Ma fille quand elle avait 20 ans a passé 2 mois en hôpital psychiatrique . Les paroles de la chanson sont le reflet de ce dont elle se souvient et notre ressenti quand on allait la voir . Philippe a su retranscrire en musique toutes les étapes psychologiques par lesquelles elle et nous , ses parents sommes passés. Merci à Thibault pour les passages en anglais qui apportent une intensité incroyable au titre .  
My 20-year-old daughter spent 2 months in a psychiatric hospital. The song's lyrics reflect what she remembers and how we felt when we went to see her. Philippe was able to transcribe into music all the psychological stages she and we, her parents, went through. Thanks to Thibault for the English passages, which bring an incredible intensity to the track.  
Compositeur : Philippe SEGUINARD  Auteur mélodiste : Guillaume DULER   Chant et arrangements couplets anglais : Thibault DERACHE



Lyrics:
I live without really existing
I swim in a sea of darkness
My heart is a mass of scars
I wrap my body in dark veils

Je me sens silence dans ce malaise hanté
Je vis sans présent je n'ai plus d'avant d'après
Ces voix qui me tourmentent
Et me cueillent les fleurs d'un mal
Me poussent dans de lentes
Rondes abyssales

Je suis un fantôme dans un corps naufragé
J'accroche ma raison aux crochets de mes vivants
Les yeux ouverts d'angoisses
Sur l'amour de mes parents
Leur peine qui m'enlace
Me transperce violemment

Mes nuits à errer en habit de papier
Dans des couloirs morts d'ennui à perpétuité
J'ai peur dans ce grand vide
Qui me brûle comme un démon
Comme un trop long suicide
Dépression sans horizon

Des silhouettes blanches ombres en apesanteur
Dansent autour de moi interrogent mes douleurs
Mes mots restent en prison
Dans l'enfer de mes pensées
Mon esprit tourne en rond
Sur une route damnée

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

My mind is going on board on my drunkness ship
I only wanna take an easy and quiet trip
I wanna stay the course to avoid all the storms
On the ocean of my hours I want to stay in the norms

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

I live without really existing
I swim in a sea of darkness
My heart is a mass of scars
I wrap my body in dark veils

I feel silence in this haunted malaise
I live without present I have no before or after
These voices that torment me
And pick the flowers of an evil
Push me into slow
Abyssal rounds

I'm a ghost in a shipwrecked body
I hang my reason on the hooks of my living
Eyes open with anguish
On the love of my parents
Their grief embracing me
pierces me violently

My nights wandering in paper clothes
In dead corridors of perpetual boredom
I'm afraid in this great emptiness
That burns me like a demon
Like too long a suicide
Horizonless depression

White silhouettes weightless shadows
Dance around me, question my pain
My words remain in prison
In the hell of my thoughts
My mind spins in circles
On a damned road

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

My mind is going on board on my drunkness ship
I only wanna take an easy and quiet trip
I wanna stay the course to avoid all the storms
On the ocean of my hours I want to stay in the norms

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

© Philippe SEGUINARD / Guillaume DULER Juillet 2023
Thibault DERACHE:
https://soundcloud.com/user-313022683?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

M.E..N...T....A.....L     (  Feat Thibault DERACHE ) TRANSLATED

Youtube video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMMtlkDesIg
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MY NAME IS STEVE
I HAVEN’T HAD A FRIIEND IN 40 YEARS
WELCOME, STEVE!

NOT THE WAY THAT IT APPEARS
BUT THE SUM OF ALL MY FEARS
REDUCES ME TO TEARS

WELCOME TO THE GROUP, STEVE!

I MAY SEEM KIND OF WIERD
THAT’S WHY YOU DISAPPEARED
THAT’S WHY I’M ALL ALONE IN THIS WORLD

AS A CHILD I LOST MY WAY
IT’S STILL WITH ME TO THIS DAY
I GUESS IT MUST BE TRUE WHAT PEOPLE SAY
THAT SOME OF US ARE MEANT TO PAY

MY NAME IS STEVE
I HAVEN’T HAD A FRIEND IN 40 YEARS
WELCOME TO THE GROUP, STEVE

YOU AVOID ME, I AVOID YOU
BOTH OF US FEEL ILL AT EASE
REINFORCING THE DISCOMFORT
I GROW WEAKER AT THE KNEES
BOTH OF US FEEL ILL AT EASE

PLAYING BACK THOSE AWKWARD MOMENTS
NO ESCAPING, NEVER FREE
ON MY MIND AND ON REWIND 
EVERY SCENE, INDIGNITY

MY NAME IS STEVE
I HAVEN’T HAD A FRIEND IN 40 YEARS
WELCOME TO THE GROUP, STEVE!

