Make It Through Fall by Lil Xtra -

Guitar - Vox - Lil Xtra

Produced by Kado

 https://soundcloud.com/1kadoonthetrack

Make It Through Fall

All I Know

Right now I'm laying in a field of daisies 
With a dear old friend who loves me

Daisy

Vendetta

Never Enough

Perpetual

Breakdown

Vacant

Next Life

Girl I thought I told you 
What they’re saying ain’t true 
All you had to do was just ask 

Acting like you hate me
Tryna play me 
Why would you try to do me like that?

I don’t mind just taking my time 
And talking my shit when you’re out line 
So you can come home when you can act right 
Or I can move on right out of your life 
 
Cause at this point it’s really your issue 
I’m not even sure I would miss you
If you don’t care than I won’t either 
You can take the house, I want my damn t-shirt 

I just want to feel closure 
I’m so sick of losing composure 
Over you cause I’m better than that
You said you loved me I knew it was cap so

I’ll just slide
Away from this girl
Away from my mind
I don’t think that I’ve been real till now 
I’ve got to get away somehow 
I’ll just slide 
Away from this world
Away from my life 
I don’t even think you ever loved me true 
No Not the way you say you do

But what do I know? 
Maybe I’m the problem and it’s my fault 
Maybe I’d be stupid to let you go
Whoa no, almost forgot why I built these walls 

You’ve been throwing dirt on me 
Telling your friends you put the hurt on me 
Where’s the lie, you got me this time 
I hate to admit you’re still on my mind 

It’s been so long now with you 
I’m not sure how I can resist you 
(But that don’t mean that I miss you
Said what I said that don’t mean I miss you) 

But l remember what you meant to me 
Even if it’s ancient fucking history 
Ima slide away and not come back 
You said you loved me I knew it was cap so 

I’ll just slide
Away from this girl
Away from my mind
I don’t think that I’ve been real till now 
I’ve got to get away some how 
I’ll just slide 
Away from this world
Away from my life 
I don’t  even think you ever loved me true 
Not the way you say you do

Slide

I'MGREATWHO'SWITHME

Creme Brulee

Armada

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

Emo bullshit


idc if you don't like this song I made this one for myself

Lyrics:

Today I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
I'm all out of time, It's too late to try
So baby kill me slowly however you like
However you like

Is this a dream? Got my hand on the handle 
Perks in my bloodstream I just took a handful
Don't remember how I got here
It doesn't matter how I got here
All I can see is the gun on the table 
Fall on my face call your phone while I'm able
Don't remember how I got here
Doesn't matter how I got here
Flashbacks to days that I thought were repressed
I fucked up again yeah it's what I do best
Just trying to fill up this hole in my chest but she don't understand what I mean by depressed and
I'd tell you I hated you if it were true
I'd tell you i loved you if you loved me too but
I'm on the edge now I know it's too late
I already know I was just a mistake

I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
I'm all out of time, It's too late to try
So baby kill me slowly however you like
However you like

I don't know who to put this in words, the way this burns
Silver lining is that I'm blessed with a curse
With this anger that I know I deserve, or am I swerving on the people that I love cause I'm 17 and already missed my turn?
And I didn't learn a thing from this
Except what it's like to be buzzing with a trigger finger dying to scratch an itch
And I feel like such a bitch, now my girl is pissed because I'm back on the pharms
Singing love from her lips, and writing hate on her arms
So I say fuck it I'm done, And I try to get away
But I don't get very far, And there's nowhere to stay
Now I'm writing these bars, Cause I've got so much to say
So my worlds will live on, Even When I fade away

 I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
It's all in my head, I think I'm better off dead
So can you please tell me why?

Oct. 17th 2014

Saying I hate that bitch just means I used to love that girl

Follow crum: https://soundcloud.com/andrewsix/tracks

You were the one that taught me not to trust my heart
 taught me how to fall apart, now I’m chilling in the dark with a torch on your back porch waiting for the fire to start so we can make s’mores 

But of course it’s a dream and I wake up 
Falling apart at the seams since the break up
Remember scout on the couch waiting for ya when your brother calls b hi yeahack just so he can ignore ya..

And I don’t get it I did everything I could to understand what I never understood like,
Where were you that night? 
I freaked out, you went missing 
Why’d you have to go and put me into that posistion?

