throw away song ft gavn (p siem spark)

@xilohh
if i wrote you a letter tell me would you even read it
put a barrel to my head due to losing all my meaning
i was just a trophy but im too niave to see it
oh "you dont even care" but is it too late cuz i do
oh. you cant save me now, theres no point in even trying
don't know where my body was found
but my heart is where you need it
you're so apologetic but it was never your fault
wish i could go back just to see through it all
all my friends they said you were crazy
going through it all and im not even 18
and i dont care if you even hate me
didnt take you long to go and replace me

no text cuz you act like its all my fault
you're never there then you ask what all went wrong
im a mess, i knew itd hurt all along
you regret that im never coming back now
you showed up, but never cared tho
fake lover, you're such a weirdo 
say "call her" she's never here tho
not a hero, still stuck at zero

@mmnxth
cannot trust, cannot fear
it's just a matter of time until i disappear
u fuck this up and now regret it, dear
u made me fucking waste the entire year
obssessed, please act like you dont know me
so stressed cause u act like it's all my fault
impressed with your effort to get back
keep trying, just know i know it all

@xilohh
i lost you once, i can do it again
but you messed it up, and told all your friends
i've had enough, its on my wrist
lights out to the bain of my existence
no text cuz you act like its all my fault
you're never there then you ask what all went wrong
im a mess, i knew itd hurt all along
you regret that im never coming back now
you showed up, but never cared tho
fake lover, you're such a weirdo 
say "call her" she's never here tho
not a hero, still stuck at zero
its on my friends
talk about the details put them on my wrist
i know you dont mean well trying to "make amends"
your toxicness, it dont blend
you're only a regret now

my fault w/ mxnth

EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE

all produced, mixed, and mastered by me

lyrics

i love rotting away
lose myself, cause what's all to gain ? ugh
(no, no, no)
im still holdin on (for you)

it's not like you'll ever find out
if i die, if i kill myself
ignorance puts me through hell
i wish you knew ive built up so much guilt


i don't wanna die, i just wanna disappear
whyd you have to lie ?
ill wait for you for so many years
just sitting here

the urge to disappear

all produced, mixed, and mastered by me

lyrics

toxic love, i ran out of luck
im on the other side, and im so done
i don't know what you want
ill stare into the sun

i ain't down
talked enough
for your attention
no one around
got lost somehow

no i can't tell
when you put me through hell
i know you're bad for my health
i don't want no one else

still obsessed with you
howd i fuck this shit up ?
got so attached
didn't think of this outcome

i was blind
i still am but i won't say nothin
cause im scared
lose you again
i feel safe runnin

i don't wanna know
how you are
or what you're doing
im a shooting star
only for your viewing

man i gotta go
you don't know, you dont know
all for show, you're all for show
you don't know


xiloh

Indecisiveness
not right for this
i wish i take back every kiss
check my phone to see your name
i wanna feel your skin one more time

im a mix of addiction
trying to get you out of my head due to obsession

toxic, never right
argue up like every night
vicariousness up in your eye
factors at the points that you lied

leaving me up in doubt
wish id shut you out

into the sun (ft. xiloh)

all produced, mixed, and mastered by me

lyrics

nothin at all
i don't wanna
talk bout it now
nothin but
lettin you down
on the floor
beggin for help
but get
nothin at all
i don't wanna
talk bout it now
nothin but
lettin you down
on the floor
beggin for help
but get


nothin
smokin to stop it, im buzzin
i wanna feel somethi- (shut up)
don't know what im becomin
im becomin
nothin
smokin to stop it, im buzzin
i wanna feel somethi- (shut up)
don't know what im becomin
im becomin


nothin is real
my body shut down
i can't feel
you dont give a fuck now
nothin is real
my body shut down
i can't feel
you dont give a fuck now

oh, it's nothing

all produced, mixed, and mastered by me

lyrics

ill still run it back
i wish that i had never messed up
ended up in last
i dont think ill ever catch up
soul still tied
cant get back on track im far gone
i don't wanna die
still so confused on what i want

why am i this way
too anxious to speak
ruins my day
too tired to eat
ill be okay
breakin my teeth
for shit i won't say
ill never be me


