prod. @siemspark x @jkeibeats

lyrics
--------
go
she said baby take your time
have fun out on the road
life is but a dream but it depends on where you go
i’ve been meeting people that i hardly fucking know
hardly fucking know
so now i’m singing woah
this is all i ever dreamed about and god it shows
swimming through this liquor tryna rid of all my woes
something in my head is telling me to take it slow
please just take it slow

please just take it slow
i’ve been tryna pace it
by erasing who i know
lifting up my spirit
in a pirouette with ghosts
dancing with the devil
every time i fucking smoke
but they would never know
panic sits before me
in a newly painted coat
i just drank too much so baby
please don’t rock the boat
fully automatic i go manic in these notes
this is what i wrote
this is what i wrote

she can tell from my eyes that i’m jetlagged
i’m not talking enough i regret that
my coding is fucked but i cracked that
i put my whole life in this backpack
and i’m hoping that i never backtrack

i hope this is forever
my life put together
a mere apparition
of me doing better
i’m sick of this weather
debating on whether
i’m writing this letter
for me or for everyone

jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

featuring @sewerperson
produced by @prodjody

highway (ft. sewerperson)(prod. jody)

ft. cr1tter
prod. remghost x caves

lyrics
--------
i'm free-falling out the back of the window
back to when things were still simple
now i've got nothing left
i'm just a boy on the internet
we won't talk we'll just sit here in limbo
looking for signs and some symbols
some that we'll never see
now we're just high on a memory

can you feel me through the screen
can you tell me what it means
when i pour my guts out
and you leave me on seen
i just lost a friend
i just lost a lover
walking on a tightrope
with my eyes covered
i don't wanna fight no
i don't wanna crush her
i feel like a psycho
when i'm off the uppers
uppers downers
i just miss being around her
another lie another high another compromise 
i can't wait no more i'll be gone tonight
go through hell to see the heaven in her eyes
she treat me bad i treat her well there's no surprise

i'm free-falling out the back of the window
back to when things were still simple
now i've got nothing left
i'm just a boy on the internet
we won't talk we'll just sit here in limbo
looking for signs and some symbols
some that we'll never see
now we're just high on a memory

my recollection's alluding to lust
picking my brain until it self destructs
something inside of me's calling your bluff
calling your bluff
this little travesty lies in the rough
thought i'd get over it but i'm still stuck
endlessly cycling this off the cuff
i'm not enough

boy on the internet (ft. cr1tter) (prod. remghost x caves)

lyrics
---------
in hindsight we're okay
we'll creep through the hallway
my heartrate grows faster
a breeding disaster
the path left is followed
a tough pill to swallow
who am i becoming
i guess it's just nothing

i-i-i-i-i don't wanna talk about it
why-why-why-why-why am i so caught up on it
lie-lie-lie-lie i'm stuck in the middle
so i cry-cry-cry-cry constantly belittled oh and
i-i-i-i-i don't wanna talk about it
why-why-why-why-why am i so caught up on it
lie-lie-lie-lie i'm stuck in the middle
so i cry-cry-cry-cry constantly belittled oh  

you said the things you meant to say
you took it back don't mean it babe
dont look at me in my twisted face
you took the knife and twisted babe
hi been a minute since I said goodbye
i heard you're still livin in a lie
i swear it really take a lot to make me cry
so when you did i know you really had to try
what was all the effort for
couple good words ill be right back at your door
10 shots burning to the bottom of my core
i blackout, wake up rotting on the floor
i keep running and running around in circles
i keep smoking these cigarettes til i'm purple
i keep telling you things that you think are hurtful
i keep telling her that everything is her fault
remember what you said
i know its been a minute since i let you in my head
the whole worlds spinning here we go again
the nightmares never gonna end

when you look in the mirror
and hate what you've done
so you call up your friends
but they don't wanna come
and the dumbest mistake
that you made was falling in love
and it feels like there's monsters
inside of your head
so you fill it with poison
and smoke to forget
but they laugh even louder
despite the attempts that you've met

i-i-i-i-i don't wanna talk about it
why-why-why-why-why am i so caught up on it
lie-lie-lie-lie i'm stuck in the middle
so i cry-cry-cry-cry constantly belittled oh and
i-i-i-i-i don't wanna talk about it
why-why-why-why-why am i so caught up on it
lie-lie-lie-lie i'm stuck in the middle
so i cry-cry-cry-cry constantly belittled oh  