I hate bitching bout missing you bu it’s truet the only time I’ve felt myself was when I was witchu 
yeah 
Mmm hmm, mm hmm,

I remember when we first met, and you said, Everybody lives twice and dies two deaths 
In your mind where you dreams go to hide and when they die this reality is all you have you have left 

I used to say that if I married you would be the one, coming undone, gotta stick To my guns
It’s not the end of my life just the end of the world 
saying “ I hate that bitch” means I used to love that girl

Mmm hmm , mmhhmm mhhhnm 
I ask her if she’s done with she says 
Mmm hmmm,  mhmmmm;  mhhmmm

Yeah,  it’s summer 15, you finally kissed me 
But something’s wrong all along I can see that want something and its not me,  I dunno...  don’t want to leave but I think that I should go 

I made it through another October,  the thirteenth and you’re calling me over, put I don’t know why I’m here carving pumpkins
Till She looks up and says I gotta say something

I think I love you.. and I don’t know what to do,  I want to be friends i don’t want to lose you 
But girl I’m tryna see this though
I can’t reach my dreams if I’m dreaming of you 

And I knew it would be process 
But can we please have some progress? 
These mafuckas just hate cause they can’t relate to somebody with a promise 

And my promises are something that I keep, when I can’t sleep I just want another night 
I knew you’d be the one to leave, and it wouldn’t take a fight 
But it’s fine, now you went and proved me right yeah 

you said I got to learn to plan more
don’t fucking tell me what I stand for 
I’m doing alright without you
 just forgot how to write a song that’s not about you

Fucked Up / Let Down

Yeah It's Fine Whatever

Yeah It's Fine Whatever [Prod. Crum]

FoLlOW SoRroW HeRe:  https://soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer

Art by twitter.com/endmypainnow

I love BrAnD nEw

I wAnT tO DiE

Lyrics:
This problems gonna last a little more than a weekend, even if I keep breathing 
I don’t have a thing to believe in
Don’t have the words to keep you from leaving 
And I’m the root of your problems, solve them 
Put a little bleach in my drink I’m a goner
I would die for my team what an honor 
I know I’ll never be as good as my father 

I want to do something important of course I was never meant for it talents ignored
 and I’m bored with this life cause I never move forward no matter how hard I’m trying 
Every night on the inside dying 
Never answer the feds keep spying 
Who would love me? No one in their right 
mind
Sorry that I can’t be your lifeline
Sorry I don’t laugh at the right times

(it’s all my fault this is all my fault)

..there there you’re all right 
I just want to stare at you all night 
For when we touch I fear you’ll disappear 
And I Wake up just the Canary in the coal mine
There to see if there’s air to breath I won’t
Let your words get the best of me I don’t 
Need you or your company i just 
Wish something would work out for me for once

But I’m a letdown head down every night 
Pouring cups rolling blunts can i get a light
Keep my head in the clouds with the satellites 
And if I don’t look down then I’ll be alright 

This world got some rules that I can’t abide
And no one on this earth makes it out alive 
I don’t know how much longer I’ll survive
Do my best, take it one breath at a time

This problems gonna last a little more than a weekend, even if I keep breathing 
I don’t have a thing to believe in
Don’t have the words to keep you from leaving 
And I’m the root of your problems, solve them 
Put a little bleach in my drink I’m a goner
I would die for my team what an honor 
I know I’ll never be as good as my father

All My Fault [Prod. Sorrow Bringer]

It's Whatever

Lyrics: You said one day it would work out 🏋️‍♀️ 
I guess I feel a little worse now
I Won’t stay in bed she won’t come out
Okay I feel a little worse now 

I thought you were unattainable 
But we’re just unsustainable 
I barely made it through summer..
These days our days are numbered 

Cause winter’s cold and I am weak 
But I won’t call so we won’t speak 
Cause I don’t care if you can’t sleep 
And you don’t care at all

Cause I won’t break and you won’t bend 
Or even try to let me in 
So you get high and I pretend 
We’ll make it through the fall 

 I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
Got, everything I wanted but nothing that I need

