finding myself

Produced by Starshower & Alex Catton
Mix & master by Starshower 
Cover art by G-on King 

I been feeling stressed out 
If I quit won’t be the best routine 
There’s different habits got to test out
If I don’t catch a grip I might just start falling apart 
I been healing now my heart starts to glow in the dark 
I can not be finessed out my love 
If you don’t love me now then it was what it was 
Everything you have it turns into dust 

(aayu.)
hit up rainy we go to the stars
baby your body’s a work of art 
needa keep you like way in my arms
it don’t change the fact that when you leave it’s like a work of art
she like aayu why you always callin up
find the freedom to be with you and then never follow up
i think part of me’s the reason why you never fall in love
put that pill up inside your body maybe you could find trust
maybe you could find love

I been feeling stressed out 
If I quit won’t be the best routine 
There’s different habits got to test out
If I don’t catch a grip I might just start falling apart 
I been healing now my heart starts to glow in the dark 
I can not be finessed out my love 
If you don’t love me now then it was what it was 
Everything you have it turns into dust 

(rainmail)
I’d give it all to you
but karma hurts coz baby you’ve got more to lose 
And since you fucking left I don’t know how to move
But showy hit me up, said you’ve got more to do and you’ve got more to prove 
Rainy you ain’t call back
Because you’re all lies and you know this for a fact 
I see you fall in line what the fuck you call that? 
And imma spin a cunt don’t blame me if he fall flat 
Imma pick up you when you want and imma be nice to you if believe me once 
I might love you if you change for me for a month 
Call me left field baby you’ll see what you want

Heart glows Ft. aayu. & rainmail (starshower & Alex Catton)

Prod. By star & recyclebin 
Mix/master by G-on King 

Lyrics 

I need a moment to catch my breath 
Yes there’s a mess in my head 
I want all this pain to be dead 
Cause the past I can’t seem to forget 
I drown in my thought laying in bed 
Youuuu 
Make me feel better so I want you forever 
I will never leave you never 

It will always be hard but I know life will get better
It’s like I got all my trust all in you 
Swear your the only thing in this life I can’t lose 
I had to pay all my dues cause my heart was so bruised 
Makes you think for yourself that’s when you got to choose 
To take the easy way or the hard way 
Everything you love you could lose 
Everything you love you could lose

I need a moment to catch my breath 
Yes there’s a mess in my head 
I want all this pain to be dead 
Cause the past I can’t seem to forget 
I drown in my thought laying in bed 
Youuuu 
Make me feel better so I want you forever 
I will never leave you never 

I can never leave you never 
In your arm it’s so much better 
If there’s war will fight it together 
You got me floating like a feather 
Always bring me sunshine when it cloudy 
I’m so high off your love makes me drowsy
I swear you make me feel like I’m dreaming 
Give you my all til earth I’m leaving

mess in my head (star & recycle bin)

Produced by @recyclexbin & @prodwasterr

Lyrics:

Who would it be
To give you the world and love you just like me 
I know there’s no one even across the sea 
So when I’m dead is only time you could leave
To be loved is all I wanted 
I learned the key is being honest 
It’s not what you do but how you done it 
My mind keeps on racing yeah it’s running 
Give me your heart I won’t break it I wouldn’t 

I want to tell you everything 
Especially that you are my everything 
You’re more than special you are heavenly 
When you kiss my lips feel like I’m on ecstasy 
Anywhere in the world I want you next to me 
I can’t get enough 
In this world is only us
Anybody that had you they are in the dust 
They say that they love you but they really love who you was 
 
Who would it be
To give you the world and love you just like me 
I know there’s no one even across the sea 
So when I’m dead is only time you could leave
To be loved is all I wanted 
I learned the key is being honest 
It’s not what you do but how you done it 
My mind keeps on racing yeah it’s running 
Give me your heart I won’t break it I wouldn’t 

