Suicide Song - Dazai Osamu

can i just dazai myself off a building please

I have my Havery Harvington(Except im Eun-mi just a lot kinder) He's perfect loving and silly


I make edits on the account called Apollo but user is S1lly_V.n1lla


"Stuck, I am home, same as always
Hit the snooze, what's the point, one more Monday
I have lost all control and I'm stuck in this hole
I am trapped and I'm waiting for someday
I can't sleep, I'm awake but distracted
Sick of crisis becoming protracted
Feeling stuck in my room, scrolling through endless doom
In one permanent panic reaction
Lost track of time sometime last year
Isolated, confined for the next year
Tryna do what I can with the hand that I'm dealt
But I'm starting to crack under pressure
Call your friends and comment on the weather
Learn to knit, make some bread, what's your pleasure?
Going out of my head, fucking wish I was dead
'Cause at least I would know that it's over
I am staring at the walls, I think I'm gonna go insane
I'm fighting every instinct in my stupid fucking brain
I'm an ordinary guy caught in extraordinary pain
Ask me how I'm holding up and I will gleefully exclaim
"It's still the same"
Still the same, same
Trapped, no more time, no more freedom
No more weeks, no more months, no more seasons
Every day is the same, and I just can't reclaim
Any sense of the rhyme or the reason
Saw a pal post a pic from Ibiza
They're just doing whatever they please-a
Try to swallow my rage, I unfollow his page
Drink a beer, cry it out, order pizza
Trains of thought are all leading to nowhere
No way out, if there was, I would go there
Do I have any friends? Will I still when this ends?
Do they all think that I'm just a let-down?
Every time that I cough, have a meltdown
Wash my hands, check my pulse, wipe my house down
Is this living at all? I can't even recall
Life before I was stuck in this nightmare
I am staring at the walls, I think I'm gonna go insane
I'm fighting every instinct in my stupid fucking brain
I'm an ordinary guy caught in extraordinary pain
Ask me how I'm holding up and I will gleefully exclaim
"It's still the same"
Still the same, same
Happy, I just want to be happy
I cry instead of laughing
I lie awake just waiting
I spend my life just staying
Inside instead of saying
To my friends how I'm sorry
They tell me to be happy, be happy
Maybe my friends all call me lazy
Behind my back, they act like
They all completely know me
Or maybe I'm just crazy
Not everything's about me
I'm in a downward spiral
Go back to sleep and smile
And just hit the snooze
Hit the snooze
Hit the snooze
Hit the snooze
Fuck!"-the living tombstone /Hit the snooze

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Suicide Song - Dazai Osamu

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