secrets

vox andrew + me
prod by carrophobia + me
cover art by andrew

no anxiety w/ Andrew Snakez

misalign

(2/4)

prod me
piano by my friend madi
feat ethab

supernova, superceding w/ ethab

reprod + cover of harmtails - parking lot
synth line midi by finnn
everything else by me

prkinglot

love from the lemonhead in question <3

timestamps:
0:00 can't give myself a chance
2:20 lemonhead
4:43 brighter than ever before
7:11 it's so hard to tell you my feelings about it

prelude complete :)

lemonhead (full ep)

(3/4)

prod me
feat vocals from ethab & zelda

lyrics:

I never wanted to admit it to you
I was too scared just to tell you the truth

I can’t keep living like this
I swear I tried my best
But~
You can’t be satisfied no matter what I do

Can’t really explain it
It’s just something innate
I know you think that it’s a vice
But I can’t see my life any other way

Burnt out supernovas in your eyes (x4)

no matter what i do (x idk how many times)

no matter what i do

(4/4)

lyrics:

I just want you here 
Is that too much to ask?
I'm tired of the constant peer pressure
I'm tired of what you lack

Everybody wants to know what I’m up to
But I can’t tell them I’m waiting on nothing
You know that I fucking love you
But I’ve got to draw a line now
I’ve gotta draw a line this…

Once  
This fucking once
(ooh) x2
This fucking once
(ooh) x2
This fucking once (x2)

Nobody tell her a single thing
Cuz she don’t deserve the sink
Why does everyone wanna see?
What’s hiding underneath
Should’ve never had to learn it this way but imma
Imma	
Pick up the scraps
Pull up my bootstraps	
Fuck your rhetoric 
I should’ve left you!

And everybody wants to know what I’m up to
But I can’t tell them I’m waiting on nothing
You know that I fucking love you
But I’ve got to draw a line now

waiting on nothing

still tender

in your crib

the bare minimum

cutscene (bonus)

all i wanted was you (interlude)

dont u remember? (2013)

all my drums
sometimes my mels

dm me 4 leasing + customs regarding both beats & kits !!!!

1 @sinefelt @qlein
2 solo
3 @fibrr
4 solo
5 solo
6 @perfumey
7 solo
8 solo
9 @imabirby
10 @trackmeets
11 solo (@trustt sample tho :>>>)
12 solo (lowk a wip)
13 solo (jane sample...)
14 solo
15 solo
16 @seoulisms @overoveroverover @user-760860454
17 @ixosyd
18 solo
19 @yonklolz + @zzjay did drums but his part isn't in there because its too fucking awesome and @girlsynths alr used this
20 solo
21 @seoulisms
22 solo
23 solo
24 solo
25 solo (thank u isa)

CLIPS w/ friends 1

debuting in life 2day >3<

sample by @sobi_a01
grolth tag by @carrophobia
everything else by me

"it kinda sounds like you're being waterboarded"

lyrics

s-s-s-s- sick to my stomach
am i just paranoid?
can't shake the feeling
need someone to wake me up
it's just a bad day dream
lo- losing track of time...
i hate this feeling
please just rewind

spinning out of my mind, will i stay cutthroat? (wh-what what what?)
say it from the heart, will you stay close? 
no! (it does the body good)
tel- tell me, am i losing my touch? (grolth)
seems like i lost my feel...
(when the tape stops, what will i owe?)
can you teach me to be real?

real x4

can't explain what i'm going through
every single day i'm a mirage 2 myself
i can cite any afternoon
but i can't prove it to my head's show and tell
(x2)

can't explain what i'm going through
every single day i'm a mirage 2 myself
i can cite any afternoon
but i can't prove it to my head's show and tell
(x2)

s-s-s-s- sick to my stomach
am i just paranoid?
can't shake the feeling
need someone to wake me up
it's just a bad day dream
lo- losing track of time...
i hate this feeling
please just rewind

spinning out of my mind, will i stay cutthroat? (wh-what what what?)
say it from the heart, will you stay close? 
no! (oh my goodness...)
tel- tell me, am i losing my touch? (grolth)
seems like i lost my feel...
(when the tape stops, what will i owe?)
can you teach me to be real?

props 2 @jauntsen 4 getting the first comment on the original link

mirage

im just a taurus girlie! [sc exclusive]

prod @zjay
(THEY DONT GIVE A FUCK!!) by @tennstarss
everything else me :>>>>

can't fucking believe what he said to my face
boy talking crazy he get blocked & replaced!
blamed it on the seasons in retrograde
i wouldn't test telling that in your case!

in your case! (case~)
in your ca-
ca- case
in your case....

i can see it in his eyes, a double meaning (a double meaning)
something in disguise that's just fucking bleeding (it's fucking bleeding!)
is that yr heart? (x2)
is that yr heart babeee?
just cause of me? (x2)
all cause of me, yeah!!!!

been feeling better than ever before
everything's sorted and now i can soar! {eagle reference}
i hopped on this shit bc i was just bored...

