Bipolar Paradise Pt. I

I think i lost my mind a while ago
cos ive been seeing some ghosts
and id be lying if i told you im fine
but i lie
yeah, these thoughts i would never speak out loud
Ive seen you cry but ive never seen you shout
like a hurricane, these shots dont ricochet
sight blurred im walkin dazed, girl im fucking faded
or maybe wasted, i cant remember how it happened
oh i dont know my limits at all
im sinking down into my thoughts
oh my god

but so what if i drank too much
this aint love, its just a firefight
and even if its not enough
ill say it once i swear i never lied
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
youll ever bring me down
girl you know im drownin
and i keep goin down
but ill swear that im not , im not, im not 

its friendly fire and sunlight 
the aftermath of one too many
words i said, when i should of said nothing at all
at all
i gotta stop overthinking
and missing
what could have been
you were never even really here
and still were are spinning
just liars and cheaters
right back where we started
but it dont get easier 
i am drowning
in liquor and apathy
will be the death of me

but so what if i drank too much
this aint love, its just a firefight
and even if its not enough
ill say it once i swear i never lied
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
but this is the last time
youll ever bring me down

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the morning light shines a lifeline
escape is what i need
i shouldve listened last night girl
this is beyond belief
that we keep falling for the lure of
liquid confidence and lights
and we skydive from walls we built
dying just to feel alive

on the way down screamin
woah
if all we have is time then well be alright
its not much but its better than nothing
were running on fumes but well make it through the night
its not love but its better than dreaming

oh im on fire
theres a burning in my bones
and in my eyes these dreams theyre taking hold
i just need time

building walls to burn them down
canon balls to watch me drown
youve got me lost in here and now
youve got me lost in lost and found
we only hang in evenings
and i dont know what im thinking
but i know that i wont think it
if i keep up with this thinking
all these dreams and all these plans
we shared under the moonlight
theyre dreams and plans that i have
i just dont know if youll fit right
when i leave in the morning
and i kiss you and say goodnight
i kick myself until we kick it
shouldve told you goodbye

coming home so late at night
with clothes covered in sand
i dont know just what im thinking
but im doing what i can
and if all we have is time then we will find

if all we have is time then well be alright
its not much but its better than nothing
were running on fumes but well make it through the night
its not love but its better than dreaming



i think you think too much of me

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you try to kill it but it wont stop bleeding
try to forget it but it wont stop killing you
youre running out of time
yeah you know you cant go back
its too late
to say its too late
you cant take back that you said nothing
how could you do nothing

is this burning right?
am i living bridges
can we build our past right?
learning through future solecism

its played out (ive missed times)
ive moved on (been disconnected) 
get fucked up (i stressed time)
my new draw (forgetting timing)
and its not right (and i need you to talk me down)
youre dead wrong
what are we doing (cos i feel like i need to crash)
lets go home
theres no hope
its all wrong

//cos i been looking at the sky to show me where i went wrong
//been looking at the sky like someone was looking down
//but it keeps raining on me
//and i been looking at the sky since i was like 5 years old
//been looking for the the stars but it seems like theyre all gone
//and the faults not ours alone
//but i think its time to go

its played out
ive moved on
get fucked up
my new draw
and its not right
youre dead wrong
what are we doing?
lets go home
theres no hope
its all wrong

and ive got way too many questions just to try and get it right
cos i cant be the one to shrug it off
and i could be the reason that we stay up all night to be someone
be someone
and oh all weve got is to try to get it right
but no one told you
that this gon hurt
oh no
and now all i really want is to scream

that shit just to try and find a way get my head down
and head out or maybe just the two of us
and head now 
im just trying to find the real now
dream clouds, ghost ground
real friends, dead home town

cos i been looking at the sky to show me where i went wrong
been looking at the sky like someone was looking down
but it keeps raining on me
when i been looking at the sky since i was like 5 years old
been looking for the the stars but it seems like theyre all gone
and it breaks my heart you know
but i think its time to go

//and its not right
//youre dead wrong
//what are we doing
//lets go home
//theres no hope
//its all wrong

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crash
7 of 13

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its been a few years since you been gone
theres been a few tears but that was years and years ago
yeah i grew up to be exactly what you wanted
yeah i been living out the dream that you dreamt up

its been a few years with more to come
its been a few years since ive felt sure of what i want
and i woke up today and found that you were waiting here for me and i thought
woah, old friend its bittersweet

but how could you do this to me?
how could you do this to me?

