Not Again

(Lyrics)
If I fall, when Im lost, will anyone care if I'm doing fine
Dead eyes, maybe i might just be contemplating my suicide
Some day, if I pass on, im sure only my mums gonna cry
Late nights and very bright lights, I'm alone but is alright

Guess Im sleeping with the devil -- again tonight (again Tonight)
Using my remaining time -- for these rhymes (for these rhymes)

Having nothing to live for all the sunshine and hope has been long gone
the layers of walls i dont think they are even breakable anymore

I just want to share my story 
before the reaper takes me 
to hell where i belong

Love is a battlefield maybe we all could just let bygones be bygones
And yes I take lots of medicine just so im able to write all of my songs

If I fall, when I'm lost, will anyone care if I'm doing fine
Dead eyes, maybe i might just be contemplating my suicide
Some day, if I pass on, Im sure only my mums gonna cry
Late nights and very bright lights, I'm alone but it is alright

Guess Im sleeping with the devil -- again tonight (again Tonight)
this last part just let me say Goodbye..


("Sleeping With The Devil" - Prod. Flower)is my third original song.
I really appreciate anyone listening, giving me a chance.
Kindly give me any advice if there's anything I can do to improve.
Thank you for your amazing beats.
Love you guys and girls, stay blessed and be safe :)

Sleeping With The Devil (Prod. Flower)

(Spotify Link)
https://open.spotify.com/album/1yLd2L7rwHmeqmIcR8lSZX?si=Wmzza5iiQLSRZY4XMtL8lA

(Music Video)
https://youtu.be/G5Db02lSfOY

(Lyrics)
Searching for the right one
Isn't that easy
Miracles do happen
Isn't that amazing
Fucking it all up
Only takes a minute
Maybe its the wrong time but I blew it now I regret it

Baby girl tell me are you happier
Without me
Without me
Damn
What I fell in love was your honesty
That's your beauty
That's your beauty
Yeah

Missing your tantrums
When you get angsty
Having a good sleep and then the next day you say you're sorry
She driving me crazy oh no she driving me crazy
Gotta keep grinding but once again Imma say this

Miracles do happen 
Isn't that amazing
Fucking it all up
That's what I did 
Maybe its the wrong time, but I blew it now I regret it

Baby girl tell me are you happier
Without me
Please tell me how to move on when I want your everything
(That's right I'm a greedy bitch)

Drive Me Crazy (Prod. Grapette)

(Spotify Link)
https://open.spotify.com/album/48aDAQToviIWlNyH00Aiar?si=hA2atsuWQF6gS-lD2a2PHw

(Lyrics)
Save me, save me, oh somebody come and save me
Save me, save me, save me from this nightmare
Save me, save me, somebody come and save me
Save me, save me, save me from this nightmare

You don't know what I've been through
So don't pretend like you do
It's always all about you
It's always all about you
Now where did all the time go
I spent my money on dope
I'm feeling so fucking low
But I bet you wouldn't know

Slowly dying from all this poison
Trapped in this cycle
It's like a prison
Take me far away
I don't wanna stay
I don't wanna live
But I'm so afraid
Death's knocking and getting closer
If the Reaper takes me then I guess I'm going
At this rate, probably too late
But I still wish anyone could

Save me, save me, oh somebody come and save me
Save me, save me, save me from this nightmare
Save me, save me, somebody come and save me
Save me, save me, save me from this nightmare

If I know I wouldn't have fallen in this hole
And I know what I'm doing to help me cope is wrong yuh
I'm doing all this shit cause my life has lost it's meaning

Save Me (Prod. Vorni)

(Spotify Link)
https://open.spotify.com/album/4qcCLu4StTQ2n7283CRJM2?si=eX5LV17zRqqALhH3U33U4w

(Lyrics)
I don't know where I'm going right now
But hopefully I'll figure something out
I'm dumb as fuck so its gonna take awhile
Yeah I fuck things up and I know it all too well
Just an empty shell with a broken smile
Really getting tired of always falling down
No matter what I do, its never good enough
Imma stack all of my thoughts till the day I drown