when the truth is a riddle
and soaked full of sin
will the creature inside you
aspire to win
will it creep all around you
and grasp at the clothes on your skin
then the rain starts to fall
and it's calling your name
though you hear it so clearly
you're deemed as insane
and your method of madness
will bleed as it freezes the frame

save face (ft. prop) (prod. tears x frodo)

prod. @sogimura

lyrics
--------
do or die
if i don’t do this who am i
face one more get stupid high
save my breath for another life
save that girl for another guy
my soul precious, so alive
we go fast up 45
you drive home off 4 or 5
and truth be told that don’t sit right
and my concerns go through the night
but what you do’s just what you like
so if i talk it’s out of spite

so i backpedal bunny hop it right back on the curb
let her punch out all my teeth i guess that’s just what i deserve
split the edges of my mouth until it’s fixed upon a curve
for the way you treat me lately babe you got a lot of nerve

who are you
who is the person i’m talking to
you outta line and i got a queue
you outta line and i got a queue
hope you save your breath for another dude
and i’m sure he’ll treat you like all is cool
but ghosts all roam in the coldest rooms
and your closets filled with bones and glue
couldn’t fix yourself if you wanted to
but i guess that’s life so fuck the truth
gonna change your mind when the night is through
but you break what loves you, nothing new

so i backpedal bunny hop it right back on the curb
let her punch out all my teeth i guess that’s just what i deserve
split the edges of my mouth until it’s fixed upon a curve
for the way you treat me lately babe you got a lot of nerve

nerve (prod. sogimura)

lyrics
--------
i am the highest in the room right now
speakers on the walls
bass knockin em all down
and maybe i could swallow all the lies and deceit
i got the receipts so fuck you leave a message at the beep

maybe i could swallow all my pride and leave you lone
if maybe you could call it quits and stop calling my phone
cause lately it's been hard to place the feelings in my soul
when the words you speaking to me sit like static in my bones
was a fool for you darling it's apparent yeah i know
if this bridge is to collapse then this road should've had a toll
i still pay the price for buying all the bullshit that you sold
so here's the part where i'll be bold
and she go runnin right back to these places
off of 95 and she gon drink until she's wasted
i don't even wanna fucking try to keep complacent
tell me i'm complaining all because you'll never face it 

i am the highest in the room right now
speakers on the walls
bass knockin em all down
and maybe i could swallow all the lies and deceit
i got the receipts so fuck you leave a message at the beep

beep (prod. sogimura)

lyrics
--------
i don’t need a hero to save me
baby you can call me crazy
spit upon my face throw a hook like jay z
lazy lately all i do is hate me
self-sabotage coming clutch i’m shaky
probably from the drinking and the yapping and the 47 times today that i overreacted
it’s a travesty to live like this and i’m merely subtracting
when i choose to move in silence let it blow with the theatrics
i guess it came with living lonely
guess that five year plan wasn’t close enough to hold me
guess that best friend fed up cause i ghost and end up folding
guess that love won’t last cause i always end up bolting
yeah
and i’m afraid of getting closure
i’m afraid of getting sick of this and i’ll only get older
i ain’t shit but a man with some songs inside a folder
why’s it feel like death is dancing on my shoulder?
i don’t like that
and i got hella insecurities
teeth, hair, skin, false hope, nothing pure in me
i’m begging for the silence but the rain hit beautifully
and maybe i’m just lacking some maturity
maybe if i dig upon my past i can super glue my skeleton
fit him to my frame tell him you were only seven nick
you ain’t do no wrong you are beautiful and heaven sent
ignorance is bliss but my innocence irrelevant
trauma bond via satellite
you are what you eat so the music keep me sad at night
sixteen to now pockets still full of that hematite
the only thing i’m lacking is an appetite

music video

theatrics (prod. neverforever)

prod. @ffiftyzeros

lyrics
--------
and all my vices, they so lovely
they keep me inside this house
to where i make excuses subtly yeah
we’re inching towards my self destruction
i don’t have a lot of friends
so socially i do not function yeah

and all my days are spent recovering
i put spells upon myself and read my cards just like a coven
i don’t know what’s come of me
but it’s apparent that this chapter isn’t what it’s supposed to be
drown myself inside a bottle
but i never learned to swim so these controls are hard to toggle
and the outcome dances on the edge of death
so the world i’ve built around myself surrounds my final breath

and these breaths fall sacred given time
i’ve got chains around my ankles and these clocks inside my eyes
i don’t think i’m doing fine
all these tracers in my vision but they never show the signs
ripping moss off of my skin
and i eat the heads of the worms that slither silently within
my blood is poisoned full of sin
guess the mud in my abode is throwing punches towards my chin
crawling out of my own flesh
imma torch off all my ignorance and eat upon the rest
serotonin in his vest
whatchu buying whatchu selling said the merchant on my quest

and we hate the way we feel inside
so we hide away until we die
and think of it as time well spent
the fear of burdening a friend

