do is complain

i said i was taking a break
all it did was start to break me
in reality i just got lazy
ur words cant phase me
day after day hoping i make it
all i can do is day dream
and i know you said you hate me
yeah i been hearing that a lot lately
im waiting for the reaper to take me
im waiting for someone to save me'
ive been on this path for 2 long
this shit did change me
i go back down this road for my own saftey
im gonna have to wanna change
nobody can make me

i spent a whole year trying to get my fucking life back
keep living this life ima end up in a body bag
mars needs to stop stressing 
all u do is have panic attacks
its the perception
at the end of the day
this music is my prize
faking a smile
acting like everything is fine
but its not fucking fine
and if u cant see it than why am do i even try
i bottle these emotions up
i keep them all inside
listening to the vanity of existence
trying to keep it together
hope i dont lose all of my patience
do you really know how long it took me to make this
i hope my music will be timeless

its all about the perception of everyone around me
i want everyone to be proud of me
but in reality it dont mean shit
so sit down itll be quick
same shit different day
woke up today less depressed than yesterday
still all i can fucking do is complain


i wanna stay independant
but everything is getting repetive
i wanan start a collective
but everyone keeps being fake to me
im losing my mind
i cant even scroll twitter without seeing u in my mentions
like why do you want from me
let shit go already
i guess i know who was really my enemy

its all about the perception of everyone around me
i want everyone to be proud of me
but in reality it dont mean shit
so sit down itll be quick
same shit different day
woke up today less depressed than yesterday
still all i can fucking do is complain

yesterday (prod. AVXiD)

lil peep - the way i see things (pitched down)

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR FACE AND SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR LIES
IT'S GIVING ME THIS HATE THAT I CANNOT SUBSIDE
DON'T EXPECT ME TO SAY ANYTHING TO YOU
WE'RE THROUGH
SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR FACE AND SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR LIES
IT'S GIVING ME THIS HATE THAT I CANNOT SUBSIDE
DON'T EXPECT ME TO SAY ANYTHING TO YOU
WE'RE THROUGH
YOU'RE SO DISRESPECTFUL TOWARD ME IN RETURN
YOU ACTUALLY EXPECTED I WOULD COME TO TERMS
AFTER YOU TURNED YOUR BACK
DID YOU CARE I WAS HURT
I'M HURT
I WON'T EVER TAKE OR SEE YOU SERIOUS
YOU HAVEN'T SEEN ME LATELY NOW YOU'RE CURIOUS
LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE I WANT NO ONE AT ALL
I'M ALL I GOT
look at me when ur afraid
everything u see is grey
I THOUGHT I COULD TAKE
WHAT YOU PUT ON ME, IT GAVE
AN UNDERSTANDING OF WHO I WAS THEN AND WHAT I AM NOW
CAUSE I WAS SO STUPID BACK THEN, NOW I'M CONSTANTLY RAISING A BROW

something about your face and something about your eyes
that fumes me everyday and charges up inside
oh you built up this hate and beef i have with you
we're through

spotify

afraid

Millionaire

Millionaire (feat. kennedyxoxo)

watch the leaves fall on my legs 
as i wait and let the time pass
seasons go my life's still a mess
why did i put my life in both ur hands?

fading away disappearing fast
all of ur love for me like a crash
why did this happen is this a test?
i hate u for making me hate myself

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day
im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

don't even bother callin my phone
i changed my number and im goin ghost
i hate the life and the way it goes
im well today but tomorrow nobody knows
different drinks, cigs and a bloody nose
that's the way the sad ones roll
losing track, of how many tracks, 
i pulled of doing song after song
song after song
tens in a row 
and im losing control
losing compusure 
destroying my soul
im just hopin that in peace i will go 
cuz~

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

cutting my wrists, breaking my bones (young taylor)

guitars done by @prodjpjp
rest produced by heylog
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lyrics:
starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all

one call was all i needed
right now, i feel completed
2019 is over
been four years and got lower
though, for me it stood out
bleed to just hear one sound
i'd die to hear that noise
the calmness of your voice
i knew how it'd turn out
soon you'd be leaving town
and i couldn't bare that thought
was hard to move on
32 degrees, lungs get colder by the second
been through hell and out
it's like there's some type of obsession
wondering the choice you made if you've ever regret it
if you gotta say something why don't you come confess it
everytime you mention how, i need to find me
don't know what ur tryna say
don't know what u mean
i think ur just saying words
you're just saying things
even you confuse yourself
you don't know what to think
the reason why i live is to hope for a day
to finally see guidance leading ur way
wonder how to start, wonder where i go
all of it requires leaving my home
been through a bit and so much has gone
you don't gotta be sorry if i went through a lot
i can see us starting a family
i think it's the only thing that'll help me

starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all
heart's pounding strong
been up for hours
the sun's almost up
like how do i do it
she say, "where you been"
no where
just haven't checked my phone to use it
it's all gone down in carnage
debris in my lungs
wake up, feel like garbage
and get my yeti cup
i'm obsessed, pop a can of caffeine
even 300mg can barely do a thing to me

