im just a loser i want you to hate me (spiderweb)

i know she doesnt love me, i feel so fucking ugly
i tried my very best like who tf are u to judge me,
i cannot fucking rest cuz everyday she fucking ducks me,
ik she talks to other guys and that shit fucking bugs me,
i see those tears all in ur eyes when u thought u could trust me,
and now ur telling all these lies like u aint fuckin want me,

i feel so fucking ugly (serena)

watch my brains fall out my head
as my heart falls for you girl
unable to love you now
but we still give it a whirl
when i see your face in tears
my stomach knots like i should hurl
but my i cant see myself being 
with any other fucking girl
hurts me so damn bad 
when i see you passing right by me
and i hope every day
 that the love i had for you will find me
my heart hurts so damn bad i 
think that i actually might be dieng
everyday try something new
but we're still stuck here trying
wake up hazy in my bed
with your voice stuck in my head
everyday i try my best
but i still cant get ahead

ahead

she asked me why did i come back
cus nothing ever stays the same
that was a long ass 5 whole months
suppressing thoughts inside my brain
whenever i had dreams about you
id show up to school late
if im going to be honest im surprised
that im alive at this rate
cus everybody around me
would never get it
had to deal by myself like always
no one understands
had my hands round the toilet
cus i regret it
gripping on the pill bottle
couldve been holding your hand
so whyd you have to fuck it up so fast
cus god knows
i only wanted us to last
and i swear that the only thing you do
is talk or yell
it hurts me so fucking bad
like all the time
im not afraid to admit that
and when i have to make my final choice
i will let you in my life
to break my heart again

ur not my only reason but ur definitely one of them

i cant tell the truth 
there's no one else around me 
so you break down around me
ill take control 
you need it more
just take it slow 
you need it more

*cant tell the truth*
*there's no one else around me* 
*so you break down around me*
*ill take control*

if it kills you 
then why'd you break it apart
cuz you need to hold on to the one that you've always loved

i cant tell the truth 
there's no one else around me 
so you break down around me
ill take control 
you need it more
just take it slow 
you need it more

im just a loser i want you to hate me (spiderweb)

gothgeekbar