(Music Video)
https://youtu.be/FfZsK3bmCOc

(Lyrics)
Don't mess with me Imma fucking kill you
Imma fucking kill you, its not a joke no
Go suck dick or whatever just leave me alone
Living in the hell you put me through 2 years already though
Made me a loose cannon oh no what should i do
You continue stalking me I don't care hoe
Wonder which one of us is crazier now so if
I ever see your face again you got 3 seconds to move. Go.

Yeah I'm talking to you
My biggest mistake I know
Should have been a fuck and throw
You know I'm talking bout you
You old bitch

You can have my soul
You can take my sanity
You can spend all of my dough
But as long as I'm still breathing
Imma make them all come back to me

(I don't play with vixens)
(I don't fuck with witches)


Throwback to toxic relationships. You know those kind where you cant leave because they trapped and manipulate you so bad. Force you to choose between your mum or her. Controlling. you meet your friends for 5 minutes. She starts saying she wanna suicide. You afraid to leave because you too afraid something bad might happened and the endless amount of guilt trip. Love really is blind.

Stay Away From Me (Prod. Cursed)

(Music Video)
https://youtu.be/Wo4tkSFHuqA

(Lyrics)
[Shadow Jay]
Never thought that it be so lonely
Thought I'd be okay when you left me
Suddenly lyrics started forming
People started saying I'm not lively anymore
All I know is that I'm hurting
And while I'm doing some soul searching
All I hear is that you are flirting 
With some human being that I have never heard before

[Grimm Gem]
Now I'm all alone, Imma die alone
Slit my wrist, I don't wanna go back home 
I don't trust no more even if I'm wrong
Bitch you fucking dumb just another hoe yeah

[Shadow Jay]
You went and made me an overthinker
Because of you I'm a heavy drinker
Fed me lies now I'm a non believer
Who knew that you were just a pretty liar
Now I reflect, should've known better
To fall for that, I thought I was smarter
Feel so detached, I guess I'm a sucker
But what an act, you deserve an Oscar

Now I'm both depressed and distressed
But most of all, I'm so obsessed
With all the memories that we had
And all the moments that I cant forget

[Grimm Gem]
Why you be so cold please don't be so cold
I ain't got no hope that's why I be smoking dope
Popping pills but its not helping me to cope
Bitches coming through, Bitches coming through
But I only got my eyes on you only got my eyes for you
Now I'm all alone Imma just die alone

Baby I really love you just want you to know
Pretty sure you are aware don't think I got to show
All the pessimistic thoughts that never left my mind 
How did you fix it all the fucking time
If I fall apart will you be by my side
Found the love of my life but I pushed her aside 💔

Thank you @sorrow_bringer for the instrumentals <3

Falling Apart (Feat. ShadowJay & Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

(Spotify Link)
https://open.spotify.com/album/1yLd2L7rwHmeqmIcR8lSZX?si=Wmzza5iiQLSRZY4XMtL8lA

(Music Video)
https://youtu.be/G5Db02lSfOY

(Lyrics)
Searching for the right one
Isn't that easy
Miracles do happen
Isn't that amazing
Fucking it all up
Only takes a minute
Maybe its the wrong time but I blew it now I regret it

Baby girl tell me are you happier
Without me
Without me
Damn
What I fell in love was your honesty
That's your beauty
That's your beauty
Yeah

Missing your tantrums
When you get angsty
Having a good sleep and then the next day you say you're sorry
She driving me crazy oh no she driving me crazy
Gotta keep grinding but once again Imma say this

Miracles do happen 
Isn't that amazing
Fucking it all up
That's what I did 
Maybe its the wrong time, but I blew it now I regret it

Baby girl tell me are you happier
Without me
Please tell me how to move on when I want your everything
(That's right I'm a greedy bitch)

Drive Me Crazy (Prod. Grapette)

(Lyrics)
You can take my heart
Or even make me bleed
I don't feel no pain
I lost my everything
Already used to it 
And I don't give a shit
Take a lot of Xans hoping for sleep permanently