You said one day it would work out 
I hope one day you get let down 
To crash the car with no seatbelt 
So you know exactly how I felt 
This cul de sac has got memories 
I hate the way that you see me 
 10/17 I will confess
I FUCKED UP AGAIN, WHAT I DO BEST 

CAUSE YOU WONT TEACH AND I WONT LEARN 
AND YOU’VE GOT NOWHERE ELSE TO TURN
So LIGHT THIS BRIDGE AND WATCH IT BURN 
LIKE IT WAS NEVER THERE 

 Then FIND YOUR NEXT AND I’LL FIND MINE
I HEAR HIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
LIVE YOUR LIFE AND I’LL BE FINE 
I’ll ACT LIKE I DONT CARE


I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
You’re everything I wanted but nothing that I need 
 
I mean.. honestly the way you feel about music is the way i feel about alcohol..

It’s whatever... 
whatever...

Prod. CashmoneyAP and Kado

She’s passed out in the back room
But the party’s going down in the bathroom
No hesitation or self-preservation
Cutting up a line of my self-medication
Cause we don’t stop until the White’s gone
Shawty tryna fuck me with the lights on
Guess we gonna party all night long
I been winning big yeah, shawty this my fight song

Verse one
Cause I don’t want to go to the party
Blackout, I just want to back out I’m sorry 
She’ll be there starting drama like Maury
And when I’m getting wasted I act so retarded
Losing my composure and I don’t know why
Now I’m on my own it’s my own damn time
Get a little older and I’ll pass you by 
Didn’t tell me it was over let our snap streak die
And I been steady pissed since my plug ran dry
My homie steady missed six years gone by
And If I stay here then my clique gets mad
I don’t want to fucking hear that it’s not that bad
Cause she’ll be dancing like Cardi
And I been getting played like Atari
I hope one of us drowns in Bacardi
But I guess I’ll fucking go to the party
(I don’t want to go to the party)

Hook
She’s passed out in the back room
But the party’s going down in the bathroom
No hesitation or self-preservation
Cutting up a line of my self-medication
Cause we don’t stop until the White’s gone
Shawty tryna fuck me with the lights on
Guess we gonna party all night long
I been winning big yeah, shawty this my fight song

V 2
But now I’m high on marijuana at the party showing out I’m 
Chilling in the corner with this ice up in my mouth I’m
Pretty high on something I don’t want to talk about
I just want to be alone, they just want a little clout so
I’m here in the bathroom wasted, tasting something that’ll put me on the pavement
Hope I die at 27 if I make it, can I still get into heaven if I fake it?
But ignorance is bliss, so say my fucking name so they all know what it is
I’m tryna get on, yeah I’m tryna get rich
Saying fuck a bad habit Ima fuck a bad bitch
Now I’m being pulled to the bathroom
But I’m not gonna do what I have to
Trying to protest you, Think I need a heart transplant so my body will reject you

She’s passed out in the back room
But the party’s going down in the bathroom
No hesitation or self-preservation
Cutting up a line of my self-medication
Cause I won’t stop until my life’s gone
Shawty went and fucked me with the lights on
Guess we gonna party all night long
I been winning big yeah, shawty this my fight song

Blackout (Produced KadoOnTheTrack and CashMoneyAP )

Follow Demxntia here : https://soundcloud.com/demxntia

Lyrics:

Art by Grimdos

Verse one- Xtra
I Guess you got what you paid for 
Don’t even know what you came for 
We Stay in different buildings on the same floor
We on the same team, what you playing for? 

 I don’t want to know but I need to 
Don’t want you to know that I need you 
And fuck I hope that when it comes
You gon’ hit me with that slug 
 Roll it up And hit that blunt while I bleed through 

Yeah, I been getting faded but it’s not a celebration 
I’ve been trying get right, but my demons dedicated 
Yeah I Tried to stay and fight, but my bravery was waning 
I’m a mile down the line as your train leaves the station

You got a problem you should say something
Cycle ends and I’m back now to day one 
This world makes us sick, so we play dumb
If we kill each other now then we stay young 

If I die now will I stay young?

And When I die will you miss me?