Even if you break my heart I know I couldn’t 
‘Cause that’s not how you love and how you shouldn’t 
I only wanna be better and that’s with kindness 
All that bad energy in my life I had to minus

who would it be? (recycle bin & wasterr)

Produced by Shinju 

(Lyrics)
Anxiety is messing up my life 
This my only hope Ill see the light 
Why do I feel like this I feel like I’m a die 
Taking deep breaths my mind and body going to war
I am cursed for the rest of my life 
I’m praying even mediating 
I need an answer cause I think I’m breaking 
Tell me what I gotta do I promise I’ll be patient 

Cold sweats its hard to breathe 
I think something is haunting me 
My soul want to jump out my body 
Why you going to tell me you love me you  don’t got me
I need to wake up from this bad dream 
Stay away that’s all I’m asking 
Moving on feels like the right thing 
Its been really hard to excite me   

Anxiety is messing up my life 
This my only hope Ill see the light 
Why do I feel like this I feel like I’m a die 
Taking deep breaths my mind and body going to war
I am cursed for the rest of my life 
I’m praying even mediating 
I need an answer cause I think I’m breaking 
Tell me what I gotta do I promise I’ll be patient 

あれまだ死ねずに生きてんの
(Why am I still alive?)
切り裂いた傷すら舐めて塞いで
(I’m trying to heal my pain by licking a wound)
愛を感じたいよ
(I wanna feel love so bad)
けどまた泣いて腫らしてんの
(But I’m just crying alone)
血も涙もない 冷酷な世界と
(In a cruel & heartless world)
孤独感 阻害されても 息してるよ
(It’s hard to breathe ‘cause I’m stuck in my loneliness)
それでさえ生きてたって何も生まないの
(Feels like my life is full of shit)
Just hate me 
知りもしないで
(You don’t even know what I feel)
気になったフリで終わって
(But you pretend to know everything about me)
バイバイ
(Bye Bye)

Praying & Meditating Ft. TORAT (shinju)

Produced by @silversqq

(Lyrics)
Just letting my problems just float in the wind 
You can’t stand in my shoes even if they will fit 
I got empathy but I won’t try to compare 
Got to live out your truth all the way do you dare 
Just a year ago it was hard for me to look in the mirror
I do this for me I know that they don’t care 
I don’t want none of your burdens I got my own fears 
I really just want to bring peace to mind
Didn’t know where I was going I was living so blind 
Now I open my eye I see all of the signs 
No more living in lies that’s not how I will die 
It’s time for me to just kiss the past goodbye 
Goodbye 
Aligning my stars in the sky every night 
So I could fly 

I feel the universe holding me 
I wanna give this world all of me 
Need someone to talk to just call on me 
I know life could be hard and it feels like thee end 
Know what it feels like when you can’t call on a friend 
I promise you’ll always have someone to listen 
You just gotta believe and stop all the wishing 
Gotta cleanse out the bad and focus on the mission

Just letting my problems just float in the wind 
You can’t stand in my shoes even if they will fit 
I got empathy but I won’t try to compare 
Got to live out your truth all the way do you dare 
Just a year ago it was hard for me to look in the mirror
I do this for me I know that they don’t care 
I don’t want none of your burdens I got my own fears 
I really just want to bring peace to mind
Didn’t know where I was going I was living so blind 
Now I open my eye I see all of the signs 
No more living in lies that’s not how I will die 
It’s time for me to just kiss the past goodbye 
Goodbye 
Aligning my stars in the sky every night 
So I could fly

kiss the past goodbye (silver)

Produced by @starshow3r & @atrxyu_

(Lyrics)

I waste my love thinking that you loved me 
When things get beautiful then it gets ugly 
When I have too many problems I just start running 
I just be happy keep the bad energy away from me 
Everything thing that goes up it always comes back down 
I just kept going I didn’t plan this out 
There always gon be ones that’s gonna doubt
You just gotta be careful on the words you let out 
‘Cause karma don’t play she always comes back around 