Grolth

locked in the closet and now i'm just seething
what the fuck do you mean it's so easy ?
you've never lived if you can't hear me
i'm calling you out bitch yeah you're failing !

but you knew it all along right ?
every single crevice of my mind
psychological torture at night
why you actin' so surprised
and you can reword it however you want
i can see right through your facade
light bursting in, I see it, what I want
calm & quiet I’ll move when you’re gone

i'll never be me (ft. Grolth)

all produced, mixed, and mastered by me

lyrics

hav0c

i can't be myself
without you fuckin hating me
my brain fucking melts
cause all the shit im taking
this isn't me, no this isn't me
i don't wanna be something you can see
kill myself, im free

me (gavn)

i lose my mind
it's stuck inside
a parasite
eats me alive
i wanna die, i wanna die
brain gon melt
i don't need your help

hav0c

i can't be myself
without you fuckin hating me
my brain fucking melts
cause all the shit im taking
this isn't me, no this isn't me
i don't wanna be something you can see
kill myself, im free



lurkerr

i might have to fucking kill myself you little shit
bitch fuck i dont even know you
who the fuck are you people
im going insane
just shut the fuck up
i keep hearing voices in my head ive had enough yuh

play stupid games
win stupid prizes little bitch
fuck with me you aint surving little bitch
i might dig you a grave 3 feet deep
so you can still feel my feed


when i dance on your grave cause i dont give a fuck
i might use a hunntsman for a tummy tuck okay okay
i aint gonna miss when i hit you up (whatever you say)
i dont cap bitch
i still got opps but im a different gonna rat bitch (Yuh)

i just stepped up on a crack bitch
i could give give a fuck if it breaks my mommas back bitch
classic savage i slash them like babbish
i put you in my dungeon then i cut you like a radish
i saw your parent crying omg that is the saddest
but i dont give a fuck cause bitch i am a savage

this isn't me, no this isn't me
i don't wanna be something you can see
kill myself, im free

hav0c

this isn't me, no this isn't me
i don't wanna be something you can see
kill myself, im -

THIS ISN'T ME (ft. hav0c x Lurkerr)

all produced, mixed, and mastered by me & hav0c

what's going on ? you're scaring me (interlude)

all produced, mixed, and mastered by me

lyrics

why can't i stop ?
it goes on and on
feel like im a fraud
it goes on and on
why won't it stop ?

it goes on and on
feel like im a fraud
it goes on and on
why can't I stop ?


restless depression
but i have an obsession with it
don't question it-it
feels like a connection
and i know it's not the best
but i will never rest

if im not fucked in the head
i forgot every word you said
layin face down in my bed
im sorry im a bitch but i said it with my chest
i don't deserve this


mxnth

i need go down to rest, fuck, never been so stressed, why ur so obsessed?
stop calling dont fucking around, theres nothing new, here, please leave my life i cant tell u scared

sometimes i wish i could change, beggin this again, but it ain't worth all this pain, so fuck u instead

on and on (ft. mxnth)

all produced, mixed, and mastered by me

lyrics

to you im so irrelevant
whyd i have to let him in
took too many sedatives
feeling every resonance

you're never replying
right person, wrong timing
i wouldn't mind dying

why do i fuckin miss it
not you, just the feelin
i say that but im lying
i gave up on trying

i was set in stone about us
now that shit cuts to the bone
i was the one that chose to get punched
im meant to get left alone

baby you said wait 2 years
im already half way
but you met someone new here
it's like you forgot my name
when i told you i would wait
don't know why i took the bait
ain't got nothin on my plate
except the hope of one day


none of you are real
don't feel like someone
ive had enough of
all this shit, all this shit
im numb

are any of you people even real ?

@1vain
17




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on and on (ft. mxnth)

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