I wanna runaway and just leave this place
Go MIA and slowly fade away
I wanna runaway and just leave this place
No reason to stay, I'm seeking better days 

I cant stop now life is a fucking race
If I do then everything would go to waste
Even if I write the same shit everyday
I don't sing for praise cause Bitch I know my place

The Day I Drown (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

(Spotify Link)
https://open.spotify.com/album/2kin3DyVEsfpW2nvCbMSvA?si=Hklus3_CSIqjYoQXXONVkQ

(Lyrics)
I just popped a pill, woke up on the floor
Don't know what I took but that shit was strong
I don't wanna know anything no more
I just wanna go write another song
Bitch I wanna die, I am fucking gone
I don't even know who I am anymore
Every choice I make is just fucking wrong
Codeine in my body right down to the core

Taking drugs just to end up feeling low
Getting so damn high just to keep it mellow
You wont understand cause you don't belong in my zone
What the fuck do I know well what the fuck do I know

Take a cigarette burn my hand let me feel some pain
I don't wanna fall asleep I need to keep myself awake
Shinigami take me away I just need to leave this place
I don't wanna be stuck alone living with them fucking snakes 

Taking drugs just to end up feeling low
Getting so damn high just to keep it mellow
You wont understand cause you don't belong in my zone
What the fuck do I know well what the fuck do I know

I just popped a pill, woke up on the floor
Don't know what I took but that shit was strong
I don't wanna know anything no more
I just wanna go write another song
Bitch I wanna die, I am fucking gone
I don't even know who I am anymore
Every choice I make is just fucking wrong
Trapped in this vicious cycle no one knows

Lost & Gone (Prod. Maris)

(Spotify Link)
https://open.spotify.com/album/6Me4YZClR02fcdv7lNE4ox?si=IDCH9ETmSreGwvprHQxVGw

(Lyrics)
Sitting under moonlight tonight
Staring at the beautiful night skies
It's just you and I, my heart beating fast on the inside 
When our souls intertwined I just want you by my side
Baby don't look at my eyes cause we're running out of time

I'm gonna protect you with my life
I need to be the one for you
Little cupid shoot an arrow at you
Hoping you feel the same way too
I don't know if I will be fine just praying that I don't die
Let's go dance around in the rain 
While we wait for the sun to shine

In your lips
Just a kiss
Won't you do it (Oh No)
In your lips
Just a kiss
Light up my world for me

Little Cupid (Prod. Maris)

(Available on Spotify)
https://open.spotify.com/track/58QfP0SOBfrYDITz0c0Stb?si=5537f78a4196440c

(Official Video)
https://youtu.be/zx2Um6Pggx8

(Lyrics)
Take my first step now trip and fall to the ground
You come and pull me up but then you push me down
What's the point of that, trying to make me upset
Well is it fun for you to treat me like a fool

Already used to it, I got alot of pain pills
The monsters in my head they hurt me worse than you
Gave everyone my all now I have nothing to lose
Don't try to ever judge me unless you walk in my shoes

No you'll never know how I feel
Nah I don't even know what's real

Take my first step now trip and fall to the ground
You come and pull me up but then you push me down
I hate to break the news, I got alot of pain pills
The monsters in my head they hurt me worse than you

Pain Pills (Prod. Maris)

(Lyrics)
Don't go
Can you give us a chance cause my feelings are showing
Don't you go
Having dreams about you and it's driving me crazy
Yeah I know
That I'm just an addict but I wont hurt you baby no
By my own
Time moves so slowly it's okay I'll be waiting 

I've been cruising alone at night someone is missing
Will you hold my hand, trust me, we got the chemistry

So don't go
I just want your company and build good memories
Now don't you go
We can stay in my room and then binge watch netflix
Oh girl
Won't you play some games with me, just not hide and seek
Anything
Wanna see your face again, so I guess I'll be waiting

Instrumentals produced by @aureolamusic <3

Waiting [Prod. Aureola]

