prod. @notmorgn featuring @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFHw9ImuMok

guccihighwaters:

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

rot all alone cus i stay locked in my home
i only see the fucking light when my friends are getting stoned

i don't smoke that shit my brain to fucked up
if i could i would i always seem to the worst luck
anxiety embedded in my bones
when i turned 10 man i always felt all alone

9 years later you know im still floating
above the rough ocean treading in emotions
sippin on the potion plan to turn my ghost in
i will fade away no one ever fuckin knows me

9TAILS:

side note ps i would go back
to the scenes i keep seeing in my flashbacks
on the nights when i dream it never makes sense
cross the line and hurry back like im defense

breathe swallow air then i dive in the deep end
calmer under water love when everything is silent
seeing faces even when im not dreaming
tell me are they real i really hope that you can see them

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

side note (feat. 9TAILS)

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//ごめんなさい//

thank you guys so much for the endless amount of support. working with my favorite artists is something i never imagined would become a reality, but you've all made it achievable. i cherish what this music has brought me & i hope we can all grow together in unison through it. i love you guys so much.

this is the first single off my upcoming album, "lacuna" which'll be out october 28th

huge s/o to my mans @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
i can't thank you enough for hoppin' on this one with me

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guardin x 9TAILS - suffocate

9TAILS - Ill Try To Explain

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//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

follow 9TAILS

guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

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//どこにいますか//

i'm finally getting over this dreadful cold & back into the swing of things. it's still guardin season. i love you guys <3

lyrics
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been eight weeks since you left and broke my heart 
said that i should talk about it well where do i start?
lemme light the spliff, i've been floating in the dark
some would call me insecure & some would call it art

i'm a fucking mess a pessimistic little cunt
you're a hypocrite if you don't think that imma stunt 
never wanna talk so i'll just roll another blunt
feelin' like the prophecy when i'm up in the cut

and i guess i'll be okay if i just try a little harder
you're the wind beneath my sails & the crack inside my armor 
i'm awake cause i fake sleep head against the mortar
imma bake like a cake when i smoke another quarter

fuck love imma soil it
prolly boil it
pickin' at it while i'm sitting on the toilet
like acid tablets imma foil it
can't talk too much don't wanna spoil it

times up guess ya clocked out
girl you really hit me with a knock out
i rather lock lips with my bike mount
kiss up on a blunt i'm a kite now
sky high never climb down
imma stay for it like i'm grime now 
something isn't right imma find out
i'm only gonna change if i sign out

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knockout (prod. by tothegood)

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//私はコントロールを失う//

s/o to two of my favorite people 
@convolk
@hatefulbeats

lyrics
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guardin
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this is the last time you'll see me
believe me
or not
i don't really care
drove by in my van & she wasn't even there
i'm fallin' apart while you're playing with his hair
probably gonna fuck but do you even dare
a lot of people say i'm losing control
i think i know where i should go
fuck sleep i don't ever wanna let go
don't let go

convolk
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under the bed
the pillows and sheets
get out of my head
i wander the streets
it's easy to see
the blood that we bleed
i'm not meant for you
you're not meant for me

i guess this is it
we’ll cry til we’re sick
i'm hitting continue
and you’re hitting quit
i'll go one way
and you’ll go the other
this is the last time
we’ll speak to another

photos of you
i threw them away
but i cant throw away the memories
at least now we’re done pretending
after all the times we said things
ok

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photos of you (feat. convolk)(prod. by hateful)

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//私たちは病気です//

three weeks till outsider. i hope this holds you guys over till then & i hope you all are having a great week. i love you <3

show some luv to the homie @mewsyc

check out the music video <3
https://youtu.be/viPhOnb73jk

lyrics
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summer's dead 
the winter fed my ignorance & left me cold
in my head you toss and turn 
my jacket pockets full of gold

all i know is i was comfortable 
but comfort only stays as long as you are home 

as long as you are home (x4)

always said i wish my head
would stop pretending i'm alone 
i could call but i don't want to
i'm afraid of dial tones 

all i know is i was comfortable
but comfort only stays as long as you are home 

as long as you are home (x4)

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home (prod. by mewsyc)

prod. by @caspr

lyrics
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flatline
i just wanna die said i just wanna die sometimes
prolly flatline
have you ever made a wish & it doesn't come true
this time imma flatline  
losing everything including my god damn mind
imma flatline
baby imma die don't cry it'll be alright
imma flatline

death is rolling through the wind
hyperactive like a kid without the rittalin
sip 40s till i sink into my seat
transportation elevate so i can't feel my feet
cloudy in my head
i think the lighter fluid lit my lucid visions from my bed 
i sit and ponder bout the water that i'm drinking from my sink
will it calcify and justify the feelings that i think?
probably not but that's a fucking headline
heading to the shore without a cure for all my deadlines
subtweeting my enemies but they're just merely enzymes
i know that you love me but you love him too & that's fine
(not really but)
i should probably go
zippin up my coat i spark a blunt under the snow
woah 
i just blew an o
stepped into a portal
i'm immortal now the goat & then i

flatline
i just wanna die said i just wanna die sometimes
prolly flatline
have you ever made a wish & it doesn't come true
this time imma flatline  
losing everything including my god damn mind
imma flatline
baby imma die don't cry it'll be alright
imma flatline

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flatline (prod. by caspr)

prod. by @guardinmusic

lyrics
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i see them looking at me
from right outside of my window
i see the monsters that creep
they lurk when i'm sparking my indo
holding the smoke till i choke i won't breathe till they exit my airways
coping by hoping tomorrow is better i dwell in the stairway 

fuck it i just wanna drive
i love the feeling of feeling alive
do you ever contemplate suicide?
falling asleep on his shoulder while i
cry in my pillow alone in my bed
smother the sounds of the voice in my head
losing my voice so i speak with a pen
writing agendas so i can pay rent

this is my life
this is not shit you could cut with a knife
no tension here but the stress is as thick as the buds
i've been breaking & smoking all night
why do i write all about me?
why can't you see all the things that i see?
am i alive? is my brain just pullin' tricks on me?
get out alive or just live in a dream

sorry i suck
i'm full of shit i do not give a fuck
i've got disorders in folders inside of me tucked
undiagnosed but i know i am fucked
up in my head
writing about it again & again
it's getting hard to write songs about flowers 
when showers are cold & my phone's always dead

i think that i'm fine
when i'm alone in my
bed with my bong packed tight
my throat's been sore all night
sip that water quick
before you might get sick
tacks and thorns will prick
my words will never stick

shadow

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

prod. by @taylor x @taxpurposes

s/o @garden_avenue

lyrics
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i’m still lost & existin'
kush still make me feel different
i call your name you never came
cause the spring to summer weather brought a lot of fuckin' rain
and everybody told me bout chu
worried bout the probability of all my fears becoming truth
and inside me lies a monster built behind my point of view
can’t escape it when the hate is building up inside of you
hold up wait one minute cause there’s shit i gotta say
put my feelings to the side so i can just articulate
ain’t so pretty when you sittin’ in a city full of snakes
and you think too much about em every night & fucking day

but my girl an angel she tell me she ride or die
why my thoughts be heading south when i’m thinking about those eyes
does she lay em on another or is it just in my mind
can i live one fucking second without this fear in my life
why is everything irrational with me
i got scars inside my heart from where my ex got up to leave
if i set my brain on autopilot does it start to bleed
if the televisions on can i still fall right back to sleep

parked up in your driveway
come over to my place
kick it till it’s sunday
stay up all night monday

driveway 2 (prod. taylor morgan x taxpurposes)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle

'gxf' comin' soon!

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guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

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