oddity

prod. @siemspark x @jkeibeats

lyrics
--------
go
she said baby take your time
have fun out on the road
life is but a dream but it depends on where you go
i’ve been meeting people that i hardly fucking know
hardly fucking know
so now i’m singing woah
this is all i ever dreamed about and god it shows
swimming through this liquor tryna rid of all my woes
something in my head is telling me to take it slow
please just take it slow

please just take it slow
i’ve been tryna pace it
by erasing who i know
lifting up my spirit
in a pirouette with ghosts
dancing with the devil
every time i fucking smoke
but they would never know
panic sits before me
in a newly painted coat
i just drank too much so baby
please don’t rock the boat
fully automatic i go manic in these notes
this is what i wrote
this is what i wrote

she can tell from my eyes that i’m jetlagged
i’m not talking enough i regret that
my coding is fucked but i cracked that
i put my whole life in this backpack
and i’m hoping that i never backtrack

i hope this is forever
my life put together
a mere apparition
of me doing better
i’m sick of this weather
debating on whether
i’m writing this letter
for me or for everyone

jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

featuring @sewerperson
produced by @prodjody

highway (ft. sewerperson)(prod. jody)

prod. @remghost + @irby314
s/o @garden_avenue

lyrics
--------
what do i do when i feel like i'm no
good and i rid of my friends and my folks
minimize every lie that i once told
what do i know
what do i know
what do i do tonight i do not know
maybe i stay inside sit on my phone
criticize every line that i once wrote
what do i know
what do i know

i don't know much
but i know that
i am turning
down the wrong path
hit the mailbox
scream in all caps
speeding home now
take it all back
when it's over
you don't call back
i don't either
you should know that
and my senses
they don't come back
they don't come back
they don't come back

what do i do when i feel like i'm no
good and i rid of my friends and my folks
minimize every lie that i once told
what do i know
what do i know
what do i do tonight i do not know
maybe i stay inside sit on my phone
criticize every line that i once wrote
what do i know
what do i know

music video

the loneliest place in the world (prod. remghost x irby)

ft. cr1tter
prod. remghost x caves

lyrics
--------
i'm free-falling out the back of the window
back to when things were still simple
now i've got nothing left
i'm just a boy on the internet
we won't talk we'll just sit here in limbo
looking for signs and some symbols
some that we'll never see
now we're just high on a memory

can you feel me through the screen
can you tell me what it means
when i pour my guts out
and you leave me on seen
i just lost a friend
i just lost a lover
walking on a tightrope
with my eyes covered
i don't wanna fight no
i don't wanna crush her
i feel like a psycho
when i'm off the uppers
uppers downers
i just miss being around her
another lie another high another compromise 
i can't wait no more i'll be gone tonight
go through hell to see the heaven in her eyes
she treat me bad i treat her well there's no surprise

i'm free-falling out the back of the window
back to when things were still simple
now i've got nothing left
i'm just a boy on the internet
we won't talk we'll just sit here in limbo
looking for signs and some symbols
some that we'll never see
now we're just high on a memory

my recollection's alluding to lust
picking my brain until it self destructs
something inside of me's calling your bluff
calling your bluff
this little travesty lies in the rough
thought i'd get over it but i'm still stuck
endlessly cycling this off the cuff
i'm not enough

boy on the internet (ft. cr1tter) (prod. remghost x caves)

produced by sheepy

lyrics
--------
and you push and you pull and you follow
and you go to where i go
and you push and you pull and you follow
and you follow
and you push and you pull and you follow
you're engraved in the death of this bottle
and you push and you pull and you follow
you follow

creep through the night
when the chase does arrive
will you pretend that i'm
not alive not alive oh
and you push and you pull and you follow
you're engraved in the death of this bottle
and you push and you pull and you follow
you follow

baby
this is what my life's like lately
sit inside my room like maybe
hate me
suffocate me
whatchu do is
intoxicating

