💔 this bring me back memories. of my baby and I listening to this. now it's just memories.rip baby

"this world is not made for the sake of people like me" ♥️♥️♥️

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

prod. @notmorgn featuring @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFHw9ImuMok

guccihighwaters:

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

rot all alone cus i stay locked in my home
i only see the fucking light when my friends are getting stoned

i don't smoke that shit my brain to fucked up
if i could i would i always seem to the worst luck
anxiety embedded in my bones
when i turned 10 man i always felt all alone

9 years later you know im still floating
above the rough ocean treading in emotions
sippin on the potion plan to turn my ghost in
i will fade away no one ever fuckin knows me

9TAILS:

side note ps i would go back
to the scenes i keep seeing in my flashbacks
on the nights when i dream it never makes sense
cross the line and hurry back like im defense

breathe swallow air then i dive in the deep end
calmer under water love when everything is silent
seeing faces even when im not dreaming
tell me are they real i really hope that you can see them

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

side note (feat. 9TAILS)

prod. @blacklunged

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
not goin out like i dont make anymore plans
sitting in my room, staring at the ceiling fan
wait, whos your mans?
guess i forgot to ask that
you haunt my dreams, i can see you in my flashbacks
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

im unnatentive to these bitches like i go to class
reach for the holster, load it up, and then i cock back
up to my dome, running frantic like my last lap
fill the spaces with distractions
cuz you know im bouta snap
like the led on my pencil when i try and write
i smoke a blunt, then im sleepin for the whole night
i didnt answer cuz im busy talkin to the knife
throwin shade like we forgot about the sun light
sometimes its hard to fight back
wake up around noon
stuck in bed while i smoke the sack
black fingernails creeping down to your body
always fucking up like its way more than a hobby
fiendin for some love, so ill take what i can get
nothings ev-er enough, death would be the safest bet
got ashes on my clothes cuz everything about me’s gross
you said i always did the least but bitch i always do the most

people fade away like ghosts, i guess its for the better
loving at what cost? feel closer with the reaper
when i see her its like all time stops
cuz im asleep while the fucking rain drops

smoking packs while im alone
i write these songs and hate myself
this alcohol straight to my dome
and i dont pace myself
fuck a chaser
all i chase are these illusions 
happiness, a fallacy
ive come to the conclusion

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

Follow me <3

while the rain drops (prod. blacklunged)

prod. by @notmorgn

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide
please show me
you don’t have to

december in this town
coast breeze so i law low
she can have all of me
whenever she say so
make out more like heart attack
i’m a victim to my cardiac
the bass shake the speaker
like its under pressure
i don’t care if i peak
i just hate compressors
im a loverboy
i can never disguise
i can’t really go
i don’t know how to die

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide

im a loverboy
im a loverboy

dark night but im guided by ur halo
dark night but im guided by ur halo
dark night but im guided by your halo
panic alone im fearful of failure

rooftop just
lookin at the stars
hold my hand
we can drive in my car
2AM
and im playin guitar
on the real
don’t wanna see us apart
i love my friends
but some wanna die
im just tryna help
them stay alive

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide

loverboy

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

Ｉ＇ＬＬ　ＲＵＮ　ＳＯ　ＦＡＲ　ＦＲＯＭ　
ＴＨＥＳＥ　ＳＨＡＤＯＷＳ

//私の心の断片//

lyrics
-------
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

all my fault (feat. Softheart)

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1W8tSHLnTM
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4SDrYcibOoKqswDN3Y1Kb8?si=Frc39TndQH-Xq90uCpOe3g

Lyrics:
Got this burden in me stirring tossing turning
Working on a better me is it worth it worth it
You deserve it thats what she said
But she's perfect I'm the only she'll regret
Woah there don't you go there that's what she said
No fair you don't know where I've been sleeping
No care you were nowhere blank and speechless
But she's perfect I'm the one she'll regret

Memories on reread we can't reset
Drowning in the deep end every weekend
I've been searching I've been seeking fighting demons
Needing something to believe in need a reason
So stay with me lil bae
Don't play with me no games no way
So stay with me lil bae
Just lay with me run away with me