Fuck them fake friends 
They make me more depressed
Rather be alone in my room with my cup and benzos
Fuck this life I live and Fuck my psychiatrist
How about I name all of those meds you made me eat

Hydroxyzine, Escitalopram, Fluvoxamine, Fluoxetine, Sertraline
Quetiapine, Mirtazapine, don't you forget Wellbutrin & Trazodone Bitch.
Started suffocating what the fuck you gave me
Why the hell I got meds for Anti Psychotics?
Ain't coming back until they get rid of that freak
Rather buy generic shit of the fucking streets

You can take my heart
or even make me bleed
I don't feel no pain
I lost my everything
Already used to it 
and I don't give a shit
Take a lot of Xans hoping for sleep permanently 

Fuck them fake friends 
They make me more depressed
Rather be alone in my room with my cup and benzos
If I try to kill myself again make sure its quick
Don't want to end up in that shithole of a place

Take My Heart & Make Me Bleed (Prod. Gxree)

(Spotify Link)
https://open.spotify.com/album/48aDAQToviIWlNyH00Aiar?si=hA2atsuWQF6gS-lD2a2PHw

(Lyrics)
Save me, save me, oh somebody come and save me
Save me, save me, save me from this nightmare
Save me, save me, somebody come and save me
Save me, save me, save me from this nightmare

You don't know what I've been through
So don't pretend like you do
It's always all about you
It's always all about you
Now where did all the time go
I spent my money on dope
I'm feeling so fucking low
But I bet you wouldn't know

Slowly dying from all this poison
Trapped in this cycle
It's like a prison
Take me far away
I don't wanna stay
I don't wanna live
But I'm so afraid
Death's knocking and getting closer
If the Reaper takes me then I guess I'm going
At this rate, probably too late
But I still wish anyone could

Save me, save me, oh somebody come and save me
Save me, save me, save me from this nightmare
Save me, save me, somebody come and save me
Save me, save me, save me from this nightmare

If I know I wouldn't have fallen in this hole
And I know what I'm doing to help me cope is wrong yuh
I'm doing all this shit cause my life has lost it's meaning

Save Me (Prod. Vorni)

(Lyrics)
All alone
I'm on my own (By my own)
Got to keep it low (Stay low)
But I still got my flow (Yeah I know)

Living in this ghost world
Looking for my ghost girl
This ain't how life works
I'm never gonna find her
Making mistakes, never learn 
I'm on another level
Lying on my bed can't sleep
Body's getting colder
Running from my problems cause
I don't wanna solve them
You can say what you wanna say
To my face, I am right here
Don't worry bout my feelings
I wont even get hurt
Set me on fire while you
Stand there and watch me burn

Burn away the darkness 
So I can see the light
I write sad songs every night just to make me cry
Right before I leave let me blow you a kiss goodbye
In the end I finally realized that I am

All alone
I'm on my own (By my own)
Got to keep it low (Stay low)
But I still got my flow (Yeah I Know)

Ghost World (Prod. Maris)

(Spotify Link)
https://open.spotify.com/album/4qcCLu4StTQ2n7283CRJM2?si=eX5LV17zRqqALhH3U33U4w

(Lyrics)
I don't know where I'm going right now
But hopefully I'll figure something out
I'm dumb as fuck so its gonna take awhile
Yeah I fuck things up and I know it all too well
Just an empty shell with a broken smile
Really getting tired of always falling down
No matter what I do, its never good enough
Imma stack all of my thoughts till the day I drown

I wanna runaway and just leave this place
Go MIA and slowly fade away
I wanna runaway and just leave this place
No reason to stay, I'm seeking better days 

I cant stop now life is a fucking race
If I do then everything would go to waste
Even if I write the same shit everyday
I don't sing for praise cause Bitch I know my place

The Day I Drown (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

(Available on Spotify)
https://open.spotify.com/track/58QfP0SOBfrYDITz0c0Stb?si=5537f78a4196440c

