Wonder About Me

Verse 1:
On a scale from one to zero
How much do you hate my guts
‘Cause you met me when I was the hero
And stuck around long enough
To watch it go up in flames
And then you couldn't handle it
Watching me become the antagonist 

Chorus:
So tell me what was it like? 
Flippin’ through my pages
And chasing all my changes
Was it entertaining for you?
Yeah, tell me what was it like?
Picking my plot apart 
What was your favorite part?
And was it entertaining for you?
Am I entertaining for you?

Verse 2:
I fall from grace and glory
As you try to ignore me
I'm just a scary story
That got a bit too gory
For your liking 
Got your adrenaline spiking
Am I psyching you out?
You couldn't handle it
Watching me become the antagonist 

Chorus:
So tell me what was it like? 
Flippin’ through my pages
And chasing all my changes
Was it entertaining for you?
Yeah, tell me what was it like?
Picking my plot apart 
What was your favorite part?
And was it entertaining for you?
Am I entertaining for you?

Bridge:
Call me the villain call me a beast
All that I can say is at least 
I'm the best of them though
And I put on a good show
Call me the villain call me a beast
I had you on the edge of your seat
Right there in the front row
Guess I put on a good show

the antagonist

Chorus:
Frostbite
The cold won’t kill me but the cost might 
I’ve played your game and it’s a lost fight 
It’s the reason I play dirty now 
Frostbite
You love me with your fingers crossed, right?
The cold won’t kill me but the cost might 
You’re the reason I play dirty now
You’re why I worry now
Why I’ll be fucked up til I’m like thirty now
Well at least no one can hurt me now
At least I hope not

Verse:
You’ve put on quite a show it’s moved me to pieces
But it’s so disturbing it’s made me indecent 
You say you’re sorry, I don’t know if you mean it
You’ve put on quite a show it’s moved me to pieces
But now I think that might need treatment
You killed me cause it was convenient didn’t you?

Chorus:
Frostbite
You love me with your fingers crossed, right?
The cold won’t kill me but the cost might 
I’ve played your game and it’s a lost fight
Yeah you’re a lost fight 
Yeah you’re a lost fight 

Bridge:
Maybe it’s my fault, maybe I’m gaslit
Maybe I don’t even remember what happened
You killed me cause it was comedic didn’t you
It was funny and we were both laughing for a minute or two 

Frostbite
The cold won’t kill me but the cost might

frostbite

Verse 1:
What is it exactly 
Eating away at you?
Tell us all what’s happening 
‘Cause you try to play it cool 
But I can tell your broken up about
Shit that you can’t open up about 
You don’t know who’s safe to make sacred 
So take it from me

Chorus:
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone who wants it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

Verse 2:
What is it exactly 
Eating away at you?
The love made you happy 
Just not who you gave it to 
But I don’t think anyone’s good enough for you if I'm truthful 
So take it from me

Chorus:
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone who wants it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

Bridge:
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
We always fall for it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

false prophets

Verse 1:
Fuck your smile, I love it
Fuck your face and your laugh
Shoved my head in the oven
Thought I might find you in the back
But you weren’t there 
Now I’ve got ash on my lips and in my hair
Can’t you leave some air in the room for the rest of us
Your ex-girlfriend ruined you but it happens to the best of us
And that part’s the worst of all
Is the damage irreversible?

Chorus:
No, I don’t think you want me 
No, I don’t think you do
But I let my mind run in circles
I let it chase after you
Like a dog racing at it’s own tail
I fight for what I know will fail
No, I don’t think you want me 
No, I don’t think you do
But I let my mind run in circles
I let it chase after you

Verse 2:
And I’ll keep chasing
Your cheap validation
‘Til my head hits the pavement
And I crack my skull wide open
Maybe then all this emotion
Will leak it’s way out of my head 
It’s disgusting how you make me crash and burn
Has anybody ever told you that you’re a bitch of a lesson to learn?
Has anybody ever told you that you’re a bitch of a lesson to learn?

