lyrics
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i've been ridin thru the city in the dark while it's lifeless
inside this car is where i found my fucking light switch
stopped doing stupid shit like knife hits
this life isn't priceless
y'all back home the reason imma write this
you a lame lame
it's a shame shame
you took your picture
outta the frame frame
i thought you changed changed
you playin games games
i hardly know you
we ain't the same same
you tryna blame blame
oh what a claim claim
who is the person
that you became came
couldn't relate late
my path is paved paved
so i just packed up & got away way

a-okay
yeah i'm smiling with the sun in my face  
i said wait okay
now the rains pickin up tryna put me in my place
i said wait wait okay kay
borrowed time till im in a grave grave
gonna dig dig and they gon take take
the same ones attending my wake wake 

when the bass hit bass hit
i went back to basics
scrapped another album
i ain't working on no lame shit
genre clashing all the time but i ain't ever lane switch
some of you just play the role while i've been on the same shit
seven in the morning i'm just tryna start my day shit
whippin to the coffee shop the soundtrack on my playlist
horror film apparel chrismas carols on my feet though
peril sent the beat & i just hit it like a cheat code
flipped through all the pages read a story bout a hero
thought i could relate cause at one point he was a zero
time will tell my story if my time is one to borrow
live it how you want cause you might never wake tomorrow

never wake tomorrow all that's left is your achievements
fillin up my cup in hell along with all your grievance
-is it kinda funny how my death changed your perception
was it all coincidence or was it my intention?
deafening to most but some will understand the story
i don't want it all but i want outta purgatory
so it wrote a song or two in hopes that i could reach it
found another key inside my soul i'm playing defense
with it cause i gotta i don't wanna lose control
cause the weight of all the words excused sit still inside my soul
i'm mistreated by my friends sometimes so i stand all alone
i don't fuck with anybody it's a waste of what i know

i don't really think i know you you're a undeveloped mold
it's the people you hold close to you that treat you fucking cold
they stay plotting on the kid & take a bid on when i'll fold
then they wonder why i'm distant and so hard to get ahold
of the people in your life how many gotchu till the grave
probably one or two be honest with yourself and not ashamed
yeah the good ones hard to come across but when you do it's great
life is beautiful in solitude i really can't complain

borrowed time (prod. peril x suli x gwapmane)

rooftop thoughts

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Ｉ＇Ｍ　Ａ　ＨＥＡＴＨＥＮ

//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

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guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

@guccihighwaters

produced by @notmorgn

lyrics: 

guccihighwaters:

i think i’d be good with a sedative 
anything to fucking stop the trembling
shit baby put a bullet to my brain
waste of fuckin space i guess i was just replaced
hood and the headphones don’t wanna talk to you
don’t take it personal i always feel uncomfortable
i guess its a part of me
hard to breathe when im at the party

for once aim your love in my direction 
cut me open baby kill my imperfections
for once just for once i crave all your attention
this is not a life with the loss of your affection

9TAILS:

i think id be good with a sedative
anything to bring me closer to emotionless
life is boring when you take out all the additives
live in the illusion or youll only make depressing shit

beamer go skr
uber gon swerve
cold as a bitch in the city
when you hit pavement just know it gon hurt

putting in work
grape juicy papers filled with the purp
shit baby put a bullet to my brain
come and shut me down cause im tired of this earth

i could see snow in toronto
we got some snow in the condo
smellin the dank cause that people
that entered dont know that were keeping the door closed
friends switching like time zones
blunt flicking keep my eyes low
in a new form like a super saiyan
you base form like a zygote

salt stains on my nikes
winter weather too silent
phone screen low brightness
6 digit pin cause im private

truth is gon hurt
u do not know what is best for me
like a non profit or a charity
this shit aint a cheque to me

this is building up a masterpiece
raw emotion is the centre piece
like goku i got enemies 
but none of them match my energy

your power level not testing me
like god form can you follow me
im down as hell but this backwoods got me bouncing back like a senzu bean

BOTH:

for once aim your love in my direction 
cut me open baby kill my imperfections

9TAILS & guccihighwaters - for once (prod. notmorgn)

ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＬＥＴ　ＧＯ

//私はコントロールを失う//

s/o to two of my favorite people 
@convolk
@hatefulbeats

lyrics
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guardin
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this is the last time you'll see me
believe me
or not
i don't really care
drove by in my van & she wasn't even there
i'm fallin' apart while you're playing with his hair
probably gonna fuck but do you even dare
a lot of people say i'm losing control
i think i know where i should go
fuck sleep i don't ever wanna let go
don't let go

convolk
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under the bed
the pillows and sheets
get out of my head
i wander the streets
it's easy to see
the blood that we bleed
i'm not meant for you
you're not meant for me

i guess this is it
we’ll cry til we’re sick
i'm hitting continue
and you’re hitting quit
i'll go one way
and you’ll go the other
this is the last time
we’ll speak to another

photos of you
i threw them away
but i cant throw away the memories
at least now we’re done pretending
after all the times we said things
ok

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photos of you (feat. convolk)(prod. by hateful)

a mess, inside a body of a man

featuring my friend @guardinmusic

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

lyrics: https://genius.com/thebreathingbackwards-what-i-am-lyrics

blackheartemoji

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what i am (ft. guardin)

