goodnight lavender — “A Heart Lies Still” LP
a hostage in a predetermined narrative.

A Heart Lies Still

goodnight lavender — The Death of Us

The light behind your eyes starts fading
I can hear the sirens wailing
Someone, somewhere, come and save me
Crimson hands will soon enslave me
The static in my heart will fester
Save my soul before disaster
Buried in a bed of roses
I can't keep my heart from breaking

Drown in the choices that you've made
You'll scream as the feelings numb away

As the dealer of dreams leads you astray
The memories return to haunt you
As your shadow fades and keeps the light away
There's no choice, find your way back

Home is a feeling that you hate
Love is a poison that we've made

Draw your blade
Fight your faith

And I know it's far too late (too late)
And I know they'll spill our blood (your blood)

So drown in the choices that you've made
You'll scream as the feelings numb away

As the dealer of dreams leads you astray
The memories return to haunt you
As your shadow fades and keeps the light away
There's no choice, find your way back

Home is a feeling that you hate
Love is a poison that we've made

Take my heart, I'll give it to you
Now you own me, all I am
You said you would never leave me
I believed you, I believed
Take my hand, I'll give it to you
You're forever out of reach
Razor sharp teeth
I can't hear you

I tried, I tried
I tried, I tried

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The Death of Us

goodnight lavender — Crossfire

Let me out through the backdoor
Am I all that you've hoped for?
Got you caught in the crossfire
To rid my heart of desire, yeah

I thought you were everything
The silence is deafening
Just pull me out of the clouds
And fill my heart with misery

What we had wasn't special
You're just so superficial
I've been dreaming for so long
Another fucking love song, yeah

I thought you were everything
The silence is deafening
Just get me out of my clothes
And bring me back to the shadows
(I'll give you everything)

I caught your heart in the crossfire
I caught your heart in the crossfire
I caught your heart in the crossfire
I caught your heart in the crossfire

I'm hanging on by a thread
She brought me straight to her bed
Secrets I hold in my head
I think that you've been misled

But I tried
I can't hide
And inside
I'm mortified

I gave you everything

Crossfire

goodnight lavender — Fallen Angels

In a bed of lies, I call your name
Drawn into a spell, I'm yours
Falling into light, a mark of shame
Buried in the dream, it's gone
Oh, oh

Don't look back
There's nothing left
It's make or break
Fake

Let it flood and wash away
Run from every heart you take
And will the sky return to gray
If I let your heart decay

If I let your heart decay

In a room of red, she turns to stone
Sinking in the stream, Icarus
Caught in ebb and flow, will you take me home?
A perpetual impulse

A ghost, a machine
The end of the dream
I'm stuck in between
I'm stuck in between

A ghost, a machine
The end of the dream
I'm stuck in between
I'm stuck in between

A ghost, a machine
The end of the dream
I'm stuck in between
I'm stuck in between

A ghost, a machine
The end of the dream
The end of the dream
The end of the dream

Wake up, wake up
Wake up, wake up

Let it flood and wash away
Run from every heart you take
And will the sky return to gray
If I let your heart decay
Is there nothing left to say?
Are things better if I stay?
And will the sky return to gray
If I let your heart decay

If I let your heart decay
If I let your heart decay

Fallen Angels

goodnight lavender — Hazard Pay

Say hello to the empire
Hear them break through the door
Drain you like a vampire, baby
And you'll be coming for more

Gimme some more
Gimme some more
Gimme some more
Gimme some gore

Oh, you've got a temper
We're coming for you

Say hello to the empire
The telephone's got a tap wire
Walk into the gunfire, baby
You fell in love with a vampire

Gimme some more
Gimme some more
Gimme some more
Gimme some gore

Natural selection
Natural selection

Hazard Pay

goodnight lavender — Breathe Today

I'm stuck in my room again, dreaming
Just the way it goes, it's not living
I'm wasting the days away sleeping
Always seeing the end in beginnings

Just breathe
You can live just a little
Just breathe
No lights, heavy metal
Just breathe
We're all meant for the devil
Don't leave
Wake up, little rebel

We're all meant for the devil
We're all meant for the devil

Been living through days without feeling
I give up the ghost, there's no meaning
Put my feet to the floor, the boards creaking
Is it all in my head, I can't breathe in

Just take your time
Take your time

I was just fine today
I was just fine today
I was just fine today
I was just fine today

Just breathe
You can live just a little
Just breathe
No lights, heavy metal
Just breathe
We're all meant for the devil
Don't leave
Wake up, little rebel

I'll give you everything
I hide under your skin
I won't regret a thing
I'll let myself in

breathe today

Breathe Today

goodnight lavender — Twentyseven

The taste of innocence
Still lingers on my tongue
No sense of imminence
Live fast and die young

I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, I feel numb

The damage has been done
Escape myself
It's better to fade away
Than burn out

I'm miserable, miserable
Self destruction
It ain't livable, livable
Dark impulsion

I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, take the gun

A quiet blissfulness
Tonight I come undone
I've grown so dissonant
This is my final song

I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, I feel numb

Tomorrow I'll be cold
Erase myself
It's better to fade away
Than burn out

I'm miserable, miserable
Self destruction
It ain't livable, livable
Dark impulsion

I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, I feel numb
I feel numb, take the gun

Oh, father
Oh, father
Oh, father
Oh, father
Oh, father
Oh, father
Oh, father
Oh, father

Twentyseven

goodnight lavender — It Ends With You...