(Official Video)
https://youtu.be/zx2Um6Pggx8

(Lyrics)
Take my first step now trip and fall to the ground
You come and pull me up but then you push me down
What's the point of that, trying to make me upset
Well is it fun for you to treat me like a fool

Already used to it, I got alot of pain pills
The monsters in my head they hurt me worse than you
Gave everyone my all now I have nothing to lose
Don't try to ever judge me unless you walk in my shoes

No you'll never know how I feel
Nah I don't even know what's real

Take my first step now trip and fall to the ground
You come and pull me up but then you push me down
I hate to break the news, I got alot of pain pills
The monsters in my head they hurt me worse than you

Pain Pills (Prod. Maris)

(Lyrics)
Don't go
Can you give us a chance cause my feelings are showing
Don't you go
Having dreams about you and it's driving me crazy
Yeah I know
That I'm just an addict but I wont hurt you baby no
By my own
Time moves so slowly it's okay I'll be waiting 

I've been cruising alone at night someone is missing
Will you hold my hand, trust me, we got the chemistry

So don't go
I just want your company and build good memories
Now don't you go
We can stay in my room and then binge watch netflix
Oh girl
Won't you play some games with me, just not hide and seek
Anything
Wanna see your face again, so I guess I'll be waiting

Instrumentals produced by @aureolamusic <3

Waiting [Prod. Aureola]

Wanna try something new so I didn't compress my vocals...

(Lyrics)
I'm doing all these drugs cause it kind of takes the pain away
I'm sorry mum you must be disappointed I turned out this way
But my brain's a fucking mess everyday is just a rainy day
I don't trust and listen to nobody who act like they can relate

Don't complain, don't complain
Is what they say
In my head, in my head
Paint the walls red
When I'm dead, When I'm dead
What would they say

That's why I'd rather be alone, faded on my own
Working on my songs writing whatever the fuck I want
Yeah my flow is slow but I like it slow what do you know
What do you know

Don't complain, In my head, When I'm dead

Don't complain, Don't complain
Is what they say
In my head, In my head
Paint the walls red
When I'm dead, When I'm dead
What would they say

That's why I'd rather be alone, faded on my own
Working on my songs writing whatever the fuck I want
Yeah my flow is slow but I like it slow what do you know
What do you know

I'm doing all these drugs cause it kind of takes the pain away
I'm sorry mum you must be disappointed I turned out this way


Thank you @maris-398606776 for another amazing beat <3

Don't Complain [Prod. Maris]

-Official Music Video-
https://youtu.be/J1EU050MLpY

Out on Spotify now :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/4B4u7yMuaxv1YKSEwYrKIz?si=c15558dd4711400d

(Lyrics)
It's just another sad song
I wrote when I'm down
Before I drown, Please get me numb, That's all I want
Just make me empty
Not feeling a thing
I wake up, close my eyes and go back to sleep

Every night I write the same shit
My life is set on repeat
Get high create some music
Nobody gets it and I fucking hate it

Every night I write the same shit
My life is set on repeat
Get high create some music
People don't get it well I fucking hate it

Something is wrong with me but I don't know how to fix it
I'm falling, and sinking, right into the abyss

It's just another sad song
I wrote when I'm down
Before I drown, Please get me numb, That's all I want
Just make me empty
Not feeling a thing
I wake up, close my eyes and go back to sleep

Just Another Sad Song [Dead Spyro] MV In Desc.