All this hard work yeah I wish that you could see it 
Music patched my heart up yeah I feel completed 
I write you a message then I just delete it 
I’m a give you space cause yeah I know we need it 
Had to going through the worst to deal with the harder way 
I just gotta keep going even if I’m not okay 
I gotta get my head up ‘cause there not gon stay 
Gotta do it for me I know at the end of the day 

I waste my love thinking that you loved me 
When things get beautiful then it gets ugly 
When I have too many problems I just start running 
I just be happy keep the bad energy away from me 
Everything thing that goes up it always comes back down 
I just kept going I didn’t plan this out 
There always gon be ones that’s gonna doubt
You just gotta be careful on the words you let out 
‘Cause karma don’t play she always comes back around

She comes back around 
So don’t try cheat yourself 
‘Cause you will make it more harder to live 
I stay five steps ahead even get six 
Gotta be careful on the things you wish 

‘One thing is for sure life will always be hard. What you get is what you give.’

be careful (starshower & atrxyu)

Made this around this time last year. I have so much music I've been sitting on doing my best to release a lot of it this summer! 

Produced by @boysinvain

(Lyrics)

Talking to myself praying for better days
If I got love for you I won’t hesitate 
Only peace and love is what I demonstrate 
I don’t need your problems got to much on my plate 
I’m trying to save my family there’s to much at stake 
I just got to close my eyes and meditate 
I just got to create this legacy
So I just gotta keep my love and faith in me 

I’m battling a war I don’t want parts with 
I promise I’m a finish what I started 
I found peace getting adjusted to the darkness 
I used to think my emotions made me heartless 
I can’t stop being so sad even if I tried 
If today is my day I’m ready to die 
Whatever pain I got to take I’ll handle it 
Looking at the stars I just been channeling 

Talking to myself praying for better days
If I got love for you I won’t hesitate 
Only peace and love is what I demonstrate 
I don’t need your problems got to much on my plate 
I’m trying to save my family there’s to much at stake 
I just got to close my eyes and meditate 
I just got to create this legacy
So I just gotta keep my love and faith in me 

Thinking bout it I’m so glad I tried 
There was many nights that just I want to cry
There’s was many days that I just want to give up 
All the times that I fall I just get up 
Put my whole soul in this this is real love 
And every line that I say I start to levitate 
You can’t force the beauty you’re gonna have to learn to wait 
If I got my happiness I’ll be good either way 

Talking to myself praying for better days
If I got love for you I won’t hesitate 
Only peace and love is what I demonstrate 
I don’t need your problems got to much on my plate 
I’m trying to save my family there’s to much at stake 
I just got to close my eyes and meditate 
I just got to create this legacy
So I just gotta keep my love and faith in me

Create this legacy (boysinvain)

Produced by @neil.ete 

(Lyrics)
I gotta keep changing to be better
Can't settle for minimum wage gotta get my cheddar up
To long my sky's are gray now its looking better now
I belong with the stars thats why I'm always looking up
I had a hard life but I'm never giving up
I don't want no hate I just want to live with love 
When I look deep in myself I just can't get enough 
Sometimes I need space I could dream of bigger stuff 

Listening to 432hz thats why I'm filled with love 
I had spread my wings and fly just like a dove
Had a hard time trying to find myself through the clouds of dust 
When I'm walking through Mother Nature I just get a rush 
Staying true to myself it is a must 
If I don't got me then who could I trust 
I can't stop it's only just begun 
Wanted to live this life ever since I was young 

I gotta keep changing to be better
Can't settle for minimum wage gotta get my cheddar up
To long my sky's are gray now its looking better now
I belong with the stars thats why I'm always looking up
I had a hard life but I'm never giving up
I don't want no hate I just want to live with love 
When I look deep in myself I just can't get enough 
Sometimes I need space I could dream of bigger stuff 

