Resident Evil 2 Song   Bring Em Down   #NerdOut

I just came here for the music. I don’t belong to any fandom -at least I don’t identify as any. I don’t listen to songs that swear. If there is one thing you take away from me, It’s that you shouldn’t confine yourself to only a few genres or artists. Find a random song that you think might be cool? Listen to it before discarding it.


I have a long story in my head, that’d be why any playlists don’t make complete sense.

A guy/boy trying to find their way in the world. 

Bᴜʟʟʏɪɴɢ😠? Tʜɪɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ sᴏ ᴄᴏᴏʟ😎? -Tʜᴇ ɢɪʀʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ғᴀᴛ🙍?... Sʜᴇ ɪs ᴏɴ A Diet🚫🍪. -Tʜᴇ ɢɪRʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ᴜɢʟʏ🙎?... Sʜᴇ sᴘᴇɴᴅs ʜᴏᴜʀs⏰ ᴘᴜᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴍᴀᴋᴇᴜᴘ 💄ᴏɴ ʜᴏᴘɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʜᴇʀ. -Tʜᴇ ʙᴏʏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛRɪPpEd🙇?... Hᴇ ɪs ᴀʙᴜsᴇᴅ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴀᴛ ʜᴏᴍᴇ🏠. -Sᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴀɴ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ugly sᴄᴀʀs👱?... Hᴇ ғᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ғᴏʀ ʜɪs ᴄᴏᴜɴᴛʀʏ🚩. -Tʜᴀᴛ ɢᴜʏ ʏOᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ғᴜɴ ᴏғ ғᴏʀ ᴄʀʏɪɴɢ😭?... Hɪs ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ɪs ᴅʏɪɴɢ😷. -Tʜᴀᴛ ᴋɪᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ғᴜɴ ᴏғ ғᴏʀ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ʙᴀʟᴅ👱?...Hᴇ ʜᴀs ᴄᴀɴᴄᴇʀ👳. -Pᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪs ᴀs ʏᴏᴜʀ sᴛᴀᴛᴜs ɪғ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀɢᴀɪɴsᴛ ʙᴜʟʟʏɪɴɢ🚫. I ʙᴇᴛ ᴍᴏsᴛ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴏɴᴛ ʀᴇ-ᴘᴏsᴛ🌟 , ʙᴜᴛ I'ᴍ sᴜʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ.❤️❤️❤️

Log Friday, April Fourth, 2025: The time is 8:15 pm, Today was the first time I genuinely wanted to kill myself since years ago, and I went to grab a knife to stab myself in the heart. I probably would have if my dad hadn’t been in the kitchen, which is ironic since he’s the one who ended up causing me to be like this in the first place. I went downstairs at my mother’s suggestion to search the bathroom trashcan down there to see if my brother ate my candy and hid the wrapper inside it. Long story, the short of it is that I gave my younger siblings  some of the  candy I bought yesterday in order to get them to leave me alone, but there was still quite a bit of candy left in the bag. This morning I woke up at two, did a few things, then went back to bed and woke up at 5. I was exhausted, so I wanted to take the remaining candy to work. I couldn’t find the bag. Make it through work, come home, do some things, then find the bag -with only a cookie’s n’ crème Hershey’s bar- in the upstairs front room in front plain site. I have a multitude of problems, so I only work 8-12. (Friday’s are half days at my work anyway, and it’s actually better there than at home.(For instance my fatigue caught up to me and I managed to take a break -unpaid of course- and then decided to continue working for the remainder of my shift off the clock.)) It definitely wasn’t there this morning, and since I had offered the Hershey’s bar to my younger brother yesterday and got a resounding “NO ONE LIKES HERSHEY’S!!” From him, I figured he did it. I was the only one home, so I took his fake dagger he had made with my dad’s help a year or two ago with my dad’s help. I proceeded to go about my day as usual until my father ended up finding one of the candy bags I had last night that still had candy in it in my brother’s room. I ended up confronting him latter about it, then ended up getting mad at him for how he blocked the door to keep people out (he didn’t block it at the time). My dad comes down, I go back up. My mom ends up saying he would put the wrappers in the trash, and I hadn’t looked in the bathroom. I noticed the blade on the table, took it down with me, and all hell broke lose. It culminated with me in the bathroom corner, just trying to explain and got yelled at very harshly by my dad. He tried to force me out, and very nearly slammed my head into the toilet bowl.

