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Heres a song about my struggle with physical abuse uwu 

Prod: @juniordbeats
Mixed: @lofeetunes & @planteee

Bruises (prod. jrd.)

w/ https://soundcloud.com/sadboyprolific
prod. DatBoiDJ
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Numb w/ SadBoyProlific & Keshi(prod. datboidj)

LYRiCS:

Listen girl i really know how you feel,
like no one really can relate
like they don't know that it's real.
You feel there's no way out but girl
you should know that i'm here.
All these guys breakin your heart, 
yea i know that it's clear
you'll never find the right guy?
don't you realize he's near?
Too busy friendzonin the good and chasin the bad.
All these good girls alone, 
they ain't wanna be had.
Stop chasin gangbangers and get what you need,
Get a guy who’s really focused 
he’ll provide for your needs.

Not a guy who values some new 23's,
over you girl don't you see
how important you are to me? 
I'm that guy that you fiend for
girl you're gorgeous 
when guys see you, jaws hit the floor
so when you turned me down 
it didn't break my heart it broke my torso.
Don't you see? I value you.
As a person and as a friend
I'm not another guy just tryna get up in them pants.
But you don't know i exist girl you don't know that i had plans
to take you out to dinner, movies, then walking home Id hold your hand.
I'd want our love to grow and grow
until it's out of fuckin hand.
but nah it seems that you had other fuckin plans..


I just wish that you knew that i existed so bad
and that i loved you for you 
but by the time you hear that

i already went through,
with this plan of bein dead
my corpse is filled with memories
of you inside my head

i’ll leave you with this 
yea baby i will
i’ll leave you knowing 
you were plan 1 inside this world
but 
you made your choice and now you’re so far away 
when you hear the words up in this song 
they echo in your brain
you should know
that you were not plan 2
plan 2 was suicide and
now i’m rotting yea it's true...

Plan 1 (2016) Prod. Serge Crown

Lovers (ORIGINAL VERSION) [Prod. JJ]

so low (prod. masked man)

[LYRiCS]:


The longer she stays up in my mind
The longer i hurt and the sooner i might
The longer she stays up in my head
The longer she stays up in my

The longer she stays up in my mind
The longer i hurt and the sooner i might
The longer she stays up in my head
The longer she stays up in my 

The longer she stays up in my mind
The longer i hurt and the sooner i might
The longer she stays up in my head
The longer she stays up in my 

The longer she stays in my mind
It hurts me so bad 
Do i live?
Do i die?

The longer she stays up in my mind
The longer i hurt and the sooner i might
The longer she stays up in my head
The longer she stays up in my head
The longer she stays up in my head
The longer she stays up in my head


The longer she stays up in my head 
The longer it hurts and the sooner i’m dead
up every night havin dreams
bout a bitch that i don’t even like and it seems
she’ll never get out and she’ll never just leave 
baby don’t cry 
don’t drop to your knees
when i’m up and i made it 
is when you want me
and it always just seems that way 

she livin rent free in my mind
and i’m blind to the shit that she pull and oh i

need everything that i do to myself
all the scars all the hurt to my mental
health
need everything that i do to myself
all the scars all the hurt to my mental
health

yea

the longer she stays up in my mind
the longer i hurt and the sooner i might
the longer she stays up in my head
the longer she stays up in my head

the longer she stays up in my mind
the longer i hurt and the sooner i might
the longer she stays up in my head
the longer she stays up in my head

the longer she stays up in my mind
the longer i hurt and the sooner i might

the longer she stays up in my mind
the longer i hurt and the sooner i might
the longer she stays up in my mind
the longer i hurt and the sooner i might


always down low and i’m always so grim
when you see all the scars yea i know that you grin
you’re an evil lil bitch and you know it (shit)
no wonder i’m so devoted

i’m devoted and lost 
and i can’t seem to find

a way outta this 
see my mental declines 
and it’s all cause i’m so devoted 
and it’s all cause i’m so devoted 
and it’s all cause i’m so devoted 
and it’s all cause i’m so devoted 
and it’s all cause i’m so devoted 
and it’s all cause i’m so devoted