(Lyrics)
Hurt me, Do you like that
Break me, I bet you love that
Fix me, No you wont do that
I'm not fucking sad
Bitch I'm depressed

Hurt me, Do you like that
Break me, I bet you love that
Fix me, No you wont do that
Gave you all I had
Its such a regret

Where are my friends when I need them
God I hate that I'm such a mess
In my head I'm better off dead
That's what it said

Everything is just a burden
Keep myself busy kill some time
But I barely get anything done
Well isn't that fun
Breaking down, it's so fun 
Go through hell again and again

Its so fun, the next time I might not make it back again

I'm Not Sad [Prod. Dead Spyro]

Wrote this on 26th October.
Couldn't find any instrumentals for it :/

(Lyrics)
It's been so long since I've kept my eyes closed
How much time has passed? I don't know.
Why did you leave me by my own?
Everyday is cold, my heart froze

Its been so long since Ive kept my eyes closed
How much time has passed? I don't know.
Why did you leave me by my own?
Feeling so low, where did you go

Time has gone so fast again 
Memories stucked in my head
Remember those days that we spent
Glad to have you as my friend 

Heard you isolate yourself too
I feel so alone without you 
Every night its me and my pills
Wishing none of this shit is real 

Its getting bad, Lost all I had, With nothing left
Thoughts in my head, They drive me mad, I need my meds
Now take my hand, I understand but lets go back

Its been so long since Ive kept my eyes closed
How much time has passed? I don't know.
Why did you leave me by my own?
Everyday is cold, my heart froze

Feeling so low, where did you go?

Let's Go Back [Prod. Kosei]

(Lyrics)
Good things are coming with the pain yuh
Don't leave please meet me in the backyard
I remember when you told me I'm a failure
Look at me now you want something, Imma pay yuh
Talk shit, I don't care, I'll erase you
Dumb bitch, she ain't rare, you can take her
With her blue skies turning gray yuh
Dumb bitch, she ain't rare, you can take her

I don't give a fuck
If you wanna call
I wont pick it up
No I deserve more
And I'm mixing drugs
You heal for barks
Cringe shit - Not love
My wrist - All blood

My wrist bleeding while some bitches want my body
I could never ever want me
So I need someone to warm me yuh
You wanna call me
But you bitch are fucking boring
I would rather be recording
That's the reason I'm ignoring you

(Original Song)
https://soundcloud.com/sadtxnshi/roasting-my-ex
Wanted to try covering a song
Thanks @sadtxnshi for letting me practice <3

I'm Sorry, That's Just The Way I Cope (Sadtxnshi Cover)

Been having shitty cold for the past few days.
Sucks to have no energy and voice too.
Had to write something so I came up with this.
Sorry if it sounds like crap. Thanks for listening <3

(Lyrics)
Drowning in my misery
Falling down an endless pit
Slowly losing memories
What's the point in living like this

I can barely feel anything
Rely on fucking sedatives
They save me so I do it
Pills will be the death of me

Yeah Im faded and exhausted
Every night I stare at my screen just to play with fucking words
I'm so jaded
Wanna feel better I swear nothing seems to fucking work

I'm fucked in the head
So please stay away
My brain's a mess
I really don't know what to say

Let me runaway
Standing on the edge
Hanging by a thread
Alleviate the pain
Not going away
Everything's the same
Nothing's gonna change
Isn't that just great

Take one more step and I'll be fucking dead
Chose this path so I should walk it all the way

Sedatives [Prod. Biscuitboi]

-Original Song By 9Tails-
soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s/comatose-prod-iceman

(Lyrics)
Blood in the sink
I can barely think
Spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
All I see is money
All I see is red
You can take what you want cause I'm almost dead

You can tell that I'm lost I should go to bed
Say I'm fine but I'm not you should see my head
No I never forgot all the things you said
Make it by cause I'm on all these fucking meds

Here to live then to die when my time is spent
I was never alive let me see the lead
How she love me for life when I'm still a kid
Send her home I'm alone laying on my bed

Hit her up then I turn into a ghost
Smoke a blunt, pour a deuce she tell me I do the most
Fuck you mean, sippin lean, ashes fallin on my toes
She said baby can you stop before you fall to comatose
That's the point I don't know
Why the fuck you always stopping me
Hittin bowls it say no smoking on the public property
Feeling wavy when I pour it up I do it properly
Feeling drugs and liquor pumping through my fucking arteries

Blood in the sink
I can barely think
Spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
All I see is money
All I see is red
You can take what you want cause I'm almost dead

You can tell that I'm lost I should go to bed
Say I'm fine but I'm not you should see my head
No I never forgot all the things you said
Make it by cause I'm on all these fucking meds

Trying to cover songs to improve on my mixing...