Got this burden in me stirring tossing turning
Working on a better me is it worth it worth it
You deserve it thats what she said
But she's perfect I'm the only she'll regret
Woah there don't you go there that's what she said
No fair you don't know where I've been sleeping
No care you were nowhere blank and speechless
But she's perfect I'm the one she'll regret

Feel like a burden I feel like a waste
Blunts I be burning take two to the face
Memories lurking wish I could erase 
Driving and swerving like this shit a race yuh
Lately been running in place
Drugs that I'm taking got me outer space 
Can't get no love and not notice the hate
Talking online but in person they fake yuh
I'm tryna cop me a wraith
Finest interior match with the bape yuh
I used to be such a saint
Kids looking up to me now but I ain't nah
I just be stacking my dividends 
Out there somewhere by the river bend
Used to be down on my luck I was down in the dirt
Found my purpose now I wanna live again
Can't do this shit again 
I been indifferent diamonds drip glistening
That shit don't matter just that u listening 
Hope that u listening

Wish I was a kid again
wish I was a kid again
X2

Got this burden in me stirring tossing turning
Working on a better me is it worth it worth it
You deserve it thats what she said
But she's perfect I'm the only she'll regret
Woah there don't you go there that's what she said
No fair you don't know where I've been sleeping
No care you were nowhere blank and speechless
But she's perfect I'm the one she'll regret

Music Video

Burden (prod. AIRAVATA) [VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

Track two from Make It Through Fall

Guitar Lyrics And Vocals: Lil Xtra
Additional production: Kado

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Lyrics: 
Yo I'm Doomed to a life of 7.25, 
No point living right won’t make it out alive 
Making plays downtown, let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the fucking codine in my sprite 
Leaning on the hollows in his fucking four-five like,
Put it to my head and we’ll see if I can fly 
He don’t really care if I’m impaired just stares, says 
What the fuck is up, bruh you really want to die? 
Yeah, I been blessed with a death wish 
I just hope that I die young and high like Hedwig 
I’ve been too distressed to address this
But I know I can’t be the only one who feels helpless 
And I’m sorry that I’ve been so selfish
I’d change if I could, but I just can’t help it 
But I know who I am, no need to pretend 
Guess I’m I’m still fucked up, and let down again.

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can’t see the sky to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I know I'm fucking different....

Why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me what her step dad did 
I keep the secret so she can pretend 
That her innocence hasn’t been lost in a sense 
So we go to the mall and buy some bullshit 
To block out how fucked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness 
I just need a check and some ice I can flex 
A few more drugs to feel a little less 
A few more hits and a girl that’s obsessed 
That loves all my shit and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything’s okay 
But the world’s so black and I’m so grey 
I hope in the end one day I’ll say 
I see the same old world in a brand new way

Cause I’ve been feeling down can’t wait until it passes 
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress 
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can’t be perfect I know that something’s missing

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can’t see the sky, to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I hope I'm always different

I hope
I hope
I hope...
I hope I'm always different

Different

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/bornhero for the amazing beat <3

lyrics:
where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i do not know
how to fit in
smoking me out
ripping a spliff  
everyone loves me when i go and dip
everyone loves me when i go and dip

everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
i'm stuck here 
writing simple songs
hope to take the pain away
when my eyes turn to gray
i know 
that my secrets buried deep below the bong
will release
every thought i'm feeling making me do wrong

where i belong
i will not know
every weekend i'm feeling so low
no where to go 
staying at home
staring at walls scrolling twitter alone
hit up my phone
leave you on read
people around treating me like i'm dead
feel like a ghost
no one will post
sit in my bed think about you again   

no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti
no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti

i take control of the whip in my mind
driving me places that i can't define
exploring the road, taking my time
lie to my friends when i say i'm alright
where have i gone
i do not know 
hop in the car and i'm driving alone
phone is on silent not trusting these tones
i feel the weight all the way to my bone

where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i take control of the whip 
going straight 90 i dip
exploring the vessel of me
tell me about what you see

where i belong (prod. born hero)

my attempt at self-defense

featuring my friend @guccihighwaters

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an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

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spotify

fucking up (ft. guccihighwaters)

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I Hope You Know I Mean It

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