& i got so fucking bored that, uhm, i didn't end up finishing it past this so here we go again...

can't fucking believe what he said to my face
boy talking crazy he get blocked & replaced
blamed it on the seasons in retrograde
i wouldn't test telling that in your case!

in your (ca-case-case)
in your ca- case~ (THEY DONT GIVE A FUCK!!)
in your ca-
ca- case
in your case....

can't fucking believe what he said to my face
boy talking crazy he get blocked & replaced
blamed it on the seasons in retrograde
i wouldn't test telling that in your case!

in your case..
oh in your case!
in your~ case....

open&Shut @zjay #SCEXCLUSIVE

fostering a new frame

everything by me
made with exclusively the @gr0lth + @zzjay kit

can't feel my face
blood peels away
watch you eat all of my pores

things out of place
i'm not gonna chase
the friends i can't afford

everything's out of place! (x2)
i'll break down on the floor
of my bedroom soon, in hopes 
a seer will close my door

(x2)

momma wanted me 2 be much more...
hoping my eyes get some chlorophyll
ain't been on attack since the day i was born
made the decision to close the door

... still running with that narrative
i'm not compost for a sedative
singin, 'waste yrself', it's resonant

need 2 stop arguing w/ myself
dirt's been cravin' all my havens
& i'm scared it'll invade 'em
yeah i'm lettin' it, my thoughts erode
before i cope with some words, a plastered throat

can't feel my face
blood peels away
watch you eat all of my pores

things out of place
i'm not gonna chase
the friends i can't afford

everything's out of place! (x2)
i'll break down on the floor
of my bedroom soon, in hopes 
a seer will close my door

(x2)

MR. CHI CITY THANK YOU FOR YOUR INTERNET PRESENCE!!!!!

split {resonance}

looking back at you

everything by me 
the last "obviously" by @qlein

ain't no need for fighting when we got that bitch in common
bronzer gonna multiply while MoCA prove he flunked it
i been on my phone 4 way too long, my head is sunken
overcommitted girlie, i might end up stunte-

(s)he said "i'll wring you out 'til you run clear"
you said "i just want you to be free like me"

moving it closer than ever before
got my shit but i don't wanna go
love my hometown way too damn much
flirting with a ford-

F250, gon end up like whitney
all alone waiting 4 someone to dance with me...

treat me like a throwaway
load me up then purge my mouth
it seems i'm not a good one
ain't no Blaire White for a crowd
i'm much too apathetic
alogia, not just with my speech
eating in a soup kitchen
at least i got my soul to keep...

it's hard to see a single thing
anhedonia won the fight, i think
your fingers feel floristic to the touch
"i hope that's enough, that's all i can become"

overcommitted, overdiminished
"girl, get over yourself"
flutter infinite, are you a sinner?
tryna break all the bounds

of what you can be, 'true' congruency
a birdie told me you're just as good as dust

still blurred farther than the ear can see
my tongue hollows itself to your recipes
force feed me what it is to love
force me to realign my heart

[he's angry at a thought that never existed, nor could it ever, he needs to stop being pissed at everything that crosses his path. it's not indicative of a bigger thing at play, tho i wish it was so he could feel valid, hear less word salads]

(s)he said "i'll wring you out 'til you run clear"
you said "i just want you to be free like me"

(your fingers feel floristic to the touch,
"i hope that's enough, that's all i can become")

overtly

"shit's beautiful but it sounds like a fucking panic attack grolth!!"

mel sample from @attc
everything else by me :>

lost my inhibitions
traveling intermission
drained of motivation with no goddamn contention
wanna be in to win it
your two cents are crippling
laboring 4 a fate where i ring inefficient

oh i’ll fall right through
waiting for nothing cuz i’m stalling my stuffing
hunted by nothing, oh i’ll gain hope by suffering
i’m parasitic- hope lost while hollaring

broke on hope (tell me about it !!!)
(i know i’m) fateless alone
i’ll let go
i’ll bleed out, out of choice

lost my inhibitions
traveling intermission
drained of motivation with no goddamn contention
wanna be in to win it
your two cents are crippling
laboring 4 a fate where i ring inefficient

"ah bravo my boy! bravo!!" 