you're dancing on the moon like michael
dancing in my room like my girl
distancing the view from my world
and it goes and it goes and it goes
you push and you push and you pull
and it goes and it goes and it goes
you push and you pull and you pummel
your feelings inside til you're hollow
let it swim through your veins til it swallows
til it swallows

push, pull, follow (prod. sheepy)

lyrics
--------
the world keeps on spinning
in rooms no one's living in
vacancy paints itself solemnly though
if i'm addicted
i guess i'll start getting
outside in the sun so my body stays warm
cause i don't like freezing inside
while the rays hit my eyes
and the cars passing by real slow
this house is a prison
i serve a life sentence
and pray that this judge will just give me parole

but it's not that simple
loop this instrumental
my patience is wearing itself to a mold
asbestos and liquor
we'll drink to remember
that breeze from december that sent us back home
what is the point of this anymore
i don't feel nothing at all
sleep in the studio
life's fucking beautiful
searching for peace i'm succumbing to fall
i'll kiss you at stop signs
tell you that you're special
to me and everyone outside of these walls
i'd drive for forever
to just be together
and when you're not here
i'm just hoping you'll call
cause i crave your company
god you're so lovely
touching your skin makes my problems dissolve
this chapter's recovery
my face is stubbly
i'm feelin ugly that ain't gon resolve

all for you

lyrics
--------
save yourself the time
i wish this was our goodbye
for the last time
save yourself the time
i said this was all a lie
and you're not coming back around

back around
always back around
this will all come crashing down
back around
i'm back in town
but you're not coming back around

what goes around
comes back around

goodbye

lyrics
--------
gimme 5 and imma turn the speaker down (speaker down)
i'm not sober i'm hungover and i'm never coming down
pot of greed i'm smokin 2 in hopes that i erase this frown
but it's nothing, i'm disgusting, yeah i'm lookin like a clown
gimme 10 and imma run until i'm never fucking found
disappear without a trace like it was something so profound
spill the secrets you would never ever say when i'm around
cause if i knew whatchu did i'd end up lookin like a clown

got a smile on your face
wipe it off when i'm away
hope you hear me when i say
i want more
what you do is not okay
i take drugs to numb the pain
nicotine inside my veins
i want war

clown (prod. ausuro)

lyrics
--------
and she's crawling through my head now
and i'm crawling into bed now
premeditate this
another level
i guess what i do is nothing special
i'm really unsure what the point of this is when i'm lied to
just know that this song is meant to spite you
i'm just tryna live never die cause i'm golden
glowing like a star in the sky by the morning
everybody talking all this shit as if they know me
i ain't ever met you only know what she's been quoting
i've heard lots of things telephone call recording
call her when i'm gone bet you do how rewarding
here's a melody that you can hum when it's boring
la da da da da headshot with no warning
wish i fucking could when it's all said and done
but imma live it out watch me soak up the sun
take another trip lsd on my tongue
this is not me but i wish that it was

cold feet in the water
i got nose bleeds from my father
i get no sleep when i'm off her
i'm annoying what a bother
now i'm floating in the water
it's a sure thing imma drown
it's what they told me so i gotta
i'm an o.g. drenched in problems

:/

two steps too late

lyrics
--------
and it takes
some time
to find
yourself in the middle
it's a long drive
but we'll make it out alive
i swear we'll make it out alive
i swear everything will be fine
i swear we'll make it out alive
i swear everything is just fine

i travel quickly up the east coast
my leisure trips feel like a sick joke
swallowing poison and weed smoke
the reaper hides underneath his coat 
i hurt myself but on the inside
solely to know just what it feels like
i'm craving company and comfort
i sleep all day above the covers
my luck ran out inside a tree home
it's back to dabbling with weed smoke
i dwell on reading texts that she wrote
your smile fades while watching me choke
sun damage fried from the exposure
hats off my journey for some closure
anxious but i've got composure
no balanced landing boil over

swear

lyrics
--------
say you hate me
baby i know
that's why i lay in the stu with my eyes closed
vacant
hollow
say you're never coming back
shit i hope

eyehope (prod. klimlords)

lyrics
--------
oh no this isn't what i want
oh no oh no
oh no this isn't what i want
oh no oh no
oh no this isn't what i want
oh no oh no
oh no this isn't what i want
oh no oh no

so come on i know u wanna race me
i told em you should run but you cant ever chase me
the others 
just dont matter
you dont seem to need me
i love a pretty girl that dont really dont need me
switch up on that base now
told me that she love me
i dont need your attention 
but its generally where it might lead
party after party 
i got favors if you need me
so hit me on my flip phone number
you can reach me
but im so up
i dont ever wanna leave
and you're so lost 
every week it just repeats
i just dont know how to get it through to you
last week's gone 
but today it came too soon

switch (ft. bbdalena) (prod. klimlords)

lyrics
--------
all these boundaries yet you crossed it
i drew a line across the sand let it wash away
i'm leaking like a faucet
fall asleep wake up it's a brand new day
i'm sinking with no caution
wrap me up in blankets and yellow tape
i'm feelin quite exhausted   
feeling like you lost it

all these memories are haunted
tarnished with the mere thought of your name
drink till i'm unresponsive
somebody call the paramedics this is not no game
i'm sinking with no caution
wrap me up in blankets and yellow tape
i'm feelin quite exhausted   
feeling like you lost it

lost it (prod. strive)

lyrics
--------
eyes on the moon in vain
cause i rather be in space
stuck thinking bout your face
i put my life on hold

rise when the morning breaks
one sentence is all it takes
for you to make me insane
i put my life on hold
subject to sudden change
this distance is feeling strange
the words that you couldn't say
somebody probably told
but you redacted
overreacted
now i'm subtracting
you from the mold
i was not acting
out a distraction
you came and i put my life on hold

hold (prod. strive)

lyrics
--------
i'd love you more but he just makes it harder
i'd crawl through glass for you but i don't wanna
be a bother
i'd walk from thailand all the way to rome
if it meant i could hug and kiss you on the way back home
he's a bother
even your father
thinks that he's petty
disease stricken in slaughter

these situations make me hot and heavy
i'll make you mine but you just gotta let me
he's the problem
one we could solve
and if you think you're ready
i'll deal with it no problem
i'd sail the seven seas inside this home
if it meant i could see you maybe while you're all alone
tease me harder
seize me of all the
things that i'm feeling
we'll freeze under this water

i'd love you more but he just makes it harder
i'd crawl through glass for you but i don't wanna
be a bother
i'd walk from thailand all the way to rome
if it meant i could hug and kiss you on the way back home
he's a bother
even your father
thinks that he's petty
disease stricken in slaughter

harder (prod. joalisho x coldlazer)

wrath

lyrics
--------
i want it all and i just couldn't say no
but you're the only thing that's hard to let go
i want it all and i just couldn't say no
couldn't say no
i want it all and i just couldn't say no
i know it's hard but we just gotta let go
i want it all and i just couldn't say no
couldn't say no

rip into me
if you knew me
you wouldn't like me baby
where you are though
isn't far no
you like the way i bite on
your thighs, grip em in the backseat
oh my you don't have to ask me
slow time down enough in passing
cold life honey i'm just snacking

oh my god i'll amount to nothing
and it's all my fault if i don't do something
i need all the lights flashing till i'm blinding
tear me all apart

leave me where you left me
leave me where you left me 
leave me where you left me
leave me where you left me
leave me where you left me 
leave me where you left me

i want it (prod. morecalcium)

lyrics
--------
and it's so charming to think i'm all you've ever wanted
but i don't believe you even in the fucking slightest
so don't talk to me cause you were gonna leave regardless
i'll roll up my sleeves to show you i'm too heavy hearted

charming

lyrics
--------
it festers farther
this bet just got darker
my sense of direction
is mangled and slaughtered
i burst into pieces
and tears as i mourn her
i'm sure as hell still breathing
you're dead in the corner
guess death was in order
head back to your quarters
lie still in my bed
stare at all i horde
her eyes blink never water
but i cannot fault her
i'm such a fucking shit head
she's somebody's daughter

dead in the corner (prod. neverforever)

