produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
i like to listen to your bones break
take his body and chop it up throw you in the lake
you wont find the remains
everything is gone without a trace
my moral compass is destroyed 
how can we live in a world so opaque

yk this isn't what he thought you would do tonight?
no struggling you do wont help
but isn't that how fate works right?
you dont have anymore lies to tell
i like to watch his flesh melt
oh the misery you must of felt
i already knew i was going to hell
atleast im bringing you down with me
i tried to be friendly
you faked being a friend to me
now your just a trophy i left under lock n key
you know my soul was always empty

i like to listen to your bones break
take his body and chop it up throw you in the lake
you wont find the remains
everything is gone without a trace
my moral compass is destroyed 
how can we live in a world so opaque

bitch im not superman i dont wear a cape
switch up for him n now we are estranged
you think i wanted todo that to him?
i cant even hear your name
because every single fucking time i get rage
i try to forget and it gets brought up again
i cant fucking escape
its 2025 bitch i dont think ill make it to 2028
im losing everything daily
i wont have anything worth living for at this rate
and look at everything i destroyed to get here
look at all this bullshit on my plate
no matter what i fucking do 
all i feel is the same
and your the one to blame


i like to listen to your bones break
take his body and chop it up throw you in the lake
you wont find the remains
everything is gone without a trace
my moral compass is destroyed 
how can we live in a world so opaque


bones break

produced by hollowprpl x tiedforsilver

you dont seem to care at all
you sat there built me up just to watch me fall
u cant even pick up the phone and answer my fucking call
so why should i care at all
you sat there built me up just to fall
u told everyone i changed
that may be true but i dont care at all

ur the reason i dont wanna live at all
we will never be close again
i got these thoughts trapped in my head
you wouldn't even care if i was dead
and i wouldn't care if u where too
i dont wanna hate you 
but i dont have any choice left
i have dreams of me drowning than i wake up in this pool of sweat
waste my time
like how u gonna have a heart intact if u always break mine
im barely getting by
burning everything down
and bottle my feelings up inside 

than everyone will see why
stuck in my head
i take these drugs to avoid it
but this shit isn't fun
i dont even know what i was mixing up
i think im gonna throw up
my visions going blurry im way to fucked up




care at all

produced by sorrow bringer x luffysome
sample from bmw

lyrics:
time flies by and now im just a memory
i knew things where gonna be temporary
but i cant help but feel this way
u where supposed to be here in February
that didn't happen
and now im filled with jealousy
time goes by now 
and im living life contemporary 
while we are living life separately 
do you even mention me?

all those drugs are tempting
but thats a side of me i started mending
it takes time
im actually doing better now, instead of pretending
say im fake as fuck 
but you switched up on me for ur own benefit
lately these thoughts been collecting
and now that i actually payed attention
so many things started connecting
like when you told me you left him
or how i used to get texts when you where out drinking
and how i stayed up all night over thinking
i used to care but now my armors weakened
now every once in awhile i get a call
not even 3 months ago they where frequent 
if u didn't care 
than why did it take you so long to leave than
u can waste time
its not like im running on borrowed time
everything i tried todo wasn't to lie
i just wanted things to be alright
but instead i still lied
and now things aren't fine
i cant focus on that
i cant get you back
it doesnt mattered this time
oh fuck i been getting high like every night
and i know baby its kill me
im alright just go ill be fine

time flies by and now im just a memory
i knew things where gonna be temporary
but i cant help but feel this way
u where supposed to be here in February
that didn't happen
and now im filled with jealousy
time goes by now 
and im living life contemporary 
while we are living life separately 
do you even mention me?

february

produced by hollowprpl
soulbound pt2

lyrics;
i opened up the book of my life
its time to turn the page
didn't get any sleep last night
so i jus get another drink
i got memories im trying to erase
im working so hard
but i need a fucking break
im in the studio popping shit just so i can fucking think

theres this feeling inside
its inside me and its killing me
theres something trying to rip me apart
its trying so hard to breakfree
but without this inside of me
ill be fucking empty
theres a hole where there used to be a heart


sick of living
i let everyone down
im gonna drown
i have words
but i cant say them outloud
i had friends
but where are they now
i was trying to find my way
but somehow ended up homebound
tried to move on
but somehow im soul bound
and I dont know what todo now
im so high now im up on the cloud
im so high now my feet cant even reach the ground
im 23 and im barely able to feel a thing now

i haven't been feeling like myself lately
i been avoiding everyone
i bet they all hate me
im sinking in deeper
im losing myself
i think im sick, i got a fever

im falling down
im falling so fast now
i look in the mirror and im like who the fuck are you
im dreaming of nights alone now
but at the end im still falling to my doom 
and i dont even see the ground

fuck everyone
fuck everything 
i damaged my vessel
no one can help me
no one can help you
how can i ever be enough??
how can i ever feel good 
how can i ever feel good enough?
im falling deeper

yeah i got a fever
im falling deeper
i lost myself the day i decided to not get sober
how could i ever keep up??
how could i ever be here

im falling down
im falling so fast now
i look in the mirror and im like who the fuck are you
im dreaming of nights alone now
but at the end im still falling to my doom 
and i dont even see the ground