A lie caught in my throat
A feeling that you loathe
Everything feels grey
A memory stowed away
I'm thrown into the fray
There is no antidote

I slip out of frame
And I can't breathe

I'm already dead
You hold the end
Buried in red, in red
The end of a dream

A lie, intertwined
As all is left behind
Dissolving all the same
The room starts to spin
It slowly pulls me in
Forever nothing

You can't take this life
Give it back to me
Feel the hurt inside
When they set me free
Cutting through the noise
Crimson memory
I fall out of grace
Better off this way

Fray from the light
Return to nothing
It all ends with you
In truth, my heart lies still

It Ends With You...

goodnight lavender — The Last Light

As my shadow dies and disappears
A lifelong dream you'll never see
What a shame, what a shame
Intertwined, you're gone

Will you see what you've done?
As you fade into light
Can't you see it's begun?
There's no end in sight

No goodbyes
Now and forever
Heartless
(Poisoned by the seeds you've sowed)

Cutting all ties
Losing your temper
Loveless
(Denied of the debt you owe)

So hide until you're dead, you're dead
So hide until you're dead, you're dead

As you faced your demise
Was I placed in your mind?
All I've graced was a lie
What a waste of time

Can you hear me now?
I'll never be the same
Can you feel the end?
The world is mine

And I fear I'll lose it all
And I fear it's not enough
Oh, drag me down and pull the plug

No goodbyes
Now and forever
Heartless
(Poisoned by the seeds you've sowed)

Cutting all ties
Losing your temper
Loveless
(Denied of the debt you owe)

So hide until you're dead, you're dead
So hide until you're dead, you're dead
So hide until you're dead, you're dead
So hide until you're dead, you're dead

The Last Light

goodnight lavender — Eclipse

Can't you hear them weeping?
Yearning for a dream
Infinitely reaching
Stuck between the seams

Can't you feel the calling?
Fleeting thoughts and fears
As our souls expire
Splitting from the stream

You've found your place, it's gone
Without a trace, move on
You've healed your heart before
It's far too late, you'll change

Eclipse

goodnight lavender — Absent Space

You never cared for friends
But you can play pretend
Another to adore
To make me feel once more
Yeah, yeah

Cause' I would crawl until the ends of earth, oh
The things I'd do for just one taste of you, oh

How sick have I become
Just to be someone
Oh, I can't see the end
Yeah, I can't, yeah, I can't, yeah, I can't
Oh, I can't, can't, can't

Cause' I would crawl until the ends of earth, oh
The things I'd do for just one taste of you, oh

Twenty million thoughts in my head
"Why'd you have to go and make me feel your pain in your stead"
Now I'm crawling on the floor and there is blood on my hands
Why'd you have to go and beat me when I'm already dead

Twenty million thoughts in my head
"Why'd you have to go and make me feel your pain in your stead"
Now I'm crawling on the floor and there is blood on my hands
Why'd you have to go and beat me when I'm already dead

Cause' I would crawl until the ends of earth, oh
The things I'd do for just one taste of you, oh
And I would write a thousand words for you, oh

Absent Space

goodnight lavender — Moonlight Requiem

Stare at the moon, you follow through
Razors pain you, your dream comes true

She said "Hold my hand", scraping me off the floor
Leave the ghosts outside, don't let them kill the light
She said "Don't let go", what are you hiding for?
Are we just young and dumb, fading into a lie

A darkened room, your time is due
In endless gloom, it ends with you

She said "Hold my hand", scraping me off the floor
Leave the ghosts outside, don't let them kill the light
And she said "Don't let go", what are you fighting for?
Are we just young and dumb, fading into a lie

So fire at will
But you'll never kill
What lingers inside
Believe me, I've tried
I'm drowning in pills
This room makes me ill
But you'll never kill
Yeah, you'll never

So don't look back, letting go of the fear
Lost in your starless eyes, bring me into the light
No, don't let go, trapped in a web of lies
And when your eyes have dried, tell them you'll win this time

Moonlight Requiem

goodnight lavender — Starless Eyes

Standing on a corner on a road just out of town
Flowers in her hands, oh, it was just like on the screen

A break in the silence, they go unnamed
Poisoned with violence like tears in the rain
No one remembers, no one remains

A break in the silence, they all look pained
I hear the sirens calling their names
Turning to embers, nothing remains

Making my way over I felt something take control
Pleading as I smother out the light behind her eyes

A break in the silence, they go unnamed
Poisoned with violence like tears in the rain
No one remembers, no one remains

A break in the silence, they all look pained
I hear the sirens calling their names
Turning to embers, nothing remains

But does anyone care?
Even a single prayer would do
But does anyone notice?
Oh, does anyone know this

I hate you

Starless Eyes

goodnight lavender — Kill the Witch

Everything
Well, everything is in it's place
Is this really happening?
Oh, no, no, no, I won't let go

Oh, I'm stained, unnamed
Bury me tonight
Oh, I'm blamed, disdained
Shotgun, it feels so right
And I feel it calling
Oh, I feel it calling
I feel it calling
I feel it calling

Nothing
Well, is there nothing I can do for you?
Everything is happening
So fast, so fast, so fast, so fast

Oh, I'm stained, unnamed
Bury me tonight
Oh, I'm blamed, disdained
Shotgun, it feels so right
And I feel it calling
Oh, I feel it calling
I feel it calling
I feel it calling

You say I'm always on your mind
But I see something in your eyes
Well, you say I'm always on your mind
Oh, how could I have been so blind?

I'm stained, unnamed
You buried me in red
Cause I'm stained, I'm stained
I'm stained, I'm stained

Kill the witch
Plastic bitch

I'm stained, unnamed
Bury me tonight
Oh, I'm blamed, disdained
Fuck you, and fuck your lies
And I feel it calling
I feel it calling
I feel it calling
I feel it calling
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah