Someday I’ll find my peace, far from another soul out in the wild where we should have always been 🫡

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Something's in the Way w/ guardin (Prod. Sinxi & Tagliatore)

VInyl & CD pre-sales

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//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
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music video

demons in my orbit

Thank you for everyone who has supported me and my friends! i will miss you flowars <3

Links-
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@daddydandy

flowars x guardin x yung van - lavender dreams (Prod. charlie c)

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

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//私の心の断片//

lyrics
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i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

ily all
@guardinmusic
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
prod @antongxldn

lyrics
sadeyes:
i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

don't act like i hate you, you know that i don't
you don't have a reason to blow up my phone

sit in the dark ima play my guitar
ima pray that i make it how have i 

made it this far
this far
this far 
this far x2

look at the night sky 
look at the stars
look at the bright side
look at my scars

emotionally bruise me when we fight in the car
every ounce of hate you carry tears me apart

how do i cope with the pain, every day you push me away
you wanna fuck and you know what i'll say
i don't need relationship shit in my way, stay out the way

guardin:
stay out my way i don't want you
drunk in my bed i won't fuck you
love isn't something i want dude
we're simply friends thought i told you

i don't wanna hear it anymore
your voice punctures through my head and i cannot ignore
anymore these advances are just smothering me quick
let me dabble in the gravel with my ganja and a bic

i think this winter left you colder than the breeze
i think you suffer from another lovers leave
might be just a sense of lust the love you have for me
anxiously outta focus i'm just hopin' i can breathe

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson


9tails:
too deep down in my brain again
i swam a little bit and drown
in my lonliness

emtions buried deep down arc reactor ironman
rip two bowls get high again
go face roll on life again

game unlocked
like im notch
tommy flag
on my socks
i dont care 
if u watch
but you cant chip in on this blunt
sad as fuck
so i stunt
drop a track
smellin skunk
smellin farts
in the smoke
from the weed not from my bum

girl i can tell that you like me ya
body and mind that could strike me ya
attitude ready to fight me
speaking her mind and i like it

heart breaker wear it like nike
did you the same and its high key
focused as fuck you cant sike me
ill cover my ears u cant mike me

emotions like blue when they snowball
i come alive at night fall
flow with some flavour like menthol
music turn into a day job

icy heart like a face off
she went back to take my face off
of the photos of us on her facebook
moving on like im driftwood

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

8pm w/ guardin & 9tails (prod. antongxldn)

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//誰も長く滞在しない//

i keep looking for love in all the wrong places. maybe one day things will be different.

lyrics
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and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think imma waste

more time scrollin' down my timeline
wish that i could hop up in my whip and go to five guys
somethings gotta give when i'm sky high
i'm not something super in the uber playin' i spy
disappear from everybody for a while
cause the air is getting thick within the radius of miles
suicide is on my mind & i can't bare to even smile
i can only get a taste cause happiness is versatile

and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think that i

probably could've tried harder
i tend to fall in love too quick with everybody's daughter
take my heart and they begin to slaughter
i'm a fuckin' wreck and my neck is lookin' like every other
boy that they've been bruisin' for a bit
i've been smooth cruisin' catalytic tendencies are in
love is just a four letter word that don't mean shit
cause i open up a bit too much & they just wanna dip

they just always fall back
i don't think i'll ever get a call back
why the fuck i go through all that
just for what we had to fuckin' fall flat

in my sleep

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//安定したあなたの呼吸//

i can't begin to thank you guys enough for everything we've accomplished, even just this year alone. i never imagined i would reach this point, but i am incredibly grateful of it & i promise it's only up from here. i'm sorry for a lack of releases lately, but i've kept busy with touring & meeting all of you beautiful people & i can't wait to do it again with these tours comin' up next year. i love you guys.

merry christmas <3

lyrics
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now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

i've been livin' my life to the fullest
anxiety comes but it won't sit 
got tossed in the bag but it won't zip
cause i killed my mind all in one hit
blast to the past & i feel it
the days we put stars on our ceilings
the tape on my hearts always peeling
and i do not find that appealing
so maybe i
contemplate strategize ways to ease my mind
sit awake and i bake all through the night
touch base with your face being close to mine
and maybe you
can't sleep cause your dreams never seem to soothe
so you spark in the dark tryna make your move
touch me & i fall but i play it cool

(lost in your embrace and i'm longing for your taste love
said we'd runaway but you hardly ever say much)

now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

snowflakes

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//再試行する//

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lyrics
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oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

oh why does it always feel like i’m a ghost
i’m floating in & out of all these homes
i don’t even have one to call my own 
i’ve been on tour for such a fucking long time
can’t remember what my bedroom looks like
cause hotel rooms and bnbs are all i
see when i’m away & i don’t know why
i signed up for this until i go live
talk me out of fighting with myself 
right now i could use some fucking help 
i scribble words until i feel myself 
homesick has never felt so fucking swell

oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

follow jody

at least i try (prod. jody)

lyrics
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i don't think i've
ever been this fucking stressed in my life
creature part two isn't finished i lied
just to get them off my back though i tried
i can't create when i'm dying inside
moving this weekend i wish i could fly
don't have my car but i still gotta drive
pack up the uhaul and tell my mom bye
hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

am i like this
i don't like this
all my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
losing sleep i drive all week and raise my mileage
guardin cut his fucking hair now i don't like him
depression take me by 25
fuck going out i'll just stay inside
this isn't you i say to myself every night lately i contemplate suicide
oh but you're famous online so your life must be great they say but that's a fucking lie
crawl into bed around seven a.m. and the headaches come full force i wanna die

hey holywood would your people ever like me?
misunderstood is all i ever might be

all i ever might be

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle

'gxf' comin' soon!

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