Name: Crave by Ginotc1969
Duration: 5 min 4 s
Description: Another Tristam banger. Last one for now!

Another Tristam banger. Last one for now!

Crave

What do you see when you look at my face?
Can you see the pain that I've tried to erase?
Just say the word and I'll stay away
I've already told you that I can't be saved
You honestly might be my last
My heart's already turned jet-black
I thought I could run away from fate
But it caught up to me and forced me to break
My home
Is in the shadows
Feeling incomplete
Is all that I've known, known
Thinking I'm safe
Until I fuck up
Life can be really cruel sometimes
Cry in the rain
Hide my emotions
Do you believe me when I say I'm fine?
It's been a couple years but I'm still like this
You'd think by now I'd have found an exit
I must have a bad sense of direction
This nightmare should've already ended

Cry In The Rain (prod. kaadota)

So I ended up just recording it in the same spot after wasting time outside the yard, wtf...

I'm dumb
I should've let you in when you were banging on the door
I'm dumb
I just stood there when your tears hit the floor
Why did I do that?
You were always there for me whenever I was in a rut
I'm the worst, I know
I didn't even try to help you when you were clearly stuck
It's all my fault
Don't even say it's not
I knew exactly what was going on
I turned a blind eye
I left you there to rot
I promise I'll pay for all the pain I've caused
You were always hurting
I just pretended not to notice
How could I be so heartless?
You were always there for me
We were something like a team
It hasn't been easy ever since it happened
I was never ready for this disaster
You kept me together like staples and stitches
I know that it's too late to beg for forgiveness
I hate this shit but I know I deserve it
I left you to die when your demons were lurking
Honestly I should've been born a serpent
Or something that would never crawl to the surface
It's all my fault
Don't even say it's not
I knew exactly what was going on
I turned a blind eye
I left you there to rot
I promise I'll pay for all the pain I've caused
You were always hurting
I just pretended not to notice
How could I be so heartless?
You were always there for me
We were something like a team
You showed me kindness
And I gave you a nasty scar
Why am I like this?
Do I even still have a heart?
I let all my emotions get to me
And in an instant I completely ruined everything
It didn't take long for karma to find me
Thinking I could get away was a pipe dream
Maybe we should've never met
Maybe this is for the best
I'm the worst, to say the least
I'm as bad as it gets
I wonder if I even have a soul
That's one thing that I've been dying to know
I've hurt so many people with just words alone
Maybe things would be better if I never spoke

A Couple Regrets (prod. skgotthesauce)

Mixed/Mastered: Snow Owl Native

What the hell?
Can someone get this off of me?
I've worn this mask since 2019
It's too tight
And it won't seem to come off
It's like I lost the keys to an iron padlock
I don't want to
Forget who I am
I'm coming undone like the stitching on my pants
I shouldn't even be in this state
Walking round with a mental ball and chain
I always watch what I say
I try not to be rude
Sometimes I still have to though
Cause people force me to
Sometimes the words still come out
They're like floorboards that just won't stay down
I've lost count of all the times I've said "my bad" then turn around and start to laugh
I'm just sick of always lying
Pretending like I'm self-righteous
I feel faker than zirc diamonds
Maybe I should've stayed quiet
I wish someone had told me long ago
That I'd become a tortured soul
Someone who never follows through
And deals with thoughts of self-abuse
What the hell?
Can someone get this off of me?
I've worn this mask since 2019
It's too tight
And it won't seem to come off
It's like I lost the keys to an iron padlock
I don't want to
Forget who I am
I'm coming undone like the stitching on my pants
I shouldn't even be in this state
Walking round with a mental ball and chain

Locked Mask (prod. Snow Owl Native)

The Master of Killing Time. Also a YouTuber. Check it out: www.youtube.com/c/GinoTC
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Crave

Ginotc1969

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