sorry I'm late bro This a new favorite of mine I love the vibe, emotion, and the nostalgia I feel listening to this <3

there's been days where I felt like dying 
but im still here pushing 
(killmesumday)(lyrics)
if my love is too loud then Ill love you in silence 
I bet memories with her will be timeless 
you're the reason im still fucking trying 
yeah I knew that the lies and your truths would start colliding 
so ill run to the hills so no one see me crying 
I got no one to confide in now I feel like dying 

cuz pretty girls like you love to show out 
who knew love would reach so deep in me rip my heart 
only you would know what you tell me is the truth now 
so hopefully this silly song is stuck in your head now 
ever since you iced me girl I swear I been stressed out 
sitting in my room talking to ghost's in my walls now 
you told me "leave me lone" now I got no one to call now 
no one to call no one at all

another sad song(prod.khail)

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

respite

Final Single!! New album 'for better or worse' releases NEXT WEEK 3/24!!

produced by @gaxillic_beats & @livingpuffy

Lyrics:

(verse)
here it is 
the final look at all your master plans 
is this what you were picturing 
are you wondering 
what took so long 
or why it all feels so wrong 

(hook)
cmon cmon won’t you pull me out 
i’m screaming out but i don’t know
 how to ask for help 
the situation 
dire need of something different 
waiting on a reason to find 
cuz i don’t have a reason to try again 

(verse)
(so) is this what you wanted 
a picture perfect little way to cope 
is haunting your brain now 
and you can’t find a way out 
(or) is this how you solve this 
cuz i’ve been waiting on a reason while you’re waiting the pain out 
this may never end now 

(hook)
cmon cmon won’t you pull me out 
i’m screaming out but i don’t know 
how to ask for help 
the situation 
dire need of something different 
hello hello can you hear me now 
cuz i think i’m spinning out 
cant tell what it’s about 
I just hope I feel you now 
waiting on a reason to find 
cuz i don’t have a reason to try 

(bridge)
can i wait this out 
can i wait this out 
there’s no time to waste 
cuz i don’t think i’ll make it til 
you pull me out 

(ending)
cmon cmon wont you pull me out 
i’m screaming out but i don’t know how to 
ask for help in this situation 
i’m screaming out but i see no difference 
waiting on a reason to find 
that i’m the only one who can try again

pull me out [prod. LIVING PUFF & GAXILLIC]

Produced by Carlby
Guitar by @93FEETOFSMOKE
Vocals mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Michael Venia @veniamastering

LYRICS
I've seen my future and it's not looking great
I fear fate's something that can't be escaped
Two options staring me dead in the face
I can no longer afford to look away

If not now
Then it'll be too late
By the time I get around to getting straight
But if I stick to my guns
Put myself first for once
Then maybe I can shed this dead weight

It's deadly
It's weighing heavily on me
But it doesn't have to be this way
In my effort to get better
I've learned a lot about insanity

Listen on Spotify!

Stick To My Guns (Prod. w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE)

@xobroken @jolst

I feel guilty because I didn't write you back
The letter that you sent still had your heart attached
I've been driving round at 3:00am 
driving through the streets again
I've got to adjust the seat again
Because your not there

Yeah you're around his and probably fucking kissing him
Fuck that
Shoot him
Dump my mag
I'm skrting
Ruger might solve my problems
But i know I'm fucked up
Gucci might solve my problems
But i know I'm fucked up
Don't hit me up and want my heart back
Don't hit me up  and act all sad
Hugo boss yeah Hugo boss
Lacoste on my feet I'm feeling sick
Don't hit me up and want my heart back
Don't hit me up and act all sad
Hugo boss yeah Hugo boss
Lacoste on my feet I'm feeling sick

@xobroken

Got me feeling guilty but I know you’re with him
I’ll fill that boy with hollows while I do it with a grin
What you sayin baby? You just make me wanna sin for you
Sorry I didn’t write you back, I can’t stand what I did to you.
I was mixin chemicals
Always Overdosing i swear it’s so typical
I can feel the distance between all your words it’s hurting me.
Everything you said fucked up my head I let you murder me