cos you are not who you think you are
theres no grain on these brown eyes
but they can be green if they really want
and i can bend your words
so they say exactly what hurts the most
but silence is better than fake laughs
or faking were always up
loose grip
the world bends around you
and living through cracked screens
we fold down to what we want
out of love
we talk through lines
were made of smoke
and just in time
we drift away
diffusing light
confusing times
growing up
or cascading down?
cascading down
im hurting now

but change comes slow
if you hate whats in your head
the fuck would you speak your mind
in search of lost time
just 21 so im young and im stupid
only 16 yeah i think you shouldve known

i think you fucked me up

i think
i think you fucked me up
and ive got nothing to say to you

its been a few years and i moved on
couldnt make it disappear oh i tried so hard to be strong
but i grew up today and faced that im not just lonely
dont feel much better but i guess that its a start

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float
10 of 13

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i cant find you
but cant fault you
cos i can get so caught up in my own head
 
you just float through
i cant catch you
and i can understand
but cant face the feeling
that im just another end
 
so when you coming home?
i could be what you need girl if you want me to
you know what they say bruh that love gon come back to you
 
but i can float too
and i dont ask for much from you
and maybe thats too much too soon
so i keep rolling through the blackout
no fire without some fallout
made peace out of the pieces
not i cant take it back now no
but i keep on track now up
and yeah thats all of it
i gave up my youth for this
cos i wanted it and
if you think that i need you then youre out of your head
but i want you
 
so bring me down
and drown me out
ill be waiting here when youre ready
and ill lay me down unfinished now
 
so when you coming home?
i could be what you need girl if you want me to
you know what they say bruh that love gon come back to you
come back to you
come back to you
oh its always you
gon come back to you
come back to you
gon come back to you
come back to you
 
so bring me down
and drown me out
ill be waiting here when youre ready
and ill lay me down
 
unfinished
 
when you coming home?
i could be what you need girl if you want me to
if you let me
you know what they say bruh that love gon come back to you

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love; not wrong (brave)
12 of 13

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and i know ive been closing myself off unsure
i know ive been real hard to reach, harder to love
and i know its tiring this shit is getting old
so please just hold on to me
ive slayed these demons theyre old to me
recurring dreams this is happening
tearing my seams; lucid reality
 
and i just want you to feel love
before it disappears
cos we are more than were not
so never fear to feel
good when every things wrong
and find some beauty there
cos all we ever are is brave
 
and your worlds not ending
 
so i wont go
still living in the middle of a one way war
i cant fight it but im trying to be what you want
you cant sing but youre singing this anyway
and anyway
so please just hold on to me
this is no end were not finished here
finding our way were just changing
becoming more than i think of me
yeah
these fears in my head
and dreams in my bed
they wont get the best of me
cos i chase dreams till the end
these nightmares all bend
silver linings are all i need
 
so please just hold on to me
ive slayed these demons theyre old to me
recurring dreams this is happening
tearing my seams from reality
 
and i just want you to feel love
before it disappears
cos we are more than were not
so never fear to feel
good when everythings wrong
and find some beauty there
cos all we ever are is brave

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forever//over
9 of 13

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i met the devil in the hills last night
i was driving by myself, alone
he said boy what you running from?
i said i dont know

i dont know if it was a better time
but girl we were giants then
endless nights we were infinite
summers end would mean the death of us

but summer past
and we grew up
and all of our paths
they split up
and i havent seen your face or heard your voice in so long
so so long
we had a good run
its over now

lying on the grass talk is so old
living under orion we grew so bold
lying on our days we were outlaws
our loss but
catch me if you can
never wiped out
trying to catch a wave
trying to break out
i guess i didnt know

and now im gone
but it dont hurt me anymore
thats just the way it goes
yeah i shouldve known
but i heard you talking through the walls late last night
there are no ends just grays and half-lives
half time
its alright

that summer past
and we grew up
and all of our plans
they split us up
and i havent seen your face or heard your voice in so long
so so long
we had a good run
its over now

so please dont fade me out
so please dont lose me now

i heard the words that you never said
smoke screen from a cigarette
exhale we can never be whats in our heads
elevation doesnt matter now its straight ahead
sending shivers down my spine, life pirouettes
its cool, were used to losing real friends
only ever feeling it in retrospect
and we were really breathing not silhouettes
maybe in another dream this would never end

cos everything is not alright
and we are falling
but thats just life without some lows there is no highs
and everything will be ok
though we are all hurting
cos time flies fast and you know no pain is forever

