Man fuck it dude i’m 31 in a couple months time flew by and i didnt even see it...i tell myself i’ll do better but i dont always believe it. I struggle a fucking ton i never feel like a good person kind of a waste honestly...but at least i try

ive had this song on repeat since it came out, its my most streamed song on spotifyyyy <3

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//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
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music video

demons in my orbit

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//いいんだよ//

sample is be kind by alex g

no amount of words could ever express my love for you guys. thank you so fucking much for every single comment, like, conversation, etc. i live for this music & to know i've got that much support behind me is insane. you blow my mind. i love you guys.

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https://genius.com/guardin-take-away-the-pain-lyrics

lyrics

take away the pain

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//私の時間は終わった//

doormat

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

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ＴＨＥＳＥ　ＳＨＡＤＯＷＳ

//私の心の断片//

lyrics
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i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

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//安定したあなたの呼吸//

i can't begin to thank you guys enough for everything we've accomplished, even just this year alone. i never imagined i would reach this point, but i am incredibly grateful of it & i promise it's only up from here. i'm sorry for a lack of releases lately, but i've kept busy with touring & meeting all of you beautiful people & i can't wait to do it again with these tours comin' up next year. i love you guys.

merry christmas <3

lyrics
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now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

i've been livin' my life to the fullest
anxiety comes but it won't sit 
got tossed in the bag but it won't zip
cause i killed my mind all in one hit
blast to the past & i feel it
the days we put stars on our ceilings
the tape on my hearts always peeling
and i do not find that appealing
so maybe i
contemplate strategize ways to ease my mind
sit awake and i bake all through the night
touch base with your face being close to mine
and maybe you
can't sleep cause your dreams never seem to soothe
so you spark in the dark tryna make your move
touch me & i fall but i play it cool

(lost in your embrace and i'm longing for your taste love
said we'd runaway but you hardly ever say much)

now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

snowflakes

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//再試行する//

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https://traktrain.com/prodjody
https://www.instagram.com/prod.jody
https://twitter.com/prodjody

lyrics
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oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

oh why does it always feel like i’m a ghost
i’m floating in & out of all these homes
i don’t even have one to call my own 
i’ve been on tour for such a fucking long time
can’t remember what my bedroom looks like
cause hotel rooms and bnbs are all i
see when i’m away & i don’t know why
i signed up for this until i go live
talk me out of fighting with myself 
right now i could use some fucking help 
i scribble words until i feel myself 
homesick has never felt so fucking swell

oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

follow jody

at least i try (prod. jody)

lyrics
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i don't think i've
ever been this fucking stressed in my life
creature part two isn't finished i lied
just to get them off my back though i tried
i can't create when i'm dying inside
moving this weekend i wish i could fly
don't have my car but i still gotta drive
pack up the uhaul and tell my mom bye
hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

am i like this
i don't like this
all my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
losing sleep i drive all week and raise my mileage
guardin cut his fucking hair now i don't like him
depression take me by 25
fuck going out i'll just stay inside
this isn't you i say to myself every night lately i contemplate suicide
oh but you're famous online so your life must be great they say but that's a fucking lie
crawl into bed around seven a.m. and the headaches come full force i wanna die

hey holywood would your people ever like me?
misunderstood is all i ever might be

all i ever might be

lyrics
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is she fine without him
does she cry at the castle
is he gone is he here
he's a cunt he's an asshole
is she fine without him
is her mind in a black hole
does this night ever end
are we locked in a capsule

sorry that we're doomed
i guess this is truce
crying at the crib on a friday afternoon
this is how i live spent the day up in my room
made a couple bucks imma dip & get some food
and maybe get some shoes
the max's lookin' smooth
the loud pack smacks & my snacks all chewed
teeth all dead cause my sugar hit the root
if she don't text back she gon have to get the boot
and imma get my move on i ain't even trip
fucked up on a sunday mondays lookin lit
got twenty eight grams and a bottle of some shit
sip henny with the boys at the hotel on the 6th
i've got plans baby do not intervene
yeah i wanted this forever but you decided to leave
so i'll rewrite the script got sagas to complete
try to hit me with i miss you like what the fuck you mean

from the way that she moves you can tell she's a cyclone
and she's back once again it's a hell of a cycle
with that look in her eyes you must tell yourself i know
this is only a test and you must remain vital

is she fine without him
does she cry at the castle
is he gone is he here
she's a cunt she's an asshole

follow 93feetofsmoke

i wonder (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

lyrics
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got some money in my pocket
but that doesn't make a difference at all
this isn't fame i'm fucking lame
i'm just boy whose tryna figure it out
well maybe this is fucking it
the audience has turned against
they wanna justify the creepin' and leak my mom's home address
the paranoia rises best when your words sit inside my chest
i'm fucking human don't forget that when you're making your requests

i've got my hands up
you've got your hands on your gun
calling for backup 
i'm not the only one
i've got a question
does torturing me sound fun
yeah you take out your stress
by punching holes out of everyone

got some whiskey in my cup
but i don't think that it's enough at all
this isn't me i tell myself
i constantly worry about my health
well maybe i should fucking try
cause death is creepin' right behind
i see him sitting in the corner lookin' oh so fucking sly
anxiety is on the rise when he's constantly on my mind
i fear the day is finally coming where i meet my own demise

i've got my hands up
you've got your hands on your gun
calling for backup 
i'm not the only one
i've got a question
does torturing me sound fun
yeah you take out your stress
by punching holes out of everyone

spotify

backup

lyrics
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this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

keep me alive
counting the time on the clock till it's five
minutes until this disaster arrives
lie down on the floor you'll be fine
cold surfaces wake up my eyes
blindsided by love bold and bright  
my hearts in your hands till i die
i'd fly to japan for the night
if tour didn't have my hands tied

why did i sign up for this?
ask yourself the question every time you light the spliff
is there something that i missed?
i can feel their eyes, they're watching me with every line i spit
can you back it up a bit?
it's a little hard to breathe when privacy does not exist
codependency is never seen as such a risk
and the artists that we love are trying hard to not get pissed

this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

these eyes saw a lot of sights
but these guys start a lot of conflict
i'm conflicted how my life just
breezed by lost as soon as night hits

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alive (prod. caspr)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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