Comatose (9Tails Cover) [Prod. Dreamsyde]

(Official Video)
youtube.com/watch?v=BEITf3r_GfI

(Lyrics)
Lately it's getting harder to sleep now
Wanna drill a hole in my head and pull my own brains out
Lately I've been tryna keep my soul well
But I don't know how it seems like I am always falling down

I chose this path so Imma walk it
And take these drugs because they numb me
Don't know love or what it represents
Barely surviving my life is a nightmare

My past is slowly catching up to me
My thoughts they are constantly haunting me
It's lonely, it's scary, anxiety so
Time to pack my bags and go on a one way trip

Don't bother me
Don't bother me
Don't bother me
(I don't need no company)

Don't follow me
Don't follow me
Don't follow me
(I know that you're gonna leave)

A fantasy
A fantasy
A fantasy
(Everything's imaginary)

Lemme be free
Lemme be free
Lemme be free 
(Why you gotta do me like this)

Thank you @user-928972734 for the instrumental <3

One Way Trip [Prod. Trace]

(Lyrics)
Life is cruel
Its been 3 years I lost you
They say time heals all wounds
I don't think that its true 

All this guilt
Is killing me inside 
This song for you
It's like a lullaby

Where are you
I hope you're doing fine
See you soon on the other side
When I die

Nothings gonna change my mind,
I'm still headed for the afterlife
Getting tired of these lies, 
I cant separate my wrongs from rights

Still I cry
When I think of that night 
But it's time to let you go alright

Glow like the moon
Shine like the stars
Burn bright like the sun
It's time I say goodbye
Tonight...

I.XV.MMXX [Prod. FaaZ]

(Lyrics)
Misery loves company Im getting used to it
Well lucky me its feels like I am the best candidate
And sorry I can't talk now cause I'm too intoxicated
I don't know anything my body is on auto pilot

Questioning myself and my own existence
Every choice I make does it even matter
What should I do at this very moment
Trying not to die that is all I'm doing

Questioning myself and my own existence 
Every choice I make does it even matter
What should I do at this very moment
Trying to survive that is what I'm doing 

Now its over
And I realised how much I need her
Will she come back
I don't think so, probably never

Trying To [Prod. ilyswitch]

(Lyrics)
-Grimm Gem-
It's 2 in the morning and
I'm sitting here recording
What am I doing
Oh, where are my feelings
Cause I don't wanna live like this
Everyday I feel like shit
Taking prescriptions like candy
Hoping that they numb me

-ShadowJay-
Hey dad
I don't what kind of pain you're in
But its a type of pain I've never seen
Everything feels wrong nowadays
Everything every day
I wish that all my woes could
And would just fly away
Fly away, dies today, disappear, start again
Hit that restart, fold and seal this life shut
Forget the past, turn around this bad luck
Bad draft, scratch the life that god gave me
Start a new one

-Grimm Gem-
What's on your mind
Can you tell me please don't lie
Show me a sign
Will I die tonight or will I survive
Let me stay high
I don't care, my vice will make me feel fine
Turn off the lights
Its getting too bright I'm turning blind

-ShadowJay-
It really scars my heart to see you suffering
Everyday, hurts more preparing your medicine
In denial, even though I know you're dying
Secretly hoping that I'm just dreaming
That you're actually out there living
And I'm actually on my bed sleeping
But I'm not, I'm just running from my demons
Stuck in a dream, man who am I kidding

ShadowJay
@user-636357554

Dreaming [Ft. ShadowJay X Prod. NagaSIX]

(Music Video)
https://youtu.be/FDm73lwoJ-U

(Lyrics)
Woke up on the floor tonight again
Miss those times you'd kiss me everyday
Girl you are my drug what can I say
Don't worry it's just another day

