produced by scottysplash

lyrics;
i been smoking till my eyes go red
i been wasting everyday in this bed
been wishing everyday i was dead
how the fuck do i try when there is nothing left
jus switched my meds
but i dont think theyll fucked up head
but ill try because im always trying my best

i know im a mess
n i know i got these regrets
so why the fuck do i wanna be dead
ive had friends i lost and friends i pushed away
day to day
night to night
im not feeling alright
week to week
month to month
im lost in my head 
i see the seasons changing like its twilight
been a year and i still dont feel any different
been 2 years i been stagnant


mess

produced by scottysplash

last single off of "losing myself again" before release

lyrics;
if ur still up whyd you hit me with a k
i been waiting for a text from u all day


i been getting high like everyday
my first thought is when i wake up im grabbing my tray
im rolling up or chopping up
doesnt matter as long as i get fucked up
every day is clock in than wake n bake
dont reply all week, then i finally reply so she jus hit me with a k
like i care so i hit her back with okay like ur 2 late

yea, yea, yea
im so fucked up i jus threw up
i don't care ima roll up
ion give a fuck ima pour up
i dont give up spark the blunt in the rain
take another shot to numb the brain
feeling all fucked up really does help the pain

shes been getting money
while ya boy is barely able to get by
like im barely able to survive 
but once i again i dont give a fuck
i feel like faze rain when he was listening to zoom
smoking on poison like my name is gloom
she said she was my cinderalla but where is ur shoe
like bro idek why i fuck wit u
when i know u got another dude
not gonna trip over it
ima take this potion i jus brewed
some friends think im cool
some ppl think im cool
but im jus a normal dude

swear i been getting high like everyday
my first thought is when i wake up im grabbing my tray
im rolling up or chopping up
doesnt matter as long as i get fucked up
smoking on gas its real propane
every day is clock in than wake n bake
dont reply all week, then i finally reply so she jus hit me with a k
like i care so i hit her back with okay like ur 2 late

produced by cxrter & braga

lyrics;
i wanna take a portal to another world 
gave most of my time to a new girl
that was jus god throwing me another hurtle
friends dropped me, family wont talk to me
people wont talk to me im ha lf demon but im still mortal
am I dead am I alive either way my bodys laying on the floor tho

i do this to myself
and i repeat the process
i try to looking my brain
it jus repeats non sense 
im booting up fl 
im writing another song
jus for it to sound the same
they all sound the same
when are the lyrics gonna change

put some autotune
add some reverb and compression
record some lyrics about having no compassion or empathy
its hard when the world brought u this far when they brought u here from bullying and other tactics
im not trying to sit here and say my life is tragic
but like it gets hard sometimes
u cant even imagine 
i didnt think i would be doing this music stuff 5 years later
ig i can imagine

ig im the only person i can count on
i dont even look at my flaws anymore
i jus wanna be someone u can be proud of
im jus stuck in place
and the river cant stay stagnant

i wanna take a portal to another world 
gave most of my time to a new girl
that was jus god throwing me another hurtle
friends dropped me, family wont talk to me
people wont talk to me im ha lf demon but im still mortal
am I dead am I alive either way my bodys laying on the floor tho

i dont wanna be alone
but i choose too
i dont wanna be alone
but those doors closed too
i liked the life i had 
but it was over too soon

i wanna take a portal to another world 
gave most of my time to a new girl
that was jus god throwing me another hurtle
friends dropped me, family wont talk to me
people wont talk to me im ha lf demon but im still mortal
am I dead am I alive either way my bodys laying on the floor tho

ig im the only person i can count on
i dont even look at my flaws anymore
i jus wanna be someone u can be proud of
im jus stuck in place
and the river cant stay stagnant forever

another world

produced by autrioly

lyrics;
im taking my lighter and im burning every bridge
i roll up this weed n i take another hit
i pick up this pill bottle and toss 1 down my throat
i keep saying i wanna quit
but its the only thing that makes life easy
if i quit than i feel like id hate it
a life so grey and dull
drugs r the only thing that helps it
ion think i can ever quit