Wrote this on 26th October.
Couldn't find any instrumentals for it :/

(Lyrics)
It's been so long since I've kept my eyes closed
How much time has passed? I don't know.
Why did you leave me by my own?
Everyday is cold, my heart froze

Its been so long since Ive kept my eyes closed
How much time has passed? I don't know.
Why did you leave me by my own?
Feeling so low, where did you go

Time has gone so fast again 
Memories stucked in my head
Remember those days that we spent
Glad to have you as my friend 

Heard you isolate yourself too
I feel so alone without you 
Every night its me and my pills
Wishing none of this shit is real 

Its getting bad, Lost all I had, With nothing left
Thoughts in my head, They drive me mad, I need my meds
Now take my hand, I understand but lets go back

Its been so long since Ive kept my eyes closed
How much time has passed? I don't know.
Why did you leave me by my own?
Everyday is cold, my heart froze

Feeling so low, where did you go?

Let's Go Back [Prod. Kosei]

-Original Song By 9Tails-
soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s/comatose-prod-iceman

(Lyrics)
Blood in the sink
I can barely think
Spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
All I see is money
All I see is red
You can take what you want cause I'm almost dead

You can tell that I'm lost I should go to bed
Say I'm fine but I'm not you should see my head
No I never forgot all the things you said
Make it by cause I'm on all these fucking meds

Here to live then to die when my time is spent
I was never alive let me see the lead
How she love me for life when I'm still a kid
Send her home I'm alone laying on my bed

Hit her up then I turn into a ghost
Smoke a blunt, pour a deuce she tell me I do the most
Fuck you mean, sippin lean, ashes fallin on my toes
She said baby can you stop before you fall to comatose
That's the point I don't know
Why the fuck you always stopping me
Hittin bowls it say no smoking on the public property
Feeling wavy when I pour it up I do it properly
Feeling drugs and liquor pumping through my fucking arteries

Blood in the sink
I can barely think
Spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
All I see is money
All I see is red
You can take what you want cause I'm almost dead

You can tell that I'm lost I should go to bed
Say I'm fine but I'm not you should see my head
No I never forgot all the things you said
Make it by cause I'm on all these fucking meds

Trying to cover songs to improve on my mixing...

Comatose (9Tails Cover) [Prod. Dreamsyde]

(Lyrics)
Can somebody just kill me
I'm hopeless so don't save me
Put me out of my misery
Escape from this reality

I've been in slumber for 3 days
These drugs are taking my life away
My body aches and I'm in pain
Can't get myself to do anything

Not even able to think straight
Thoughts flying all over the place
It feels like I'm going insane
I know that I am not okay

Set me up in flames, let me pay for my sins
Somethings wrong with my brain, tired of these self hate
Anyone give me a name, I need someone to blame
Get it out of my head, maybe then I'll feel okay

Thank you @user-928972734 for the instrumental :D

I'm Not Okay [Prod. Trace]

(Lyrics)
Life is cruel
Its been 3 years I lost you
They say time heals all wounds
I don't think that its true 

All this guilt
Is killing me inside 
This song for you
It's like a lullaby

Where are you
I hope you're doing fine
See you soon on the other side
When I die

Nothings gonna change my mind,
I'm still headed for the afterlife
Getting tired of these lies, 
I cant separate my wrongs from rights

Still I cry
When I think of that night 
But it's time to let you go alright

Glow like the moon
Shine like the stars
Burn bright like the sun
It's time I say goodbye
Tonight...

I.XV.MMXX [Prod. FaaZ]

(Music Video)
https://youtu.be/FDm73lwoJ-U

(Lyrics)
Woke up on the floor tonight again
Miss those times you'd kiss me everyday
Girl you are my drug what can I say
Don't worry it's just another day

Slow motion living
Manually breathing
I feel like a zombie
Poison in my body
Suffocating my brain deteriorating
Baby I am sorry
I know you don't deserve this

She an angel with beautiful wings and
I'm just a pessimistic piece of shit but
I'm trying hard to get the hang of it still
I really wanna kiss you again in the backseat

Woke up on the floor tonight again
Miss those times you'd kiss me everyday
Girl you are my drug what can I say
Don't worry it's just another day