IF YOU CAN HEAR ME, GET ME OUTTA HERE! (PROD. FIFTYZEROS)


lyrics
--------
hit me up
i can make time i ain’t in a rush
four or five drinks as a little crutch
said the wrong things i’m a little much
i think it’s time i lay this shit to rest
my path is paved out perfectly
and somehow i’m sat here feeling less

and my feet pick up and they go on their own
down this road that i’m walking alone
and the weight of my words
gonna stray with the birds
but the vultures all prey in the dark
the fabric will fray from the cuff
what you grasp isn’t nearly enough
and i’ll likely repair
guess i won’t be scared
next time that they rip me apart

another night drive
california
though the windows
of the courtyard
caught me sleeping
head to pillow
while you’re weeping
like a willow
a test subject
for some deep lore
drain my body
from it’s cheap core
lack of substance
what i’m here for
tape on my lips
i won’t talk more

hmu (prod. neverforever)

highbeams (ft. kennedyxoxo) (prod. klimlords)

lyrics
--------
lost touch
what a feeling to hide
tough luck
just go back inside
call up
your friends through the night
just so
they know you’re alive

right hooks
couldn’t pass up a fight
dark room
guess they cut off the lights
awake
staying up with the mice
sore bruises
i’m covered in bites
full disclosure
i’m alright
life sucks
when you’re afraid of heights
won’t jump
one look in your eyes
and i might fall
in line

hard knocks
on the doors of my mind
padlocks
on the heart that is mine
no switch in the back of my eyes
why you cryin x3
don’t feed off me on this drive
it’s a long way home through the night
hoping things don’t seize to align
but these dreams tend to bleed out and die

once lost found up in the pines
and these damn trees only talk through their eyes
while the moss keeps count of all that i’ve tried
so what’s next in this dwindling life

lost touch (prod. hilen)

lyrics
--------
his frequency died
lost all control of that
spark that lit his stride
a thief in the night
gripped upon his soul
and led his spirit to the sky
clouds chase the foliage
illuminate the signs
point me towards the past
so i can run away from mine
i’ll sprint to these anomalies
start gouging out their eyes
i hate the way they look at me
pretending all is fine
this method of diluting isn’t
one to clear the mind
i trip fall over everything
these cords all start to bind
recalculate your purpose
persevere and find the time
this clock is ticking fast
and i don’t wanna wait in line

i’m trying my best
my efforts never show
i’m folding like the edges of an origami crow
all i do is rest
read text inside my phone
my body is a vessel left to rot in my abode
on course towards his death
he’s measured what he knows
his alibis are cries for help as he remains composed
aligned to his bed
he reaps just what he sows
a life full of discomfort inside of this silent home

and of course he met his fate
while he was dancing all alone
like when planets pass debris from comets
he put on a show
watched the rain bounce off the window
while he wrote his final note
if i’m gone don’t come and look for me
i’m not in buffalo
anymore at least not mentally
i’m far away from home
i don’t know where all is taking me
at least it’s not as cold
where the sun will set so gracefully
is where i’ll finally grow
i found grace inside the bravery that rests inside these bones
light my wings ablaze and thankfully
i’m human once again
back inside this silent home with nothing
more than just a pen
96 missed calls and messages
from those i call a friend
life is not bout whatchu make it
whatchu make defines the end

(who i am
when it all
turns to dust
fading
hold the line
count to four
don’t get stuck
waiting)

silent home (prod. everestdidthis)

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＲＥＡＬ

//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
goo.gl/asxd7w

demons in my orbit

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　ＴＨＥＹ　ＲＥＡＬＬＹ　ＣＡＲＥ

//いいんだよ//

sample is be kind by alex g

no amount of words could ever express my love for you guys. thank you so fucking much for every single comment, like, conversation, etc. i live for this music & to know i've got that much support behind me is insane. you blow my mind. i love you guys.