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＲＥＡＬ

//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
goo.gl/asxd7w

demons in my orbit

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　ＴＨＥＹ　ＲＥＡＬＬＹ　ＣＡＲＥ

//いいんだよ//

sample is be kind by alex g

no amount of words could ever express my love for you guys. thank you so fucking much for every single comment, like, conversation, etc. i live for this music & to know i've got that much support behind me is insane. you blow my mind. i love you guys.

ＬＹＲＩＣＳ
https://genius.com/guardin-take-away-the-pain-lyrics

lyrics

take away the pain

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＷＡＮＮＡ　ＢＥ　ＳＯＢＥＲ

//私の時間は終わった//

doormat

ＹＯＵ　ＣＡＮ＇Ｔ　ＳＡＶＥ　ＭＥ

//ごめんなさい//

thank you guys so much for the endless amount of support. working with my favorite artists is something i never imagined would become a reality, but you've all made it achievable. i cherish what this music has brought me & i hope we can all grow together in unison through it. i love you guys so much.

this is the first single off my upcoming album, "lacuna" which'll be out october 28th

huge s/o to my mans @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
i can't thank you enough for hoppin' on this one with me

follow 9tails

guardin x 9TAILS - suffocate

ＴＨＩＳ　ＰＲＯＪＥＣＴ　ＣＯＮＴＡＩＮＳ　ＳＴＲＯＮＧ
ＳＵＢＪＥＣＴ　ＭＡＴＴＥＲ

ＣＬＯＳＥ　ＹＯＵＲ　ＥＹＥＳ　＆　ＴＡＫＥ　ＩＴ　
ＡＬＬ　ＩＮ

ＭＡＹ　ＴＨＩＳ　ＢＲＩＮＧ　ＹＯＵ　ＰＥＡＣＥ

//ごめんなさい//

@tothegood

lacuna

follow tothegood

blue (prod. tothegood)

Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＦＵＣＫＥＤ　ＩＮ　ＴＨＥ　ＨＥＡＤ
Ｉ＇Ｍ　Ａ　ＨＥＡＴＨＥＮ

//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

follow 9TAILS

guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

Ｉ＇ＬＬ　ＲＵＮ　ＳＯ　ＦＡＲ　ＦＲＯＭ　
ＴＨＥＳＥ　ＳＨＡＤＯＷＳ

//私の心の断片//

lyrics
-------
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

prod. by @guardinmusic

lyrics
--------
i see them looking at me
from right outside of my window
i see the monsters that creep
they lurk when i'm sparking my indo
holding the smoke till i choke i won't breathe till they exit my airways
coping by hoping tomorrow is better i dwell in the stairway 

fuck it i just wanna drive
i love the feeling of feeling alive
do you ever contemplate suicide?
falling asleep on his shoulder while i
cry in my pillow alone in my bed
smother the sounds of the voice in my head
losing my voice so i speak with a pen
writing agendas so i can pay rent

this is my life
this is not shit you could cut with a knife
no tension here but the stress is as thick as the buds
i've been breaking & smoking all night
why do i write all about me?
why can't you see all the things that i see?
am i alive? is my brain just pullin' tricks on me?
get out alive or just live in a dream

sorry i suck
i'm full of shit i do not give a fuck
i've got disorders in folders inside of me tucked
undiagnosed but i know i am fucked
up in my head
writing about it again & again
it's getting hard to write songs about flowers 
when showers are cold & my phone's always dead

i think that i'm fine
when i'm alone in my
bed with my bong packed tight
my throat's been sore all night
sip that water quick
before you might get sick
tacks and thorns will prick
my words will never stick