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so hold on if you want
i dont want to play this, no
i dont have the patience
and last year was a long one
and these days are re runs
a fine time for a breakdown
find word to tear these walls down and i threw them all away
cos if i start then i probably wont stop cos the world moves on
and the lights stay on
for the next one and the next one
its an ocean
no i dont wanna waste forever
but i can if i want to
theres so much that can change my mind so much of me has changed
how could i ever feel the same?
so dive in
to my home
its all that i have
(coming up for the weekend
running as far as we can)
so drive me
til the shore
spoken like a real life savoir
(we'll get it right for the next time)
nascar were just racing in circles again

bleed out its a cold night
city views killed the starlight
sleeping at the wheel for the first time terrifying when you wake up
few years later its a new time
hard to see how it stands from the inside its tried
if its tiring
you
then
leave

/too young to know better
/two three too close to feel teenaged again /few things on my mind better
/left unsaid

so dive in
to my home
its all that i have
(coming up for the weekend running as far as we can)
so drive me
til the shore
spoken like a real life savoir
(we'll get it right for the next time)
nascar were just
/cassini dont come home
/you dont want to say it /and i dont want to know /but i feel it
/i feel
/and i dont want to be here /but i dont want to go
/cos i need

EDEN

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i couldnt wait to leave that town 
it broke my heart 
i had to go 
i made a choice 
to see this out i lost it all 
you didnt show 
all you wanted was some violent form of love 
immolate me 
all i was looking for was colours blurred 
and words that id forget 
and now im singing

slow down 
keep those feet on the ground 
i hope youll be home soon 
somehow 
well figure out how to cope 
this nothing we cant 
there is nothing we cant do right

you lost your voice you couldnt sing 
you couldnt talk about it 
i stood and watched 
the summer shone rain down our backs 
we didnt care 
it was enough 
all you wanted was some violent form of love 
immolate me 
all i was looking for was colours blurred 
and nights thatd id forget 
and now im singing

slow down 
keep your feet on the ground 
i hope ill be home soon 
somehow 
we figured out how to cope 
this is nothing we cant 
there is nothing we cant do 
right?

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LYRICS:
I could say the Rosary 
And pray to have you close to me
But haven't spoke to God in a while
Don't think I believe in him
'Cause baby, some might call this sin
So take me down to Hell with a smile

Maybe it's pretentious
Convoluted, but the truth is
I've been thinking
It seems the Devil's always winning
From the beginning had me on a string
Wrapped around your finger
On the trigger
Shoot me down 'cause you know you can hold me
Now you stand on a ground most holy
Maybe it's pretentious
Convoluted, but the truth is
I've been thinking
It seems the Devil's always winning

I could say the Rosary 
And pray to have you close to me
But haven't spoke to God in a while
Don't think I believe in him
'Cause baby, some might call this sin
So take me down to Hell with a smile

It's a little bigger than a white lie (yeah)
Telling me you could be the good guy (yeah)
It's a little bigger than a white lie (yeah)
Telling me you could be the good guy
Good guy yeah

Just because the lie's white
Doesn't sit right
Doesn't make it honest 'cause the tone's light
As I see it, here's the situation
Everyone's polite until their pushed to being brazen
Don't pretend that you're higher than Pius 
In the end we all fight to be highest
Tryna stand out my own light
But keep hearing "you sound a bit like Tones And I"

I could say the Rosary 
And pray to have you close to me
But haven't spoke to God in a while
Don't think I believe in him
'Cause baby, some might call this sin
So take me down to Hell with a smile

It's a little bigger than a white lie (yeah)
Telling me you could be the good guy (yeah)
It's a little bigger than a white lie (yeah)
Telling me you could be the good guy
Good guy yeah

I could say the Rosary 
And pray to have you close to me
But haven't spoke to God in a while
Don't think I believe in him
'Cause baby, some might call this sin
So take me down to Hell with a smile

It's a little bigger than a white lie (yeah)
Telling me you could be the good guy (yeah)
It's a little bigger than a white lie (yeah)
Telling me you could be the good guy
Good guy yeah

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