prod. flesh

lyrics:
nothing in the chamber but I'm loaded 
no, I don't wanna grow much older 
it's seven in the morning took a thought and then I wrote it 
but I still hear the humming of the motor 
I can't trust these people on the phone don't know their motives 
trust is a massage to my shoulders 
I can feel the weight just lift away as I decode it 
the meaning of the words I brokered 

I've been feeling tired the only remedy is focus 
I put another beat in my folder 
someone tell me why there's all this snow in Oklahoma 
I've been fucking freezing I just wish that I could hold her 
is it time to feel all right yet? lost inside the lotus 
and I don't like this chip on my shoulder 
I just want the love reciprocated in the moment 
but people wanna fuck me over 

I don't wanna be a victim 
I just wish that you would listen 
I don't wanna break the system 
tears clouding my vision 
tell me would it hurt to give some? 
I could never make the distance and I know 
it could always hurt to live some 
but I need it for the wisdom 

I won't be safe, I won't be safe about it 
I'm okay, I'll be okay in doubt that its 
all fake, the world might cave, surrounded by 
all shapes, I fall asleep to the sound of the 
the palm trees, it's all a dream, it's crowded 
yet I'll be alone with all these people around me 
I saw me, the man in the mirror is shrouded 
by longing, what could the fall bring? 
I hope that it's all peace 

don't get me wrong
I'll tag along
but the words feel so empty
when the world talks in envy
woe
are you friend or foe?
will I ever know?
when will I be whole? are we all alone?

all these lessons vogue
I can't get more vague
where else do I go?
how can I be brave?
shut the window closed
don't let in the rain
feelings I disposed
help me get away, try another day
i just gotta sing

trust

turned 22 today, here's a song

produced by stonesowavy

mastered by @sastrp

LYRICS:

let me in let me out

tell me what you know
bout your life the shit u hide and tell me what u owe
forget about the time i got it start right from the go
lemme know your fears the trauma buried deep below
tell me bout the time u didn’t have a place a home
tell me bout the desperation of being alone
moving day to day where every day was seeming slow
every time the outcome of events was still unknown 
it’s unknown where we at
no time to react
speculation mixed with fact and the fad of attention in remission
cause it’s not about you and it never was
and it’s not about me that’s what troubles us
expecting compensation for a life that seems mistaken
and receiving nothing but impatience conflict illness degradation
seems unfair all this monotony performed with calculation 
comparing hatred
constantly racing
wonder what’s the purpose of the pain
dream of peace a stable life consistent pay
don’t ask for too much only take the things u need
tell me how you heal and how you bleed

can i tell you what i know
bout my life the shit i hide and what i owe
hope you got the time cause imma start right from the go 
i got a lot of fear and trauma buried deep below
i got a couple diagnoses probably a couple more they haven’t found yet
but the symptoms are apparent and the treatment done is negligent 
i’m stubborn almost arrogant in my ability to counter obstacles it’s evident
that i would benefit from therapy if i just fucking went
but i can’t even dial numbers start the journey of salvation
once my halo dusty now it’s broken down to yo sediment
i said i wanna change the world
she said that i can’t make that promise
i told her that i need approval
she said i might be a narcissist
cause i’m so focused on myself in such a troubling way
i can recognize the rot but i still let it decay
doing the bare minimum so i can get through the day
but i’m still desperate for some clapping hands to say it’s okay 
cause just the thought of doing what is right is not enough if i don’t actually do it
i want diplomas houses i blew it 
why does life feel claustrophobic when i just got on my feet
can i tell you how i heal and how i bleed

