produced by ryan kelly

lyrics;
i dont wanna fight the feelings but im falling apart
let people i called my friends get close 
just for all of them to use me for my big heart
said it 45 times i always try my best
but for fuck sake i always miss my mark

so im at the function ripping the cart
sparking a dart because fuck a vape
i liked it better when i was gonna drown in the lake
i liked this life better when i used to stay up late
playing games like fortnite and minecraft
now i havent seen my family in a fort knight
and I got diamonds like im in the mineshaft
sweat soaked sheets, i have these bad dreams
in a room full of smoke, scrappapers on the floor hallway filled with smoke, smoking on cookie, smoking on propane
just to try to numb my pain, it works but for how long. 

dont wanna fight

wrote this on my birthday and didnt get a chance to record it

produced by ryan kelly

lyrics;
i should just leave now
but i put my guard down
now look at these walls i put up fall down
i should just goto sleep now

girl im just grime & scum
so girl its another day im climbing out the sewers
and fuck everyone, did you really think id do that to her?
fucking with my head now im breaking down
i know i'm not the one girl i'm jus taking my turn
i told u i wasnt interested but than i was the one that started to flirt
play this game again, its stupid but i guess im falling for her
playing this game really does make my head hurt

i got my feelings hurt
so i'm gonna break down again
its all because shes leaving again
i let her and she played with my head again
now  im dying again
oh fuck i said again like 5 times
i'm repeating it 
because its easier than thinking about whats happening
its my birthday and i dont wanna fight
i took these shrooms to feel alright
yall fucked wit my head n killed my mind
and now im not feeling alright
2025 is the year i die
can u change my mind before i take my life
its 11pm at night
and im sitting here crying in the mic

girl im just grime & scum
so girl its another day im climbing out the sewers
and fuck everyone, did you really think id do that to her?
fucking with my head now im breaking down
i know i'm not the one girl i'm jus taking my turn
i told u i wasnt interested but than i was the one that started to flirt
play this game again, its stupid but i guess im falling for her
playing this game really does make my head hurt



11pm

produced by rainydays

lyrics;
woke up in a cold sweat from my nightmares
waiting for god to answer my prayers
but im already hellbound 
im a corpse in this graveyard
i burned down the whole town
watch the flames burn
where is your god at now
im jus a demon thats sent from hell


crawling out the sewers
his face turned bluer
is he dead,??
Something couldnt be so truer
i'm just a acid spewer
pick up the controller
play the game
take my chain 
rip it off my neck
why do i need it when im dead
angel glow shines down
how the fuck am i alive, i think i need a sec
the demons shoot there fire balls
but i try to deflect
counter spell and counter attack




corpse

Lyrics:














Noooo no se que fue lo que sucedió
Me quiero morir ahora con vos
Mira las heridas en mi interior
Ahora soy un fanta (fantasma)sin corazon
Antidepresivos y son por vos
La sangre va fluyendo en mi brazo
Es lo único que me hace sentir vivo 
Cuando veo la sangre me encorvo
Solo me tiro al suelo y me drogo
Veo pasar el tiempo en mi cuarto
Mientras me fumo un porro y escribo
Lo que sucede en esta habitación
Me siento vacío y solo
Estoy recayendo de apoco
Me estoy ahogando en un foso
Apreta el gatillo se acabo
No siento interés en nada
Solo en escribir estas letras
Solo para poder expresar
Mi batalla interna a alguien mas
Con quien se pueda identificar
Y alguna vez superar

Vacío v2

snow

i do not have a good way to rip vinyls so this is the best i can do sorry

guccihighwaters - novocaine (Vinyl Rip)

august

Lyrics:








Empiezo a caer
Voy a fallecer
Ya no te quiero ver
No me haces sentir 
Como antes joder
Tienes que entender
Que no te amo joder
Los cortes en mi piel
Ahora los puedes ver
Como me haces sentir
El dolor in my brain
No me siento bien
Paso de 0 a 100
Extasis in my chez
I dont know what u say, I dont know

I feel pain in my brain
i can see the rain
With blood in my place
I don't wanna die
And my head's telling lies
I just wanna feel alive
i hope that u know
these scars in so deep
And cut on the wrist
And blood on the knife
I just wanna feel alive

I JUST WANNA FEEL ALIVE v2

spinal

geeked up

spaceman (nico north)

keep the score

I can not think about why
Youre all i need
The air i breathe 

Can you just tell me the truth 
For once
Its hard to stand 
in this house of leaves 

I saw your body decay 
Right in front of me

Now all these blistering welts
On my leg 
Start to heal 
And i forget
Your face 

spring has just escaped me 
now fall is approaching 
the year is almost over
and I’ve been choking
not one for religion
but I have been 
praying and hoping 
your body is a temple 
that I desecrated 
and left to rot for the vultures
so long ago

resting place of the old guard w Saint Lazare

22 | songwriter, producer, engineer and vocalist

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

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