burned bridges

produced by rainydays & jolst
 engineered recorded & written by me

lyrics;
dont pay any attention to the bottles on the shelf
or the weed on the table
its the only thing keeping me together

you told me one day this might work out
you told me you cared about me
but where are those words at now
you told me that you werent afraid of me
but where are you now?
call me and tell me you miss me
send a text and tell me ur coming to see me


i wear my heart on my sleeve
shes never had anyone care so all she does is leave
when u left you cut me so hard that i still bleed
i know deep down ur not something i need
but here i am again on my knees sending up another prayer
wishing anyone would be there
everyone i care about leaves
nobody actually cares

im ashamed on how i have changed
im not the same as when we met
theres nothing left but rage and hate
but when i was with you i felt safe
try to save me
maybe your too late

im still obsessed but -
i know, I KNOW, i know, I DONT WANNA NEED YOU
i know, I KNOW, i know, I DONT WANNA BELIEVE YOU
AND I DEFENINITELY DONT NEED YOU

my corpse decaying in these house of moss
i said id change even if i didnt know the cost
in my head i hear all there voices and i cant focus
i cant control my emotions
always crashout
always get angry and scream

dont pay any attention to the bottles on the shelf
or the weed on the table
its the only thing keeping me together

you told me one day this might work out
you told me you cared about me
but where are those words at now
you told me that you werent afraid of me
but where are you now?
call me and tell me you miss me
send a text and tell me ur coming to see me

care about me

produced by hollowprpl
non profit

lyrics;

burns on my skin
cuts on my heart
im being destroyed from the outside in
running from the monster
ima start hiding so ima slow down my breathing
it gets tiring im tired of running from my demons
for my own sadistic reasons
thought we where close but why did u believe him
binding him in his cage
so he wont come out
so the world wont feel his rage
everyday is the same
and im not okay

when will my songs stop sounding the same
and i start putting pen to the page and show everyone what i made
and people will listen to my songs and ill get the plays

burns on my skin
cuts on my heart
im being destroyed from the outside in
running from the monster
ima start hiding so ima slow down my breathing
it gets tiring im tired of running from my demons
for my own sadistic reasons
thought we where close but why did u believe him

ima fade out
ima fade out into the background
i thought u where gone
but ur back now
every song is sad now
but im not gonna let that shit slide im not gonna back down
not gonna give a fuck about u now
u where my bestfriend but u played with my head and played pretend
destroy myself
i dont ever ask for help
it must be nice to have friends that care
i do this by myself
im trapped in purgatory with no way out 
this world was made for me right?
and i dont need any help
stop telling me what i wanna hear

i can burns on my skin
cuts on my heart
im being destroyed from the outside in
running from the monster
ima start hiding so ima slow down my breathing
it gets tiring im tired of running from my demons
for my own sadistic reasons
thought we where close but why did u believe him

burns

sample from @wraithontheporch
production by rainydays

lyrics;

maybe

produced by secre x wraith
feat @web

lyrics;

i been trying to switch up my lyrics
i tried to switch up my mix
i got my friend to teach me how to master
like it even matters

like every one hates my voice & everything i make is shit
switch up my tone like it matters to anybody
like how cool can multiple voices really be
how the fuck have i been doing this for 5 years 
spent all this time, wasted all the blood and tears
wasted so much time for what. im still a nobody
want people to love me 
but i'm jus a boy from the country
im not counting bands or getting this money

i'm just a nobody
wanted to be somebody
but im still a nobody
want them all to love me
but i'm just a nobody

i been trying to switch up my lyrics
i tried to switch up my mix
i got my friend to teach me how to master
like it even matters

nobody w/ web

produced by rainydays 

lyrics;
shallow graves
empty bottles click in my backpack
world is fading to black
slowly losing my self
going mad
everyone leaving me
its getting sad
i just wanna runaway
and forget everything i ever had
i just wanna runaway

i still remember it all
take me back to those days in fall
when i stayed up late waiting for your call
its like i almost cared
after you left
now every time i get a text
i ignore it and go on with my day
 