My heads up in the clouds how you think I dreamed of us
I'm always going to make mistakes but I won't take a loss
I'm hoping that I find peace got my fingers cross
I'm striving for my happiness don't care the cost
Its like mom and dad are only ones that family
I don't really got no friends because they're damaging
Been at war with myself don't know how I'm managing
If you really love me please just keep your faith in me 

I gotta keep changing to be better
Can't settle for minimum wage gotta get my cheddar up
To long my sky's are gray now its looking better now
I belong with the stars thats why I'm always looking up
I had a hard life but I'm never giving up
I don't want no hate I just want to live with love 
When I look deep in myself I just can't get enough 
Sometimes I need space I could dream of bigger stuff

dream of bigger stuff (neil)

Produced by @1audiodiary & @recyclexbin

(Lyrics)
I'm done trying to fake how I feel
Like my heart is made out of steel 
When I lie to myself I don't feel real 
I feel in my soul I got chills
I will never go back to my old ways 
If you think negative stay away from me
I'm done living blinded I need clarity 
Healing my shattered heart took therapy
Through my darkest time nobody was there for me

I'm trying fight off these feelings
I'm trying fight off these feelings
Making music only heals me 
I'm working daily to be better
Yah be down to do whatever 
That can not be not never
I always put my heart in this 
No matter on how hard it gets

I'm done trying to fake how I feel
Like my heart is made out of steel 
When I lie to myself I don't feel real 
I feel in my soul I got chills
I will never go back to my old ways 
If you think negative stay away from me
I'm done living blinded I need clarity 
Healing my shattered heart took therapy
Through my darkest time nobody was there for me

I got dark times I can't think of 
'cause it make me feel like I'm losing my mind
Not helping me heal then you're wasting my time
'cause tomorrow I could probably die  
I only want positive energy 
So please watch what you say to me
'cause I won't come back if I ever leave 
I'm a King can't have peasants around me

nobody was there (star & recycle bin)

Produced by @1audiodiary & @recyclexbin

(Lyrics)
When I look inside your eyes I see the ocean
You got the master key to my heart you're my devotion 
The love I got for you its like we're chosen
To be honest most my life my hearts been frozen
You got a spirit of a Goddess yeah I'm floating
If you want true love there is no easy way
I promise I'm a change your life everything gon change 
But my loyalty for you will always stay the same

The most important person in my life is you
Its like you read my mind you know what to do
Every time you touch my skin I can not move
If you ever leave me that's when I lose
I wanna touch the sky but that's with you
There's so much I want to tell you but I rather look inside your eyes
I'm doing my best to stay patience 'cause I know in time I'll get what mines
If you're not speaking from a place of love don't even waste my time

When I look inside your eyes I see the ocean
You got the master key to my heart you're my devotion 
The love I got for you its like we're chosen
To be honest most my life my hearts been frozen
You got a spirit of a Goddess yeah I'm floating
If you want true love there is no easy way
I promise I'm a change your life everything gon change 
But my loyalty for you will always stay the same

It's like you make the stars shine for me
You're the main character in my story 
Anything I want you do it for me 
You keep me on my toes you never bore me
I will never ever take the easy way
'cause I know the place we're going is beyond great 
The only thing in my mind is to keep you safe
So trust me when I say you got me til my ending day

ocean eyes (star & recycle bin)

(Lyrics)

I wanna travel around the world 
But first I wanna get lost in your world 
Get hypnotized by how you’re walking girl 
Doing my best to let my feelings all out 
I just keep it true that’s all that counts 
I don’t care the distance I’ll go the miles 
It is you I split this life with 
It is you that gets my enlightened 

We could do whatever 
Yours so fly like you got feathers 
When I’m with you everything better 
That’s why we’re locked in forever 
All I wanna do is make you smile 
Get you off my mind I don’t know how 
You’re the only person I see in the crowd
You’re the only person I don’t want let down 
You’re the only person that deserves my crown 