book of my life

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
ruthless, thats why its called fate
1 hit thats all it takes
fuck it now im 2 fifths in, and i hate being this way
god i hate being awake
1 wish, i wish i could quit
come quick, b4 lose it 
clueless, i was jus a kid
stupid, how could i lose this

my footprints in the snow and mud
23 almost 24
and im addicted to these drugs
jus a little love
thats all i want
but im so drugged up i forgot
im jus like my mom and i hate it 
why do i gotta be so basic
23 325 5'6 and my heart still vacant
taking pills to fill it
drinking again jus to fix it
grandma found me when my lips were blue 
am i doomed to die in this room
i haven't eaten in days
i dont even enjoy the taste of the food
feeling the warmth of heat
puking up blood i got blood all over my sheets
i feel like im losing my self
most days i barely breath
is there a way out
i dont know but i wanna believe there is

take a pill than pass out
do anything to escape
im haunted by my past now
i have friends
but how long will that last now
its been 15 hours since my last breakdown
but these days im barely awake now
i hate these emotions i fake now

ruthless, thats why its called fate
1 hit thats all it takes
fuck it now im 2 fifths in, and i hate being this way
god i hate being awake
1 wish, i wish i could quit
come quick, b4 lose it 
clueless, i was jus a kid
stupid, how could i lose this

ruthless

made this on 8gs of shrooms 

prod hollowprpl x ryankelly

lyrics;
she added me back yesterday
oh boy what could it be
why do u think ill play ur game
nothings changed
your still the same, im the same
smoking all night
this shit my novocaine
i feel it in my veins

i cant feel my face
all the shit im 
jus numb the pain
3 pills to the brain
im still the same
said id change
but thats far way
i lost my path
i lost my way
maybe im the one playing my own sick game
maybe i should take the blame
but thats why life is ruthless
call it fate
2025 i hate everything i make 
2026 ill try my best 
but everythings the same
im slowly fading away

she added me back yesterday
oh boy what could it be
why do u think ill play ur game
nothings changed
your still the same, im the same
smoking all night
this shit my novocaine
i feel it in my veins

i jus faced 2 blunts
while i got liquor in my cup
im slumped as fuck
it feels like yesterday
but i lost track of time
and its already Friday
i started Wednesday 
i lost my self for the past week
it might not seem that deep
but all that lost time
what was i doing
wasting away to nothing 

she added me back yesterday
oh boy what could it be
why do u think ill play ur game
nothings changed
your still the same, im the same
smoking all night
this shit my novocaine
i feel it in my veins

novocaine

(prod. sorrow bringer)

this is another witch's tale.

i use to live in ruins
cold walls and heavy air
but loving you felt different
like someone opened windows there

i didn't know i could be soft
i thought my heart was set in stone
(was set in stone)
i don't recognize my heart
but in a good way
it beats a little calmer
ever since you choose to stay
these bruises don't feel permanent
the night isn't so dark

i don't recognize my heart 
but i think i like the change
i use to hate my reflection
but now I'm learning who i am
and every time you say you love me
i believe it just a little more

i don't recognize my heart
but maybe that's the point
maybe healing wasn't losing me
it was finding my voice

dont recongize my heart (sorrow bringer)

(prod. koilake)

this is another witch's tale.

ive been making vows in silence
to the parts of me i lost
promising the broken pieces 
that i hold on through the cost

im learning how to love myself
like i deserve a place to stay
and every step i take feels like
im choosing me in a new way
the past tried to claim me
but im not owned by that pain
i slipped a ring on my healing
now i carry my own name
im engaged to my healing
(my healing)

to the growth i use to fear
to the softness im discovering
in the mirror year by year
im engaged to my healing
to the person i almost lost
and ill never them stranded
no matter what it cost
this love is slow but honest
this time i choose myself

im engaged to my healing
to a life that finally felt like help

engaged to my healing (koilake)

(prod. lonecrow)

witch's tale.

i use to sleep with heartbreaks
stitched into my skin

every room felt temporary
every move felt like the end
but then i found a quiet
i never knew existed
a place where I'm not hurting

a love i never pictured
i look at where I'm standing
and where i could have been
and it hits me like a sunrise

I'm still here.
I'm still here.

i never thought I'd get here
to this version of my life
where the storms don't shake me
and i don't wanna say
goodbye

i never thought I'd get here
with a ring and a steady heart
with a future that feels gentle
and a person that never falls apart

i never thought I'd get here
but damn, I'm glad i did
(I'm glad i did)

never thought i'd get here (lonecrow)

you're listening to another witch's tail.

call me a witch vampire
i can manifest your love 
(your love)
or i can sink my teeth 
into your skin (your skin)
but no you're not running away
(you're not running away)
you're not escaping
i got you in a trans
(you're mine)

ima get your name tatted on my neck
(witch's tail)
yeah i promise that
just let me sink my teeth 
into your skin
i call em my love bites
(little love bites)

the harder i bite
 the more love i give
so dont be afraid 
when you wake up my too
my love bites

my love bites
(little love bites)
my little love bites

i just wanna show you love
i dont have any other way
to show my love to you
so i sink my teeth 
into your skin
little love bites

i just wanna show you my love.

little love bites (prod. lostangel.)

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