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@syndrome-beats

Life is a fuckery
People that you used to be
Best of buds with might turn out to be an enemy
Earn your stripes
Get em swiped this world don't have no referee
Treat their friends like doodle shit while you remain the centerpiece
It does have a moral code
You fuck up you really gotta let em know
Accept the negativity and let it show
They your brothers, if anyone would, they'd let it go

Getting out of bed my body got more heavy
Family balancing controllers tryna keep me steady
All this fucking power from the ones who love me
Despite the ups and down I never been more ready

Eating alphagetti 
In the morning ‘fore I leave
Got a 8 hour flight somewhere out east
And all that's on my mind is how I'll let you eat
For the past 20 years you allowed me to breathe

That goes to my mom dad brother and my g's
Stay gassin me up and that's what gave me all the steeze
I was was stuck in debt and I was still buying weed
Man would pull through with some harveys and a deegs 
When I poured it out and had no blood to bleed
Man would rise against the circumstance and help me from my knees

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
What vibe am I on
I'm just tryna accomplish something
I'm just tryna accomplish something
Before I die before I'm gone

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
Do not know what vibe I’m on
Music will stay when I’m gone

When I’m stepping on the block
See I’m gliding to the top
Call me Deku, I’mma drop
Anyone trying to talk

Breathing heavy in the wild
Lips sweet like black and mild
Nothing brighter than her smile
I’d run mile after mile

Deceive what I see like the shape of a column
Fear stems out from all of my problems
Shaking I’m feeling more and more solemn
I don’t think that I ever will solve em

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solemn - ft. 9tails (prod. syndrome)

[+] stop talking words are useless.
* featuring @trechorboy + @sushisai * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
you could take my love and you could throw it out
got me looking at the stars when you not around
thats why i be jaded, fuck what u be sayin
i ain't even playin when i say that i'm make it
i don't feel anymore, eyes hella sore
i got the bag and it's Christian Dior
i'm callin for you, i'm callin for you

[verse: 2 trechor boy]
gas inhalation took me on vacation 
 i never get love i hate the sensation 
a life worth lived makes no sense 
cuz  we all die in da fuckin end like

lemme paraphrase Thoreau, he said
“rather love, money, faith, show me da road”
and i uh, i guess i understand that now
dont vibe with the lies they be tellin u now

[verse 3: suisai]
stop talking words are useless
can never hold up
What did you expect it 
to be different 
Shouldlt even have to convince
but they all look from outside
Walls could cave in at
Any givin moment
it looks like its the time to
Stop wishin for it to get better
And wash that pain away
Pitter patter of rain on the rooftop
i could lay in this bed all day
  And think And listen and look 4
For a sign pls remind me again
what really matters at the end of all this

[chorus: seejayxo + trechor boy]
like i want it all too
fuck it i'll fall through
i thought i loved you
i thought i loved you
like i want it all too
fuck it you'll fall through
i thought you loved me
i thought you loved me

useless

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useless (feat. trechor boy + suisai)

lyrics
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if you knew me
you wouldn't like me at all
if you took the time to think then maybe this could dissolve
this is pointless
wasting fucking time till i fall
back asleep and in my dreams 
i do not wake up at all

voices scream inside my head another migraine to come
i'm deranged goin insane until my body is numb
disassociate create another problem your call
straight to voicemail cause i do not wanna pick up at all

if you knew me (prod. ryini)

(kindmile)
And I hate your guts but I love your bones 
And I love you more the more you break down my hope 
Oh beauty is pain so the devil must reign 
Oh loving you to death it would end in vane 

I couldn’t give a fuck it I tried 
Cuz someone out there piping the love of my life 
Nah I couldn’t give a fuck if I died 
But I bet there’s someone out there thatd gladly trade lives 

I don’t fear sharks and I don’t fear drowning 
Once ur heads below the surface it’s just another day 
I don’t fear heights and I don’t fear flying 
I just fear the day to come where I forget your name 

You’re so fucking different now 
You’re like everybody else in this shitty town
You don’t like me you don’t believe in me
I fucking hate that I gave you a piece me 
I bet you think about me like you never ever knew me 
Bitch you dumb fake like a shitty toupee 
I’ll rip a page from your book I want you no where that I look
id do anything it took to get you out my minds nooks 

and I hate your guts but I love your bones 
and I love you more the more you break down my hope 
oh beauty is pain so the devil must reign 
oh loving you to death it would end in vane

(sewerperson)
cold winter nights
in your arms
the blood inside of her is keeping me warm
i promise im just checking if ur alright
baby i dont wanna fight like last time
could you heal me
of my damage
i feel so alone on this planet
i lay awake at night in your mattress
baby open up i need access

crows fly off my window sill
she told me draw my blood so she can tell if im real
blue seeps out from my open wound
she said as long as you love me i can love you too
and she cant be replaced ah
baby kiss me slow i miss the taste
she look me in my spirit everytime i grip her waist
she pushing back against me while she hold me by the face
if its true love we could always power thru the hate

(kindmile)
And I hate your guts but I love your bones 
And I love you more the more you break down my hope 
Oh beauty is pain so the devil must reign 
Oh loving you to death it would end in vane

if you knew me (prod. ryini)

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