"guh!? another dimension?!?"

"what's a RYNO?"
"only the most POWERFUL super weapon in the GALAXY...
it stands for.. Rip Ya a New One."

panicAttack (x-x)

"is that really you...?" - all my friends 

prod me + @tillamookbay
feat @qlein
everything else by me!!!

@gr0lth

Boy get out my system & my CM
Not like Breda, way past 3m
On this tour for way too long, brother never thought i’d see it
Nature’s so poly, now. charming so, “it’s hard to know” 
When you’re driving in a death zone

(aye) they ain’t tryna hear it, place that sign 
& it’s gone when it’s heated
dawg i’m doing way too much, girlie never thought’a keeping
(Keep!) keep it close to heart or i’ll replace you like Rotterdam
(Will I) see another day where y’all ain’t just round sauntering?

Comfort break the code, comfort in my soul
Got my freedom stride & I’m ready good to go
(X2)

Mother’s desolate, trying times, can’t think of her home
At the office day’s long, & it’s all I’ve come to hover over
I promise I’m sober, trip to amsterdam planned & it’s a one-way endeavor until-

We decide, people with fire
Fucker gassed me then asked me to lie
Sick of it, cop city took over, complex gone & took my brothers	
Send m- send me the addy imma March for us kids
Why you tryna that apathetic shit
Ain't no fare worth a life of a person 
Why you try and justify it

@qlein

tear my skin i wont bleed, to my soul
say you wanna fuck i dont know 
oh GOD oh FUCK
FLESH SKIN HAIR BONE 
THROW IT UP ITS ALL LUCK
idk idk
praying to a god i dont trust anymore
brain messed man im rotten to my core
primadona cunt
mess me up 
man im finna run
tear me mess me up
gotta go
shit i gotta go

breda (prod me & michimani)

a cover of 'seventeen' by jane remover
made right before & after i turned 18
collaborative effort by me & @odinlite on everything

lyrics: https://genius.com/Jane-remover-seventeen-lyrics 



seventeen (w/ odinlite)

fun y2k-esque song that means a lil bit of nothing

prod @ssoh
everything else me!!!

"girl don't take a stab at it!!!"
i hit it and i miss: tragic ><
take a picture, use your fucking OldView
can't live in the moment, like i ain't love you </3333

she don't talk to me
i'm unimportant
move away, move to amsterdamn
DRUG IT ALL AWAY IM TALKING:
Night clubs, Dancing, Snorting in the bathroom
What's in my nose? 
Girl I wish I could tell youuuuu

(uh) yeah I live for this shit
Ayahausca in my cup while I go for a sniff~~
of that good good, that good blow!!
sometimes i think i just miss home...  :<<<<

let go... x4
let go
roam free
see what the world can offer~~~

"girl don't take a stab at it!!!" 
i hit it and i miss: tragic ><
take a picture, use your fucking OldView
can't live in the moment, like i ain't love you </3333

like i ain't x2
like i ain't love you
(x4)

oneMoreTime @ssoh

shout out everyone here + isa marq og barri michael al qlein & odinlite for being big inspo 4 both my prod&vocals lately :)

--my drums--
1-3 solo
4 bbyazul inci0
5 zayok sample
6 nephminaj
7 attic mel
8 sinefelt over nartoyk sample
9 attic
10 attic bbyazul
11 solo
12 carrophobia
13 yonklolz 
14 ovrdose/whitemask
15-17 tgwog
18-19 solo
19 lesions
20 digipak (wip)
21-22 solo
23 bbyazul
24-29 solo
30 kita
31-34 solo
35 crusey
36 solo
37 sinefelt
38-41 solo
42 irene

--other ppl's drums-- 31:47 to end
43-44 attc
45-47 fibrr
48 fuego.fm attc
49-51 og
52 og luh a
53 og attc
54 og

the end!

CLIPS w/ friends #2

@100signs <---> @johnrusselquotes (*x*)

AGE: 18 (-)>(-) [she/they] 

| facing my fear of falling behind, xoxo |

grolth

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