ＬＹＲＩＣＳ
https://genius.com/guardin-take-away-the-pain-lyrics

lyrics

take away the pain

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＷＡＮＮＡ　ＢＥ　ＳＯＢＥＲ

//私の時間は終わった//

doormat

ＹＯＵ　ＣＡＮ＇Ｔ　ＳＡＶＥ　ＭＥ

//ごめんなさい//

thank you guys so much for the endless amount of support. working with my favorite artists is something i never imagined would become a reality, but you've all made it achievable. i cherish what this music has brought me & i hope we can all grow together in unison through it. i love you guys so much.

this is the first single off my upcoming album, "lacuna" which'll be out october 28th

huge s/o to my mans @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
i can't thank you enough for hoppin' on this one with me

follow 9tails

guardin x 9TAILS - suffocate

ＴＨＩＳ　ＰＲＯＪＥＣＴ　ＣＯＮＴＡＩＮＳ　ＳＴＲＯＮＧ
ＳＵＢＪＥＣＴ　ＭＡＴＴＥＲ

ＣＬＯＳＥ　ＹＯＵＲ　ＥＹＥＳ　＆　ＴＡＫＥ　ＩＴ　
ＡＬＬ　ＩＮ

ＭＡＹ　ＴＨＩＳ　ＢＲＩＮＧ　ＹＯＵ　ＰＥＡＣＥ

//ごめんなさい//

@tothegood

lacuna

follow tothegood

blue (prod. tothegood)

Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＦＵＣＫＥＤ　ＩＮ　ＴＨＥ　ＨＥＡＤ
Ｉ＇Ｍ　Ａ　ＨＥＡＴＨＥＮ

//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

follow 9TAILS

guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

Ｉ＇ＬＬ　ＲＵＮ　ＳＯ　ＦＡＲ　ＦＲＯＭ　
ＴＨＥＳＥ　ＳＨＡＤＯＷＳ

//私の心の断片//

lyrics
-------
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

prod. by @guardinmusic

lyrics
--------
i see them looking at me
from right outside of my window
i see the monsters that creep
they lurk when i'm sparking my indo
holding the smoke till i choke i won't breathe till they exit my airways
coping by hoping tomorrow is better i dwell in the stairway 

fuck it i just wanna drive
i love the feeling of feeling alive
do you ever contemplate suicide?
falling asleep on his shoulder while i
cry in my pillow alone in my bed
smother the sounds of the voice in my head
losing my voice so i speak with a pen
writing agendas so i can pay rent

this is my life
this is not shit you could cut with a knife
no tension here but the stress is as thick as the buds
i've been breaking & smoking all night
why do i write all about me?
why can't you see all the things that i see?
am i alive? is my brain just pullin' tricks on me?
get out alive or just live in a dream

sorry i suck
i'm full of shit i do not give a fuck
i've got disorders in folders inside of me tucked
undiagnosed but i know i am fucked
up in my head
writing about it again & again
it's getting hard to write songs about flowers 
when showers are cold & my phone's always dead

i think that i'm fine
when i'm alone in my
bed with my bong packed tight
my throat's been sore all night
sip that water quick
before you might get sick
tacks and thorns will prick
my words will never stick

shadow

prod. by @hatefulbeats

lyrics
--------
i'm drowning in my headspace
driving shockpoint like i'm isaac clarke in dead space
two gram cone to my dome now i'm dead wait
i feel fine celebratin' poppin' champaigne 
caught me in my zone all alone marijuana on my lip
fixing for the herb i'm packin' purple till i'm stiff
fall asleep in chairs or couches i don't give a shit
lil' sleepy boy i'm overlookin' on a cliff

this a fuckin' cliff note
cliff bars suck and clifford the dog was a nympho
break it till it fall apart i guess you got the memo
goodbye to my hello
i was once a shade of blue but you turned me to yellow
my color palette's minimal but i don't give a fuck
flip it till it saturates the vibrance ain't enough
been awake for days & i'm amazed that i'm still up
sleep is for the week & i'm afraid of giving up

follow hateful

cliffnote (prod. by hateful)

