lyrics:

Just holidays
And barely those holidays
Our good terms
Are not immune to decay 
I tried but im still away
And you’ve been fucking his brains out 
Don’t look at me as if there was a sorry to say

I would care but
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

 Ive never met someone so geared on my failure good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into ur shitty life huh
When I die an early death I hope that u can cope when the hatred in ur heart is now evicted with my pulse

Break the home
Breaks my bones and see my soul snapped too
Im alone most the time ur not restricting anything new
I like getting scary I do I know ur tryna be a boss good for u
What the fuck they turn me down for
 I am never going out more
I guess he wasn’t a regular guy
I hope u choke on ur vomit and die
My messages aids I do not open them
Im high as fuck from this bud its like opium
I don’t wanna live to get by
Ur literally here once and its over after that u fucking idiot do what u want ur done after this u fucking dumb ass u suck I fucking hate u
 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

Im torn apart and I am dirty
If its like this fuck 30
I wanna die right now
Baby im sorry im fucked I can’t talk right now
She lies
She just loves him to death
I dont compare to that hex
I suck the tits off her chest
Times waits
For nobody
Crossed lines
Become common knowledge
Bullshit u were with friends that’s bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view
  
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

better_off_nUmb (splashgvng)

lyrics:

I forgot the way about 10 miles ago
Ive heard to use the stars to help and walk me home
But Its hard to see anything aside from the moon
She said Its never been the same since the town lost u
The storm hit hard way harder than most
U shouldve been inside when it got that close
I pass thru the rubble heaps and I call to a ghost
Fear can get the best of us but pride will take a soul
I fly thru the sky for 10 seconds at most
And I thought to use the gust to try and drop me home
And I tried to use the wind but found the telephone posts
I felt The clips pops thru me out the back of my throat

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

The clouds look fake again
But what’s wrong with u
Its still poison that drips down
That’s what they’re telling you
So what ur telling me
Is that its you vs everyone else
I think u think too much
I know I do it too
And it forced my to change shells
And I wish we didn’t have these fucking arguments
But we dont talk to anyone else
She said I know
What u dont
She said I could tell u
But u should know its brutal
Well fuck it then I dont need anymore trouble than I got
A quarter way is a long way when ur looking back at the drop
There’s nothing better than a friday except a Friday u forgot
Even when its just my place I feel a strong urge to get crossed
The night had always looked beautiful but this time its just so strong
Even after the worst of it im still happier than I thought

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

the stars came crashing down
as i wait for you in this dirt road town and i
cannot make this up if i wanted to
i’m just lashing out at life
i can’t let go
it’s a lil bit harder now
you taste like him
i’m a lil on fire now

light speed into the fray ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

You Could Stay w/ guardin (prod. Irby)

just another lil fun one cuz i miss my friends
creature pt. 3 otw
<3

lyrics
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you know it's import
-tant i can't ignore
feeling like forever might be shorter than before
it's been on my mind
all throughout the night
so me and all my friends go drink until we feel alright
till we feel alright
sprite ciroc and ice
down another cup but it gotchu feelin nice
might light up another slice
it ain't even noon but we gotta smoke twice
got a double in my cup
with a soda on the side
chicken noodle soup
way i'm spittin all this fried
with the gx engine we gon bring the coupe to life
in the tx 972 with all my guys

got my foot elevated while we drivin up the 5
06 ludacris followed by nelly furtado
breeze past you goofies in the sprinter with my gattos
feed lines to bitches off my dick like a silo
jesus where the pen at imma write another rap
jesus where the pen at im just trying to get smacked
ayy you kinda quiet is it getting to you bad
we a long way from home when home is all you've ever had  
i'll just redefine my character & get right in my bag
the tequila made it worse now i'm cursed with all this lag
eyes bloodshot crossed while i'm puffin on the zag
i don't wanna talk about it i don't really wanna drag 
you down with it
kiss another blunt go round with it
pop another top go drown in it
feelin like i got to
this pain heavy so the substance what i'm bound to

bound to round two
googling just how to
c-o-p-e cope with
-out chu out chu
(x2)

sour then sweet then i'm gone
feel like this tour wasn't long
nuff with the chit chat
man i miss my dogs
fuck it man i miss my dogs
control alt deleting this song
y'all really keepin' me strong
nuff with the bullshit
man i miss my dogs
started tallying the score
i think i've been here before
went from hollywood to venice
back to crying on the floor
i know this bout to be rough
you know you can call my bluff
we did everything we wanted
but everything's not enough

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

lyrics:


Gimme the quick revive cause my hearts done
When love is the focal point u bun the outcome
Im surprised to see at this function
Cause last time we were close u left my soul numb

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

I heal these wounds with plenty of alcohol
And now im sure I wouldn’t miss u at all on me
Until I think about the nights u were all on me
Oh my god
Alone at 3am in my bed I just miss you
The ghost of u can hit hard
If it weren’t for these drugs Id be gone
I hate that This drink give me courage to push on

Red leaves Fall fast
Us two Won’t last
Friction and Kickback
Good things Will Turn bad
No one had checked on me at my lowest point
So I developed on my own that’s why im to the point yea
Bedbug bites were on my thighs and back oh its bad
Plus people tried to put a price right on top my head