WHAT YOU’RE SEEING ISN’T SMUGNESS
WHAT YOU SEE, IN FACT, IS SHAME
ORCHESTRATE MY OWN DURESS
ULTIMATELY, I’M TO BLAME

ROUND AND ROUND IT GOES:

YOU AVOID ME, I AVOID YOU
BOTH OF US FEEL ILL AT EASE
REINFORCING THE DISCOMFORT
I GROW WEAKER AT THE KNEES
AND THEN I FREEZE

MY NAME IS STEVE
I HAVEN’T HAD A FRIEND IN 40 YEARS
WELCOME TO THE GROUP, STEVE!

My Name Is Steve, I Haven't Had A Friend In 40 Years (WELCOME TO NO FRIENDS ANONYMOUS)

Rien

Der Hunne Vol2

Vidéo : https://youtu.be/dR5vMkboQXQ

Rempli     (Translated after the French text )

Texte      : Sanzen
Chant     : Muette
Musique : Alain Illos

Poitrine contre poitrine,
ma chair contre ta chair,
je me souviens d'un silence rempli de ton sourire.
Au seuil de l'horizon .... vivent mes songes
et nos premiers regards. et nos premiers regards.
Je n'avais étreint aucun corps,
ni laissé aucune trace dans le sable des plages.
Il n'y avait aucun enjeu. Aucune honte et
le vent nous portait.
le vent nous portait.
Là bas vit ma jeunesse remplie de ton sourire.
Là bas le temps ne passe pas. .. ne passe pas.
Je n'avais étreint aucun corps,
ni laissé aucune trace dans le sable des plages.
Au seuil de l'horizon, vivent mes rêves.
Et le temps infini.
Et le temps infini

Filled

Chest against chest,
my flesh against your flesh,
I remember a silence filled with your smile.
On the threshold of the horizon .... live my dreams
and our first glances. and our first glances.
I hadn't embraced any body,
nor left any trace in the sand of the beaches.
There was nothing at stake. No shame and
the wind carried us.
the wind carried us.
There lives my youth filled with your smile.
There time does not pass. .. does not pass.
I had embraced no body,
nor left any trace in the sand of the beaches.
On the threshold of the horizon, live my dreams.
And infinite time.
And infinite time

Rempli avec Muette

L'homme éteint

If there was only one thing we could do? Electronic music with guitar and vocals. Art work : some of my photography

One Thing

      This is a brand new video that's dropping on YouTube later tonight!.  I finished it last week and couldn't wait to see what you guys think about it, so please watch the video after listening because without the video the sound effects make no sense and neither does the song! It's an instrumental piece and was part of the song "She Rescues Me" that I had to edit out of the song due to it being too long, so here are the sections that I edited out. 

VIDEO - https://youtu.be/70LHA6YNi6Q

     It's one of my space adventures videos and I'll leave it up to the viewer to make sense of it!😂 It's pretty long at over 6 minutes but stay with it because it's pretty cool! I threw a ton of special effects at it, both video and audio, and most of it is in 4K, which absorbed lots of memory and it was very time-consuming to put together! Crank it up and watch it on a big screen TV for a mind-blowing experience. I love astronomy and Sci-Fi films, so periodically I'll post one of my Space Videos along my songs, so climb aboard and let's trip the cosmos together! Thanks for listening & watching and I hope you enjoy it and remember this before lift off: "Turn off your mind, Relax, and Float downstream...." 🙏😎🙃🖖

"SHE RESCUES ME AGAIN" (Video - https://youtu.be/70LHA6YNi6Q)

Neli CoKo - After The Storm

Cinematic and Orchestral Music
Picture by MarWin55
Franck C Production
Music by Franck Charles
ASCAP
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tB4QzfTFg8A

Expedition

Rumors of War

In the WRONG PLACE at THE WRONG TIME with THE WRONG MINDSET, apparently making THE #WRONG #MUSIC, but it feels #RIGHT to ME!

