losing focus【ilykaden dylann niilex  jorder】

prod @winter

[nurse]
i really dont want u to go...
id rather listen to your lies...

but does it matter
now u let me go
left memories up to shatter
u know that i struggle
my heart is fragile
because u hurt me
it turned me to shadow

i really dont want u to go!
(ill hold your heart 
while you hurt my soul) 
id rather listen to your lies!
(and stare at your eyes
while youre stabbing my back)

i really wanted to be yours
ive wanted to be close
even if youre the one 
that hurts the most
keep on trying my best
i only make it worse
nothing ever makes sense
i guess im gonna fall

ill be on my own
i gotta move on
i cant let it go

i carry burden 
deep inside my soul
i dont feel like
getting further
dont get me bothered
it doesnt matter
im so unhealthy
cant break the pattern

attached (winter)

after a year we're back

cover art https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/431873

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@remiliaxd :

(oh oh oh)
(oh oh oh)
(yeah yeah yeah)
(yeah yeah yeah)
(yeah yeah yeah)

(it's a new day, now it's too late)
(i'm done with this world, i'm done with this game)
(i'm sorry about what i said, there's no one else to blame)
(and i regret what i did, and now it's not the same)

i say the worst things, i can't take it
you gave your heart, and i hope i don't break it
i lost myself in the noise, it's always changing
so shift your focus to the other side

on the other side
where the creatures hide
i'll lock myself in a cell and try to face it
there's a battle constantly inside

@hay2k : 

hate myself when I see you
love and hate, cause I never saw the real you
mind is fogged, there's no clarity without you
tethered to my fate but i can never understand you

yet i tend to keep on trying
tried so hard my mind is dying
but with you i want to fly
we'll be soaring through the sky
till' we reach the other side

@fabs4k : 
 
looking over the edge
i'm at the top of the hill
i'm at the end of the ledge
i can't see the sunlight
i'm waiting for the end of night
i feel the same
turn your back on me
make me take the blame
why do i feel down?
feel like i'm gonna drown

@wistual :

i cant breathe
i dont wanna cause a scene
but without u here
i just cannot sleep

i need u in my arms
without it i just cry and weep
 
cant u see im so fucking weak
i dont know who to call when im on my knees

i sing all my problems 
i just hope to find peace

@yudere :

welcome to the other side
i know that it'll be alright
its been a minute since we never talked 
yeah im alright
and i lost myself again
i didnt really know how
i just rlly felt forgotten

so face it
everytime you talk to me 
it feel so helpless

i cant do this anymore, i need some closure
was this all a lie or was this all forgotten

@gtzest : 

I don't like it when you lie, to me 
Your words cutting me deep and its making me bleed
If you need my help, I will be showing up to the scene
It don't really matter where the hell you be
9% in my system
Drinking with my homies
Till the morning
Turn it up with the homies
We be on it
It helps me cope with your shit
To be honest

@user-863511989 :

ときめきすらも壊して
いま君が横に居ても僕は癒えないよ
最果ての結果…
まだ僕は残したことがあって
君に向けた手紙ばかり増えて
捨てる負の感情
僕はわかるよ君の廃れた感情
忘れてかないで
置いていかないで
後にみた夢で君を探して
君は居ないよ？
何処へ向かってる？
朝4時に向かう渋谷の街頭
(あぁ…もう君なら…)
今何処を歩いてるの？
(探し求めて)
この霧掛かる朝に君は居なくて

@kyxtsnxwy : 

i need you by my side
cold winter nights
it’s time we hide

baby, you shine so bright
my life has light

send me to the sky
april, please don’t cry

on the other side +remilia, hay2k, fabs, wistual, kairyu, zest, disxa, kyxtsnxwy (remilia)

beat decago&yashio mix.mastering decago

goat

shikisai (decago&yashio)

@gtzest @1kuraudo (prod. @1ohmygon! + @rlbeats)

OUT ON ALL PLATS ! ! !
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/cengi/nobody-but-u-feat-zest--kuraudo

[Intro: zest]
Girl, I know that you like me
It could be normal to you but it feels like a dream
Everything is not what it seems
It's like a lie, we the actors straight from a movie scene

[Bridge: zest]
I could love you forever
Baby, will you always stay the same?
You could say it's now or never
Even if we restart, we'll do it again

[Chorus: cengi]
I got nobody but you
Baby, just stay by my side
You know that I need you

I got nobody but you
Baby, just stay by my side
You know that I need you
You know that I need you
You know that I need you

[Verse: kuraudo]
Hey, it's Cloud again
Back on my usual shit
Warning everybody, this ain't usual shit
Shoutout cengi, we're going off
Could never quit

