i hate me too

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

Thank you for everyone who has supported me and my friends! i will miss you flowars <3

Links-
@guardinmusic
@daddydandy

flowars x guardin x yung van - lavender dreams (Prod. charlie c)

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

FREE DOWNLOAD

Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

on a side note, rest in peace lil peep he was a huge inspiration and his music really helped me get through hard shit last year. I'm glad to have met him, we talked about music it was a day i won't forget.

sample credits: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6rDh75VHMs

prod. @notmorgn

im afraid you really can’t save me
but i still wanna lay with you until my visions fading
i have feelings no im not faded
i would wait a lifetime if you had the patience 
oh you cannot save me
im too deep in this
oh you cannot praise me
i’ve got demons in me

constant conflict 
with my own reflection
i ain’t got no sense
of direction 
when it comes to this
i just succumb to it
please enlighten me
all i hear is thundering
in a couple months
i hope to see some changes
maybe with this check 
i can get you that bracelet
it never happens my 
bank account is dead again
do you mind if we just kick it 
in my bed again
workin to hard 
to feel empty
im almost 20 but 
i feel like i’ve had plenty
wake up in a faze 
i feel like ecco2K
wake up everyday but
 i fight through the pain

im afraid you really can’t save me
but i still wanna lay with you until my visions fading
i have feelings no im not faded
i would wait a lifetime if you had the patience 
oh you cannot save me
im too deep in this
oh you cannot praise me
i’ve got demons in me

you cannot save me
im too deep in this
i have feelings
know i’d wait a lifetime

you can't really save me

vocals by: @guccihighwaters
produced by: me

My first step into the light.

Lyrics:

I been pretty scared to start shows
But that’s the first step if I wanna tour the globe
Inhale the fresh air right into my nose
You make me so happy I was sick of being alone

I got big dreams I got big ambitions
Baby won’t you come with me
I can see the light through the cracks and the seams 
I can get you anything I can make you pleased

I can make the PayPal flip like it’s an acrobat
I don’t wanna flex I just thought that you’d be proud of that
Yea pops imma make it on my own
I'm slippin up in school momma blowin up my phone

I can see the sunrise in the distance
I feel alive every time that we’re kissing
I know it will work 'cus that’s my only mission
Fuck all my opps I don't care if you ain’t listening

We weren’t close
Never held a conversation 
Done with giving out to people
That are faking

All my hard work
Is mine for the taking
I can’t even bake 
But I'm bringing all this cake in

Moved away from home long ago
But I get the same feelings when you’re close to me 
smile on my face how I'm ‘posed to be
i heard they bumpin’ gucci overseas

I can see the sunrise in the distance
I feel alive every time that we’re kissing
I know it will work 'cus that’s my only mission
Fuck all my opps I don't care if you ain’t listening

Still got a long way to go
Still got a long way to go
But I'll make it
I know ill fuckin' make it

I can see the sunrise in the distance
I feel alive every time that we’re kissing
I can see the sunrise in the distance
I feel alive every time that we’re kissing

Listen on Spotify

guccihighwaters - sunrise in the distance (prod. tootiredtocare)

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

@prodreaper
@guccihighwaters

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
kiss me in the rain or leave me at the front door
tell me you despise me tell me that you need more
tell me i'm a freak, tell me i'm insecure, mi amor mi amor

if i wanna dance with the devil i can ask
why you lock your phone baby tell me what is that
if you got an issue then you know i got your back
if he wants to meet you can say just, that

it won't come to floracion
i know that you kissed him i know that he put you down
he can find, someone else, he can throw, around

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
indecisive leaning on the vices i don't like advice, i just flip the light switch
sleep it off, overslept got missed calls, 
do not disturb on my phone got sick thoughts,

 mi amor, i wanna love you till my hearts sore, 
i was drowning in emotions, when i met you i really stopped choking
 but you deserve the world, i really mean that
i don't have it all, i know that you can see that,
 allot of things to explore, but i just want you behind this closed door

mi amor w/ guccihighwaters (prod.reaper)

prod. @notmorgn

these days i couldn’t care less
better off dead words better unsaid
growing up sucks and i’m losing my friends
don’t wanna be here if i’m on the edge
i’m tryna make sense of this
like maybe i’m not meant for this
growing up sucks and it builds more stress
if i take 2 more i won’t feel my legs

sometimes i care
i know it doesn’t seem like
i give a fuck about the
next thing but
i could show you
we can grow too
i should’ve told you
it’s better when i hold you
you’re cold but I’m much colder
life sucks when we grow older
not as simple as it used to be
i’m not as happy as i used to seem like
maybe I’m just kind of messy in the head
kinda crooked like the sheets on my bed
i need a rest
can’t focus right
you should hold me tight
cause the next time we
meet ill be a poltergeist

can you not see i’m haunted by my shadow
can you not see im hanging from the gallows
set me free tonight i’ll do what you please tonight
can you not see i’m haunted by my shadow
can you not see im hanging from the gallows
set me free tonight i’ll do what you please tonight

these days i couldn’t care less
better off dead words better unsaid
growing up sucks and i’m losing my friends
don’t wanna be here if i’m on the edge
i’m tryna make sense of this
like maybe i’m not meant for this
growing up sucks and it builds more stress
if i take 2 more i won’t feel my legs

these days

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

and i know i’m not the one you're thinking of
but your love is like a drug and i can’t fucking get enough
i need your rush inside my veins, just load me up
let me die inside my sleep, this life is just too fucking tough
tell my mom, i’m sorry, but i just don’t give a fuck
i miss your voice, i’m not alright, my life is just so fucking dumb
can’t go a day without fucking something up
depressed as fuck, all i wanna do is cut

baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and you squeezed it till it broke
let me die inside the cold, i'm all alone, just let me choke
baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and your squeezing till it breaks
just let me die, i'm all alone, just let me fade

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

prod. @prodspyder
written by @lightninglogan

samples from You x Dracula

Ghost Me

SPYDER

ghost me [prod. spyder]

new single "deathwish" out now on epitaph records.

https://guccihighwaters.ffm.to/deathwish

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