Highly unlikely more than one of my tunes will ever be heard by more than a handful of listeners, so just for the record here is an incomplete list of artists my music has been compared to by other musicians, depending on which tunes they heard, StevenVellou (Gothic Funk)

RESIDENTS, PHILIP GLASS, DAVID BYRNE, FRANK ZAPPA, THE BEATLES, BAUHAUS, SISTERS OF MERCY, DAVID BOWIE, LOU REED, CAPTAIN BEEFHEART, PARLIAMENT, SYD BARRETT, PINK FLOYD, PSYCHIC TV, NEU, MOMUS, MINISTRY, CHARLES IVES, BEACH BOYS, KINKS, THE FALL, JOY DIVISION, DEPECHE MODE, GARY NUMAN, LEONARD COHEN, STONE ROSES, GIORGIO MORODER, GEORGE CLINTON, THE CURE, DALIS CAR, JOHN ASTLEY, KILLING JOKE, ALIEN SEX FIEND, ROBERT FRIPP, DEVO, B52’s, IAN CURTIS, FAD GADGET, TALKING HEADS, GORILLAZ, MIKE PATTON, JON ZORN, LES CLAYPOOL, STEVEN REICH, TOM WAITS, THE EX, TOM CORA, THE CAKE, NAPOLEON XIV, KEVIN AYERS, ROXY MUSIC, FRANK TOVEY, RUPERT HINES, ROBYN HITCHCOCK, DEVIN TOWNSEND PROJECT, SPARKS, BILL NELSON, JOHN CALE, TRIO, JULIAN COPE, HEAVEN 17, LLOYD COLE, TUBEWAY ARMY, FRONT 242, NITZER EBB, COCKNEY REBEL, SHRIEKBACK, VICTOR SNOW, GORDON LIGHTFOOT, THE THE, BABYBIRD, JOHN LENNON, ULTRAVOX, DAN DEACON, BACH, SQUEEZE, ANDREW ELDRITCH, IGGY POP, MIDNIGHT OIL, BILLY CHILDISH, BUTTHOLE SURFERS, VELVET UNDERGROUND, LOVE AND ROCKETS, ART OF NOISE, LOOK PEOPLE, CABARET VOLTAIRE, PRODIGY, et al.
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Don't take sides and I'll respect you for it; take sides and I'll treat you with the same contempt I treat anyone with a mob mentality, because mob mentality invariantly betrays an underlying intolerant right-wing mentality!
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#SUPPORT gathers #MOMENTUM when #RECIPROCATED!
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My tunes are ten times better than you might imagine!
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A lack of listens proves nothing, other than the fact that no one is finding your tunes; it does not prove, as some believe, that your tunes must be crap, so don’t ever take such a ridiculous notion on board—on an internet FLOODED with music no listens rarely has anything to do with the quality of your music, your creative talent, is almost always down to the fact that the right audience can’t find your music, because finding it is now as difficult as finding a needle in a haystack!
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SOMETHING FOR EVERYONE, EVERYTHING FOR SOMEONE!
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For diversity and consistency, I am not hesitant in saying my Soundcloud pages house the most inventive creations on here. There are others making fabulous tunes, but no one is more prolific while maintaining a high standard of pole to pole invention, and that applies to the lyrics too. I won't escape obscurity and oblivion, but that proves nothing, the internet is way, way, WAY overcrowded with unsigned music, way too much mediocre stuff, which obscure anything exceptional out there; the wood hidden away behind lots and lots and LOTS of trees, and no one has the time to look for needles in haystacks, to find a diamond in the rough, it's just way too big a task, not humanely possible!