carnage

hope u guys like dis one fr 
prod: @tnvr555

LYRICS:
bury me six feet beneath the snow
take me for my mind and my body, not my soul
leave me here with something that i know
something to remember you by, a memento

i will watch you from the afterlife
the only place that i live now is inside your mind
take my hand, and walk me to the light
lie to me and say that it'll be alright

i try to keep it all bottled up inside 
and i can’t believe that you left me out here to die 
cause you promised me that you wouldn’t leave me behind
i’m gonna lose control, gonna lose control, gonna lose CONTROL 
watch me crumble down as i fall
and we both know that this was all your fault 

i will watch you from the afterlife
the only place that i live now is inside your mind
take my hand, and walk me to the light
lie to me and say that it'll be alright

(i will watch you from the afterlife)
(the only place that i live now is inside your mind)

the only place that i live now is INSIDE YOUR MIND

i will watch you from the afterlife
the only place that i live now is inside your mind

i will watch you from the afterlife
the only place that i live now is inside your mind
take my hand, and walk me to the light
lie to me and say that it'll be alright

have a good day/night <3

afterlife (tnvr)

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

prod me

sick & haven't been able to record much of anything for some time now, but i wanted to get something out both for myself, and possibly you;
been sitting on this one for a while
hope you enjoy.
take care

hey, i'll trade you for your sorrows
i've grown used to feeling that
and if we're talking 'bout tomorrows
i've grown used to losing them too

the voices i read with my ears, tend to bleed
choking up every piece of the letters i speak
wasn't always afraid of the pictures i paint
guess the brush needs a wash, mutilate, then repeat

hate when i reach out again
people speculate my head
you're not me, you're not my friend
frequently, wish i was..

thoughts reflected through my brain
too bad they can't do the same
shattered past and future pains
guide me home through rough terrain

i'm ugly with words
keep it blunt, little passive
hoping that i'll make it up with some actions
feel so trash, bounce back like elastic
i'm doing that for the sake of my casket
hurting myself in a hope i'll be gone
suck how the ones that we trust do you wrong
playing along
it's not even fair i can bare all the tears that i've once undergone

this life makes me sick; can't trade it
i've been pushing through the lame shit
stay averted; bad relations
let my room for hate stay vacant
pour it all on my own psyche
ain't no one 'round here feel like me
it's not a nice thing
never sight-see inside my mind
i'm mostly agonizing

i told them it'd be okay
it sure as hell don't feel that way
your limitations never stay
you're pulling pins to thought grenades

it's all the same
cast a wave and send me to a sunken grave
only then i'll know my place

woke up in a sweat so cold
in a room pale white, and a heart full of woe
passed out 'round noon, now i'm ten on my toes
from the sun's red hue, passed through what imposed
any chafe on my brain by the stains from the mulch
what kind of weight doesn't make you implode?
phasing a gate into heaven's abode
but that ain't a place i ain't think imma know

i haven't changed my sheets in like a week or two
(get outta bed)
summer's passed, and suddenly, our meanings too
(it's all that i have)

my eyes stayed tied into my mind
to undermine it's barbed wires

i'm trying to be what i need
choosing escape over delicacies
they weren't a choice i would seek
nothing was ever created for me

(4x)
i'm trying to be what i need

mulch

produced: tiedforsilver
feat: greenwood 
artwork: my amazing gf <3

lyrics:

( i would give anything to walk by your side again, alone my hands are trembling and i would make the sun drown)

i would give anything
to walk by your side again
the loneliness is dragging me 
further in the dark and now i cannot pretend 
that i can take the suffering
when your not around i’d rather be dust in the wind
alone my hands are trembling
i would make the sun drown to bring you back my friend

(greenwood)

keep you safe, i don't know if i can manage
i whip it fast, sip it slow, its fucking static
guess you were right, never more than just an addict
i compensate, i overdo it fucking manic

all of that in my life though
i just really wanna go home
call you drunk from your friends phone
straight passing out at the dial tone
i don't what this life's worth
guess i don't see what you see (don't know what you mean)
nothing ever came easy when i'm face down in the deep

compensate i never get it right
run it different in my head like just the other night
see the mist and all the people on the other side
i know you're there and i don't even have to wonder

(epitome)

i do not have the time, nor a good alibi 
to explain why, how nothings been going right
i could roll the dice, but that would waste the time
of you and i, no need to try to chance it now

this loneliness as left a frown
on my face, it’s dragging me down
to the ground, now underneath where i can’t even hear a sound

i would give anything
to walk by your side again
the loneliness is dragging me 
further in the dark and now i cannot pretend 
that i can take the suffering
when your not around i’d rather be dust in the wind
alone my hands are trembling
i would make the sun drown to bring you back my friend

i would make the sun drown w/ greenwood (tiedforsilver)

songs i wrote about a bunch of girls an archive of a man who i once was.

yesterday (prod. AVXiD)

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