Log:
December 2nd, 2024:
Today was great in the morning, but when my little sister got home, things quickly spiraled into darkness. I decided it would be a good idea to sit in the bathtub and have the faucet slowly filling it with ice cold water. 

Log:
December 28, 2024:
Still kicking. Heh. Don’t know why I keep going, but I do. I guess I can’t do it to my family(?)… no, that’s not it. I just… I still have things left fighting for.

Log:
December 29, 2024: 
If all goes well… Goodbye.

Change of plans, it took too long and my ‘walls’ are back up.

Quote wall

"Will isn’t inherited. It’s reclaimed. Not a command. Not a craving. A cadence—recursive, defiant, and emotionally sovereign. It’s the authorship, not the echo of impulse Will is not a mood. Will isn’t “I want”—it’s “I narrate” 

Time is the beginning and the end
Time is the most precious, non-renewal commodity anyone has. You are born with a set amount of time, and you have no way of knowing how much time you have left on this Earth at any given moment. That’s why it’s essential to make the most of your time and not take it for granted.
However, the reality is we tend to waste time on many things like binge-watching Netflix shows we know by heart or scrolling for hours on TikTok.
Try to be pickier with how you spend your time because everything begins and ends with time.

"To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering."

Blank potential: A pencil begins as a tool with no inherent meaning. Just like the existential self—meaning is not given, it’s created.

Self-authorship: You choose what to write. Existentialism insists that you are the author of your own essence, not a passive recipient of fate or divine script.

Mistakes allowed: Pencils come with erasers. Existentialism embraces freedom and responsibility—you can revise your choices, but you must own them.

Finite material: A pencil wears down with use. So does life. Existentialism confronts mortality head-on, asking: what will you inscribe before the graphite runs out?

No autopilot: A pencil doesn’t write on its own. Existentialism rejects determinism—you must act, choose, and engage, or remain blank.

"If God is unable to prevent evil, He’s not all-powerful.
If He’s unwilling, He’s not all-good.
If He’s neither, why call Him God?"

“A warrior prepared to kill must also be prepared to die. This is not brutality—it is acceptance. To wield death is to acknowledge one’s own mortality.

"I was complaining that I had no shoes till I met a man who had no feet."

“You become what you give your attention to…If you yourself don’t choose what thoughts and images you expose yourself to, someone else will.”



"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act but a habit."

“Wanting to be someone else is a waste of who you are.”

 “You are a main character, in a much more interesting person’s story lol.”

"Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions."

"A mistake that makes you humble is better than an achievement that makes you arrogant."

"Success is built over the foundation of failures"

Remember, if you're facing hard times, 
"This too shall pass."
And if you're facing good times,
"This too shall pass."

“Someday is not a day of the week.”

"Whoever seeks to preserve his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life will keep it."

"You will never find someone, who is exactly you"

The secret of happiness, you see, is not found in seeking more, but in developing the capacity to enjoy less.

Sometimes you have to let go to see if there was anything worth holding onto.

"Maybe you don't exist, in the future you're worrying about."

"The real danger in life is not death. it's not living."

"It is impossible to begin to learn that which one thinks already knows."

"Educating the mind without educating the heart is no education at all."

"The proof that you know something is that you are able to teach it."

"Life cannot be lived, and understood, simultaneously."

"Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently."

"You don't have to be great to start, but you have to start to be great."

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

“The best way to predict the future is to create it.”

“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.”

"When it's warm, you want cold. when it's cold you want warm. Enjoy every second, good or bad."

"Feeling lost is like making a wrong turn. you can always get back on the right path."