I wanna travel around the world 
But first I wanna get lost in your world 
Get hypnotized by how you’re walking girl 
Doing my best to let my feelings all out 
I just keep it true that’s all that counts 
I don’t care the distance I’ll go the miles 
It is you I split this life with 
It is you that gets my enlightened

Heavens where I met her 
And I can’t leave you never 
You’re my four leaf clover 
Love you from November to October 
You get me super high when I am sober
Ecstasy is what you feel like to me 
I’m not going no where even when my life is over 
Haaaaa 
And when you need to cry baby you know you got my shoulder

It is you (recycle & kyitsu)

(Lyrics)

I wanna live my best while I’m young 
I did some things in my past I shouldn’t done 
But I’m learning from my mistakes 
All I’m focused on is being great 
At time my life I used to think I hate 
Things are changing cause I love myself 
And things are changing cause I’m seeking help 
And this the best I think I ever felt 

Excited everyday to see the sunshine 
I know the storms are coming 
But they cleanse my mind 
I surrender 
No one hiding greatness that I know I conceal 
So I’m focused on my mental and the things I should heal 
And the love I got for myself is the only thing that is real 
Singing to myself changed my life I’m for real 
It opened up my heart and let me speak how I feel 

I wanna live my best while I’m young 
I did some things in my past I shouldn’t done 
But I’m learning from my mistakes 
All I’m focused on is being great 
At time my life I used to think I hate 
Things are changing cause I love myself 
And things are changing cause I’m seeking help 
And this the best I think I ever felt

Ahhhhhhh haaaaa 
Staying true to myself helps me sleep at night 
There’s no other way I’m a always make it right 
Always staying grateful cause to many people die 
One of my brothers got murdered yeah it’s hard for me to cry 
It could all be gone in a blink of an eye 
So you gotta take some risk will you dare to even try 
I’m a give my all til the day that I die 

I wanna live my best while I’m young 
I did some things in my past I shouldn’t done 
But I’m learning from my mistakes 
All I’m focused on is being great

things are changing (recycle bin & wasterr)

(Lyrics) 

I lost myself going through the motions 
I lost on a path I didn’t know where I was going 
There was too much in my heart I was holding 
Never again I wanna be broken 
Glad I found the light inside of me 
Doing my best to see what I’ll do with it 
I just can’t think about the thoughts I used to get 
I wanna heal not just get used to it 

No more ignorance ‘cause time is burning like a cigarette 
What you give to the world is exactly what you get 
Anything you start make sure you finish it 
The past don’t matter the moment is all you get 
Gotta cherish every moment don’t know when it’ll be your last 
So I’m staying focused I don’t wanna crash 
If you’re gonna doubt don’t got nothing to do with that 

I lost myself going through the motions 
I lost on a path I didn’t know where I was going 
There was too much in my heart I was holding 
Never again I wanna be broken 
Glad I found the light inside of me 
Doing my best to see what I’ll do with it 
I just can’t think about the thoughts I used to get 
I wanna heal not just get used to it 

Emotions eat me to the bone 
Had a hard time growing up at home 
I’m trying my best to move on 
But that’s not the way that I should heal 
Most of the time I don’t feel real 
I live in my head it’s gon get me killed 
I’m doing my best to keep my body still
I wanna be better only time will tell

I wanna heal (melik)

(Lyrics)

You always wanna tell me what you done for me 
I guess your love wasn’t meant for me
Or maybe it’s my mind that’s messing with me 
I just want to get lost in your ecstasy 
You got so much beauty inside 
All I know can’t die with your music inside 
We gotta stop holding back it’s ruining ourselves 

Gotta keep going even if they don’t believe in you 
Follow your dreams and one day you’ll see it come true 
There’s beauty in the pain I’ll promise you’ll see it through 
I been in the clouds just thinking about you 
Come here baby wrap your arms around me 
Your love and affection is all that I need 
Let’s shut the world out and make it just you and me 

