Holy sh!t its been so long since ive listened to this 

glad y'all love I'm about to fucking kill myself for real at least  I know it causes you motherfuckers the same fate for all I been put through

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

mixed and mastered by @notmorgn

@supachefm 🎱✨🕸

always been violent 
never just learned to keep quiet 
ion like turning the page
struggle to pick up my eyelids
i keep on hiding in home
if u don't like me just go
i keep on trying to stay
but you don't want me all alone
time keeps on turning away 
why do you always need space?
i don't care about the times that you fucked up wit him 
you've been fucking wit me to my face
follow my vision
 and dick down these bitches 
idgaf what the people will say
its in my imprint 
theres something thats different 
the way that i sing and the way that i sway
you keep on trying to copy my plays
i cant see shit i am lost in a haze
all of my life ive been smoking away
tripping on chemicals deep in my brain

slide in that bitch and i tear up the sides
riding the wave you aint catching the vibes
i hit her up every time that I'm high
what if i told you i wanted to die?

Free Download

every time that im high (prod. notmorgn)

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

if i die baby (prod. reaper)

@whatevenisreal

lookin at the ground and i see your face
nobodies around when i need em the most
everybody treats me like a ghost
so imma disappear when they need me the most

catch me flyin out to LA
runnin round these fuckin circles
got a smile thats deceiving
you can hear it in my vocals
i been cryin in my bedroom
i been dyin just to see u 
can i get over this hurdle?
or will i fall and crack my skull?

lookin at the ground and i see your face
nobodies around when i need em the most
everybody treats me like a ghost
so imma disappear when they need me the most

ill be good enough for ya one day
but for now ill sit here waitin
hoping this will work its way out
but i doubt it, im decaying
wish my life had some more meanin
wish these pills would fuckin work
wish my head wasnt so fucked up
wish these feelings didnt hurt

Follow me <3

keep it a buck, im lonely af (prod. br//oken)

w/ @guardinmusic
prod. by @taylor

lyrics:

why does this 
seem never ending i try to be patient
i wake up everyday just trying to escape it
this darkness is lurking don’t want to embrace it
i left my sanity dead in the basement
i burn with the demons
i drink till i’m wasted
this life full of color just seems to have faded
though i know my hearts temporarily jaded
and i will be free on the day that i face it

oh no
if i you go down this road
i’m gonna die soon
and i don’t wanna die soon
oh why do i
do this to my health
it’s like i’m killing myself
i’ve created this hell

(guardin)
why do i
even try 
i swear that i've 
lost my mind
it's not right
losing sight
of direction objection i'm losing my pace
caught in the storm and my head's outta place 

grip my hand and we can make it out alive
trust my integrity it's eating me inside
they say honesty is crucial to survive 
but i know a couple people comfortably living a lie
so why do i feel so uninviting
head vs heart and they keep on fighting
lost my mind but i just keep writing
lock my door in my bed i'll be hiding 

(ooo ooo ooo
oh no
oh why)

oh no
if i you go down this road
i’m gonna die soon
and i don’t wanna die soon
oh why do i
do this to my health
it’s like i’m killing myself
i’ve created this hell

oh no ft. guardin (prod. taylor morgan)

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-too-much-lyrics

huge thanks to the homie
@guccihighwaters

instrumentation by: @noahwalker
mixing/mastering by: softheart
production by: softheart, vowl.

free download

Too Much (feat. guccihighwaters)

(PROD. BY @prodlxve x @kvnny)
engineered @kvnny

lyrix

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

every single day
moving faster like a race
and im hoping that i crash
saw 200 on the dash
fuck a red light
stop sign
i cant give a fuck no
i aint got time
stopwatch
that rolly dont tick tock

woah

if i said it then i mean it
i choose you like
eenie meenie
told you that im never leaving
and you still do not believe me
so i put it in the past 
i cant see you like im stevie
so ill put it on a track
so you see me on the TV
im a rockstar
cant stop till they know it
really hoping i dont blow it
cause i really wanna show it
show show up with the flex
let em know that im up next
yung ghosty with the checks
yung ghosty with the checks

woah
yea i got the checks like its nike
running round my town i think they like me
neck and wrist is icey
baddie treat me nicely
yea
shes bad for my psyche
yea

must have met you in a past life
odd are i loved you then as well
but right now you make me so mad
make me feel so sad
woah

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

empty (p. lxve x kenny)

@qawikamri

LYRICS:-
QAWI KAMRI
start and drive the car
you've been on my mind
going to your house
you got my heart

can I have yours?
will not waste your time
life on the line
can I stay the night?

can I spend the night?
we gon' vibe all night
gon' treat you right
please dont leave my side

can I stay the night?
we gon' love all night
gon' treat you right
like it's your first time

she says "I don't bite" 
i said i dont mind
you can leave a mark
right here with a spark

there's good in my heart, 
you found it in the dark
you still stayed when its hard
you still stayed when its hard

this is how it starts
shoot it like a dart
loving is an art
you got it in your cards

i just wanna hold ya
i just wanna touch ya
show you that I love you
show you that I'm down for you

imma just pull you closer
carry the weight on your shoulder
treat you the same when im older
you can always come over

you can spend the night
we gon' vibe all night
gon' treat you right
i wont leave your side

you can stay the night
we gon' love all night
gon' treat you right
like it's your first time

Stay The Night

Baby all up in my face like what/
Wanna pick a fight I dont even wanna start/
Taking all the shots and Im feeling like whats up/ 
You dont know the half of it you never hear me out/

And I-I-I/
Never feel ali-i-ive/
And you always hi-i-igh/
Taken to the si-i-ide/

Rollin on keep rollin on keep figuring it out/
Feeling like im peaking but its really just enough/
You be all up in my mind just lingering it up/
Talking to myself about these feelings and this love/

And I know you feel alone and you’ve been it all day/ hate it like that so you call me like ey/
Prolly gon die if I feel this everyday/ 
Baby why you sad cause Im feeling what you say like/

Loooow life I know you feeling bad/ 
you dont gotta die cause you never take it back/
I dont want a funeral and no one ever had/
Baby keep on struggling and shit will always pass/

I-I dont want to be alone/
Can you please just try/
Cause I need you in my zone/

Baby all up in my face like what/
Wanna pick a fight I dont even wanna start/
Taking all the shots and Im feeling like whats up/ 
You dont know the half of it you never hear me out/

And I-I-I/
Never feel ali-i-ive/
And you always hi-i-igh/
Taken to the si-i-ide/

Why you on my mind like never been before/
I just need some time, I really need to know/
Really wanna play, fucking with my soul/
Tired of this game and everything you know like/

Why you never wanna ride with me/
All you wanna do is getting high with me/
Feeling like you never wanna set me free/
Baby why you making it so hard to breathe/

Im falling down/
And I cant really help it/
No I cant really help it/

You’re all I want/
But I cant really save you/
No I cant really save you/

Baby all up in my face like what/
Wanna pick a fight I dont even wanna start/
Taking all the shots and Im feeling like whats up/ 
You dont know the half of it you never hear me out/

And I-I-I/
Never feel ali-i-ive/
And you always hi-i-igh/
Taken to the si-i-ide/

alive

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

i make shitty music.
hateghosty@gmail.com
dm me i love you
1999.

empty (p. lxve x kenny)

ghosty

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