your mild "depression" tends to stay the same no matter who you talk to. no one seems to get whats underneath and occupying your afflicted brain. please realize that you're the only one that you have right to blame, because nobody knows what you won't tell them, and nobody can help if you won't let them. but you can't trust anyone cause as far as you can tell, yeah, (nobody here gets you and it's getting kinda hard to get yourself) you call them friends with air-quotes said out loud. you find it hard translating feelings into words out of your mouth. in front of them you can't just spit it out, so the feelings fade and you just calculate your crippling self-doubt. you hope they read these words and ask themselves, "is this about me or somebody else?" you held it in too long stick your friend upon a shelf to gather dirty dust instead of telling him you've had enough. there's no need to discuss, no need to allow them to adjust. or let it all build up inside until your rage turns to disgust. violate their trust, make them think they did something wrong. "but you never said you never felt like you belonged"

Glad To Forget You

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