You always wanna tell me what you done for me 
I guess your love wasn’t meant for me
Or maybe it’s my mind that’s messing with me 
I just want to get lost in your ecstasy 
You got so much beauty inside 
All I know can’t die with your music inside 
We gotta stop holding back it’s ruining ourselves 

I won’t listen if you try to tell me what I gotta do 
I’m a love myself and keep flying til I turn blue 
Running from the pain is the only thing that help me get through 
The biggest question to myself I ask is who are you
You gotta know yourself ‘cause they’re gon try to tell you who you are 
I been healing and believing in me and that’s why I’m going far 
I’m been finding peace within and I’m embracing all my scars 

You always wanna tell me what you done for me 
I guess your love wasn’t meant for me
Or maybe it’s my mind that’s messing with me 
I just want to get lost in your ecstasy 
You got so much beauty inside 
All I know can’t die with your music inside 
We gotta stop holding back it’s ruining ourselves

beauty inside (recycle bin & nihil)

(Lyrics)

Finding my way it took a toll on me 
But I won’t let the pain take over me 
Making music gon wash it away 
Only got myself at the end of the day 
Be careful what you wish beware what you say 
Just live from the heart there’s no way to do it right 
I just follow the path not guided by sight 
‘Cause I got faith 

Ahhhhhhhh 
Can’t let another humans hold me down 
I walk with faith not walk but sight 
I’m manifesting 
It’s hurts that the ones that you love don’t support 
Just make that a reason for you to move forward 
Have intrigued don’t cut corners 

Finding my way it took a toll on me 
But I won’t let the pain take over me 
Making music gon wash it away 
Only got myself at the end of the day 
Be careful what you wish beware what you say 
Just live from the heart there’s no way to do it right 
I just follow the path not guided by sight 
‘Cause I got faith 

I made mistakes 
But that’s okay 
Keep my mental right so I don’t break 
It’s the only place for me to escape 
Sometime I’m trapped up in a maze 
Feel it in my gut I’m a make me a way 
All I gotta do is believe in myself 
So I’m doing my best to love myself

live from the heart (noah & jolst)

(Lyrics) 


Am I talking loud enough do you hear me clear
Most my life I wanted to disappear 
I don’t like to talk about myself ‘cause no one cares 
Sometime I’m trapped in my thought 
I’m doing my best to shake it off 
I don’t know why but I like being sad 
I think I’m this way because of my past 
Doing my best for this moment to last 

So I’m focused on my breath and how I’m thinking 
I look through my third eye it’s not blinking 
I’m deep in my soul I am sinking 
For me to grow had to let go the past
I don’t want hurt myself no more 
It’s time to grow and spread out my wings 
I have faith up above that I’ll live out my dreams 
Time always tells and I’ll always believe

Am I talking loud enough do you hear me clear
Most my life I wanted to disappear 
I don’t like to talk about myself ‘cause no one cares 
Sometime I’m trapped in my thought 
I’m doing my best to shake it off 
I don’t know why but I like being sad 
I think I’m this way because of my past 
Doing my best for this moment to last 

I hope that it last 
When I look back and notice the time going fast 
Gotta take care your mind ‘cause your not going back 
Moving forward and I’m doing just that 
Gotta have faith in you before anyone else 
‘Causing faking the long run it really won’t help 
If I’m being honest this the best that I’ve felt

like being sad (mays)

(Lyrics) 

I can’t let you slip away 
We all make mistakes that’s okay 
If you gon fake it it’s gon hurt either way 
What you think ‘bout manifests 
It might not go exactly how you expect it 
Don’t hold yourself back you’ll regret it 
I’m great for my angels 
I got so much love no I can’t hide it 

Don’t let them shoot down your happiness 
I know exactly how hard it gets 
First you got to do it for yourself 
Don’t let your emotions or your thought put you through hell 
Walking with love can’t you tell 
I got to live my purpose
It’s always deeper than the surface 
When you found it it feels so perfect 