Yeah
She ride me like it's Six Flags, an attraction
And she keeps teasing me, but she won't get a reaction
Shoutout @01ws, that's the mf'in faction

But what am I supposed to do?
I cannot get close to you
But I still love you
You know that I need you

She shot at my heart like she Cupid
I'm still cautious though like I ain't stupid
But I know for a fact that she is an exception
'Cause for a long time, haven't felt this affection

[Bridge: zest]
Baby, will you always stay the same?
You could say it's now or never
Even if we restart, we'll do it again

[Chorus: cengi]
I got nobody but
I got no- no- no
You know that I need-need
I got you nobody but you
Baby just stay by my side
You know that I need you
You know that I need you
You know that I need you

*(cover art by Minayeon_ from Pinterest)*

nobody but u!

nobody but u! // +zest +kuraudo (@1ohmygon! + @rlbeats)

prod :zan
lyric : miomaguro
mix/mastering : miomaguro
@n4zzz

--lyric--

誰にも見つからないように
あなたが描いた僕らの物語
Tell me about what happened today
朝焼けに手を伸ばして
ひとり眩い光の中で
But not without you

この世界の片隅で
流れる時は淡くて
きっと僕らは未完成
Sorry for being selfish

少しだけ息を止めて
Snow globeの中に沈んでゆく
フィルムみたいに色が褪せて
いつか全て忘れて旅に出る
ファインダー越しに紡がれるストーリー
この声が君に届きますように

Living Things （zan）

lumps of sounds

traktra.in/link.twopaww

loop kit : https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1XQRhoOOuqV8g_JV-p4bvuy2u2tkdYJTw?usp=sharing

#winter2k23 clips #loopkit ｡.:*☆

prod : miomaguro
lyric : miomaguro
mix/mastering : miomaguro+xiinq
@1_xiinq
来年もよろしくね(๑•᎑<๑)ｰ☆

--lyric--

降りるはずの駅は後ろ
形を変えて浮かぶ雲
窓辺に咲いたあの花の
名も知る前に冬が来たよ
I was clod shivering all night long
Peace of mind is all I want
覚めた街並み僕を照らす街灯
かじかむ指先繋ぐ手と手を

笑えなくたっていいよ
嘘で強がんなくたっていいよ
微熱でも溶けてしまいそうに
連れてってあなたの元に

透過して差し込む陽射し
冷めた冬の匂い
可視化した吐息
枯れた葉の景色
色褪せた世界
遠くて見えない
Baby float moon 死ぬより甘い

slight

Lyrics

I just wanna do this
I don't wanna do that
Yall can't hold me down so don't even try and test
I just wanna do this
I could never do that 
Yall can't hold me down so just give it a rest

I don't need your seconds, I did this on my own
Back then people used to ask me where I'm from
I'm not where I started, I'm a long way from home
Please don't fuck the vibe up, I be in the zone

Oh yeah this is my destiny okay
I could never ever be like you
俺の運命I just made it yeah
I do what I want, cause thats what I do

I just checked my phone and see whats up
My homie said get ready
Its time to put up a show
I just gotta show up
I cannot let em down
I be with the bros, I'm not on my own
I go fast like a phantom
Bust out an instrumental 
Gotta burn it up, gotta turn it up a level
We be going crazy, all of us are mental
Critical hit yeah hit em with the fatal

Wanna do this? (prod Woonerf)

prod : dercept
mix : Shiorii

〔yuri_oyasumi〕

退廃的なmovie夜が耽る
曖昧な人生嫌気がしてる
単純に僕は僕が嫌いです
死体です

感情とか愛を可視化して
苛まれないようにしたって
隣の芝生は青に染まってる

〔dylqn〕

何も考えられない
How did I get here
when you said itd all be fine
why did i trust you
背景から抜け出せない
If i disappeared
誰も気にしない
was it all true

Did I said it one too many times
Tell me what would it take to make it right
And when I try to change
I cant decide 
何度も繰り返される
僕は僕が嫌い

〔yuri_oyasumi〕

春の風が
芽吹いた世界の朝が
どこまで続いているかは
僕には見えないけど

白む空と凪いだ君の声が
此処まで届いているから
今日を歩いてしまう

Hate Me + dylqn (dercept)

ene:+lovesickxo,angelicxmei,2504(junior)

Instagram → https://www.instagram.com/zk_zest/
Discord → gtz67
DM me if you wanna work together ◝(⑅•ᴗ•⑅)◜..°♡

Wanna do this? (prod Woonerf)

Zest

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