I put my whole life in this backpack, and I'm hoping that I never backtrack

Your so talented! Im so happy i got to see you in Toronto! Best day of my life . Please do more shows in ontario!!

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Something's in the Way w/ guardin (Prod. Sinxi & Tagliatore)

VInyl & CD pre-sales

prod. @its-naawoj

lyrics
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strawberry blunt ash flicked to the pavement
drank too much my minds outta place
this long walk home i hope i can make it
make it
make it

twas the night
i never felt so alive
then you crossed my mind
i tried to leave you behind
but of course you hide
kept out of reach & unkind
so my pulse will rise
as i look into those eyes
and i know
i don't wanna go where you're always chasing
leave me to the road as i start erasing
everything i know it's yours for the taking
take it
take it
walking all alone my feet start to ache
this party isn't over until i say it's
over and i'm over you when i'm waking
waking
waking

waking up to the sun
the stars don't know where i've been
bad luck is all that i know
bad luck is all that i am

i don't wanna go where you're always chasing
leave me to the road as i start erasing
everything i know it's yours for the taking
take it
take it
walking all alone my feet start to ache
this party isn't over until i say it's
over and i'm over you when i'm waking
waking
waking

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bad luck (prod. naawoj)

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fuck my life
fuck my health
you don't care so i'll go fuck myself
fuck this job
fuck this car
every song that i write just coexists with a scar
and i've got paragraphs about the shit that i will never say
cause it'll kill you just to hear me whine and bitch all fucking day
maybe the grass is green in other states where i choose to reside
maybe a glimpse of light will formulate and catch my fucking eye
and maybe you'll hear this when you check my page and ask if i'm alright
cause i've been afraid of all the darkest places lying in my mind

i will convince myself i'm dying but then act like i'm just fine
my mind's a scary fucking place and i can't fix it while i drive
but my car is lucy in the sky with diamonds going sixty five
and you're just a pot hole maybe yoko ono screaming by my side
is this the end of things i'm strumming strings just trying to decide
cause i am afraid of me so save me please i beg you just to try
i'm losing my purpose lifes a circus they said please enjoy the ride
my seatbelt is broken eyes wide open as my body starts to slide

if i escape the wreck i'll disconnect from everyone online
i'll pack my belongings i've been longing for this moment my whole life
i'll disappear for months no mentions of my status or a clue
i'm fine don't you worry there's no hurry to return to what i knew
it's hard to calculate these conversations if i'm being truth
-ful i wanna congregate all that relate to everything i spew
in midst of my disconnect i'll stay in check & keep in touch with few
as long as i'm open im just hoping that it's something i'll get through 

cause i'm a fucking wreck
oh what the heck
why do i even try
i lie in the grass
high off my ass
& watch the clouds just pass on by
if life has a purpose
i am nervous
to unravel what is mine
i'll trip & i'll travel
down the rabbit hole
& ditch my bags inside

ditch

just another lil fun one cuz i miss my friends
creature pt. 3 otw
<3

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you know it's import
-tant i can't ignore
feeling like forever might be shorter than before
it's been on my mind
all throughout the night
so me and all my friends go drink until we feel alright
till we feel alright
sprite ciroc and ice
down another cup but it gotchu feelin nice
might light up another slice
it ain't even noon but we gotta smoke twice
got a double in my cup
with a soda on the side
chicken noodle soup
way i'm spittin all this fried
with the gx engine we gon bring the coupe to life
in the tx 972 with all my guys

got my foot elevated while we drivin up the 5
06 ludacris followed by nelly furtado
breeze past you goofies in the sprinter with my gattos
feed lines to bitches off my dick like a silo
jesus where the pen at imma write another rap
jesus where the pen at im just trying to get smacked
ayy you kinda quiet is it getting to you bad
we a long way from home when home is all you've ever had  
i'll just redefine my character & get right in my bag
the tequila made it worse now i'm cursed with all this lag
eyes bloodshot crossed while i'm puffin on the zag
i don't wanna talk about it i don't really wanna drag 
you down with it
kiss another blunt go round with it
pop another top go drown in it
feelin like i got to
this pain heavy so the substance what i'm bound to

bound to round two
googling just how to
c-o-p-e cope with
-out chu out chu
(x2)

sour then sweet then i'm gone
feel like this tour wasn't long
nuff with the chit chat
man i miss my dogs
fuck it man i miss my dogs
control alt deleting this song
y'all really keepin' me strong
nuff with the bullshit
man i miss my dogs
started tallying the score
i think i've been here before
went from hollywood to venice
back to crying on the floor
i know this bout to be rough
you know you can call my bluff
we did everything we wanted
but everything's not enough

