i wanna feel the way a blue nile song sounds
i wanna walk across the rooftops
i wanna write a love song for someone 
for once

when i met you i thought we were onto something
but you were a lesson
put comfort and shame in a blender 
it won't meld together

i said too much
got embarrassed
wouldn't recommend it
hated your guts in the morning
missy said to end it

i need a reframe
regeneration
and a bit of understanding
a cut cord between two candles
baby, that's a happy ending

i wanted you to see me
i wanted you to want to walk me home
i didn't make it easy but i
don't have to tell you why i'm worth the time

so, baby, if you see me
pretend you didn't see me

theydevil

get embarrassed!

bend

a voice memo from tonight (march 23, 2023 12:14am)

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L Y R I C S:
I have such a pretty smile
It’s gonna suck to loose my teeth
I haven’t got cavities
I never had discrepancies

[THIS IS THE FIRST LINE I WROTE FOR “VINES” — ALL OF WHICH WAS DONE WELL UNDER AN HOUR. FOR ME, THE TEETH VERSE IS ABOUT THINGS YOU THINK ARE PERMANENT WILL INEVITABLY ROT. THE THINGS YOU TAKE FOR GRANTED, THE THINGS YOU THINK YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE BETWEEN YOUR TEETH, ARE HELD IN PLACE NO BETTER THAN A ROPE SWING]

Questions rise, answers change
Love means more when feeling fades
It’s not a different door, just change of paint
The same ole tune with a different name

Be my wife, live a lie
Fill your need to please
Beginning things is scary enough
But ending us will break me

[THIS SONG WAS WRITTEN USING A “STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS” METHOD, SIMILAR TO ONE OF MY FIRST SONGS “TAKE CONTROL”. I FEEL LIKE I WAS GETTING MY FEARS OF AN AGING LOVE OFF MY CHEST. LOVE IS NOT A FEELING. LOVE IS DAYS, MONTHS, AND YEARS OF CHOICES.]

I’ll wait for you, so I’ll say
My legs they hurt and my hands feel strange
I’m growing up and so are you
But what if we grow apart?

[A REALIZATION I’VE HAD IS THAT BEING IN MY EARLY TWENTIES, LIKE MOST, THIS IS THE PEAK OF OUR HEALTH. I HAVE A PARANOIA OF DEVELOPING DIABETES OR CANCER. IF WE WAIT FOR US, WHAT IF DEATH DO US PART? MORE OFTEN THEN NOT, I FIND HUMOR IN ULTIMATUMS LIKE THIS — BUT THIS TIME IT REPRESENTED AN HONEST IRRATIONALITY I HOLD.]

Her favorite plant is a vine
She likes how they just intertwine
Choke like weeds just to drain the garden
A reason to start again

Give me hope and lend your perspective
Advise me how to lead
To lead this life, such an empty one
A tree without its leaves

When Winters gone, Spring is done
The Summer you’ll come back to me
The vines they kill, Her vines they kill
Your vines are killing me

[YOUR HEART, YOUR THOUGHTS.. IT’S ALL A GARDEN. YOU CAN’T CONTROL WHAT COMES IN. SOMETIMES WHAT COMES IN WILL BURN THE FOREST DOWN. IT’S A HORRIBLY REAL CYCLE.]

When Winters gone, Spring is done
The Summer you’ll come back to me

[THIS LAST LINE WAS ABOUT MY GIRLFRIEND’S SECOND SEMESTER. ONCE IT’S PAST, THIS COULD BE A PROMISE THEY’D COME BACK AND FIGURE OUT HOW TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN, OR MAYBE IT’S A PLEA.]

The Summer you’ll come back
The Summer you’ll come back
The Summer you’ll come back to me

Vines (voice memo)

I think I'm better off alone
At least for now
I really think I mean it somehow 
Unlike the last time
Or the last last time
I fed it into their ears to make them think I wasn't undone

And it took a day or two 
But really a month felt straining to the tooth
But now I feel loose
The weight is gone and
I think I can finally say
I think I'm better off alone

Better Off

Mirror (demo)

Streaming release date / 18th of Aug.
But you can grab it from my website here 👇 https://courteousthief.co.uk/track/3497035/cut-the-ropes

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