strength;

i hate me too

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

prod. @notmorgn

all this alcohol does is just dumb my creativity 
but when im sober feel my pain just much more vividly 
and when im with you satisfaction like some symmetry 
u always crossing my mind like i was in the streets
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding 
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
wait what was plan b
cus i forgot that
inspiration yeah u know 
i fuckin lost that
your heart 
oh yeah i fuckin broke that
im so sorry im so sorry
lifes too short 
and everything kills you
u annoy me bitch
dont ask me if i feel you
whats with this petty shit
just hit my phone now
home alone alcohol in my dome now
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
im too fucked yeah i can't even text you
im too anti social spending days up in my bedroom
four loko reappearing in the rest room
i dont really care cus imma go to bed soon
and all this nature all it does is congest me
now all my music all it does is express me
and all this nature all it does is congest me
thats all it does
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b

oh fuck im drunk

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

FREE DOWNLOAD

Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

if i die baby (prod. reaper)

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

a mess, inside a body of a man

featuring my friend @guardinmusic

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

lyrics: https://genius.com/thebreathingbackwards-what-i-am-lyrics

blackheartemoji

spotify

what i am (ft. guardin)

lyrics:
so tell me that you miss me
i want you to kiss me
drown it in the whiskey
love you till i'm dizzy
love you 
till my heart stops
in your hands
in your hands
the ghost of you
floats in the smoke
i'm a joke
every aching night
stay awake
burning photographs
tell myself
i won't ever relapse

wake up in my bed
with the thoughts stuck in my head
my wrists are looking red
cuz of all the blood i shed
texting you at 2
baby you know what to do
call me up again
i wanna hear your precious voice
let me haunt your dreams
with the time that we were teens
hear my final song
while you hit your parents bong
i know that you don't care
i'm wishing i was there

so tell me that you miss me
i want you to kiss me
drown it in the whiskey
love you till i'm dizzy
love you 
till my heart stops
in your hands
in your hands
the ghost of you
floats in the smoke
i'm a joke
every aching night
stay awake
burning photographs
tell myself
i won't ever relapse

do it for the fans
never switching plans
heart in my own hands
throwing up a couple grams
you never even cared
talking shit like i'm not there
but i see you in his hair
like the weed that's in the air
baby i know you've been playing me
you got me torn in my heart
watching it all fall apart
watching it all fall apart

tell me that you miss me

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tell me that u miss me

prod by @notmorgn

lyrics:

baby let me show you that i’m not worth it
i can show you that i’m not perfect
if you can see through me
can you find the missing piece
i think i lost it when i lost you
i shoulda kept you but i tossed you
i think about things i’m not supposed to
i think about if i never knew you
it’s pretty sad where my mind goes
rather be a ghost in my room with the blinds closed
i wish i felt alive
i wish i felt the knife in my back that night

i pulled you up
i showed you love
when you were down
i was your crutch
where’d you go?
i’m all alone
i need some help
at least some hope
you pushed me away
i turned so cold
i didn’t wanna breathe
imma vanish in the smoke
you vanished from my arms
i left to go home
you fell in love with drugs
got the xanax in your coat

and i bite my tongue
cause i know that you’re lying
too many reasons
just not to fight it
plus i got too much thoughts
if i add another
i might really combust
i can’t even move
when i think too much
and when we turn up
i think we drink too much
you say that i suck
cause i don’t hit you up
it’s not what you think
i just don’t wanna get hurt
all your friends
think you’re the best
behind that mask baby
you look depressed
i know you you know i saw it
undressed you look so flawless

i pulled you up
i showed you love
when you were down
i was your crutch
where’d you go?
i’m all alone
i need some help
at least some hope
you pushed me away
i turned so cold
i didn’t wanna breathe
imma vanish in the smoke
you vanished from my arms
i left to go home
you fell in love with drugs
got the xanax in your coat

crutch

(PROD. BY @prodlxve x @kvnny)
engineered @kvnny

lyrix

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

every single day
moving faster like a race
and im hoping that i crash
saw 200 on the dash
fuck a red light
stop sign
i cant give a fuck no
i aint got time
stopwatch
that rolly dont tick tock

woah

if i said it then i mean it
i choose you like
eenie meenie
told you that im never leaving
and you still do not believe me
so i put it in the past 
i cant see you like im stevie
so ill put it on a track
so you see me on the TV
im a rockstar
cant stop till they know it
really hoping i dont blow it
cause i really wanna show it
show show up with the flex
let em know that im up next
yung ghosty with the checks
yung ghosty with the checks

woah
yea i got the checks like its nike
running round my town i think they like me
neck and wrist is icey
baddie treat me nicely
yea
shes bad for my psyche
yea

must have met you in a past life
odd are i loved you then as well
but right now you make me so mad
make me feel so sad
woah

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

empty (p. lxve x kenny)

New album 'DEATH BY DESIRE' out now on Epitaph Records https://guccihighwaters.ffm.to/deathbydesire