let me in let me out

i simply can’t believe in over sharing
given proper context humans tend to love comparing
situations lived and coping methods revel baring
honest nature of existence and precisely planning
what to filter rummage memories depression or your BPD
and anything that’s troubling the most open that you’ll ever be
but only let out what’s acceptable the limit of your history
is undefined when you first meet somebody you can vaguely see
being in your life extended time bond through little things
like breakups high school bullies neurons firing
to find the sweet spot not too overbearing sort of comforting
to know you’re not alone in this eventually the dam will break
testing the relationship by showing what is underneath
standing at a checkpoint in the bond you built so carefully
started off with how your parents were divorcing
to how you know the makeup that can help to cover bruising 
buzzwords key components of a conversation hold em in their mouth and let them out
when necessity to shows up 
know i’m here for you i care but question if they do believe that
in their head are they judgmental bout a controversial past

and maybe i’m just nosy bout your life
not always my business do or die
imma tell you something bout me
this is how i heal and how i bleed

let me in [prod. stonesowavy]

music video: https://youtu.be/t0heVRzq7Jc

@seandadon1k - living large*+ [yeah!] (feat. kenny orlando) ++MUSIC VIDEO

prod. flesh

i woke up late made nothing
so i'll just make up something
maybe someday it'll be worth something
got no money but i still keep chugging along
and im praying i can keep this running
all the time i wasted playing along
in a game where we dont win nothing

sometimes i just wish that i could die
but i know you'd miss me so i stay alive
all these years i never thought that i could try 
now that i got energy i feel alive
no no i dont want the fomo i wanna vibe
cause i dont wanna miss my shot
and i know i've missed a lot
but i just wanna make some friends
so i'll just give everyone all i've got

i woke up late

used to push my car across the street and now it’s push to start
u said im just not what u need and it ripped me apart
valet better not scratch my shit i’m up now i don’t need to park
i’ll give u my bones and let u craft the skeleton key to my heart
she a red rose and i’m a dead dandelion
she’s sought after most and i just float thru the horizon
she don’t say a word and they still love her when she’s silent
i ain’t hear a peep until i told em i was dying

if u leave now who’s gonna cry when it’s my turn
u used to talk me down from the ledge look how the tides turn
swim until i drown i feel like toby with that iron
i be blowing clouds im smoking o’s until my eyes burn
i been dancing in the darkness with the flames in my room
help them grow and let them breathe until i get to watch em bloom
vision fading slowly till the moment i’m consumed
lay me down and let me rest i feel at peace inside this tomb
fire in the heart sends smoke to the head
if ur gonna lose ur life i’d rather god take me instead
i’m clinging on to hope and hanging by a fraying thread
everything i ever wanted u to know was left unsaid

used to push my car across the street and now it’s push to start
u said im just not what u need and it ripped me apart
valet better not scratch my shit i’m up now i don’t need to park
i’ll give u my bones and let u craft the skeleton key to my heart
she a red rose and i’m a dead dandelion
she’s sought after most and i just float thru the horizon
she don’t say a word and they still love her when she’s silent
i ain’t hear a peep until i told em i was dying

inside ur eyes i saw the stars
3 of swords when i read my cards
two in the back one thru my heart
always wake up under it
im begging please don’t raise the bar
i’m bout to give up everything and disappear
just to restart

what u got in store for me ? i hope it’s love, i hope it’s pain
the winter storm blows over me and leaves a sheet of frozen rain
i could use ur company before my ceiling gets a stain
u always been so comforting, i know u wouldn’t say the same

let the wind blow me away
cycle like the moon i was just a phase
forget the story burn the book shred every page
i’m lost in this labyrinth my head feels like a maze

used to push my car across the street and now it’s push to start
u said im just not what u need and it ripped me apart
valet better not scratch my shit i’m up now i don’t need to park
i’ll give u my bones and let u craft the skeleton key to my heart
she a red rose and i’m a dead dandelion
she’s sought after most and i just float thru the horizon
she don’t say a word and they still love her when she’s silent
i ain’t hear a peep until i told em i was dying

skeleton key (scottysplash)

baltimore autobahn

thought i’d be
yeah i thought i’d be the one
thought i’d be
oooooooo

thought i’d be the one
wearing burberry at ur baby shower
i never got the chance to tell u
i know i’m a coward
i know she need release
and she know i devour
she love me when i’m sweet
and suck me dry when i get sour