Chorus:
No, I don’t think you want me 
No, I don’t think you do
Your comedown’s worse than molly’s 
What kind of fucked up drug are-
Your comedown’s worse than molly’s 
What kind of fucked up drug are you

Outro:
You hit hard, you hit fast
Edges sharp like broken glass
You told me your blade was dull
So why do I bleed desire?
I carry on, keep my cool
Funny how we’re both liars

i don't think you want me

Verse 1:
Oh my Maria, I’m just writing
Today I had my shoes shined and my teeth whitened
I showed up to the office awful late and asked out Susie 
It’s so nice to be the boss ‘cause you know beggars can’t be choosey
So she kind of has to choose me
Yeah, he kind of has to choose me

Verse 2:
Oh my Maria, I’m just writing
The company is crashing and the Feds have got me frightened
I didn’t need more money but I wanted it
And once a man like me gets greedy, there’s no stopping him

Chorus:
Oh my Maria
You know all my darkest feelings
That I can’t share with anyone alive
Oh my Maria
You know all my darkest feelings
They were buried with you on the day you died

Oh my Maria
Oh my Maria

Verse 3: 
Oh my Maria, how I miss you
I’m afraid that I don’t know what I’ve gotten myself into
I thought that I could get away with anything if I was smart enough
Turns out I’m just narcissistic and they might really lock me up

Chorus:
Oh my Maria
You know all my darkest feelings
That I can’t share with anyone alive
Oh my Maria
I wonder what it’d be like 
If I hadn’t had my gun on me that night

Bridge:
Maybe if you would’ve been polite
Maybe if you would’ve been more gentle, more kind
You know, a guy could really use a little love from you sometimes

Oh my Maria
Oh my Maria

Outro:
I’m a little worried but my lawyer’s in the lobby 
I put on my poker face just like my daddy taught me
They know that I did it but I shredded all the copies
They know that I did but they’ll never find the body
They’ll never find the body

oh my maria

Verse:
Foolish woman
You thought you’d make it out alive
Foolish woman
Don’t you know that you’re ruined by the time you’re twenty-five

Pre-Chorus:
Chew you up, spit you out
Put you right back in my mouth
Isn’t that what this is all about?
You’re the horse that we beat
Even after you can’t breathe
You planted trees so we ripped out the seeds
And we sold them all
And if everything goes south, you’ll take the fall

Chorus:
Foolish girl
When will you get it through your head?
They only love you when you’re dead
They only love you when you’re dead

Verse:
Stupid woman
Have you read the headlines lately?
Stupid woman
You can’t let them see you crumble ‘cause they’ll only call you crazy

Pre-Chorus:
You were fun, you were sweet
But it’s looking like you’re obsolete
Give us more or you’ll mean nothing to me
Think it’s to victimize 
The next innocent in line
Don’t you dare cry, ‘cause you asked for this life
Don’t you understand?
This is a business, not your wonderland

Chorus:
Stupid girl
When will you get it through your head?
They only love you when you’re dead
They only love you when you’re dead

Bridge:
And you’re still making money for us 
Six feet underground 
You may have written chorus 
But we’ve stolen your sound
It’s ours now
Yeah, you’re ours now


Outro:
Foolish woman
Stupid girl
Foolish woman
Stupid girl

september 14th

Chorus:
I need a sign or something
A cigarette or a psychiatrist
And I could swear to you that I’m not usually like this
But I would only sound self-righteous
And it’s a lie
To make you more comfortable 
And to make me more palatable 
God forbid I’m infallible 
Or just someone you don’t like 

Verse 1:
Do I reek of desperation?
Can you smell it on me?
I’m not good with confrontation
Can’t you tell I’m sorry?
Do I reek of desperation?
Can you smell it on me?
I’m not good with confrontation
Can’t you tell I’m sorry?
Do I seem a little paranoid?
Yeah, can you sense it?
‘Cause I can’t tell whether you’re annoyed
Or apprehensive 

I need a sign or something
I need a sign or something
I need a sign or something (something)
I need a sign or something (something)

Bridge:
Oh, I need the clouds to part, or the sun to freeze
I need Jesus Christ himself to please 
Just put my pretty head at ease 
Oh, just put my pretty head at ease
I need the clouds to part, or pills to take
Or maybe I just need a break
I don’t know why the real world feels so fake
Chorus:
I need a sign or something
A cigarette or a psychiatrist
And I could swear to you that I’m not usually like this
But I would only sound self-righteous
And it’s a lie

i need a sign (or something)