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

prod. @siemspark x @jkeibeats

lyrics
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go
she said baby take your time
have fun out on the road
life is but a dream but it depends on where you go
i’ve been meeting people that i hardly fucking know
hardly fucking know
so now i’m singing woah
this is all i ever dreamed about and god it shows
swimming through this liquor tryna rid of all my woes
something in my head is telling me to take it slow
please just take it slow

please just take it slow
i’ve been tryna pace it
by erasing who i know
lifting up my spirit
in a pirouette with ghosts
dancing with the devil
every time i fucking smoke
but they would never know
panic sits before me
in a newly painted coat
i just drank too much so baby
please don’t rock the boat
fully automatic i go manic in these notes
this is what i wrote
this is what i wrote

she can tell from my eyes that i’m jetlagged
i’m not talking enough i regret that
my coding is fucked but i cracked that
i put my whole life in this backpack
and i’m hoping that i never backtrack

i hope this is forever
my life put together
a mere apparition
of me doing better
i’m sick of this weather
debating on whether
i’m writing this letter
for me or for everyone

jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

lyrics
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don't do it for them
do it for yourself maybe
disguising the truth
convincing myself they hate me
are you really there
or am i just talking to myself
i'll do it again
i'll stay up and watch the sunrise
on top of the shed
i wish i could stay here all night 
i don't understand
why is it always just like this

i miss drinking until 6am
with all of my friends
even ones i just met
hey owen i hope that you're listening man
you helped me get outta my bedroom again
i was on the verge of the end of it all
but nobody knew at all
and i wish that i could get stuck in the past
back before we started moving so fast
standing this still is a choice that won't last
and neither will we so i guess it's a wrap
from here i see this so clearly
at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings

(at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings x2)

i had everything mapped to a t
but everything here isn't quite as it seems
there's blood everywhere from the heart on my sleeve
a permanent fix yeah i wanted to leave it
all behind me
cauterizing
the thread on my wings so i'm no longer flying
help
i'm trying to climb out this hell
but it's hard to talk when i lack
all the skills that i need to get outta my shell
i'm not scared to jump so just please don't come near me
when i hit the bottom is when they'll start cheering
and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you're hearing this

and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you hear me
and now i'm a ghost oh hello can you hear me

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geronimo (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

lyrics
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i've been on my toes
cause you never know
where your time will go
if you'll ever fold
cause the cards inside your hand
disconnected from your soul
i've been moving slow
hoping that the rain still contributes to my growth
i can feel the glow
sitting in my chest like a bomb about to blow
lightwork
i ain't pay the bill in weeks
i've been writing down these verses on my sheets
getting cozy on this god damn beat
cause i know you mother fuckers gonna sleep
not the way you prolly think  
off a sedative setting in while you blink
and the words that you've been saying i'm spitting out in the sink
tryna down it with some water now everything lookin pink
like a vessel in your eye i'm poppin off inside the ink

lack of zinc got you mother fuckers confused
cloudy vision consumed
mix it with the henny that's a dumb move
come thru we can talk about it sometime
working on this album till the sunrise
i've been on my shit
checklist when it come time
on another project checkin outta my mind
i don't need to think cause i only do it sometimes
time will tell my story if i ever get these lines right
write until my wrist hurts
damn this screen is so bright
fill another script full of words not the drug type
john carpenter how my flicks flamin my pipe
imma set the scene really quick
lemme paint it out how i like
i fight through a constant battle with depression
self mutilation, aggression, the wreckage of my compression
the pressure been comin' in this music is my obsession
i'll do this shit everyday until i reach my ascension
for real

used to mop the floor now i'm flooring through the hills
it's a crazy fucking world when you live through what you feel
i won't ever take a break cause the music's how i heal
i ain't ever had my doubts that's how you know that it's real
that's how you know that it's real
that's some lightwork
stocked up like a night clerk
one day people gonna know my name through these cyphers
i could be the king it depends on who dies first

lightwork (prod. chxse bank)

lyrics
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trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

trapped in between these halls
asbestos inside the walls
it's getting harder to breathe
and lately i'm in the dark
unaware of where to start
i'm falling hard with the breeze
so tell me the truth are we both really losing our minds
in this state of delusion it's easy to lose track of time
and the hands on this clock haven't spun even close to align
-ing but
they'll come around (x4)