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

tbh (eric godlow)

lyrics
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trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

trapped in between these halls
asbestos inside the walls
it's getting harder to breathe
and lately i'm in the dark
unaware of where to start
i'm falling hard with the breeze
so tell me the truth are we both really losing our minds
in this state of delusion it's easy to lose track of time
and the hands on this clock haven't spun even close to align
-ing but
they'll come around (x4)

'til then i'm
trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

am i really here?
am i not?
is there anywhere that i ought to be
i ain't tryna stay here with these oddities
and honestly it's getting kinda hard to breathe
and hard to speak when barred with teeth
my tongue sittin in my mouth but it's hard to speak
i fall asleep with every fragment haunting me
my dreams turn to nightmares where they're calling me
like hey hi hello it's me how you doing
i'm a ghost to this place amidst of these ruins 
trippin' over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is fucking haunted

trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

haunted (prod. young taylor)

prod. @remghost x @irby314

lyrics
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we drink
we sink
we fall behind
it's all okay
it's all alright
the things you say
don't leave my mind
it's all okay
it's all just fine
i'm reminded of days
when the time wasn't raced
had my eyes to the sky
with my hands on your waist
i'm alive under rays
with the light in my face
but a ghost in the rain
with no name tag or plates on my car

i can see the shadows
dancing in the backyard
reaching for the stars
light up my reflection
chase me with your flashlight
you'll be running far
this was never worth it
we were never perfect
pretending we are
so drink until you're silent
laugh until you're smiling
hide another scar

she woke
he smoked
they talked it out
is that what love is all about
the things that come
out of your mouth
are vile when
you scream and shout
it's the fear of the unknown
that leads to eschew
all the rational choices
revolving round you
and the silence is scary
when matched with the truth
can we come out alive
or is death coming soon

as you weigh out your options
you then realize
all the pain you've endured
with no tears in your eyes
i'm amazed by the power
i hold deep inside
for some reason i'm here
for some reason alive

i can see the shadows
dancing in the backyard
reaching for the stars
light up my reflection
chase me with your flashlight
you'll be running far
this was never worth it
we were never perfect
pretending we are
so drink until you're silent
laugh until you're smiling
hide another scar

perfect (prod. remghost x irby)

lyrics:

cold snow
but its all mine
they love me but i dont know why
humans love pullin out life from the depths
but a pretty little thing dont hide
pretty little things dont hide
i tried to warn em but its too late
blood toothpaste
loud cries
i reach into his skull and make a snack of brown eyes
i didnt wanna so i couldnt say why
i know 100 ways to make a grown man cry
i flay the human body and i push it till it dies
i always learn a lot for me its quite a good time
minor avalanche will work to muffle blank cries
winter never felt so right

i am the yeti
i am the beast
when nobody knows you it gets easy to breathe
but when nobody likes you it gets easy to see
that misunderstandings solidify hateful beliefs
but child dont worry cause youre a wolf to the sheep
cause when nobody thinks its cause for easy defeat
you encroach on the camp when half the humans asleep
in 30 minutes alone ur picking bones from ur teeth

hows it feel to be animal
for me its incredible
i hope in given time youll say the feeling is mutual
i aint pick u specifically u were picked by the oracle
most these humans are nasty i hope u prove me impossible
most would take what they need and still come shit on ur funeral
they type out negativity from a 4 by 4 cubicle
u aint good with em anyway
lemme take out ur cuticals
u aint think u would die today but surprises are beautiful

low res pictures of figures in the snow (eric godlow)

lyrics
--------
remember when they said we wouldn’t strive
but we wrote it out and cracked the fucking code
remember when we lost our fucking minds
so sedated shit but now we on the road

the flowers out back if you wanna catch a glimpse
come thru to the crib you can see just how i grow
seltzer habit i’m a caffeine addict
two matches strike the pack so you can see the ember glow
full screen this one you gon wanna see the wrist
cause i’ve been icy in this bitch and it’s just me and all my bros
flow so clean i’ve been rolling in the deep
with a dell and a yeti maybe i should take it slow

wait
this the part that i haven’t yet made
ugh i hate when i’m alone in this place
my mind isn’t made up about today
but so far this weeks looking fucking great

monday we was in a gorgeous place
yeah tuesday we hit traffic in LA
uhh wednesday took another trip to the bay
yeah thursday drove for like 12 hours straight
ugh friday we was up in rose city
saturday just passed yeah it’s 1:43
now it’s sunday praying for another way
all i’m thinking bout in the van is your god damn face

i can’t hold back
you should know that
i shoulda never really hit you with that call back
i shoulda really thought about it before all that
now im alone in my room and it’s pitch black
pitch black
where my bitch at
i just got another on the way that shit is kick ass
i just made another dumb mistake and i cant list that
i’ll just kick it solo in my home let’s skip the chit chat

fuck this party
i ain’t leaving sorry
things aren’t looking great
and i
wish that i wasn’t 2,000 miles away
but let’s be honest
this is what you wanted
what can i say
lately i’ve been numbing all the pain when i step up on the stage

ember ft. eric godlow (prod. sorrow bringer)

Rackz Story - Joelrackz

a lil' flip of give me something by seafret that i did a few years ago
i was gonna add vocals but didn't think i could do it justice
<3

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

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