Verse 1:
The radio’s on and you’re talking in my ear 
But whatever shit I’m thinking is the loudest
The neon signs are beyond bright and burn my eyes
But I’m too far in my head to bitch about it

Pre-Chorus 1:
You ask me what’s going on 
‘Cause I’ve been quiet for too long
And I guess there’s nothing really wrong 
‘Cause I

Chorus:
I don’t hurt myself anymore
But it still hurts that I ever did 
And I don’t take my shit out on anyone else anymore
But now new friends scare me ‘cause I’m scared I’ll ruin it
It’s give and take
It’s give and take
Give and take
Give and take

Verse 2:
The movie’s playing
But I can’t tell what the characters are saying
‘Cause my brain is rambling
And I’m alright 
Now if only I could internalize it
But I guess I’m managing 

Pre-Chorus 2:
You ask me if I’m okay 
‘Cause I’m staring off into space 
And I don’t really know what to say 
‘Cause I

Chorus:
I don’t hurt myself anymore
But it still hurts that I ever did 
And I don’t take my shit out on anyone else anymore
But now new friends scare me ‘cause I’m scared I’ll ruin it
It’s give and take
It’s give and take
Give and take
Give and take
It’s give and take
It’s give and take
Give and take
Give and take

Bridge:
Is this the version of me that you wanted?
When you picture the person that you’re so involved with 
Does it actually match me? (it actually match me, it actually match me)
Is this the version of me that you wanted?

It’s give and take
It’s give and take

give & take

lyrics:
don’t get lost in me
system still processing
i tell you i want this
as i question if i'm conscious 
but it's “all good things”

i feel like myself most when i'm miserable 
i'll take all my feelings visceral, please
i'll take all of my milk spilled
if it's blue or its red pill,
i'll take 'em both 
trip hard, see the Holy Ghost 
get my head killed

you talk me down
or i tire myself out
or the feeling doesn’t feel like lasting 
and it's all good things

it's too dark on this side of the moon
but i planted my flag here
now i only feel alright about once every lap year
and that’s the punchline, but i can’t laugh yet
i still think self-hate’s an asset 
guess i'm wired wrong
i thought fueling all my flames would make the fire strong

but it just set the world ablaze
bodies all over the place
had to make my getaway, oh god, i'm a mad man
suddenly i'm self aware again
i'm on the moon and on the mend
just a good girl who got caught up in a bad plan
so it's all good things
yeah, it's all good things
(yeah, it's all good things)
(yeah, it's all good things)

warning signs were everywhere
hung up in the halls upstairs
i know cause i put them there so you’d see 'em
but everyone loves a prodigy
and i love when they're wanting me 
so i patch up my pathology with a cheap rush

yeah, it's all good things
yeah, it's all good things

all good things

lyrics:
oh, i wish i could write you 
but i'm a shit friend 
plus, i lost all my pens
i think i bled them dry
or i left them at the library
i'm lying through my teeth but
have some pity on me, pretty please, oh

i don't need forgiveness
only understanding 
lately i've been living 
on another planet
and i can't hear you all the way from earth
your messages i'm declining 
'cause i can't stand my climate
yeah, i can't hear you all the way from earth
there's too many rules to follow
too many pills to swallow

i'm inconvenient as i'm imploding, input noted
i'm inconvenient as i'm imploding, input noted
you call the professionals and i'll call myself a...
i'm inconvenient as i'm imploding
as my whole system is overloading, input noted
you call the professionals and i'll call myself a poet

they told me to love myself and i think i do
but i'm not sure if i like her and i wonder if i even want to 
but now i'm just rambling
i don't need forgiveness 
i don't need forgiveness

oh, i wish i could write you 
but i'm a shit friend 
yeah, i'm such a shit friend
prisoner of my own mind and the guards don't take well to fighters
so i sit and spread wider
prisoner of my own mind, what crime we're guilty of
try to find out and you're a lifer

thy kingdom come, thy will be done
they say god absolves all of his sons
but i'm not too demanding
i don't need forgiveness
only understanding

only understanding

&i think i just felt the simulation glitch

contact: mgmt@gilanares.com

all good things

Gilanares

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