Lyrics:

Wanna be able to
work on my music and
not have to worry 'bout
where I'll be sleepin next
week or next month or next
meal will be from, I'm done
sleeping for dinner in
beds I don't own
Wanna be able to
Live how I used to without
feelin trapped in my
Home with abusive behaviour,
can't seem to look
After myself anymore,
I feel rust eating 
Up at my soul...

...Mind and body 
Not another sorry motherfucker not
Gettin what what he worked for (huh)
Still thinkin that he deserves more (oh)
Mind my rotting, not sorry
Anybody see me lose, put a Noose on me
Do not listen to refuse, I'll be loose running
My own revolution
while embodying delusion
Find it kinda funny 
That I have no faith left to lose in me

Only ever loved myself back
When I self medicated
Livin life faded
Sober now
don't know how to cope
I'm afraid it
Ain't ever gonna end
Till I let the blade hit my skin
Can't win, I'm afraid of my own sin
Rust in vein, I'm a fuckin broken
Mess on the floor,
And it's all my fault, 
Been blessed with a choke hold
On my fuckin throat, ugh.

Try to say I'm at my best, but I'm sinkin
Feel a little bit less when I'm drinkin
We sin less now, but it's all I'm thinkin
Freak skin, No rest, no sleepin
My wrist gets shredded, let it seep into
The floorboards of the room that I rot in,
Leave me all alone, please don't fuckin knock, I been
Losin motivation to refuse all that I crave,
And I'm losin all my patience to end up inside a grave,
Never thought I'd live this long, I don't know how much I can take,
think I, think I'm bout to break, oh
Fuck it, never saw myself as one that can be saved
Learnt my lesson now I'm guessing who I've become every day
So cynical might as well evolve into my hate
Is there any real debate? (Nah)
 
Wanna be able to
work on my music and
not have to worry 'bout
where I'll be sleepin next
week or next month or next
meal will be from, I'm done
sleeping for dinner in
beds I don't own
Wanna be able to
Live how I used to without
feelin trapped in my
Home with abusive behaviour,
can't seem to look
After myself anymore,
I feel rust eating 
Up at my soul...

...Mind and body
(Eating my soul)
Mind and body
(Eating my soul)
Mind and body
Mind and body
Mind and body yeah
Mind and body
(Eating my soul)
Mind and body
(Eating my soul)
Mind and body
Mind and body
Mind and body yeah

Mind And Body

Lyrics:

They tried to tell me that my mind got
Fucked up from the drugs
But I beg to differ 
only started chasing highs
Just so I could kill my liver
Didn't wanna keep on living
As a kid, and so I figured:
"What's the matter with a little bit of Poison in my figure?"
I never wanna the one that's sentimental though
Had to get a better tone, numbin when gettin low
Forgot to build a ladder, hit the bottom of the rabbit hole
Couldn't fathom that I had to find a way out on my own
Fuck this pain bestowed upon to me,
I still can't resist this urge I got to bleed,
Left alot of rules broken, hoped to end up in the sea,
Throat open for the feed,
Float away never to be
seen again
But I can't just let go of the past
Who I am feels like a mask
In top of who I used to be
No I didn't think I'd last
this long, but look at me
Who I be and who I've been
Is just a moment scheme
Got too dizzy from
runnin round in circles
No I never miss a thing but
don't think I deserve all
This shit that I'm feelin now,
Escaped from the abuse
The shit felt like a roof on top
To keep me from gettin loose
From livin like animals
I'm free and I cannot grow
It seems like I'm livin in a dream
I don't want it though
I'm feelin like getting freedom for me is impossible
Leavin that scenery is haunting me, im a cannibal
I'm eating away at myself
Feel like I may need some help
Fallin apart again and I'm hoping nobody can tell 
Left in the vile emission,
something inside of me, hissing
I can't revive what I'm missing, 
That me is dead and in hell
I don't know why I keep letting
My mind divide and then set in
Lies, I abide and regret it,
I am the pilot with a  
Kamikaze mentality
Nose diving into everything I
Built for myself, but forgot
Why I decided to, you get it?