I can’t let you slip away 
We all make mistakes that’s okay 
If you gon fake it it’s gon hurt either way 
What you think ‘bout manifests 
It might not go exactly how you expect it 
Don’t hold yourself back you’ll regret it 
I’m great for my angels 
I got so much love no I can’t hide it 

I can’t hide all this light I can’t hide all this love 
I’m a be the change in the world that I want to see 
One thing for sure you can’t take my away my peace 
Or my pride 
Gotta wait til I die 
I’m not giving up as long as I’m alive 
Do you see the fire in me 
That’s why I got so much love inside my heart 
Nothing feels better when you let done your guard

I can't hide it (starshower + kaiizu + ripwarheart )

Produced by @cip5th

Left me yea I’m so upset thats just what i get she don’t even give a shit tell me baby is this really it 
No I cant forget all the shit she said 
All the shit you did 
No I don’t know how to live
No I don’t know how to feel
Tell me baby if this really real
On the phone with you and it gave me chills

No you cant be serious tell me baby if this shit real
I been so curious I don’t even know how to tell 
My life living hell
When I die yea I’m going right there
Ian even get chance no girl this shit not fair

No this isn’t fair
Like the end is near
I can’t shed a tear
My heart is gonna tear
I don’t wanna get depressed
No I don’t
I’m hanging on the edge
All my feelings dead
Gotta release you from my conscious
You left me feeling dead
My heart I think I lost it
Heartbroken can you guess

Left me yea I’m so upset thats just what i get she don’t even give a shit tell me baby is this really it 
No I cant forget all the shit she said 
All the shit you did 
No I don’t know how to live
No I don’t know how to feel
Tell me baby if this really real
On the phone with you and it gave me chills

all you did w/ cip (cip)

Produced by shinju & recyclebin 

I just wanna scream and let this feeling out
So much pain inside 
I just wanna cry
I’m trying to make it right 
But I just keep on falling 
Pain just keeps on calling 
I been trying to block it 
But I know I can not stop it 
The connect think I lost it 
All this sadness how you think I got it 

Really trying keep myself together 
Haven’t felt normal in forever 
What I gotta do to make it better 
I need help but I don’t know where to start 
There’s so much wrong with me 
But I just want to make music 
I rather hold it in but I think I abuse it 
Gotta have some trust in me 
So one day I don’t lose it 
Focus on my happiness is the only thing I’m doing 

I just wanna scream and let this feeling out
So much pain inside 
I just wanna cry
I’m trying to make it right 
But I just keep on falling 
Pain just keeps on calling 
I been trying to block it 
But I know I can not stop it 
The connect think I lost it 
All this sadness how you think I got it

All this sadness how you think I got it
I was falling and it was bottomless 
What you get is what you give 
So I’m changing on the way I live

I keep falling (shinju & recycle)

(Lyrics)

When I look inside the mirror 
I can see the tears in my eyes 
I think the message getting clearer 
That I’m broken down inside 
Why can’t I just have my life 
Why when I’m happy it don’t feel right 
It feels like I have nightmares every night 
Reminding me of who I was 

I sabotage everything that’s good 
Let go the past I wish I could 
Most of the time I’m sad I know it’s not good 
Why can’t I just have my life 
I wanna find the peace inside 
I know there a light in me that’s bright 
I know it’s gon keep me safe at night 

When I look inside the mirror 
I can see the tears in my eyes 
I think the message getting clearer 
That I’m broken down inside 
Why can’t I just have my life 
Why when I’m happy it don’t feel right 
It feels like I have nightmares every night 
Reminding me of who I was

Truth is I feel stupid
Gave my heart to people that I shouldn’t 
Doing things for them that I know they wouldn’t 
Wanna feel love in my heart don’t want it wooden 
Wanna walk with a smile don’t wanna feel dark 
So I’m doing my best to follow my heart 
One thing I don’t want is falling apart

tears in my eye's (recycle bin & jolst)

(Lyrics)

I can feel the wind through my fingers
The essence of this life it just lingers 
Hope you could feel my love through the speakers 
Thank you Mother Earth yeah I need her 
Right close to my heart is where I keep her 
If you call my phone it’s on silent 
I can’t pick up no must deny it 
I have to let you go I can’t fight it 

No I can not fight it 
I don’t want attachments 
I came in this world alone 
So I know I’m a die alone 
Doing all the things that makes me better everyday 
I had no one by my side when my sky’s where looking grey 
I’m proud of myself for how far I’ve came 
Making music only keeps me sane 

I can feel the wind through my fingers
The essence of this life it just lingers 
Hope you could feel my love through the speakers 
Thank you Mother Earth yeah I need her 
Right close to my heart is where I keep her 
If you call my phone it’s on silent 
I can’t pick up no must deny it 
I have to let you go I can’t fight it

I’m stuck inside the studio all weekend 
If you want me to stay then give me a reason 
Sorry for my emotions sometimes they be creeping 
Only love I’m bleeding
I’m done playing pretend 
They just threw my heart in the deep end 
But it only made me stronger 
So I work hard and I conquer

Produced by Silver & nihl

wind through my fingers (silver & nihl)

Produced by recycle bin

How could I say goodbye when I can’t let go 
The thoughts inside my head I hear them echo 
It took me 20 years to feel like I am special 
I’m trying my best to get out my head more
The batcave only place I don’t feel I’m depressed 
The only place to get this stress up off my chest 
One thing is for sure I know that I am blessed 
I’m glad I came this far can’t stop until I am dead 

I’ve been dreaming more than I have ever did 
I gonna make my mom and dad happy as long as I live 
I just saw a shooting star 
I just made a wish 
I’m looking for my happiness 
Making change is where I need to make the start 
Feel like I’ll be better if I go raise the bar
Doing it for my angels that I keep close to my heart 

How could I say goodbye when I can’t let go 
The thoughts inside my head I hear them echo 
It took me 20 years to feel like I am special 
I’m trying my best to get out my head more
The batcave only place I don’t feel I’m depressed 
The only place to get this stress up off my chest 
One thing is for sure I know that I am blessed 
I’m glad I came this far can’t stop until I am dead 

I can’t stop til I’m dead 
Learning that I gotta stay five steps away 
Cause I let too many people tear my heart to shreds 
Cause I got this far I know that I am blessed 
It’s time for batboy go ahead and spread he’s wings 
I swear I’m gonna let God keep on doing his thing

The BatCave (recycle bin)

Produced by shingan

I didn’t even mean to fall in love 
7 billion people in the world and it’s only us 
Glad I got your loyalty and I got your trust 
It’s like your perfect I can’t get enough
You’re like my heartbeat yeah I need you girl 
I want you for the next life are you fine with that 
You got my mind in a trance I’m fine with that 
I’m always gon cherish you I won’t hold back 

I’m falling
For you 
Glad you picked me up before I start crawling 
I’ll do anything for your love 
I’m a do everything for you 
Got me wrap around your finger
When you leave my side your fragrance lingers 
And I can’t stop thinking about you 
When my skies are cloudy you make them blue 
You’re my drug that I can’t lose 

I didn’t even mean to fall in love 
7 billion people in the world and it’s only us 
Glad I got your loyalty and I got your trust 
It’s like your perfect I can’t get enough
You’re like my heartbeat yeah I need you girl 
I want you for the next life are you fine with that 
You got my mind in a trance I’m fine with that 
I’m always gon cherish you I won’t hold back 

Fly high through the country, and there ain't no one like U
‘bout 7 billion people, and I wanted was you....
You the love of my life, you looking so bad
You don't even love me, she call me a drag
Pissed off, pissed off, drugs got me under withdrawals
Tell me baby what's the issue? u can come here, I might kiss you
Gave you my heart and u misused, I needa cry need some tissues
Tell me baby do u love me, gas pack smelling musty
She broke me, want a cookie? nigga talk shit he a rookie

G-on King

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