Slow motion living
Manually breathing
I feel like a zombie
Poison in my body
Suffocating my brain deteriorating
Baby I am sorry
I know you don't deserve this

She an angel with beautiful wings and
I'm just a pessimistic piece of shit but
I'm trying hard to get the hang of it still
I really wanna kiss you again in the backseat

Woke up on the floor tonight again
Miss those times you'd kiss me everyday
Girl you are my drug what can I say
Don't worry it's just another day

Breaking down
I turn my head face first
then I shove it to the ground
Don't turn around
Everything seems so dead
there's nothing left to see now

She an angel with beautiful wings and
I'm just a pessimistic piece of shit but
I'm trying hard to get the hang of it still
I really wanna kiss you again in the backseat

Woke up on the floor tonight again
Miss those times you'd kiss me everyday
Girl you are my drug what can I say
Don't worry it's just another day

Woke up on the floor tonight again
Miss those times you'd kiss me everyday
Girl you are my drug what can I say
Don't worry it's just another day

I love you @beatsbyknkr

Kisses In The Backseat [KNKR] MV In Desc.

(Lyrics)
Oh I'm so confused
Really don't know where should I go
What to do
All I know is I'm in love with you
Yeah you know it's true

But I'm a wreck
I'm a mess
And I know that best
Just a man I'm not superman
So I would die for you
I'll give my life to you

If you want me
I'll be right there
Come and take my hand
Cause we're not looking back

I need one more chance
Give you all I've left
I've got not much strength
But I'll do what it takes to bring you to the moon and back

@mr-stim <3

moon and back (Prod. Jewelerbeats)

(Lyrics)
Wanna' runaway, I don't wanna stay here
Thoughts in my head keep fucking me over
Everywhere I go I don't really see the colors
Take another pill, now all I hear is silence

Don't know what to say, I got way too many questions
Lost in the cycle, it's so hard to get my mind clear
Bitches coming through but they don't even matter
Being by my own yeah maybe that's better

Won't pick up my phone, when I'm in my zone
You can call me, text me but I really gotta go
Walking on the road, feeling so damn low
Monsters all around me maybe you shouldn't come close

Self destruction is making me die slow

Wanna' runaway, I don't wanna stay here
Thoughts in my head keep fucking me over
Everywhere I go I don't really see the colors
Take another pill, now all I hear is silence

Don't know what to say, I got way too many questions
Lost in the cycle, it's so hard to get my mind clear
Bitches coming through but they don't even matter
Being by my own yeah maybe that's better

So sick of people treating me like I don't matter
Am I invisible? Or just a toy to you?
With all the toys in the world, people choose to
Play with your feelings
Over and over again

I'm a person, not a game
Don't you come and play me
Of all the things you can play
My feelings ain't one of them
Ain't your toy, not for you to play and toss em' when you're done

My heart's not a playground
You ought to go play somewhere else
Counting down to the moments till I'm left alone cuz 
I'm done with being used

Wanna' runaway, I don't wanna stay here
Thoughts in my head keep fucking me over
Everywhere I go I don't really see the colors
Take another pill, now all I hear is silence

Don't know what to say, I got way too many questions
Lost in the cycle, it's so hard to get my mind clear
Bitches coming through but they don't even matter
Being by my own yeah maybe that's better

Don't Matter w/Dr€@ϻeℝ [beQUITE]

(Lyrics)
You think you like me now
But I know that I'm still gonna let you down
You should turn around

Mistakes and fucking up
That's what I do best
Hope today will be my last
I don't want the time to pass

Shawty she hates me now
Baby I know that I always fuck things up
I said sorry but it don't even matter nah

Maybe I'll just fade to ash
Taking all the shit I have
Disappear never come back

Don't come close cuz I'll just hurt you
My friends they be telling me I'm terrible
Some days I wake up and feel miserable
My friends they be telling me I'm terrible