Breaking down
I turn my head face first
then I shove it to the ground
Don't turn around
Everything seems so dead
there's nothing left to see now

She an angel with beautiful wings and
I'm just a pessimistic piece of shit but
I'm trying hard to get the hang of it still
I really wanna kiss you again in the backseat

Woke up on the floor tonight again
Miss those times you'd kiss me everyday
Girl you are my drug what can I say
Don't worry it's just another day

Woke up on the floor tonight again
Miss those times you'd kiss me everyday
Girl you are my drug what can I say
Don't worry it's just another day

I love you @beatsbyknkr

Kisses In The Backseat [KNKR] MV In Desc.

(Lyrics)
You think you like me now
But I know that I'm still gonna let you down
You should turn around

Mistakes and fucking up
That's what I do best
Hope today will be my last
I don't want the time to pass

Shawty she hates me now
Baby I know that I always fuck things up
I said sorry but it don't even matter nah

Maybe I'll just fade to ash
Taking all the shit I have
Disappear never come back

Don't come close cuz I'll just hurt you
My friends they be telling me I'm terrible
Some days I wake up and feel miserable
My friends they be telling me I'm terrible

Don't come close cuz I'll just hurt you
(Hurt you)
My friends they be telling me I'm terrible
(It's the chemicals)
Some days I wake up and feel miserable
(Yeah...)
My friends they be telling me I'm terrible
(It's the chemicals)

You think you like me now
But I know that I'm still gonna let you down
You should turn around

Mistakes and fucking up
That's what I do best
Hope today will be my last
I don't want the time to pass

Shawty she hates me now
Baby I know that I always fuck things up
I said sorry but it don't even matter nah

Maybe I'll just fade to ash
Taking all the shit I have
Disappear never come back

Let You Down [The Ushanka Boy]

(Lyrics)
What's the purpose in my life
Thinking this shit makes me want to die
Intoxicated, staying busy just to keep the mind empty
My body is in shambles my soul dying slow and steady

Life always fucks me over
I can't do this when I'm sober
Forget the past they don't do me any fucking favors
I'm losing brain cells all day going full retarded

No one can save me somebody bury me 6 feet deep
I'm my own worst enemy just leave me dead and bleedin'

Getting so hard to breathe
It must be suffocating
Think this show is boring
Im headed to the stars bitch

Maybe I might die quick
Or I might live in misery

I'm trying to find
Oh I'm wasting my time
I hide and I lie
No I dont feel alive
Hard just to survive
Breaking on the inside
Pray to the sky
Just let me write until I die

Luv u @beatsbyknkr :D

It's Boring [KNKR]

Available on Spotify now :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/1O51JSiz4YuZ4pxPHzFi7E?si=2eb674f1d899474b

(Lyrics)
Turn my smile upside down
Spending my time in this hell
I don't really feel too well
Cuz I get lonely by myself

Looks like you found somebody else
There's no more place left for me now
I got a lot of smoke in my lungs
Doing all these shit make me feel so numb

Yeah Im holding unto these memories
They be following me
Take a Xan
Go to sleep
I wake up still feel like shit

Now I'm sitting here at 5
writing lyrics in the morning
Probably sound like shit
Well it is whatever bitch

I must be running out of luck
So close to being done
Feeling like I'm stucked
Cuz everything's so fucked

Prod. @alanelzio <3

Everything's Fucked [Elzio x Quitall]

(Lyrics)
-Grimm Gem-
What you want yuh
I be moving fast not slow tonight
Running out of time
Bitch boy know your place alright

-Shadow Jay-
Leave me alone
I don't need no bitch
Barking down my throat
Fuck the lies that you told
Selling my soul
Just to curse those I loathe
Come to the door and I'll harvest your soul

Hold up
Fucking poser
Step to me again
I'll end ya 
With a hammer
Cause you're a fish
to me a beta you done messed up
Cuz I'm the shark and you the bait
so take a hammer to the head and drop dead yeah