Devoted (prod. sketchmyname) [OUT NOW ON ALL PLATFORMS]

thousand yard stare (prod. svn)

body armor (prod. discent)

why the fuck (prod. fantom)

[LYRiCS]:

Feel the uplift
Feel the downfall
Feel the tugging on your heart strings as ya
You walk past me
As you walk by
i can see what you think 
and that’s why
you look at me
like i’m trashy
you don’t want me
but you ask me
if i’m taken 
if i’m not 
if i want you
girl please jus stop
like

please don’t look my way
please don’t look my way
please don’t look my way
please don’t look my way
please don’t look my way
please don’t look my way
please don’t look my way
please don’t look my

used to have a girl like you
if we had a future
 i know what you’d do

you’d do me so 
bad down low
you would make me feel sad
make me hate myself 
make me buy you nice bags
maybe take you out almost everyday
make me think of all the nice things 
i ain’t gotta say

i ain’t got to say anything about you
i ain’t feeling these things that you make me say
who
the fuck are you to go and try to just hurt me
i envision all of this as she talks 
in a hurry 

she talks in a hurry
it makes me feel bad
my life is so blurry 
it feels way too fast 
she’s flustered and try’s to grab for my hand
i pull away
her looks is so bland
i pull away
and try to walk past her 
she reeks of the devil 
she needs her a pastor
i’m feeling so scared and i’m feeling so sad
i’m wondering why
the fuck she look mad

why the fuck she look mad 
why the fuck does she want me
she didn’t really care till she saw all this money
she saw all my tats 
and she saw all my hoodies 
my group and my clique 
she wants us for the goodies

she wants us for the goodies
but me for the dick
wants to fuck no strings attached 
and that’s sick
see i’m down for that now
but i know girls like you
fuck wit my heart 
say my ex “ain’t like you”

you different 
you different 
that’s all that i’m hearing
the same old direction you’re always steering
right into the wind your compliments go
cause you’re just like my ex i don’t like you
you hoe

same old direction you’re always steerin
right into-

you just like my ex 
i resent you, you bitch
you ain’t gettin my heart 
so don’t reach for that shit
you’re just like my ex i resent you 
you bitch

Downfall [OUT NOW ON ALL PLATFORMS]

LYRiCS:

i kill every heart i touch
and now i don’t wanna just feel it
i been cryin in my bed at night
just starin at the ceiling 
hating everything about me
when i lost you
wasnt feelin 
now i feel all of my pain 
and insecurities 
they killin 
dyin slowly in my head 
see on the surface im just chillin
paint a smile 
fake a laugh
smoke with my friends
don’t wanna heal 
in-stead id let it pile up 
for years and years 
can’t even cry 
should be happy living on my own 
instead i wanna die
don’t wanna work a shitty job 
waste away
spend all my time 
don’t wanna wake up feeling like i do 
there goes
my whole life
spend it doing what i love
getting tats and making hits?
spending money on some games and other dumb shit?
fuck growing up
a 9-5 
makes 
me wanna die
fuck a love song 
if i’m not to be seen inside your eyes
so much stress is on my chest and see i honestly can’t take it
might just blow my fuckin brains out
let you find me in the basement

—

but instead 
see i just suffer thru the day
and thru the years
never should’ve hit the age of 
17
i’m facing fears
just by living 
waking up 
jus everyday 
these past few years
i been winging it 
jus wondering 
if
i’d make it clear
that i never had a plan 
so with this life i do my best
but there’s no use in fucking stating it
noones ever impressed 
or proud of 
me for doing all i can inside this fucked up world
i miss the fucking feeling of bein
someone’s world
but i’m too scared to put myself into some other persons arms
too scared to pile problems 
mixed with stress 
and fucking scars
so i just stay up in my room just doing this all god damn day
and work on tryna love myself 
it all just comes 
from getting plays

and i know it’s fuckin bad to pay attention to those numbers 
but it’s that or pay attention to my flaws
life’s just a bummer
so i count the plays and not all of the scars 
all down my arms
and instead of adding more 
i hear a beat and then i start