Listenin to this shit late at night alone in my room.

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/sadboiforever and Low Hope

2001's yt: https://www.youtube.com/c/Prod2001

low hope's yt: https://www.youtube.com/c/ProdLowhope   


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i can't breath in this dense crowd
could you lead me through i need you right now
eyes piercing through me i feel naked 
could you hold me closely and recalibrate my brain love

i know that it's stupid
i can't help but worry
i know you said you will be here
but still i grip your hand so tightly

and i will never let you go again
i can feel my body tense 
every thought i reprehend 
still rots inside my broken head

and i can't bring myself to step outside
anxiety builds and i just want to hide
i think my body's giving up this time
i can feel my chest collapse when i look inside your eyes

i just feel so fucking useless
can't ask for help feel like a nuisance
just do my best to hide and numb it
a facade that's built with cuts and bruises

i think i have lost it
but don't know what it ever was
nothing like what used to be
lately i feel like a husk of myself 

i can't breath in this dense crowd
could you lead me through i need you right now
eyes piercing through me i feel naked 
could you hold me closely and recalibrate my brain love

i know that it's stupid
i can't help but worry
i know you said you will be here
but still i grip your hand so tightly

and i will never let you go again
i can feel my body tense 
every thought i reprehend 
still rots inside my broken head

inmyhead (2001 x Low Hope)

i guess we have no choice.
when the world comes to an end.
I wish we had another day.

I Wish We Had Another Day W/ sace6

mama used to tell me don't say nothin' if u cant say nothin' nice ~

bbydonttalk. [+lilportal]

respite

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i wana break everything (prod. siemspark x aidanhanbeats)

hey
old track from 2021/22
the goat @cherryrizla featuring
prod. @nevrfall
enjoy <3

lyrics:
i just cant wait until
i can come down 
and finally stop melting
i
i drive away from my
home in the hopes
that you’ll see me as something 

feeling a pain in my shoulder
stopping the car to pull over 
losing myself as im older
finding myself now its over

i sit alone in a sea of the blood of my past lives
all nine died
dont wanna find out if i cried
do it again by the sunrise
torture, im living this torture
and nothing will come of it
i just get high for the fun of it
i cannot feel i am numb again
nothin ever does it like you do

i
i just cant wait until
i can come down 
and finally stop melting
i
i drive away from my
home in the hopes
that you’ll see me as something 

feeling a pain in my shoulder
stopping the car to pull over 
losing my breath as i feel it
nothing is sweeter than closure

melting w/ cherryrizla (2022) [nevrfall]

mixed/mastered by me 
-
produced by https://soundcloud.com/l1lbiscuit
-
lyrics

ya u said we're not the same
lesson learned u should never talk to fakes
and u said i'm not okay
i been sharing all my feelings while u laugh it off
just turn it off stop it now
can u quit playing pretend and tell me how u feel
cause i don't want no sample i want the real thing

i want the real thing no need to hide 
u got me so surprised ur so mesmerized
and i'm looking at ur crystal eyes
something tells me that ur not even the one
something tells me that ur leaving soon
i don't wanna die here every time alone
and i don't wanna be in this town alone
oh baby no

who's around x4

ya u said we're not the same
lesson learned u should never talk to fakes
and u said i'm not okay

ya u said we're not the same
lesson learned u should never talk to fakes
and u said i'm not okay
i been sharing all my feelings while u laugh it off
just turn it off stop it now
can u quit playing pretend and tell me how u feel
cause i don't want no sample i want the real thing x2

lesson learned (lil biscuit)

she don't wanna know where i been
i smoke two blunts in the back of my benz
i think about all the things that she said
i think about her every time when the sniff blows
thinking about her step in my castle
seeing u smile that's all that I'm after
was doing some ecstasy nothing was meant to be
i was a memory that's all that I'll ever be

i got angel wings so could we fly tonight
u seem upset with me when ur by my side
we're doing coke tonight theirs nothing left to hide
methamphetamine only in the night
ya she's leaving me cause she think it's right
and when i die put some money and some ice
u say i won't baby i will fucking try
come in my life baby let me be ur guy 

she don't wanna know where i been
i smoke two blunts in the back of my benz
i think about all the things that she said
i think about her every time when the sniff blows
thinking about her step in my castle
seeing u smile that's all that I'm after
was doing some ecstasy nothing was meant to be
i was a memory that's all that I'll ever be

step inside my castle (moses)

What do you see when you look at my face?
Can you see the pain that I've tried to erase?
Just say the word and I'll stay away
I've already told you that I can't be saved
You honestly might be my last
My heart's already turned jet-black
I thought I could run away from fate
But it caught up to me and forced me to break
My home
Is in the shadows
Feeling incomplete
Is all that I've known, known
Thinking I'm safe
Until I fuck up
Life can be really cruel sometimes
Cry in the rain
Hide my emotions
Do you believe me when I say I'm fine?
It's been a couple years but I'm still like this
You'd think by now I'd have found an exit
I must have a bad sense of direction
This nightmare should've already ended

Cry In The Rain (prod. kaadota)

prod raspo 
mixed/master by me

Lyrics:

generational trauma
personification of drama
must be easy to say 
“i got it all from my momma”
i’m not a perfect person 
i still take more than i oughta
but you’re not perfect either 
you paint more hate than you gotta 

and i’m sorry that i left you
wasn’t there when i needed to protect you 
when i found out shoulda texted you
cause i knew exactly what it meant for you
that if i stick it out and i try hard
then you might see what’s in my heart
but i see now i wasn’t fair to you
babe i swear that all i did was care for you 

i guess i could find someone to hold me down
oh but i don’t think it’s fair if i’m not gonna be around 
cause my time on this earth is a little more limited than you think it is
and if i showed you inside of me
i wonder what your gut reaction to the trash would be
would you ask what happened to me 
would you stare in a state of shock as you backed away from me

oh see i been in this place before
where i never thought i’d need a hate ward
so when i broke down while i answered 
and then you spread through me like cancer
i sat back in my chair and wondered if i really said it with candor 

i know heart patients don’t hurt like this 
so i just wanna be certain 
you can’t see it from my side now
it’s like you’ve drawn all the curtains 
you want home yea you won’t find it here
i’m done wit all this hurtin

Cry In The Rain (prod. kaadota)

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