-Grimm Gem-
Reaper
I'mma rip ya
Send you to your maker
New year
Fucking kill ya
It is now or never
I'll live till December
You don't even matter
Your bitch is whatever oh

What you want yuh
I be moving fast not slow tonight
Running out of time
Bitch boy know your place alright

-Shadow Jay x Grimm Gem-
Birds of a feather
Ya'll flock together
Deciding whether
I should end you forever
Cap wearing liars
Playing with fire
Little Bitch Boy and the Bitch that's his partner

Ft. @user-636357554
Prod. Sorrowbringer x @luffysome <3

Bxtch Boy w/Shadow Jay [Luffysome x Sorrowbringer]

Available on Spotify now :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/6KkaVHz14x2hAuHPaCY5Fn?si=09ca961635ed4a9a

(Lyrics)
Lowlife me won't ever learn my lesson
Codeine with some whiskey that's my medication
Pop another bean until I drown my feelings
I got blood on my ceiling think I'm better off dying

Sorry to my mum I know she hates it
Poisoning my body its so complicated
All these money I been making they don't mean shit
Many people in my life they just fake care

Walking down this road all by my own
I don't need no company I got my Styrofoam
Turn on airplane mode I wont pickup my phone
Used to being alone feeling like a ghost

Got no where to go
I'm a wreck I know
It's just skin and bones
I wont be growing old

Got no where to go
I'm a mess I know
Wait for overdose
Reaper taking me home

No where else to go
Death is coming close

Lowlife me wont ever learn my lesson
Codeine with some whiskey that's my medication
Pop another bean until I drown my feelings
I got blood on my ceiling think I'm better off dying

Sorry to my mum I know she hates it
Poisoning my body it's so complicated
All these money I been making they don't mean shit
Many people in my life they just fake care

Walking down this road all by my own
I don't need no company I got my Styrofoam
Turn on airplane mode I wont pickup my phone
Used to being alone feeling like a ghost

Prod. @everestdidthis

Feel Like A Ghost [Everestdidthis]

(Music Visualizer)
youtu.be/c5nup6J0KNA?si=w387Wy_HYCjVvqpm

(Lyrics)
I got blood on my wrist and the devil in my head
What's the point in livin' if I'm livin' like I'm fucking dead
I got 99 problems that will never go away
Taking a bullet to my brain watching my body slowly turn to grey

Get out my way, if you got shit to say, say it to my face
Give me some space, I don't even want your ho cause she so fake
Raising the stakes, with each step I take, no room for snakes
Well that's okay, I've sealed my fate and now we just gotta wait

Don't need the fame, I'm just tryna kill some pain
I be livin' on the fast lane, watch as I go out in flames
All these bitches wanna ride my wave but they fucking lame
I got no time for games, I don't even know your name

It's all the same, might go insane
Sometimes I sit here and I wonder what you want from me
Nothing has changed, might lose my way
Does it matter if I chase a dream that is too far away

-Hanako-
It's pointless.
"What? But Why?"
Don't you know?
Because that's the way Death works.
Wandering the world of the living unnoticed as a spirit.
That isn't a continuation of life.
When you die, that's it.
There's nothing more, nothing new begins.
No matter how much you regret or wish.
If you couldn't do something in life,
you can't suddenly do it when you die.

See the bloodstains on my hands and the hole that's in my chest
Sittin' here, countin' down the days until I'm put to rest
I got 99 problems man, I'm just trying my best
Looking for some meaning in this life I've yet to understand

I got blood on my wrist shitty thoughts manifest
Every night is a battle and the journey keeps taking me west
99 problems but they're all up in my head
Drowning in my fucking misery I still gotta smile and pretend

Thank you @sorrow_bringer for producing this sick beat <333

99 Problems [sorrow bringer]

(Music Visualizer)
https://youtu.be/KjxK23BY-N4

(Lyrics)
If I could tear the sky apart
I'd write your name among the stars
And even if it breaks my heart
I'll hold you close wherever you are

I'm not perfect, I'm a mess
But you've seen the worst and yet you stay
I can never get you outta my head
cuz baby I don't want this to end
(No I don't want this to end)