shadow

prod. by @hatefulbeats

lyrics
--------
i'm drowning in my headspace
driving shockpoint like i'm isaac clarke in dead space
two gram cone to my dome now i'm dead wait
i feel fine celebratin' poppin' champaigne 
caught me in my zone all alone marijuana on my lip
fixing for the herb i'm packin' purple till i'm stiff
fall asleep in chairs or couches i don't give a shit
lil' sleepy boy i'm overlookin' on a cliff

this a fuckin' cliff note
cliff bars suck and clifford the dog was a nympho
break it till it fall apart i guess you got the memo
goodbye to my hello
i was once a shade of blue but you turned me to yellow
my color palette's minimal but i don't give a fuck
flip it till it saturates the vibrance ain't enough
been awake for days & i'm amazed that i'm still up
sleep is for the week & i'm afraid of giving up

follow hateful

cliffnote (prod. by hateful)

ＴＨＥ　ＶＯＩＣＥＳ　ＩＮ　ＭＹ　ＨＥＡＤ　ＣＯＬＬＩＤＥ

//私は私の心を失った//

i recently purchased a new ukulele after i gave mine away back in november, so i thought it'd only make sense to whip up a fresh uke track for you guys. i hope you enjoy it. 

i love you <3

lyrics
--------
this song brings on the weather
tear drops upon my sweater
i cry in bed whenever
i see you guys together
fuck love it's all a lie
i can't sleep i rather die
than see that look in your eye
it sucks that i'm not your guy

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

i packed my bags last week
sunrise and i'm on my feet
let's skip town and chase our dreams
cause this place ain't what it seems
come home let's synchronize
my soft lips caress your thighs
you get me so fucking high
the voices in my head collide 

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

keep your voice down
she don't care no
i can't breathe i've got no air 
no sympathy for my despair
i cut my wrists and grow my hair 
i'm outta my mind

i think you're really cool

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　Ｉ＇ＬＬ　ＥＶＥＲ
ＧＥＴ　Ａ　ＣＡＬＬ　ＢＡＣＫ

//誰も長く滞在しない//

i keep looking for love in all the wrong places. maybe one day things will be different.

lyrics
--------
and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think imma waste

more time scrollin' down my timeline
wish that i could hop up in my whip and go to five guys
somethings gotta give when i'm sky high
i'm not something super in the uber playin' i spy
disappear from everybody for a while
cause the air is getting thick within the radius of miles
suicide is on my mind & i can't bare to even smile
i can only get a taste cause happiness is versatile

and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think that i

probably could've tried harder
i tend to fall in love too quick with everybody's daughter
take my heart and they begin to slaughter
i'm a fuckin' wreck and my neck is lookin' like every other
boy that they've been bruisin' for a bit
i've been smooth cruisin' catalytic tendencies are in
love is just a four letter word that don't mean shit
cause i open up a bit too much & they just wanna dip

they just always fall back
i don't think i'll ever get a call back
why the fuck i go through all that
just for what we had to fuckin' fall flat

in my sleep

ＹＯＵ　ＣＯＵＬＤ　ＮＯＴ　ＴＡＫＥ　
ＴＨＩＳ　ＡＷＡＹ　ＦＲＯＭ　ＭＥ

//安定したあなたの呼吸//

i can't begin to thank you guys enough for everything we've accomplished, even just this year alone. i never imagined i would reach this point, but i am incredibly grateful of it & i promise it's only up from here. i'm sorry for a lack of releases lately, but i've kept busy with touring & meeting all of you beautiful people & i can't wait to do it again with these tours comin' up next year. i love you guys.

merry christmas <3

lyrics
--------
now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

i've been livin' my life to the fullest
anxiety comes but it won't sit 
got tossed in the bag but it won't zip
cause i killed my mind all in one hit
blast to the past & i feel it
the days we put stars on our ceilings
the tape on my hearts always peeling
and i do not find that appealing
so maybe i
contemplate strategize ways to ease my mind
sit awake and i bake all through the night
touch base with your face being close to mine
and maybe you
can't sleep cause your dreams never seem to soothe
so you spark in the dark tryna make your move
touch me & i fall but i play it cool

