lyrics
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eyes on the moon in vain
cause i rather be in space
stuck thinking bout your face
i put my life on hold

rise when the morning breaks
one sentence is all it takes
for you to make me insane
i put my life on hold
subject to sudden change
this distance is feeling strange
the words that you couldn't say
somebody probably told
but you redacted
overreacted
now i'm subtracting
you from the mold
i was not acting
out a distraction
you came and i put my life on hold

hold (prod. strive)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: 05alagen
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow & AkiraDoves 
Mastered by: AkiraDoves
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow

[Intro]
Just why did you have to leave
You're me & I'm you
So don't fucking 
Leave me behind 

[Verse]
Back in 2018 and 2019 
They'd fight every night 
Locking myself away 
In my safety chamber
Drowning ears with 
9tails, guardin, hk, nothing nowhere, and NF
Music was my life line
 
[Chorus]
Still have insecurities 
I'll never give up hope just to die 
That's your funeral 
But I won't take the cyanide
I'll live past unlike you

[Bridge]
Somehow I found love within friends 
I can call mine
Made a song for them 
Called Make Me Shine

[Chorus]
I still have insecurities that I hide
Still I'll never give up hope just to die 
In the end 
That's your funeral 
But I won't take the cyanide
Trying to find the truth 
Within these Polaroids

Insecurities (Prod. 05alagen)

if i had ever cared about my own life
i'd be a bit more mad
about the wasted time
but i was never scared
of my final night
i'm just a bit more sad
than i anticipated

and i spent nights impaired
jus to feel alive
and all of my nightmares
is where i'm wasting life 
and i shall never share
whats up in my mind
and i was never there
just embrace this night

and in my final days i'll hold you here
just assure you'll stay and i'll hold back my tears
i swear i'm okay i'm getting lonely here
i don't want to wait, they don't know me here
and i'm not insane i'm just a little weird
and i want to die, and i'm not okay

i'll commit to loving you
if you just tell me what to do
this feeling when i'm fucking you
had taught me things i never knew

and i'll commit to trusting you
once i know i'm never losing you
this feeling when i love on you
has shown me what i need to do

jus let me die
quit wasting time
i hate my life
just let me die

cared (flesh)

produced by cxrter & retz
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
i’m so sick of the notion
they won’t ever understand 
got no things to put hope in
got me hanging by a strand
keep a cabinet open
and a bottle in my hand
found the pressure too potent
now i'm nothing like you planned
thought you wanted devotion
now you want some other man
got me stuck in a ocean
it’s high tide

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

yeah we used to want that house with picket fence
now summers almost over and you told me it depends
putting teardrops on my pants 
and now my music my one plan
i don’t wanna walk around it
quit the drama no offense
i’mma 
i’mma be who i'm destined to be
watching people pull me down
but i'm still on my feet
bet you’re looking at now
while i'm living out my dreams
never did it for myself
girl i did it for the weak

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed, but i need one more
sorry baby, i know lately i'm an eyesore

everybody wanna know what i do
it doesn't matter
when i'm writing
swear it's pulling me through
just hoping for some guidance
looking at my scars
on my cheeks and on my eyelids

like girl i feel it in my chest, when the night turns young i can feel it in my head now
why i’m feeling so depressed
but i try to talk about it
and it turns into a mess
i was just a kid now i'm losing all my hope
put a bounty on my head
point your gun and now i'm broke
wrong way wrong turn and now im dead weight
can't kick a habit
i can feel it on my worst days
they keep saying that im perfect
but u knew im never worth it
like i kept lying to ur face
now i'm going back to bed
but its been feeling like my grave

we don’t talk like we did when we were close friends
i've been  sick and tired, tying up my loose ends
she said i should go to bed but i need one more
sorry baby i know lately i'm an eyesore

eyesore w/ halfhearted (prod. cxrter x retz)

can gangsters cry (glorb flip)

town by the rails (secre)

deafears (michael harrison)

pulm0n4ry (michael harrison)

4cc3pt4nc3 (neverforever)

if i could read your mind
then maybe i'd do right
till then i'll just die
my heads the source of lies
if i could redesign
my soul to feel alive
then maybe
you could play along

in time we'll be alright
baby look into my eyes
this night's just another night
my heads just a waste of time
in the dark i can't help but cry
no matter where we are
i'll be by yourside

with you on me it's like a home
and i get scared when i'm alone
i need u

if i could just feel alive
then baby i could do it right
till then i'll just hate myself
my deaths the only thing to help

my death the only thing to help
my love

ificould (theMythic)

The meaning behind my name is "The idea of the Reaper is cool yet scary to me & I live within the shadows of everyone and everything"


I make music about my struggles, frustrations, & Passions
I play video games, watch anime, & Chill with my friends when I'm not making music

@angelsofsorrows l is my close friend and mixes my songs along with my other close friend @joshiguess huge shoutout to them wouldn't be able to pursue music without their help

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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(Prod.) Credits: @lilskeleskrrt @emofruits @autumndropsdead @lxstboymusic @lullabyboy

Been makin music for ~2 years.

A professional Shit Ass

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