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Song Description – “Dancing With Angels”

“Dancing With Angels” is a deeply personal and heartbreaking piece that began as a meditation on one of the most profound moments in Scripture — Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane. After the Last Supper, Christ prayed in anguish on the Mount of Olives, submitting to the Father’s will before Judas’ betrayal. That image of surrender, pain, and isolation was the original inspiration for this track.

But as the song evolved, its meaning transformed from the Biblical to the deeply personal. What began as a reflection on Jesus’ anguish became something far closer to home — the sad and true story of a young man, a troubled soul dear to our hearts, who tragically took his own life in 2005 in an attempt to escape his inner demons. The lyrics became his final farewell, a cry for forgiveness, freedom, and peace. The angels who guide him now are his late father, Ray, and his late grandfather, Len.

Originally recorded for my debut album Time Machine – Reflecting Shattered Dreams in 2014, this 2025 AI reimagining breathes new life into the song’s haunting orchestration and raw emotion. It now stands as both a lament and a tribute.

This version is dedicated to my dear cousin Kris: How can it be that 20 years have already passed since we last spoke? I’m sorry I couldn’t find the right words to heal you (save you). Rest in peace dear cousin Kris. See you on the other side. x

DANCING WITH ANGELS

[Verse 1]
Darkness surrounds me
Feelings inside me
Take me to some place cold

[Verse 2]
I cannot hear you
I cannot feel you
I feel my heart turn to stone

[Chorus]
So I'll fall from the dark sky
As I'm leaving your life tonight
I have never felt that I belong here
I have never felt that I could love here
My time to die
Fading emotion
As you sing your love songs goodbye

[Verse 3]
I breathe the morning
Watching the dawning
Sun, just for one, last time

[Verse 4]
I pray for forgiveness
Understanding my weakness
I've said my last, good byes

[Chorus]
So the clock ticks in my head
As bells ring to my death
Well I cry
I have never felt that I belong here
I have never felt that I could love here
My time to die
I'll feel emotion
When you sing your love song goodbye

[Verse 5]
I never wanted to leave you
But I can't deny my truth
I was dancing with my demons
So I long to have the freedom
Now I'm dancing with the angels

[Instrumental]

[Outro]
I, have not abandoned you
Not forsaken you
Left you on this night
I, will always walk with you
I'll always follow you
I'm your eternal light
I'll be your angel
Walking in shadows of light
I'll be your angel
Watching from heaven tonight
You'll always be my son
I'm still your father, I cry
(Oh, I cry)

Dancing With Angels

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