- Verse 2, Demxtia -

when i die will 
you miss me at all?
i apologize i'm always 
missing your calls

yeah i stay up in my bedroom
singin i don't need you
lying to myself
so i hope it doesn't bleed thru

and at night 
times moving so slow
i never know
which way im tryna go

staring at my phone
while i'm counting the days
wishing i could just fade away

or maybe i just need a change
(maybe i just need to change)

oh baby if i found a way
think i found a way, no

if i die now will i stay young?
and when i die will you miss me?

Lil Xtra X Demxntia - When I Die Will You Miss Me - Prod Kado

Track One of Make It Through Fall

Guitar, Lyrics, Vocals : Lil Xtra

Additional Production : Kado

Links:

Spotify

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Soundcloud

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Merch

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Insta

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Twitter

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Youtube

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Facebook

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Wake up what the fuck that hurts yeah I broke your heart I’m the worst I’m sorry 
But my shoulder’s torn and my heart feels worn dunno what I’m gonna do about surgery
And you’re not gonna listen, think I’m just bitching, guess there’s no use pretending 
There’s a silver lining in this hurricane, pain on the way whole world is ending

Wake up what the FUCK this hurts nerve block wore off and I can’t stop crying 
For five weeks oxy is in me and I can’t quit better believe I've been trying
Six months and you're fixed, that's a myth, been a year and I'm still in the ditch such a mess
Act like i switched up just pissed 18 months in it still hurts to get dressed

I'm sorry for the dark that you can't see
And I'm sorry for the light that I can't bring
And I'm sorry if you're near me I scream and it seems that you see but you just can't hear me
I'm sorry if this song seems campy
And I'm sorry for the things that I can't be
And I'm sorry if you hear this, I couldn't be brave and I'll never be fearless

Now it's been a few years and i've shed a few tears no relief for the weight on my back now
Buy an ounce looking so innocent, I'm trapping out my girls mini-fridge make it back now
Just to make a few bucks, I'm feeling like a chump, my music fucking sucks take it all down
Put it back the next week people sleep but these words will kill me if I don't get them all out

Wake up what the fuck this song's blowing up holy shit this is it, people care now
My old life's gone but my new life spawned, now I'm on and I'm not gonna wear down
Life merging with dreams I just want to feel free, I just want my art seen like a Rembrandt
On my way, we the wave, but my body's just pain and I'm tryna be brave but I can't

I'm sorry for the dark that you can't see
And I'm sorry for the light that I can't bring
And I'm sorry if you're near me I scream and it seems that you see but you just can't hear me
I'm sorry if this song seems campy
And I'm sorry for the things that I can't be
And I'm sorry if you hear this, I couldn't be brave and I'll never be fearless

I've got a lie tattooed on my side..
It says I'll stay strong..

I'm sorry for the dark that you can't see
And I'm sorry for the light that I can't bring
And I'm sorry if you hear this I couldn't be brave

Fearless

Track two from Make It Through Fall

Guitar Lyrics And Vocals: Lil Xtra
Additional production: Kado

Links:

Spotify

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Soundcloud

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Merch

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Insta

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Twitter

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Youtube

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Facebook

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Lyrics: 
Yo I'm Doomed to a life of 7.25, 
No point living right won’t make it out alive 
Making plays downtown, let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the fucking codine in my sprite 
Leaning on the hollows in his fucking four-five like,
Put it to my head and we’ll see if I can fly 
He don’t really care if I’m impaired just stares, says 
What the fuck is up, bruh you really want to die? 
Yeah, I been blessed with a death wish 
I just hope that I die young and high like Hedwig 
I’ve been too distressed to address this
But I know I can’t be the only one who feels helpless 
And I’m sorry that I’ve been so selfish
I’d change if I could, but I just can’t help it 
But I know who I am, no need to pretend 
Guess I’m I’m still fucked up, and let down again.

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can’t see the sky to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I know I'm fucking different....