ＴＨＥ　ＶＯＩＣＥＳ　ＩＮ　ＭＹ　ＨＥＡＤ　ＣＯＬＬＩＤＥ

//私は私の心を失った//

i recently purchased a new ukulele after i gave mine away back in november, so i thought it'd only make sense to whip up a fresh uke track for you guys. i hope you enjoy it. 

i love you <3

lyrics
--------
this song brings on the weather
tear drops upon my sweater
i cry in bed whenever
i see you guys together
fuck love it's all a lie
i can't sleep i rather die
than see that look in your eye
it sucks that i'm not your guy

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

i packed my bags last week
sunrise and i'm on my feet
let's skip town and chase our dreams
cause this place ain't what it seems
come home let's synchronize
my soft lips caress your thighs
you get me so fucking high
the voices in my head collide 

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

keep your voice down
she don't care no
i can't breathe i've got no air 
no sympathy for my despair
i cut my wrists and grow my hair 
i'm outta my mind

i think you're really cool

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　Ｉ＇ＬＬ　ＥＶＥＲ
ＧＥＴ　Ａ　ＣＡＬＬ　ＢＡＣＫ

//誰も長く滞在しない//

i keep looking for love in all the wrong places. maybe one day things will be different.

lyrics
--------
and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think imma waste

more time scrollin' down my timeline
wish that i could hop up in my whip and go to five guys
somethings gotta give when i'm sky high
i'm not something super in the uber playin' i spy
disappear from everybody for a while
cause the air is getting thick within the radius of miles
suicide is on my mind & i can't bare to even smile
i can only get a taste cause happiness is versatile

and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think that i

probably could've tried harder
i tend to fall in love too quick with everybody's daughter
take my heart and they begin to slaughter
i'm a fuckin' wreck and my neck is lookin' like every other
boy that they've been bruisin' for a bit
i've been smooth cruisin' catalytic tendencies are in
love is just a four letter word that don't mean shit
cause i open up a bit too much & they just wanna dip

they just always fall back
i don't think i'll ever get a call back
why the fuck i go through all that
just for what we had to fuckin' fall flat

in my sleep

ＹＯＵ　ＣＯＵＬＤ　ＮＯＴ　ＴＡＫＥ　
ＴＨＩＳ　ＡＷＡＹ　ＦＲＯＭ　ＭＥ

//安定したあなたの呼吸//

i can't begin to thank you guys enough for everything we've accomplished, even just this year alone. i never imagined i would reach this point, but i am incredibly grateful of it & i promise it's only up from here. i'm sorry for a lack of releases lately, but i've kept busy with touring & meeting all of you beautiful people & i can't wait to do it again with these tours comin' up next year. i love you guys.

merry christmas <3

lyrics
--------
now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

i've been livin' my life to the fullest
anxiety comes but it won't sit 
got tossed in the bag but it won't zip
cause i killed my mind all in one hit
blast to the past & i feel it
the days we put stars on our ceilings
the tape on my hearts always peeling
and i do not find that appealing
so maybe i
contemplate strategize ways to ease my mind
sit awake and i bake all through the night
touch base with your face being close to mine
and maybe you
can't sleep cause your dreams never seem to soothe
so you spark in the dark tryna make your move
touch me & i fall but i play it cool

(lost in your embrace and i'm longing for your taste love
said we'd runaway but you hardly ever say much)

now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

snowflakes

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oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

oh why does it always feel like i’m a ghost
i’m floating in & out of all these homes
i don’t even have one to call my own 
i’ve been on tour for such a fucking long time
can’t remember what my bedroom looks like
cause hotel rooms and bnbs are all i
see when i’m away & i don’t know why
i signed up for this until i go live
talk me out of fighting with myself 
right now i could use some fucking help 
i scribble words until i feel myself 
homesick has never felt so fucking swell

oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

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at least i try (prod. jody)