And I don't want you to go
Its hard to do this alone
(I'm not that strong on my own)
(I'm lost with nowhere to go)
And I need you here to hold me
So please answer your phone
(Baby pickup the phone)

If I could tear the sky apart
I'd write your name among the stars
And even if it breaks my heart
I'll hold you close wherever you are

I'm not perfect, I'm a mess
But you've seen the worst and yet you stay
I can never get you outta my head
cuz baby I don't want this to end
(No I don't want this to end)

prod. @deadspyro <3

Celestial Mess [Dead Spyro]

(Lyric Visualizer)
youtu.be/Ba0GEUWKu2Y

(Lyrics)
Someday, I'm hoping that you'll be mine
And this time I promise you I'll make it right
Every night, I just wish that you were by my side
Slowly killing my mind, still I'll tell you that I'm fine

Finding the strength to show you the truth
That every piece of my heart, I swear it belongs to you
Let's Netflix and chill, sitting in my bedroom
Ordering some GrabFood, you know life's gonna be good

I’m wishing on the stars, calling your name
Hoping you'll come back, nothing feels the same
I still see your face in the quiet night
Memories linger, I'm holding on tight

Pictures on the wall, they tear me apart
A gallery of pain etched deep in my heart
The world moves on but I'm still standing here
Chasing the echoes, I can't seem to heal

A life without you, feels empty and grey
If I could turn back time and make it all right
I'd give you all my heart and make you believe
And show you every day what you mean to me

You mean the world to me, I only want you baby
Find me the missing key, cause your love is all I need

Someday, I'm hoping that you'll be mine
And this time I promise you I'll make it right
Every night, I just wish that you were by my side
Slowly killing my mind, still I'll tell you that I'm fine

Finding the strength to show you the truth
That every piece of my heart, I swear it belongs to you
Let's Netflix and chill, sitting in my bedroom
Ordering some GrabFood, you know life's gonna be good

Here I am, sitting in this empty room
Holding on to memories, hoping you come back to me
Deep in my heart, I know that I've lost you
I'm wishing on a dream that won't ever come true

Feat. @dreur-ser, thank you :D
Instrumental by @sadboiforever <3

Maybe Someday [2001]

(Original Song)
soundcloud.com/jojiofficial/r-i-p-feat-trippie-redd

(Lyrics)
There's no more time
Just lay it on me
If I lost my life
You can blame it on me
Are you ready or not?
We can start it right here
Take you on them rocks
So crystal clear
Oh, oh, oh
Are they talkin' 'bout us?
Are they talkin' 'bout us?
Yeah
Oh, oh, oh
Are they talkin' 'bout us?
Are they talkin' 'bout us?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Tryna find your love, put your love above
Baby, all we need is trust, no one know but us
No one know but us
No one know but us, yeah
Me and you, you and I
I would die for you
Do or die for you
Suicide for you
R.I.P. I would die for you
R.I.P. I would die for you
I would die for you
I would die for you
I would die for you, yeah
There's no more time
Just lay it on me
If I lost my life
You can blame it on me
Are you ready or not?
We can start right here
Take you on them rocks
So crystal clear
Oh, oh, oh
Are they talkin' 'bout us?
Are they talkin' 'bout us?

Listened to @jojiofficial yet?
Check out @luqaas-homolka too!

R.I.P. [Joji x Trippie Redd Cover]

(Lyric Visualizer)
https://youtu.be/DqKspJgm63I

(Lyrics)
Hold on, can you gimme my heart back
I would give it all to you but trust me you don't want that
No one really sticks around where my friends at
I be talking to myself again it's always like that

It's half past three and I'm staring at the ceiling
Picking up the pen but I don't know what I'm feeling
Lately, I been trying
Tell me what's the point if it's all or nothing

Tell me where the fuck I went wrong
Sipping nothing but purple up in my Styrofoam cup
Tell me that you love me but that shit went all wrong
Now I'm hurting, going thru this phase that you call hate

Got a lot of anger don't know how to relate
Retaliate and shoot them bullets thru the roof ay
Said I'm chilling with the gang till my heart stays cold
I'on give a fuck cus our time grows old

Hold on, can you gimme my heart back
I would give it all to you but trust me you don't want that
No one really sticks around where my friends at
I be talking to myself again it's always like that

It's half past three and I'm staring at the ceiling
Picking up the pen but I don't know what I'm feeling
Lately, I been trying
Tell me what's the point if it's all or nothing?