I feel guilty because I didn't write you back
The letter that you sent still had your heart attached
I've been driving round at 3:00am 
driving through the streets again
I've got to adjust the seat again
Because your not there

Yeah you're around his and probably fucking kissing him
Fuck that
Shoot him
Dump my mag
I'm skrting
Ruger might solve my problems
But i know I'm fucked up
Gucci might solve my problems
But i know I'm fucked up

blameworthy w/ xobroken & jolst

i'll make this my own if it kills me

credits:
@jolst
@toobears
@punkworldthreat
@x1fern
@fantasycamp
@ejcarrmusic

lyrics:
autumn skies, sober lies, where the time gone
i want u in my life while i can love
i still try all the time to get off of
all the shit that i had ‘fore i lost ya
i know im in despair, subtle from over there
i’ll get outta ur hair, know i leave u impaired
all the time, u and i, know its all love
i still repair what i can cuz i gotta

i forget to eat but know im doin fine on my own
terms are settled and im spending all this time all alone
i been free, in the trees, hope ur proud of me
know it aint perfect but this life is moving hourly
send me condolences, its just sobering
i cant move forward with all this pulling
my life isnt backwards but im losing track of
the days in the month, i can’t handle a rut like this

entirely
up to what i can see
i’ll make this my own
if it kills me

autumn skies, sober lies, where the time gone
i want u in my life while i can love
i still try all the time to get off of
all the shit that i had ‘fore i lost ya
i know im in despair, subtle from over there
i’ll get outta ur hair, know i leave u impaired
all the time, u and i, know its all love
i still repair what i can cuz i gotta

last week took the shit outta me
i gotta go 2 times just to cover the fee
i cannot handle 2 lives, yet thats what i lead
i need to calm down what the fuck has got into me

i need to slow down, slow down
le-le-lemonade gonna make me slow down
i cannot pretend i aint on my own now
know that its okay i can do alone now

spotify & apple

entirely [jolst x punk]

prod. metlast x sor
mix: me
master: teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)
art: my girlfriend <3

lyrics:

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat 

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing 

3 in the morning
i should be sleeping but im not
this anxiety has got its grip on me
this is something you won’t see
cause you’re caught up in a dream
so far away from the disease
im begging im down im on my knees
for someone to save me
but no one’s here lately 

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing

now you see me
now you don’t
now i’m gone and missing
you shouldn’t have gotten close

close (metlast x sor)

written during the time of meeting @sewerperson

lyrics

i’m wasted force
spent time in the sewers but i wanted more
coz when i left back to reality i felt lost i just needed merly discourse

tell me ur story 
tell me where’s home
show me the future
ik it’s cold but

if i hit 40
u need 2 know
that this was ur doing to which i owe my soul

been here since day 1
i wish it showed
where was this love at 
where did it go omg

u see we’re bonded
but different holes 
that we climbed out of 
i hope ur proud of me

5 yrs of listening 
th dust has settled yeh things r so different
that shit was splifferent
taught me to write my own book and spot out the fiction
put a purpose in som of these bad chapters 
gave me a mission

the track was rusted now tunnel vision 
things r so clear when im zoned in and listening 
life is worth living 
found from within but without u
its missing
especiilay when i miss home

ik ur lost
this wrld can be cruel but u haven’t yet lost…

i saw the bridges then the fire
id stroll so peaceful in the mire
i’ve been so many destinations but no scenes compare to this. i’m not a cryer

but i can’t help but shed a tear
a lot past brought out tnite
to keep it tight th_heavy beers
to stay surreal i kept it light

i’ve put a body 2 a voice
and i wish that i could stop time
i dont know how i got here 
but im not gonna question why
ima live this fuckin moment when u hand me that old mic
sing our fucking lungs out 
forget our sorrowed lives

respite

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