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i bet you like
the way that i
sit inside on a friday night
doing nothing with my life
while you’re out partying with other guys 
but i’m not wise 
& these aren't lies
according to you it’s all in my mind
but i see the things that they post online
and it makes me sick to my fucking spine
i worry a lot about the day you leave 
cause the day you leave is the day i leave 
and i think too much about suicide 
about killing time 
about time i try 
something new 
cause this shit gets old but i love the way that she says i love you
and i tried many times to rewind to the days you were mine
and i tried many times to erase what we made what have i done
cause a part of me died when you left in november that night 
think he’s right beside you telling you what to say to me why
do i think what i think cause i think i’m in love with a lie

inside

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i don't think i've
ever been this fucking stressed in my life
creature part two isn't finished i lied
just to get them off my back though i tried
i can't create when i'm dying inside
moving this weekend i wish i could fly
don't have my car but i still gotta drive
pack up the uhaul and tell my mom bye
hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

am i like this
i don't like this
all my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
losing sleep i drive all week and raise my mileage
guardin cut his fucking hair now i don't like him
depression take me by 25
fuck going out i'll just stay inside
this isn't you i say to myself every night lately i contemplate suicide
oh but you're famous online so your life must be great they say but that's a fucking lie
crawl into bed around seven a.m. and the headaches come full force i wanna die

hey holywood would your people ever like me?
misunderstood is all i ever might be

all i ever might be

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is she fine without him
does she cry at the castle
is he gone is he here
he's a cunt he's an asshole
is she fine without him
is her mind in a black hole
does this night ever end
are we locked in a capsule

sorry that we're doomed
i guess this is truce
crying at the crib on a friday afternoon
this is how i live spent the day up in my room
made a couple bucks imma dip & get some food
and maybe get some shoes
the max's lookin' smooth
the loud pack smacks & my snacks all chewed
teeth all dead cause my sugar hit the root
if she don't text back she gon have to get the boot
and imma get my move on i ain't even trip
fucked up on a sunday mondays lookin lit
got twenty eight grams and a bottle of some shit
sip henny with the boys at the hotel on the 6th
i've got plans baby do not intervene
yeah i wanted this forever but you decided to leave
so i'll rewrite the script got sagas to complete
try to hit me with i miss you like what the fuck you mean

from the way that she moves you can tell she's a cyclone
and she's back once again it's a hell of a cycle
with that look in her eyes you must tell yourself i know
this is only a test and you must remain vital

is she fine without him
does she cry at the castle
is he gone is he here
she's a cunt she's an asshole

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i wonder (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

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it's three o' clock
times running out
i rather sleep in than write all about
how i'm depressed
how to get out
cause i don't know shit i said fuck it & made it work out  
i'm a mess
i guess
but for some reason they stay impressed
i'm a pessimist 
optimism is something i miss
i kinda knew i'd be here all alone
but i never thought i'd do this shit & do it on my own
start writing stop checkin' on your phone
my mind races at some paces that are currently unknown

i'm not stoned
well maybe just a bit
hard to write a song if i don't take another hit
cancel all your plans today you're bout to write a hit
probably fucking not but you won't know unless you sit

does the energy around you ever get
inside your cerebellum tell me everything is shit
sleep away the day again and call it fucking quits
an easle to present a thought about the way i live
2017 was the year that i thought i'd kick
the bucket underneath my feet and slide into the pit
reach into the sky and said the clouds are looking lit
but angels never die so imma respawn real quick

did this kid really name his album after his cat
does he smoke a lot and how's his mom feel bout that?
dude please check my music out my shit really slaps
fuck you dickhead why won't you dm me back?
y'all really wanna work with me well how about that?
these lines are real dm's that i'll never hit back
i don't sell features so don't ask about that
god please don't hit me with another group chat 

it's three o' clock
times running out
i rather sleep in than write all about
how i'm depressed
how to get out
cause i don't know shit i said fuck it & made it work out 
i'm a mess
i guess
but for some reason they stay impressed
i'm a pessimist 
optimism is something i miss
i kinda knew i'd be here all alone
but i never thought i'd do this shit & do it on my own
start writing stop checkin' on your phone
my mind races at some paces that are currently unknown

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creature (prod. taylor morgan)

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this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

keep me alive
counting the time on the clock till it's five
minutes until this disaster arrives
lie down on the floor you'll be fine
cold surfaces wake up my eyes
blindsided by love bold and bright  
my hearts in your hands till i die
i'd fly to japan for the night
if tour didn't have my hands tied

why did i sign up for this?
ask yourself the question every time you light the spliff
is there something that i missed?
i can feel their eyes, they're watching me with every line i spit
can you back it up a bit?
it's a little hard to breathe when privacy does not exist
codependency is never seen as such a risk
and the artists that we love are trying hard to not get pissed

this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

these eyes saw a lot of sights
but these guys start a lot of conflict
i'm conflicted how my life just
breezed by lost as soon as night hits

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alive (prod. caspr)

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