(lost in your embrace and i'm longing for your taste love
said we'd runaway but you hardly ever say much)

now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

snowflakes

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oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

oh why does it always feel like i’m a ghost
i’m floating in & out of all these homes
i don’t even have one to call my own 
i’ve been on tour for such a fucking long time
can’t remember what my bedroom looks like
cause hotel rooms and bnbs are all i
see when i’m away & i don’t know why
i signed up for this until i go live
talk me out of fighting with myself 
right now i could use some fucking help 
i scribble words until i feel myself 
homesick has never felt so fucking swell

oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

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at least i try (prod. jody)

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i don't think i've
ever been this fucking stressed in my life
creature part two isn't finished i lied
just to get them off my back though i tried
i can't create when i'm dying inside
moving this weekend i wish i could fly
don't have my car but i still gotta drive
pack up the uhaul and tell my mom bye
hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

am i like this
i don't like this
all my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
losing sleep i drive all week and raise my mileage
guardin cut his fucking hair now i don't like him
depression take me by 25
fuck going out i'll just stay inside
this isn't you i say to myself every night lately i contemplate suicide
oh but you're famous online so your life must be great they say but that's a fucking lie
crawl into bed around seven a.m. and the headaches come full force i wanna die

hey holywood would your people ever like me?
misunderstood is all i ever might be

all i ever might be

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it's three o' clock
times running out
i rather sleep in than write all about
how i'm depressed
how to get out
cause i don't know shit i said fuck it & made it work out  
i'm a mess
i guess
but for some reason they stay impressed
i'm a pessimist 
optimism is something i miss
i kinda knew i'd be here all alone
but i never thought i'd do this shit & do it on my own
start writing stop checkin' on your phone
my mind races at some paces that are currently unknown

i'm not stoned
well maybe just a bit
hard to write a song if i don't take another hit
cancel all your plans today you're bout to write a hit
probably fucking not but you won't know unless you sit

does the energy around you ever get
inside your cerebellum tell me everything is shit
sleep away the day again and call it fucking quits
an easle to present a thought about the way i live
2017 was the year that i thought i'd kick
the bucket underneath my feet and slide into the pit
reach into the sky and said the clouds are looking lit
but angels never die so imma respawn real quick

did this kid really name his album after his cat
does he smoke a lot and how's his mom feel bout that?
dude please check my music out my shit really slaps
fuck you dickhead why won't you dm me back?
y'all really wanna work with me well how about that?
these lines are real dm's that i'll never hit back
i don't sell features so don't ask about that
god please don't hit me with another group chat 

it's three o' clock
times running out
i rather sleep in than write all about
how i'm depressed
how to get out
cause i don't know shit i said fuck it & made it work out 
i'm a mess
i guess
but for some reason they stay impressed
i'm a pessimist 
optimism is something i miss
i kinda knew i'd be here all alone
but i never thought i'd do this shit & do it on my own
start writing stop checkin' on your phone
my mind races at some paces that are currently unknown

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creature (prod. taylor morgan)

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this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

keep me alive
counting the time on the clock till it's five
minutes until this disaster arrives
lie down on the floor you'll be fine
cold surfaces wake up my eyes
blindsided by love bold and bright  
my hearts in your hands till i die
i'd fly to japan for the night
if tour didn't have my hands tied

why did i sign up for this?
ask yourself the question every time you light the spliff
is there something that i missed?
i can feel their eyes, they're watching me with every line i spit
can you back it up a bit?
it's a little hard to breathe when privacy does not exist
codependency is never seen as such a risk
and the artists that we love are trying hard to not get pissed

this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

these eyes saw a lot of sights
but these guys start a lot of conflict
i'm conflicted how my life just
breezed by lost as soon as night hits

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alive (prod. caspr)

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