Why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me what her step dad did 
I keep the secret so she can pretend 
That her innocence hasn’t been lost in a sense 
So we go to the mall and buy some bullshit 
To block out how fucked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness 
I just need a check and some ice I can flex 
A few more drugs to feel a little less 
A few more hits and a girl that’s obsessed 
That loves all my shit and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything’s okay 
But the world’s so black and I’m so grey 
I hope in the end one day I’ll say 
I see the same old world in a brand new way

Cause I’ve been feeling down can’t wait until it passes 
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress 
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can’t be perfect I know that something’s missing

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can’t see the sky, to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I hope I'm always different

I hope
I hope
I hope...
I hope I'm always different

Different

Track three from Make It Through Fall

Guitar/Lyrics/Vox Lil Xtra

Additional Production: Kado

Links:

Spotify

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Soundcloud

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Merch

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Insta

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Twitter

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Youtube

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Facebook

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They said that you wouldn’t be here
Guess I knew you’d be around 
From across the room I feel it as you stare me up and down
I guess I’ve been higher sometime I just can’t remember when 
The last thing that I remember was you... walking in with him

So I will drink and I’ll pretend 
I’m strong enough to handle this
To save the grace of faces I
Hope to call my friends 
But I’ll be fine by winter 
I told you once before
That I’m in love with freezing
If it’s right outside your door 
I’m right outside your door

And all my friends are drunk now 
But I wish that I was sober 
Because my mouth won’t seem to open to tell you that it’s over 
It's over

Weekends are for getting wasted isn’t that right aren't we cool?
You’re so punk rock I almost forgot I still fucking hate you 
I don’t care if people stare or they don't like the way we live 
Yes we’re all in love with dying but we’ve got so much to give

It’s not that bad, here on the floor 
If I’m not sad I’m fucking bored 
I hate the way you make me feel, that’s real as hell I hope you know 
It goes to show that life is hell
I’ve got to go I don’t feel well 
I just need to be alone sometimes I hope you understand 
But it’s cool if you don’t

And all my friends are drunk now 
But I wish that I was sober 
Because my mouth won’t seem to open to you that it’s over

Now they’re all out on the porch
But I don’t smoke cigarettes 
You keep asking me to listen but you’re boring me to death 
Sky is white, my lungs are black 
Once you give in you can’t go back 
Life is wack, I guess that’s it
But I’m so done feeling like shit

And all my friends are drunk now..
but I wish that I was sober..
Because my mouth won't seem to open
To tell you that it's over...

Sober

Track 4 From Make It Through Fall

All production by Kado

Links:

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Youtube

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Lyrics:

I felt so cold in the end 
October’s coming again 
Think I’ll probably die this time around...
Lost myself in the past 
We knew that it wouldn’t last 
We're not so innocent this time around...

E x p er i m e n t 
E x p e r i e n c e
We forgot to live this life for the fear of it 
I’m so bored 
I hate this world 
....I don’t believe a fucking thing that you just said

This can’t be real 
I cant explain the way this feels 
Please just tell me this is in my head 
Once again
My lungs are caving in 
The first thing I remember is the last thing that you said 
Don't say

Please don’t say...

Woke up in the gutter I’ve been worse 
I’ll pretend this doesn’t hurt 
If I can get out of this bed maybe I’ll be okay

I'd get you out that grave with a trade if I could 
You asked me to stay and I said that I would
Never got to see who you could be 
Now that you’re not there where you should be

And your mom stopped taking family pictures, 
Put down all the family pets 
And I haven’t seen your sister
I can’t handle that one yet

5 years 2 months and six days.. 
I know I said I would stay 
I wish I'd said how much I loved you but now it’s too late

This can’t be real 
I cant explain the way this feels 
Please just tell me this is in my head 
Once again
My lungs are caving in 
The first thing I remember is the last thing that you said 
Don't say

He’s not gone he’s not gone he's not gone he's not gone he's not gone he's not

Please Don't Say

Please stop talking...

Don't

Track five from Make It Through Fall

Guitar/Lyrics/Vox - Lil Xtra
Additional Production - Kado

Links:

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Insta

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And she says

I just want to see the real you 
Show me what your limits are, what you will do 
Answer that you’re looking for won’t thrill you 
Wishing on a shooting star as it kills you

Separated by the start of a new plague 
We’ve been living in the dark need a new day
So we fail at the sights that the news play 
And fall apart to the sound of the new age

And I wish you’d believe it when I say 
Things are hard right now but it’s okay 
When it heals then you’ll feel much less pain 
Just the scars to remind you to this day

I Keep picking up the pieces 
To see if they still fit 
But I know something’s missing 
We both know how this ends

My bed is cold she likes it hot I guess he’s everything I’m not, never forgot 
It’s okay it’s okay 
I guess I knew it from the start I knew you’d break my Fucking heart, I played my part 
it’s okay okay