Happy Valentines Day 🖤
Check out @omachi-21 💯

Up All Night ft. Omachi 21 [biscuitBoi]

Mastered by 𝓝𝓔'𝓔𝓡𝓓𝓞𝓦𝓔𝓛𝓛 @iamaneerdowell

(Lyric Visualizer)
https://youtu.be/YQAlLwVdYiw

(Lyrics)
Fucked up, gonna fuck it up again
Where's the cup, somebody pour another drink

I been trying to forget, every memory that we had
No I don't wanna go back, leave it how it is like that
Feel the weight upon my chest, wondering when will this end
I feel like I'm fucking dead, put the lead into my head

Thought you were an angel, I guess I was wrong
Cause you don't have a halo, and now I see the truth that's gone right by
I see all the lies you hold, I see all the times you sold me out
I see all the lies you told, I see all the time that passed by

I felt blinded by all the lies that you told me
And I know better not gon' hold you
And I know better not gon' get fooled 
And I know better not gon' get used

Fuck that, I know I'm not a tool for you, but I was a fool for you 
Maybe I got used to you being around

I been trying to forget, every memory that we had
No I don't wanna go back, leave it how it is like that
Feel the weight upon my chest, wondering when will this end
I feel like I'm fucking dead, put the lead into my head

Poison in my veins but the pain wont go away
You tell me I need to change, I'm a mess I know, okay
Wake up the next day then forget about yesterday
Everything remains the same, it don't matter anyway

Listen to @icarus_lurks 🖤

Dead Til Dawn ft. IcarusLurks [timeless]

(Lyrics)
Bitch you got something to say
You should take it to my face
Stop being so fucking fake
But you pussy boy why you afraid

Cut myself with my own blade
Cuz everyday I'm filled with hate
I'll bury you inside your grave
I'm a walking zombie full of rage

Drag my body through the flames
I don't care, I can't be saved
All this anger inside my brain
I'll make sure that you feel my pain

Fuck you man, we not the same
Your shit is whack and fucking lame
666 bitch I'm insane
Got demon blood within my veins

Eyes rolled back, getting outta control
My heart's so black, I be losing my soul
Been praying to a god that I don't even know
And I hate this place so much, I gotta go

Eyes rolled back, getting outta control
My heart's so black, I be losing my soul
Been praying to a god that I don't even know
And I hate this place so much, I gotta go

Bitch you got something to say
You should take it to my face
Stop being so fucking fake
But you pussy boy why you afraid

Cut myself with my own blade
Cuz everyday I'm filled with hate
I'll bury you inside your grave
I'm a walking zombie full of rage

Drag my body through the flames
I don't care, I can't be saved
All this anger inside my brain
I'll make sure that you feel my pain

Fuck you man, we not the same
Your shit is whack and fucking lame
666 bitch I'm insane
Got demon blood within my veins

Prod. @krestisgone 🤍

Eternal Pain [KREST]

Feeling mental lately...

(Lyrics)
Oh no, I don't think we'll ever do this again
Woah oh, really wanna see that smile on your face
Nuh uh, feels like nothing much has even changed
I'll end up hurting you over and over again

I feel like a fuck up for wasting your time
Hoping that someday everything gon' be alright
Feeling like a fuck up for wasting my life
Waste away all the time I really wanna know why

Pray that tomorrow would be a better day
Writing shitty songs that always sound the same
My head is getting noisy so I hide away
Wondering if you still even think of me

Cuz I still think of you
If only I knew what to do
I know that you've been feeling blue
Just don't forget about me too