Kamikaze

Lyrics:

I never remember the days
blended together, my pains
Never been mended, The same
Fuckin repetitive phase
wonder how much I can take
Wanna examine my pain
Look at them setting the stage
Cameras and compliments, fake.
All of my friends had been made tough,
Yet I just saw them all crumble and break
In an invisible maze, 
Bullets and mines in our face, fuck
Wanna go home from the war,
but the war is over, I'm still in a cage

Mind lost in the Shell shock,
Red dots, turn to holes, turn to blood gust,
6 days, no sleep, Hostile thoughts.
Mind lost in the Shell shock,
No sleep till the bombs and the guns stop
forgot whats the goal, what's my soul cost?
6 months in the war made my hope rust.
Mind lost in the Shell shock
We just some kids, they set us up 
No future that they promised us
6 years and it stops for the lucky ones

Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants
Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants

Pawn of war, don't worry bout the trauma
Keep the score goin till your shifts over,
Pray to your God life goes back to normal but
When you get home still feel like a soldier.
Nowhere feels like home anymore
When you still feel like you're runnin from everything you saw
Blood, gore, dead friends, faces everywhere you go,
Blood hands, your soul won't forgive when its sold

Mind lost in the Shell shock,
Red dots, turn to holes, turn to blood gust,
6 days, no sleep, Hostile thoughts.
Mind lost in the Shell shock,
No sleep till the bombs and the guns stop
forgot whats the goal, what's my soul cost?
6 months in the war made my hope rust.
Mind lost in the Shell shock
We just some kids, they set us up 
No future that they promised us
6 years and it stops for the lucky ones

Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants
Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants

War came with me to the ward
Hear the screaming down the hall
Bullet holes won't heal
I can still feel em all
Heaven cannot hear me
Hell I'm livin: inescapable
I can't Trust these faces anymore
No rest left from these shakes
Till I hit the floor
No medication can make me normal again
Can't break fight or flight, keep a knife by my bed,
I'll brace for life every night till I'm dead
 
I Only did what my leader wanted 
I Only did what the devil wanted 
I Only did what my leader wanted 
I Only did what the devil wanted 
I Only did what my leader wanted 
I Only did what the devil wanted 
I Only did what my leader wanted 
I Only did what the devil wanted

Shell Shock

Thanks for all the great numbers on here lately! Let’s keep the momentum going! One love to GORE, WTD. 
I’m hella happy btw I just think this song is hard and wanted to drop it.

BLEED OUT Ft. GORE DABI

The second single from my second mixtape.
HYPERMARTZ 15.3.24

2. Glitch In The Matrix

Lyrics:

Shotgun to my chin,
blow my face off,
I'm done with this shit,
don't wanna wake up
no break from this sickness
in my head, God, I'm fucked
I can't breathe,
I can't...
Shotgun to my chin,
blow my face off,
I'm done with this shit,
don't wanna wake up
no break from this sickness
in my head, God, I'm fucked
I can't breathe,
I can't...

no hope for me now
life lost, never found
Bullshit, spit it out
I just wanna hear you out
Talk too loud
Imma punch him in his mouth
Actin phony? Not allowed
Burnin bridges on the foul
When knives are bloody bitch
I hold the handle
Thinkin it's funny till
You see a man choke
In his own blood 'n shit
And See I'm the man, hoe
I don't fuck with pussys,
Only pussy on my dick, oh
Gold on ya rims, I don't care tho
Came from the bottom in the ghetto
Diamonds ain't shit to my blade
I got Chains on my knuckles
If you get up in my face
Low I fall
alone in the cold
No phone, no soul
To be found, how bold
I fold up, sick
from this world 
I might end it all with a
end it all with a...

Shotgun to my chin,
blow my face off,
I'm done with this shit,
don't wanna wake up
no break from this sickness
in my head, God, I'm fucked
I can't breathe,
I can't...
Shotgun to my chin,
blow my face off,
I'm done with this shit,
don't wanna wake up
no break from this sickness
in my head, God, I'm fucked
I can't breathe,
I can't...

To Live In Denial Or To Live In Conflict

To Live In Denial Or To Live In Conflict (Prod. Nasti)

GoodSleeper:

Burden; should've bit
My tongue. Poison in the spit
That I spray out when I'm speakin,
Gargle death, I take a sip.
I be runnin em to pits,
Drop em dead to get a lift;
No more broken little bitch
Behind my back that's talkin shit.

Oh no, how dehumanising,
The way I get in your psyche.
Lookin like he sorta might be
Crumblin to pieces; I believe
He nutty in the mind because
Of my deep hold on thy insight,
Behind me I lead mighty fighting 
Demons lighting highly

Flammable liquids 
on the path of my past.  
No followers
Thinkin they can pass, we the last
Nightmare. No sleep till I crash.
Who cares if we lash out
On the ones who pass out?