We just want to leave in the worst way
Didn’t want to be here in the first place 
I’m just gonna surf to a new wave 
And fall apart when your heart strikes doomsday

So you sleep all day and I can’t rest 
Couldn’t be what you want just the next best 
And I told you everything, shoulda left it at
my dreams, so you couldn’t pull my heart out my chest but

It’s beating right there on the floor 
As you say, “just a little more” 
“I’ll always love you don’t forget”
Is the worst lie that you’ve told yet
But I hope you remember me
Cause I remember everything 
Please don’t talk to me like that 
I know you’re never coming back

My bed is cold she likes it hot I guess he’s everything I’m not, never forgot 
It’s okay it’s okay 
I guess I knew it from the start I knew you’d break my Fucking heart, I played my part 
it’s okay okay

(It's okay, It's okay)
It’s okay that you left me in pieces 
It’s okay that you left me in doubt 
It’s okay that I don’t know the resasons
But now I have to let this out

It's okay that I hate you
It's okay that I hate you
It's okay that I hate you
...I don't hate you, I just hate this

It's okay that I miss you
It's okay that I miss you
It's okay that I miss you
I'll never say I miss you again

I’M DOING FINE I SWEAR TO GOD

My bed is cold she likes it hot I guess he’s everything I’m not, never forgot 
It’s okay it’s okay 
I guess I knew it from the start I knew you’d break my Fucking heart, I played my part 
it’s okay okay

Track ten from Make It Through Fall.

Guitar/lyrics/vox - Lil Xtra

Additional production by Kado

Open my eyes 
Roll out of bed 
We're all out of drugs to keep the thoughts from our heads 
You say you’re fine 
I know that you’re not 
Put it inside and let our veins rot

But I’m moving forward 
And you’re moving on 
Hesitate to separate, but this is all wrong 
And I know you think 
I fucking hate you 
But really I just don’t know what else to do

Cause lately 
It feels like there’s no one to save me 
I’m all alone in the life
I'll never do anything thing right 
I never do anything right

(Forecast: Well here we are in Atlanta, moving through our early week, Monday's forecast calling for a lovely day all across north Georgia. Lower 80's, low humidity. It feels really nice... Really nice... The good news is, that won't last too long.)

I’m In too much pain 
To get out of bed 
If it’s all the same then I’d rather be dead

If I eat at all
I’m gonna get fat 
Throw it back up, there’s nothing wrong with that 
Don’t you know?

And I miss you 
But not half as much 
As I know you miss them when you’re out of drugs 
But I am no saint 
A sinner as well
I’ll see you again maybe, one day in hell

It’s all in my head 
I know it’s not fair 
I said I would call and then
I wasn’t there 
I fucked up again, still what I do best 
I Can’t feel the fucked up heart beating
In my fucked up chest

Because lately 
It feels like there’s no one to save me 
I’m all alone in the life I’ll 
Never do anything thing right 
I never do anything right

I never do anything right

Siphon

https://soundcloud.com/lilsadeyes


https://soundcloud.com/montydatta

I’m drowning I can see the ark 
Sky opens up, world falls apart 
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da
I’m
Rocking all black strings on an old guitar 
With my all black jeans and my all black heart
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da

Put me in an all white room and bind my hands
Tell me I’m no good till I understand but
Your demands mean nothing 
I need a Zoloft lil to even feel something 
Put me on a red eye flight and I’ll leave it all as you wave goodbye
She asking where the time goes 
Girl you might as well be asking why the wind blows 
But you see me through these all black windows 
Chilling with the sharks while you swimming with the minnows 
And I’m sorry but I chose my fate 
Big fish ‘round town done being the bait
It’s weighing on my all black lungs
But yours always right so I’ll hold me tounge
Got an all black soul with an all black prayer
I’m the all black sheep with the all black stars 

Hook 

Ripped black jeans and tears from sad eyes
I guess I’m alright I guess I’ll be fine 
I guess I’m real stressed I’m
Best when offline
Cause I suffocate when I talk to you 
It sucks to feel like you don’t want to choose 
I choke so bad my face turns blue 
My heart’s gone dark from loving you 
I won’t speak cause you won’t listen 
You’re my cure but we’ve been distant 
You’re too cute and that’s too bad cause 
Love won’t clean this mess I have 
I’m over love but I’m not over us 
Im over love but I’m not over us