Oh no, I don't think we'll ever do this again
Woah oh, really wanna see that smile on your face
Nuh uh, feels like nothing much has even changed
I'll end up hurting you over and over again

I feel like a fuck up for wasting your time
Hoping that someday everything gon' be alright
Feeling like a fuck up for wasting my life
Waste away all the time I really wanna know why

Thank you @reytee for the instrumental 🤍

Blue [reytee]

(Original Song)
https://soundcloud.com/shizukesaaa/letdown-w-residential

(Lyrics)
Come around
I know I'm a fuck up just a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town
Gaze inside her eyes been filled with hate now
need to stay down
Really need some backup
You know you're the only one I want love
Can't fucking take this aching make my chest numb
You the one I want love

Can't even snap back to this Snapchat
Got 80 ounce in this backpack
Making lame shit on this old Mac
while my friends out in their Pontiac
How are you so contagious
Holding back on my anguish
Cardi rocks when I'm anxious
Blood and mud on these pages
She don't talk but her eyes flirt
Louis V and that black skirt
Pulling up in that Chrysler
Bloody shirt and my chest hurts

Come around
I know I'm a fuck up just a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town
Gaze inside her eyes been filled with hate now
need to stay down
Really need some backup
You know you're the only one I want love
Can't fucking take this aching make my chest numb
You the one I want love

Been awhile I tried covering songs, I still suck at mixing tho :')
Thank you @shizukesaaa & @user-411557229 <3

let_down (Shizukesa. Cover) [The Ushanka Boy]

(AMV)
https://youtu.be/b8S3hKgA1LQ?si=YYGw7WbU2CnlJqSa

(Lyrics)
Cause I'm falling apart really don't know what to do now
Getting numb when I'm down just to feel somethin'
Giving up, yea I know I shouldn't give it up
Another cup it's harder when I feel nothin'

I've been stuck in my head tryna find a way out
Eyes red, no sleep, got me breaking down
Times up it's another day another route
Wear a smile on my face when they all come around

Oh lately I've been trying
but it still feels like something's missing
Can't stop this overthinking
It's hard to breathe while suffocating

Time moves slow, really think you should go now
Go back home, I'll be fine on my own ya
Heart beats slow, feel it fade into the background
I don't know cus my ears are hearing no sound

(Subaru)
I'll tell you what kind of man I really am
I have no strength but I want it all
I have no knowledge but all I do is dream
Theres nothing I could do but I struggle in vain like an idiot
I...I hate myself...

Falling apart really don't know what to do now
Getting numb when I'm down just to feel somethin'
Giving up, yea I know I shouldn't give it up
Another cup it harder when I feel nothin'

I've been stuck in my head tryna find a way out
Eyes red, no sleep, got me breaking down
Times up it's another day another route
Wear a smile on my face when they all come around

Smile (KREST)

(Lyrics)
Comedown, getting ready for the comedown
It's too loud, I can't really hear your voice now
Speak up, just know that I won't pick it up
Put my face to the ground, hoping to make it out

Comedown, getting ready for the comedown
It's too loud, I can't really hear your voice now
Speak up just know that I won't pick it up
Put my face to the ground, hoping to make it out

Maybe I'm a mess but I guess she kinda like that
Thoughts inside my head, gone again but know they'll be back
Feeling like a reject, say goodbye then
I'm so used to it and I'm so used to this

Can't fall asleep, wondering
What the hell have I been doing lately
Shoutout to Reytee, now my brain is working
Preparing for the...

Comedown, getting ready for the comedown
(Calm down, Calm down)
It's too loud, I can't really hear your voice now
(All alone now, I'm alone by myself now)
Speak up, just know that I won't pick it up
(Don't know what to do uh)
Put my face to the ground, hoping to make it out
(Sorry if I'm not around)

Comedown, getting ready for the comedown
It's too loud, I can't really hear your voice now
Speak up just know that I won't pick it up
Put my face to the ground, hoping to make it out

I luv y'all 🤍
Thank you @reytee for the instrumental <3

Lately [reytee]

Sad songs for sad people
Thank you for being here 🖤
-08/07/22-

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