INVENTIVE, AUTHENTIC, DIVERSE MUSIC, INVENTIVE, AUTHENTIC, IMAGINATIVE LYRICS, but those are the last things the vast majority of listeners are looking for these days!
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Me, I'm awestruck by musicians who can't be pigeonholed, who don't conform to any borders, who don't think about which direction each new creation will take, they just go wherever that creativity takes them; pure, on the fly, innovation, imperfect but 100% authentic, as far a way from manufactured, recipe book, regurgitation, as it is possible to get, totally unforced, inspirational and way, way, WAY outside the box! There ought to be a place for such creativity, there was at one time, but a mercenary music industry put an end to that, leaving us with a situation where those who deserve the most adoration for the talents receive the least!
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Will this ever change, will a yearning for TRUE underground, creativity unique to the individual, ever return, or has the spoon-feeding gone to far this time, is its grip so vicelike nothing can break it!
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I make #INVISIBLE music, perhaps it feels that way to you too!
#Overlooked, #Underrated, Dismissed Without A Listen!
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When Soundclouders follow me or click like without leaving feedback, what is it they are hoping for? That I come listen to their tunes and heap praise on them, what? I mean really, what is the point of following someone, what is the point of liking one of their tunes, if you don't actual think they are deserving of feedback, if you don't think the tunes are as good as what you do???

EXPLODING THE MYTH THAT UNSIGNED IS UNSIGNED BECAUSE IT’S INFERIOR TO SIGNED MUSIC!

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UNTIL this MYTH is blown out of the water we don’t have a cat in hells chance of breaking through. #TheMyth  is the BIGGEST obstacle that stands in our way, it is the FIRST hurdle we must get over, it is the message that should be going #VIRAL, it’s down to each & every one of you to make that happen!
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#ExplodeTheMyth
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Listening to just one of my tunes tells you nothing about my creative approach, listening to ten of my tunes will still tell you very little, listen to a hundred of my tunes and the penny will start to drop, but it's only after hearing 500+ of my creations and collaborations that your eyes will widen in amazement! 
However, if you don't have unlimited eclectic taste none of that applies, and the reality is, who, in this world, is going to listen to every tune I've created, no one--if even one tune is heard from beginning to end it's a minor miracle, because sadly, there is a belief that unsigned means inferior, but I've heard enough tunes by the rest of you guys to know that's a myth, that's bullshit, we create some of the most inventive, authentic, imaginative tunes out there!
Give me unsigned, independent and underground music over signed, safe, predictable, recipe book, music any day of the week!
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I MAKE TUNES NO ONE WILL EVER LISTEN TO!
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Some musicians & music fans don’t want to hear music from the past because they would have to acknowledge IT’S ALL BEEN DONE BEFORE!
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Finally come to terms with the fact that I'm PLAYING TO AN AUDIENCE OF ONE, and even I have to FORCE myself to listen!!!
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My music and lyrics are all about different, but if no one listens no one will EVER know! 
#StevenVellou

I CREATE TUNES ON THE FLY; NO FORMULA, NO PLAN, NO DIRECTION; THEY JUST HAPPEN--I'M IGNORANT OF THE RULES INVOLVED IN THE MUSIC MAKING PROCESS, SO I'M NOT BOXED IN BY THEM, WHICH IS WHY THEY ARE SO VARIED AND UNPREDICTABLE!
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Meaningful yet tongue-in-cheek tunes that can’t be #PIGEONHOLED!
Great production ISN'T my forte, accomplished musicianship ISN'T my forte but #UndergroundInvention, #InfiniteDimensions & LYRICS are!
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Now I don't personally believe I'm in the same league as #Bowie, other than my lyrics, more often than not, making more sense, but I do think I share his ability to adapt to different genres, and his endless, diverse, creativity, just not quite on the same level.
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I'm not proficient/accomplished on instruments, & I have other musical limitations, but most genres come natural to me, and I much prefer having that unforced ability to being highly accomplished on instruments, highly polished on production, or having the perfect voice!
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If I didn't feel I had my own approach, if my music was easy to pigeonhole, I would have quit music a long time ago!
Never been about fame & fortune, just about pushing the boundaries without actually intending to push the boundaries; creativity that's second nature not formula! 
Yes, I want to reach an audience but making money from my music means nothing to me!
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NOT saying I’m THE MOST #talented musician on music promotion sites but I will say I’m one of the most #UNDERRATED! Even so, I would much rather be underrated than overrated!
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My Name Is Steve, I Haven't Had A Friend In 40 Years (WELCOME TO NO FRIENDS ANONYMOUS)

GOTHIC FUNK