World Falls Apart - Ft Sadeyes Prod. Monty Datta

Prod. DELIVERTHECRUSH

https://soundcloud.com/deliverbonjovi

Go to sleep I'll be there in the morning
If you can wait then it's not that important 
I hate the way you make me feel I thought that you should know
Sleep now and I'm dead by the morning 
Fucked up but the syrup keep pouring
I hope I don't wake up again I thought that you should know

Cause I want you to watch me die
I've got a death wish and I don't know why
I just want to fill my cup 
And be a mile high when I join the 27 club
Aye she wanna fuck she ain't bad enough
Pass the bud never have enough
Yeah I'm on a mission dodging prison haters tripping know 
I'm different you don't get it I don't give a fuck
I just want to ball like I did when I was young
Run up in the mall snatch something just for fun
We might die tomorrow every night we going dumb
I made it through the fall but the spring never comes
Don't want to wake up in the same old places
Wake up to the same damn faces
I hate the way you make me feel I thought that you should know

Go to sleep I'll be there in the morning
If you can wait then it's not that important 
I hate the way you make me feel I thought that you should know
Sleep now and I'm dead by the morning 
Fucked up but the syrup keep pouring
I hope I don't wake up again I thought that you should know

Thought U Should Know - Prod DELIVERTHECRUSH - Spring Never Comes out May 1st

youtu.be/-HaeMbV5UQU
Idleglance video <3

I’m fucked up 
In my room
All Alone
Where are you?
Guess you found out
They Always find out
That I’m fucked 
In the head
Think I’m better off dead
Nothing improves
Not even my mood
And this world 
Hates my guts
Always down on my luck
Maybe one day
I’ll find my way
But for now
I’ll just pout
Guess I’ll see you around
When the spring comes
I hope that spring comes

Da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da dum
Da da da dum

I’m fucked up
All alone
Broken heart
Broken home
Can you feel it
I want you to feel this
When I say you were loved
I know it’s not enough 
But I mean it
Just know that you’re missed
And i hate 
Everything
This life doesn’t mean a thing 
Far as i know
Just let me go
Cause the spring
Never comes
Frozen bones
Blackened lungs
Cause i can’t hide
From cold on the inside

Da da da, da da dum, no the spring never comes
Cause i can’t hide, cold on the inside

Da da da, da da dum, no the spring never comes
Cause i can’t hide, cold on the inside

Spring Never Comes

First date two am and again I’m 
Wondering if this is even real? What is this
She’s, super cool and she’s into all this 
Weird shit  that I love, that no one ever is but
I can tell she’s a sad one 
But she’s the kind of girl that wouldn’t cry to dad if she had one 
Grew up rough on some tough love hits 18 
And there really ain’t nobody else to speak of 
And now she’s rolling with a reject
And I know my time’s short but she doesn’t want to leave yet
Roll it up hit the porch and of course 
When the smoke clears out all we really have are regrets
All we really had were secrets 
And I don’t know about the hole in my defense 
It’s all good let’s dispense with the pretense 
You don’t have to say it girl I know That you’re leaving 

Cause I don’t believe it when 
You say you’re happy 
How could you be 
When you cry all the time?
Maybe One day we’ll learn 
To cry while we’re laughing 
So maybe we 
We won’t 
Have to get high all the time 

First things first, I’m the worst and I know that 
Just your birthday curse that’s a throwback 
I ruin everything and you know that 
I’m the saddest motherfucker on this earth like I’m Bojack 
Black lungs white sky oh why can’t?
I just be free without a vivance 
When I ask for love I get silence 
As you go and hide behind eyelids
Just go to sleep I’ll be right back
Don’t you know that you’re all I have
Just breath she says it’s not that bad
You know I hate when you talk like that
Let me break and I’ll be done
I know you hate what I’ve become
With everything that I’ve been through
I just can’t be what you want me to 