Don't come close cuz I'll just hurt you
(Hurt you)
My friends they be telling me I'm terrible
(It's the chemicals)
Some days I wake up and feel miserable
(Yeah...)
My friends they be telling me I'm terrible
(It's the chemicals)

You think you like me now
But I know that I'm still gonna let you down
You should turn around

Mistakes and fucking up
That's what I do best
Hope today will be my last
I don't want the time to pass

Shawty she hates me now
Baby I know that I always fuck things up
I said sorry but it don't even matter nah

Maybe I'll just fade to ash
Taking all the shit I have
Disappear never come back

Let You Down [The Ushanka Boy]

(Lyrics)
What's the purpose in my life
Thinking this shit makes me want to die
Intoxicated, staying busy just to keep the mind empty
My body is in shambles my soul dying slow and steady

Life always fucks me over
I can't do this when I'm sober
Forget the past they don't do me any fucking favors
I'm losing brain cells all day going full retarded

No one can save me somebody bury me 6 feet deep
I'm my own worst enemy just leave me dead and bleedin'

Getting so hard to breathe
It must be suffocating
Think this show is boring
Im headed to the stars bitch

Maybe I might die quick
Or I might live in misery

I'm trying to find
Oh I'm wasting my time
I hide and I lie
No I dont feel alive
Hard just to survive
Breaking on the inside
Pray to the sky
Just let me write until I die

Luv u @beatsbyknkr :D

It's Boring [KNKR]

Available on Spotify now :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/1O51JSiz4YuZ4pxPHzFi7E?si=2eb674f1d899474b

(Lyrics)
Turn my smile upside down
Spending my time in this hell
I don't really feel too well
Cuz I get lonely by myself

Looks like you found somebody else
There's no more place left for me now
I got a lot of smoke in my lungs
Doing all these shit make me feel so numb

Yeah Im holding unto these memories
They be following me
Take a Xan
Go to sleep
I wake up still feel like shit

Now I'm sitting here at 5
writing lyrics in the morning
Probably sound like shit
Well it is whatever bitch

I must be running out of luck
So close to being done
Feeling like I'm stucked
Cuz everything's so fucked

Prod. @alanelzio <3

Everything's Fucked [Elzio x Quitall]

(Lyrics)
-Grimm Gem-
What you want yuh
I be moving fast not slow tonight
Running out of time
Bitch boy know your place alright

-Shadow Jay-
Leave me alone
I don't need no bitch
Barking down my throat
Fuck the lies that you told
Selling my soul
Just to curse those I loathe
Come to the door and I'll harvest your soul

Hold up
Fucking poser
Step to me again
I'll end ya 
With a hammer
Cause you're a fish
to me a beta you done messed up
Cuz I'm the shark and you the bait
so take a hammer to the head and drop dead yeah

-Grimm Gem-
Reaper
I'mma rip ya
Send you to your maker
New year
Fucking kill ya
It is now or never
I'll live till December
You don't even matter
Your bitch is whatever oh

What you want yuh
I be moving fast not slow tonight
Running out of time
Bitch boy know your place alright

-Shadow Jay x Grimm Gem-
Birds of a feather
Ya'll flock together
Deciding whether
I should end you forever
Cap wearing liars
Playing with fire
Little Bitch Boy and the Bitch that's his partner

Ft. @user-636357554
Prod. Sorrowbringer x @luffysome <3

Bxtch Boy w/Shadow Jay [Luffysome x Sorrowbringer]

-Official Lyric Music Video-
https://youtu.be/3iml6BYox6Q?si=QSXth3WMD5Y2XwWy

Available on Spotify now :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/1wgJP9PMyY4rDUWDVelfnI?si=0fba195d0e5f4bf0

(Lyrics)
I been moving too fast
Now I'm paying the price
About time I'm gonna crash
Wastin' all of my time

Live fast, Die young
That's the motto of my life
Ain't nobody give no fucks
Till the day we're not alive

Suicide Suicide
I seen people tryna die
Suicide Suicide
I'm just fucking one of them
So what So what
Swallow shit to get me high
I don't even wanna try
Do not stop me bitch I'm fine