shallowgrave

produced by me, beat used for marsmal's next project

if u would like a beat check out my traktrain

https://traktrain.com/rainyd4ys

stop me from hurting (scarsonline exclusive)

produced by myles 

lyrics;
teach me 
to be comfortable in this body
teach me to not need someobdy 
teach me to not be me

im in my head again
i hate how i look again
its always the same
i hate my apperence thats why i never go out in the open
its been 6 months since i hung out with anyone
its been 3 days since i got fucked up
its been 3 months since we been done
heard you got a new man
hope hes the one
i trusted you fully
now i feel so fucking empty
nobody likes me
barely anyone loves me

ugly

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
think about better years
i know more than likely we will end up together
even when we hate eachother
we cant not talk to eachother
you hate me, i hate you
its a circle we go thru
u love singing, i love rapping
every song i write is about you

don't judge me
don't trust me
youll just get hurt by me
dont love me
you dont need me


hate eachother

msg in the bottle

Eleum Loyce

Astral clocktower (Ft ilyaidxn) (prod. Wisssery)

Lyrics:








Empiezo a caer
Voy a fallecer
Ya no te quiero ver
No me haces sentir 
Como antes joder
Tienes que entender
Que no te amo joder
Los cortes en mi piel
Ahora los puedes ver
Como me haces sentir
El dolor en mi in brain
No me siento bien
Paso de 0 a 100
Extasis in my chez
I dont know what u say, I dont know

I feel pain in my brain
i can see the rain
With blood in my place
I don't wanna die
And my head's telling lies
I just wanna feel alive
i hope that u know
these scars in so deep
And cut on the wrist
And blood on the knife
I just wanna feel alive

I JUST WANNA FEEL ALIVE

produced by wraithontheporch

lyrics;
catching up cuz she told me we could speak now
i keep my lights on when u go out 

im sinking in the mud
my heads fucked up from the drugs
knowing ill never be enough
my body covered in cuts
and my hands covered in his blood
what have i become
what have i done
run run run
im a monster x2

catching up cuz she told me we could speak now
i keep my lights on when u go out 



produced by: secre & jolst

i got these fucked up thoughts in my brain
all these angry thoughts 
i feel like i got the mark of cain
ketamine trying to numb out my pain
got addicted now that wasnt part of the plan
baby love me for who i am
but i am only a man

lock my door im annoyed alright 
honestly i'm trying to get high alone tonight
i dont wanna start a fight
i love you so i dont wanna you to see this side of me
i told u that side of me died
but he came back lately
i do this shit for my safety
god cant hate me if he made me
cant die if satan wont even take me
each time you lie it breaks me
but ill be fine 
look at me telling you another lie
i swear im fine
if i die atleast i was alive
atleast i knew you for the 3rd time

breakdown another line like its my therapy
i’m scared of who i’m turning into
i broke my mirror because i hated seeing that im see through
its hard imagining a life without you


safety

lyrics 
my face starts to fall off, can't tell but something has been off. cause something doesn't feel right. light it up and i come alive, no love in this cold grasp. Benz blue and my heart glass. better back that shit the fuck up no love no blood and I'm sewn up. couldn't even see you know wouldn't wanna be you. fake love from a photograph place it down and i learn my craft

waiting wanting watching lusting i know you want me to just go (the witch of hemwick) lost here in this forestry i beg and plead but there is no hope (the witch of hemwick) minds been aching bones are breaking my heart reaches but im speechless now (i cant hold on)(the witch of hemwick)
ilyaidxns part 

as my bodys torn apart again its not something we could reamend youve been lost and so have i
i just punch holes and spit blood and fuck why does my life always fucking suck can i get some immunity something that is new to me maybe kill a part of me again
again 
breaking my back as im fucking around again i cannot face all the things that are certain and i know that one day ill finally be at terms
you a mothafuckin bitch i hope you know spent my whole life locked in the cold im just so sick and tired of these little liars that break you apart and then hung by a wire 
break me down and put me back together as a doll you want me tethered im so broken and controlled

The Witch Of Hemwick

22 | songwriter, producer, engineer and vocalist

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

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