Turns out I’m a problem unsolvable
Nausea from the toxins the bad son prodigal
Now I’m reaching for top it's improbable 
The way I got here turning thoughts into audibles
Turning art into an audience 
Against my haters judgement and against my own common sense 
Now I’m getting played in all the provinces 
Cause every time I hop up on the beat I fucking body it 

Cause I don’t believe it 
When you say that you're happy
How could you be
When we’re dying inside?
Maybe one day 
We’ll learn to cry while we’re laughing
So maybe we won't
Have to get high all the time
Cause I don’t believe it when 
You say you’re happy 
How could you be 
When you cry all the time?
One day we’ll learn 
To cry while we’re laughing 
So maybe we won’t 
Have to get high all the time

Cry While We're Laughing

Prod. Kado

https://soundcloud.com/bradyponder

https://soundcloud.com/lilsadeyes

<3

Lyrics:
Okay okay now think I’m on my way now 
Show up at the show and it’s time to bring the place down 
Think it’s time to cop a little place now
Maybe cop a tattoo up on my face now
Okay okay now think I’m on my way now 
Show up at the show and it’s time to bring the place down 
I just need a little space now 
I’m just hoping that you stay down 

Well okay okay is that all you’ve got to say
I’ve been keeping to myself I don’t know another way 
I don’t want to hang maybe some other day 
I don’t really want to go but I sure don’t want to stay 
I know that I’m the reason that you find it hard to care
All you needed was a friend I was never even there
But I’m tryin to improve cause I’m feeling pretty down
And I’m getting sick of no one ever wanting me around
Since I met you I re-thought a few things
My no love songs rule and the words that I mean 
I’m good on the Juul I e got my nicotine 
From the buzz that you give and the joy that it brings 
This blunt is getting short I just wish that it would last
It reminds me of the times that I’m never getting back 
I’m leaving pretty soon hope you’ll be here when I’m back 
Cause I think I think you’re  pretty cool and I thought you’d like that 

And she goes
You’re all I have and all I want but that won’t last no
That won’t last 
All alone I guess that’s fine
I feel at home when I’m inside 
I keep crying in my blanket 
I get sad but I can’t hide it 
I get low
Nobody to hold not one soul I can confide in 
I fall so quickly whenever you’re with me
But when I’m gone no you won’t miss me 
I’ve been getting high to change my feelings when I’m low 
All it does it make me choke it’s fucking up my throat 
I can’t even look at girls cause I don’t want to go 
Down another road that gets me stranded in the cold

Stay Down

Stay Down feat. Sadeyes - Prod. Kado

Under The Weather

Hive

Prod Kado

Art by mattiswithdrawn

I feel that man,  good luck! I’m sure you’ll come with something great
❤
1
Wed 3:57 PM
Backwoods on the front lawn say I’m alright but it’s all wrong 
No I’m not fine
Shaking like a fault line
All my fault right? 
Only happy when I’m recognized online
I’ve gotta quit wasting my time gotta quit chasing your light 
Getting high all night 
Can’t stay high for my whole life 
But I will try 

Everybody knows that it’s my fault 
That I fell asleep on the sidewalk 
No sleepwalking too fucked up for talking 
Pretty soon be an outline made of chalk 
I’m gonna die soon
And when I do 
I hope that you know it’s not about you 
Turns out I didn’t know enough about you 
Turns out the world don’t revolve around you 
But in my head, everything’s bad 
Everything’s wrong, everything’s sad 
Been way to long I feel like that 
Pandemic vibes, miss mom and dad
And the little lost pleasures I once had 
Is the measure of my life really my stacks
Whether or not you’re better off in my bed
I want to Love what I treasure and clear my head
So get the fuck away from me if 
This isn’t where you want to be then
Just Go abead, you can leave and when 
It’s all over you can be free 
I don’t really understand my thoughts 
That it’s all my fault 
When it’s clearly not 
Every time we talk 
I test my luck 
Then I fuck this up, who would’ve thought yeah 

Backwoods on the front lawn say I’m alright but it’s all wrong 
No I’m not fine
Shaking like a fault line
All my fault right? 
Only happy when I’m recognized online
I’ve gotta quit wasting my time gotta quit chasing your light 
Getting high all night 
Can’t stay high for my whole life 
But I will try

Where You Want To Be

Prod - Kado


https://soundcloud.com/kadowav

Losing it 

Losing It - Kado

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