I'm alright yeah I'm alright
My minds a mess and I don't know why
Kinda' tired fuck the grind yuh
Never even wanted to open my eyes

Staying up the whole night
Dont even know what to write
Supressing them all inside
Imprisoned within our minds

Headed into overdrive
Struggling to find the light
See ya'll in the afterlife
After all we've sacrificed

I'm alright yeah I'm alright
My minds a mess and I don't know why
Fucking shit up all the of time
So I never wanna open my eyes

I been moving too fast
Now I'm paying the price
About time I'm gonna crash
Wastin' all of my time

Live fast, Die young
That's the motto of my life
Ain't nobody give no fucks
Till the day we're not alive

Suicide Suicide
I seen people tryna die
Suicide Suicide
I'm just fucking one of them
So what So what
Swallow shit to get me high
I don't even wanna try
Do not stop me bitch I'm fine

Thank you @ciche-jarn for the instrumentals <3

Crash & Die [Ciche&Jarn] MV in Desc.

(Lyrics)
-Grimm Gem-
It's now 2 on this lonely night
I need something to ease my mind
You know that I'm a mess alright
but still I'll tell you that I'm fine
I'm all alone again tonight
Pop me a Xan to ease my mind
Close my eyes and take my life
then maybe I'll see the light
  
Lately I've been feeling down
so I'll just numb myself
And what's the point in living
if my brain's in constant hell
Shit's been crazy
Life's been hectic
I'm not doing well
I've been fighting
I've been struggling
How much time has gone by now?

Destroying my body, that's what I've been doing
Wasting all of my time, praying that I fucking die

-P0nd3rr-
I been hoping Imma fucking die
I'm a little piece of shit
Didn't deserve a chance on my life
Told god if he doesn't want me here then take me alive

I barely made it out of a hell most people won't survive
and I'm in my moment trying to grind
but all I feel is failure when it comes down
And I can see it in your eyes no one wants me around
Just a waste of space standing on this ground
And I'm ashamed the pain I bring because
I'm negative and you can fucking see 
And never believe things will get better in my dreams
Then let me go rot in my fucking agony

As I slowly wallow away
If that's okay
Still stuck in this pain as I float in this state
Hoping you won't see me decayed
Dead like a zombie buried in his grave
Then I'll sail it on it like a wave

Ft. @lilpon22
Prod. @deadspyro <3

Ease My Mind w/P0nd3rr [Dead Spyro]

Available on Spotify now :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/6KkaVHz14x2hAuHPaCY5Fn?si=09ca961635ed4a9a

(Lyrics)
Lowlife me won't ever learn my lesson
Codeine with some whiskey that's my medication
Pop another bean until I drown my feelings
I got blood on my ceiling think I'm better off dying

Sorry to my mum I know she hates it
Poisoning my body its so complicated
All these money I been making they don't mean shit
Many people in my life they just fake care

Walking down this road all by my own
I don't need no company I got my Styrofoam
Turn on airplane mode I wont pickup my phone
Used to being alone feeling like a ghost

Got no where to go
I'm a wreck I know
It's just skin and bones
I wont be growing old

Got no where to go
I'm a mess I know
Wait for overdose
Reaper taking me home

No where else to go
Death is coming close

Lowlife me wont ever learn my lesson
Codeine with some whiskey that's my medication
Pop another bean until I drown my feelings
I got blood on my ceiling think I'm better off dying

Sorry to my mum I know she hates it
Poisoning my body it's so complicated
All these money I been making they don't mean shit
Many people in my life they just fake care

Walking down this road all by my own
I don't need no company I got my Styrofoam
Turn on airplane mode I wont pickup my phone
Used to being alone feeling like a ghost

Prod. @everestdidthis

Feel Like A Ghost [Everestdidthis]

Hey. 
Thank you if you listened to my songs 🖤
I am still learning and improving :(
-08/07/22-

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