haven’t slept yet that’s the only way im up at dawn
bottled up emotions i get lit im like a molotov
i heard u had a due date my stomach did a somersault
pushing 140 i95 like the autobahn

blowing bags of grass i’m like a landscaper
i love how soft her skin is mine just feels like sandpaper
tell me how u really feel i cannot stand fakers
i put my life inside her hands but she’s a man breaker

i cannot stand straight
thought he was tough 
my dummy flipped him like a pancake
she look in my eyes
i get nervous till my hands shake
she cast a spell on me 
while i roll up this mandrake
sippin this elixir
till i’m in trance state

but it’s not good enough
i’ll go all in if u call me baby
what we putting up?
turn me to soot and dust
spare me all the charades
let me blow away in the wind
until i find a better place

thought i’d be the one
wearing burberry at ur baby shower
i never got the chance to tell u
i know i’m a coward
i know she need release
and she know i devour
she love me when i’m sweet
and suck me dry when i get sour

haven’t slept yet that’s the only way im up at dawn
bottled up emotions i get lit im like a molotov
i heard u had a due date my stomach did a somersault
pushing 140 i95 like the autobahn

neon lights behind her eyes that read out notice me
all that effort upfront how u end up ghosting me
spread her legs i feel like moses in the open sea
red eyes in the whip we lit up like a uav

she a damsel in distress
i’m a stumbling drunk mess
couldnt save u if i wanted
tip the king like it was chess
right place wrong time
always feels like a crime
i want to feel the world pass by
while ur tongue is tied up with mine

my bones decaying underneath the sod
no one knows a thing except for u and god
put me in my place it was all part of the plot
i don’t need a funeral i need a space where i can rot

thought i’d be the one
wearing burberry at ur baby shower
i never got the chance to tell u
i know i’m a coward
i know she need release
and she know i devour
she love me when i’m sweet
and suck me dry when i get sour

haven’t slept yet that’s the only way im up at dawn
bottled up emotions i get lit im like a molotov
i heard u had a due date my stomach did a somersault
pushing 140 i95 like the autobahn

baltimore autobahn (scottysplash)

tblue:
i'll sleep alone again and dream of your touch
i don't think you really want this as much
as i do
why can't i find you
where did you go
hours outside in the snow
do you think of me at all?

vex:
lookin out my window waiting for the fall
baby come n find me
all the said or did before..
i'll just leave it all behind me
keep yu on my socials
filling up the wound with salt
baby i just wana know..
do yu think of me at all?

sk:
i’m accidental protocol up again
feeling really lost like i might of fall
i don’t know when
do you really think you can hold me
hold me close
feeling really lost and what yu told me
is something baby i don’t know

do u think of me at all? (feat. Vexxodus & Soulcast)

prod. @prodneverforever

ink drips off of the ballpoint
see two sides of the same coin
patches sewn into blind faith
where i lay is a product of my choice
shadows follow behind me
we're all here just surviving
waste time to work for a living
crash my car to feel something

limbo is all i've come to know
will i be safe from all this pain
complacent is what i'm face to face with
i need to move beyond the blue

cut my lifespan into quarters
25% is over
my accomplishments consist of
two papers and countless hiccups
when i peer out in the distance
smoke and fog cloud up my vision
i'm lost why would i go on

plaster mud onto my name
concrete covers the blood stains
do what we can while we're breathing
no one cares when you're heart stops beating
i'm at a loss for words
so tired of being hurt
my head's about to burst
can't wait to taste the dirt

limbo is all i've come to know
will i be safe from all this pain
complacent is what i'm face to face with
i need to move beyond the blue

my accomplishments consist of...

Heavy Ground

Be Okay

Hammer To A Nail by smokethatdank

sick music video: youtu.be/3OxrVw40v6o?si=AgGXtWnKYoSpHnK6

@hollowbodyco

mgmt: @luckeyknows

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it's gonna be okay