'til then i'm
trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

am i really here?
am i not?
is there anywhere that i ought to be
i ain't tryna stay here with these oddities
and honestly it's getting kinda hard to breathe
and hard to speak when barred with teeth
my tongue sittin in my mouth but it's hard to speak
i fall asleep with every fragment haunting me
my dreams turn to nightmares where they're calling me
like hey hi hello it's me how you doing
i'm a ghost to this place amidst of these ruins 
trippin' over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is fucking haunted

trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

haunted (prod. young taylor)

prod. @remghost x @irby314

lyrics
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we drink
we sink
we fall behind
it's all okay
it's all alright
the things you say
don't leave my mind
it's all okay
it's all just fine
i'm reminded of days
when the time wasn't raced
had my eyes to the sky
with my hands on your waist
i'm alive under rays
with the light in my face
but a ghost in the rain
with no name tag or plates on my car

i can see the shadows
dancing in the backyard
reaching for the stars
light up my reflection
chase me with your flashlight
you'll be running far
this was never worth it
we were never perfect
pretending we are
so drink until you're silent
laugh until you're smiling
hide another scar

she woke
he smoked
they talked it out
is that what love is all about
the things that come
out of your mouth
are vile when
you scream and shout
it's the fear of the unknown
that leads to eschew
all the rational choices
revolving round you
and the silence is scary
when matched with the truth
can we come out alive
or is death coming soon

as you weigh out your options
you then realize
all the pain you've endured
with no tears in your eyes
i'm amazed by the power
i hold deep inside
for some reason i'm here
for some reason alive

i can see the shadows
dancing in the backyard
reaching for the stars
light up my reflection
chase me with your flashlight
you'll be running far
this was never worth it
we were never perfect
pretending we are
so drink until you're silent
laugh until you're smiling
hide another scar

perfect (prod. remghost x irby)

prod. @noahmadethiss

lyrics
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homebound
you are not alone now
i was on the telephone calling you
wishing i didn't fold now
soulbound
you & i are soulbound
i just wanna be the light beside you & lead the path to your home now
homebound
you are not alone now
i'll be right beside you till the end
and i promise i'll never fold now
sold out
they said that i sold out
all cause i've been writing bout my problems
and made it outta my hometown

trust me i'm trying my hardest
regardless i hope that you're fine
wish i saw the signs
like i could've saved you
if only i knew of the trouble you'd find
oh why was your fate in the hands of me
i think bout it all of the time
and with that in mind i wish i could fall backwards in time
wrote this callback while you were alive

so
reckless
cemetery deathwish
sittin' at your grave with a blunt & a bottle up to my chest
this chexmix doesn't taste the best
it's stale like the ale in my pail and i'm paler than my ex bitch
senseless
write it off my checklist
checkered board shorts & i'm sure that the shore is to the left
it's right there
nothings ever right there
mirrors give me light scares
i'm my own worst nightmare
i'm my own worst nightmare

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homebound (prod. noahmadethiss)

prod. @sorrow_bringer

lyrics
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waking up's easy, falling asleep isn't even a fucking option
i'm laying out on the roof
tell god to come get me, i'll pack my bags real quickly
i'll catch that flight, when it's leavin', i'm leavin' too
dreamin' of moments where i ain't have no opponents
all my components assembled outside the booth
you were a phone call away, i guess your number has changed
and you weren't home on that day or something

i've been tryna gain control of my life
open up these blinds so you can dissipate the limelight
only time will tell if i'm unwell inside of my mind
tripped fell into hell and now this television sounds like
we got more to conquer
so get up outta your bed and get your shit outta your locker
we ridin' back to the seventh floor, realigning your chakras
put soul inside your body, we leavin' the past behind us

this is all i wanted from the jump
just a friend that i could talk to bout anything off the cuff
been plottin', no hesitation, the future ain't lookin' rough
i wanted it so i did it, made symphonies outta cuts

we were back at home and it was gettin' hella cold
used to pass out when the sun come up but now we gettin' old
'member summers back in 2015, we was actin' grown
built a bridge to terabithia made outta sticks and stones
had that fire pit though i'll admit, you built that on your own
brought that bedsheet out my room, we made a flag & called it home
hit that bottle with some gasoline to pass between our souls
if we make it all that glitter's fucking gold

rain, rain, go away, you fucked up another day
i was feelin' fine but then you took me to another place
we go back and forth for fourteen minutes in my hideaway
now i'm headin' north just tryna answer who am i today?

i've been tryna stay in line, gotta figure out the truth
i don't like the way i hide, i much rather be with you
full eclipse, skippin' pebbles in the water off the roof
i don't mind, rain or shine cause my skin is waterproof
go inside, hit the wine, coraline on the tube
what do i do when i feel like my life's set on loop?

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waterproof (prod. sorrow bringer)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle

'gxf' comin' soon!

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jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

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