Hollow rounds for mass clout;
Shootin, massacre, Massacre.
Fuckin dirt turnt to mud,
body served on the curb!
No choke hold, pin em,
Make em hurt, till it work!
Stone cold bloody body
Returned to the earth!


EXTINCT:

Choke hold round my throat
Barely staying afloat
They've got tight grip
That I'm smoking heavy to cope
The way that I be usin'
Lead confusion into my head
Subliminal messaging undressing me
To thinking I'm dead

They re-wired my brain 
Into thinking I'm subhuman
Think I found the truth out 
Tried to convince me I'm deluding
Never been so much clearer on a thought
This ain't delusion 
Maybe I'm just too geeked out 
And I don't know what I'm doing

Don't you take my mind away
Got these motherfuckers naggin 
Every single day
Screamin' at me inside my head 
And I don't know what to say
You think imma give in
No no, no way!

I wont, reciprocate
I'm full of hate 
Right now
I can't relate
Touche my fate
Stone cold in the river 
Face down, I'm a sinner
With a fucked up liver
Ain't no way that I'm a winner bitch

Throne Ov Rot

Throne Ov Rot ft. EXTINCT (Prod. NXM1NAL)

Lyrics:

Tears fall before you feel free 
To leave me, so deceiving
Confessions of my innocents
Two cents to see your selfishness
Crowned for the silence
Mask behind the violence
Compliance in the hand of defiance
Behind this is every lie from myself
...

You made my heart sink
In a pool of rot you seek
That's love lost in the brink
I'm losing my tears in a blink, yeah, yeah 
Ey
Losing my tears in a blink, yeah, yeah 
Ey
Losing my tears in a blink, yeah, yeah 
Ey
Losing my tears in a blink, yeah, yeah 
Ey
Losing my tears in a blink, ey
...

I can't seem to give you the tears you wanted 
the tears you wanted , ey
Sometimes I can't tell if I'm alone or haunted
alone or haunted, ey
I feel the loveless breath in the air
Sometimes I just don't think life's fair
I'm drowning in your bloody hair
Your not sorry for all that I care
...

That's love lost in the brink
I'm losing my tears in a blink, yeah, yeah 
Ey
Losing my tears in a blink, yeah, yeah 
Ey
Losing my tears in a blink, yeah, yeah 
Ey
Losing my tears in a blink, yeah, yeah 
Ey
Losing my tears in a blink, ey
...

attic vibes

attic vibes (prod. GORE DABI)

Lyrics:

Shadow stained walls
Echoed voices sound
I call out for help
But no one's there to help me back up when I fall
Made an enemy of all 
those I'd ever hoped for
Don't lift me from where I crawl
I belong in my hole
Help me
I cannot bare my own company
This pathetic waste cannot be me forever
With any luck I'll fuckin cut short my endeavor 
I don't wanna live like this
But I don't wanna die
There is no escape 
So why do I try?
Intoxicated on romanticizing empty life
Self destruction is my needle that I crave at night
that I crave at night
My addiction is depression, makes me feel alive
Why the second I get better do I wanna die?
Mind of paradoxes, optionless, i cannot hide
This prison I reside, I've locked myself in from the inside


Write another letter to myself and then I
Pretend to feel better while I'm tryna not kill myself
What a vicious cycle
Where I just recycle 
Coping mechanisms and call myself the victim
Vital details I left out
To justify my actions 
To justify recovery I don't deserve to happen
How could I?
When I know my soul is blackened
Or is it just imposter syndrome
How would I know?
My back bends backwards avoiding people
To save them all the misery of knowing me
Heh, clearly I don't know me
If I'm out here advertising that I'm lonely
How could i be lonely when I got friends saying I'm not alone
So I'm not alone am I?
So, show me home
Show me where I can recover
Show me where my water stone
I know I may never find closure for the trauma I been through
That's why I cope with all this falter
By letting it run over me
Stampede on my dome piece
Givin' in is how I'm coping
And still I wonder how I always end up broken
Maybe I should focus more on finding where the rope is
I'm hopeless

Teratoma (Prod. numb)

produced by
(@ry63r)
found this beat on my computer, whipped up a freestyle and chopped the final up all in a few hours before bed. enjoy lol

can you be the one to hold me tho

attic vibes (prod. GORE DABI)

GORE DABI

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