I love this such a vibe & you both fit with the beat so well <3

Feat. @daystowaste

lyrics:
Lost in my head 
Thinking of you again 
Even though it’s almost been two years 
Since you left 

Yeah, I figured that all of this was for the best 
Even after all of the closure it’s still hurts in my chest 

Yeah, I miss you 
I don’t want to 
But every time I get let down I see the truth 

You were my first 
I just never learned 
How to love you the way you needed me to back then 

Maybe I just don’t know how to move on
I don’t think I’ll love again, I hope that I’m wrong 
Staying up late again, writing these sad songs
And somehow it’ll make things better 

Please just know

My head is always in the clouds 
You’re wishing I had turned around 
I only want to make you proud 
And become someone that can hold it down 

I’m the only one 
That can be here 
For myself 
Nobody that can check up
On my health  
I know that everyone could 
Use some help 

My heart is painted dark blue 
Learning how to live life without you   

It’s been a little while
 Keep on talking to myself
 Now I wonder why  
I’m just standing in the rain 
Watching the flowers die 
All the days turn into months  
I’m losing track of time  
Feel my body going numb 
I wanna run back home 
Where the nights really long 
And I drown in your arms
 I wanna run back home…to you  

Please just tell me what you’re waiting for   

Please just know  

My head is always in the clouds 
You’re wishing I had turned around 
I only want to make you proud 
And become someone that can hold it down 

I’m the only one 
That can be here 
For myself 
Nobody that can check up
On my health  
I know that everyone could 
Use some help 

My heart is painted dark blue 
Learning how to live life without you 

>self produced<

life without you (feat. Days to Waste)

produced by wisssery and noahmadethiss

can we slow down?
can't get to the phone now
make it stop
what'd you say? 
my bad i zoned out
i hate crowds and noises
that's why i don't go out
maybe one day i'll get better
just not right now

everytime I leave my bed its an endless cycle of fear and resentment
Even if everythings alright, can’t help but wonder why I live in the past tense
One step forward is five back
Missed a shot in the dark and it’s too bad
Six feet deep in the ground my remains still say you really didn’t have to do that
Forever the worst, never the best
You’re really toxic and that’s not a flex
got something to say, I invite you to test
Calling your bluff you just cap like the rest
Stay hella bored but I don’t leave the house
i gotta go get it, just push through the doubt
Deep in my thoughts
Stomach in knots
Im begging to stop
Just leave me to rot

Constantly fighting a war with my head 
sometimes I think I’d be better off dead 
everyone says it can only get better 
then why do I constantly wake up in dread? 
running in circles again and again 
i just wish I could be there for my friends 
forever the worst, never the best 
always talking that shit but it’s not with your chest 
everyone here’s just talking 
can’t pay no mind, gotta clock in 
yeah I took some l’s for a while
my mind is a prison, im locked in 
stay hella bored but I don’t leave the house
i gotta go get it just push through the doubt 
deep in my thoughts 
stomach in knots 
I’m begging to stop
just leave me to rot

leave me to rot (prod. wisssery x noahmadethiss)

prod. sorrow bringer
artwork done by my gf :)

you broke me down was it worth it?

you broke me down was it worth it?
i’m breaking beneath the surface
waiting for a higher purpose
but i know that’s worthless
i fear not for the end
i know that i’ll be fine
cause i’m the after life 
i know that you’ll still be mine
i’m letting go of the past cause it was flawed by desgin

failed from the fucking beginning 
they were out to get me
but i ended up winning
so i’ll sit back and wait
while you take your place
fucking your lying games
you’re such a fucking waste time for me
now it’s time for you to see

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

nothing can change my mind
nothing can help you now
watch as the blood drips down
from your eyes
while you cry
no surprise 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

broken beneath the surface (sorrow bringer)

Produced by @pekarot_161 & @xlhc
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
It's a hat I wear these days
It's just one of many
I keep a picture of you in my pocket
I'll commit this to memory
You are the missing piece I never knew I needed
But you fit in so seamlessly
And after all this time I still can't believe it
I found my family

But do I actually deserve it
I feel like a serpent
That slithered in to take
What is not his away
Impostor
I fear I'm an impostor
I shed my skin
I'm a monster
You let me in
Now I'm not sure if I can measure up

I'm not sure If I can be the one
To bear this weight on my shoulders
There's so much expected of me now
And I'm still tryna figure out
How to care for myself
While being there for someone else
It's not so easy
But I know that you'll be there for me as well

Listen on Spotify!

Dad Hat (Prod. Pekarot & Extra Large Holiday Card)

@fleshgolem

(flesh)
i've been sitting with my thoughts
without your company i'm lost
i wish i didn't overthink every part 
of the words that you said in a dream

(TNS)
Sitting as the cars go by 
Thinking about you and I 

Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you 

And you’re stuck in my head 
And you’re lost 
In my bed 
While you stare at me get outta my head

(flesh)
i hope that i dont mess this up
got so much love to give to ya
sometimes i think i'm not enough
intrusive thoughts can't break me
and so i try to loosen up 
so i don't lose my grip on us
i'm sorry that i've been impatient lately

(TNS)
Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you 

And you’re stuck in my head 
And you’re lost 
In my bed 
While you stare at me get outta my head

Sitting as the cars go by 
Thinking about you and I 

Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you

Sitting As The Cars Go By w/ flesh golem [+ jasco]

drawn 2 u (flesh)

I hate the fear of losing everyone 
Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things will shine when I cross our stars

Give my head a rest
I don’t know where you are 

Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things won’t shine tell I cross our stars

Hello hello hello!
You can’t stay outta my fuckin mind

Bury my soul tonight and find more ways just to end my life 
(to end my life, to end my life)

Waste my life writing stupid love songs 
Gotta gather my head until I choose to drop dead 

Combatting true life stories and write them in pen 

I hate the fear of losing everyone 
Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things will shine when I cross our stars

Give my head a rest
I don’t know where you are 

Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things won’t shine tell I cross our stars

Hello hello hello!
You can’t stay outta my fuckin mind

Bury my soul tonight and find more ways just to end my life 
(to end my life, to end my life)

I hate the fear of losing everyone 
Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things will shine when I cross our stars

Give my head a rest
I don’t know where you are 

Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things won’t shine tell I cross our stars

Valley Of A Broken Heart [+ splashgvng]

@strivemusicau
@shizukesaaa
@autumndropsdead
@torvamia

(strivesad)
Caught in a cage with this endless pain
caught up to my age now I’m getting paid
Depression stays high and now the feelings changed
pour another bottle all apon my grave

you’ve been building roads
I’m building settlements

I keep craving another fucking serotonin hit
let’s flip the script

I don’t need no alliby
come with me and stay the night
Fighting for my life I think I’m doing fine

Ripped clothes now I’m going home
got these problems cause I feel alone
keep me in my zone

(shizu)
beamer swerving 
cuz i deserve the worst shit
bet she gon hit me up w/ 'love u but this isnt working'
might fuck around my blade till i negate the serotonin
now watch the liquid dripping red off slitted wrists, still frozen
find another guy and leave me dying w/ no notice
no i was never that man but fans in my dms saying im chosen
it gets hard to speak every want when everyone is seeing you choking
when words go wasting the space of audio waves to leaving me broken"

(autie)
my conscious is ever so heavy
i've been so cautious ever since you left
i've been holding myself down, with this self doubt
but nevertheless
i swear that i'll know when you need me
you know i'm right there when you're hearing that ringing
i'm patient a bit, but waiting's a bitch
i wish i could split and fuck up my breathing
but if there's anyone out there like me
smite like a god do and make me undying
bottle my goods for a world that is dying
plenish a helt that is tattered with lies
'cause i see through them every single minute
proof is in my dome, that's why i'm livid
tell me that you love him 'till i'm finished
i repel and let them be forgiven

(torva)
smoke until my chest hurts, til my lungs burn
think ill die soon, think ill go first
now my head hurts, never heard worse
if i lose you, need a gold hearse

never fuck it up, bitch i run it up
i go fucking crazy
til i do enough
keep my tommy tucked, never losing love
think i need some help
fore' i lose my trust

Cage w/ strivesad, shizukesa, autumndropsdead & torvamia [+ Tied For Silver x flesh]

s/o @kiddamo
lyrics
i hope that u love me
sometimes i cant even love myself
i want u to fuck me
then ill smoke the cigarettes on the shelf
n take me far away from all the thoughts n all the scary words u said to me
late this summer
oh i just need a friend now
i just need to calm down
i just need to lay down
n take some time to figure out

n what would u say to me if it was my last night out
all these people passing by oh i feel so left out
i can see right through ur mind like i have superpowers
i got sin inside my body i need a soul shower

hear the liquor pouring imma fill another cup
cant wake up in the morning without nic inside my lungs
speaking bout all my addictions baby girl ur number one
n now im waiting for ur call
but i dont want to wait anymore
i just want to see ur face some more
come my way whenever ur bored
or ill be all alone
so pick up the phone
cuz i kno that ur home
n whenever we dont talk i feel it hurting my soul
n outside its too cold
so open ur window
like ur rapunzel ill climb up n then the night will unfold
sometimes i wish i was dead
but i dont want to see u upset so ill keep it all in my head
remember when we were friends
i knew u was something special thats why i have no regrets

n what would u say to me if it was my last night out
all these people passing by oh i feel so left out
i can see right through ur mind like i have superpowers
i got sin inside my body i need a soul shower

soul shower w/ kiddamo [prod. irby]

the ghost in my bed ft. cutdeep (secre x heyrick)

prod. kawaiibeatz

i walk around the issue..
i really kinda miss u
im tryna be who im not, nd it hurts..
that never worked tho,
i was a jerk bro ;/
ill take back what i said!
i dont mean it at all!
and fill my head up with lead!
i hope u know that i-
mean 
this.. ;(
my mind is incompleted 
and my thoughts go one on one-
i cant see me any how else!

(popularreject)

You said you would call back
…
In a minute
… 
Girl I gave you all that 
Now we’re finished 
I’m in a Maybach now I’m sippin 
This is goodbye and good riddance 
… 
I sip Henny 
I get ready
And say good bye my vision 

Good dope all I roll up 
Bitch I’m dope I feel like Yola 
Smoke this dope and bend her over 
Got the force I feel like Yoda 
I got purple in my soda 

Duhh

I got purple in my soda 
In the range and I’m not sober
If it’s foreign rev the motor

Yuhh 
… hahahaa

the ghost in my bed ft. cutdeep (secre x heyrick)

getbetter

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