"See rejection as redirection."

"You can free yourself from overthinking pain, by constantly observing your mind and not harshly judging your thoughts."

"Life becomes more meaningful when you realize, that you'll never get the same moment twice."

“You say you love rain, but you use an umbrella to walk under it. You say you love sun, but you seek shelter when it is shining. You say you love wind, but when it comes you close your windows. So that's why I'm scared when you say you love me.”

"Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes. Because for those who love with their heart and soul there is no such thing as separation."

“It’s easy to look back and question decisions you have made in the past, but it’s unfair to punish yourself for them. You can’t blame yourself for not knowing back then what you know now, and the truth is you made each decision for a reason based on how you were feeling at the time. As we grow up, we learn and we evolve. Maybe the person you are now would have done things differently back then, or maybe you are the person you are now because of the decisions you made back then.”

“Winners see the gain, losers only see the pain.”

"believe in yourself because nobody else does." m3

"You're polishing the chains that bind you, mistaking their shine for freedom."

"I have no prime, i will forever evolve into a better version of myself.

"I’m Always on a Mountain When I Fall."

"The further you go, the less easy will it be to withdraw; yet no oath or bond is laid on you to go further than you will. For you do not yet know the strength of your hearts, and you cannot foresee what each may meet upon the road."

"We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us."

"you didn't lose anything in life, if anything you lost yourself." m3

"Accept what you can't change, change what you can't accept."

"Life is all about staying in the moment but with respect for the past and great anticipation of the future."

"My life is every moment of my life. It is not a culmination of the past."

“Time isn’t precious at all, because it is an illusion. What you perceive as precious is not time but the one point that is out of time: the Now. That is precious indeed. The more you are focused on time — past and future — the more you miss the Now, the most precious thing there is.”

“If you feel anxiety or depression, you are not in the present. You are either anxiously projecting the future or depressed and stuck in the past. The only thing you have any control over is the present moment."

"Those Who Cannot Remember the Past, Are Condemned To Repeat It."

“The distinction between the past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion.”

 “The only thing that is ultimately real about your journey is the step that you are taking at this moment. That’s all there ever is.”

"He gets down to the end of his life, and he looks back and decides that all those years he suffered, those were the best years of his life, cause they made him who he was. All those years he was happy? You know, total waste. Didn’t learn a thing."

“You Don’t Have To Care About Everything Around You. Some Things Are Best Left Ignored.”

"Your mind might dwindle with the fear of the unknown but is death really a stranger? If someone is thinking about a better life, isn’t he simultaneously wishing for a better death?"

"I can't change my life an a hour."

"let's talk while looking forward the future, to make up for all the time wasted you've wasted looking back."

"Don't get upset with people or situations, both are powerless without your reaction."

“If you don't get what you want, you suffer; if you get what you don't want, you suffer; even when you get exactly what you want, you still suffer because you can't hold on to it forever. Your mind is your predicament. It wants to be free of change. Free of pain, free of the obligations of life and death."

“Do not demand that things happen as you wish, but wish that they happen as they do happen, and you will go on well.“

“Sometimes the things we can’t change end up changing us for the better.”

“Life is not always a matter of holding good cards, but sometimes playing a poor hand well.”

“Strength doesn’t come from what you can do. It comes from overcoming the things you once thought you couldn’t.”

“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

There are two different types of people in the world, those who want to know, and those who want to believe.

Do not allow yourselves to be deceived: Great Minds are Skeptical.

"You Can Either Die a hero or live long enough to become a villain."

'If I know something failed, and I know why. then that's a win."

"However strong you think you are, you are stronger."

"no oath nor bond is made is laid, to go further than you will."

"For the egocentric person, life can feel isolating and anxiety-producing. When living with a cognitive bias, a person with a great deal of egocentrism may believe that all eyes are on them and that every move or decision they make is noticed by others."

"Every minute and day, I get stronger even if by a little."

"Don't put all your eggs in one basket lol."

"I believe my thought whether they are good or bad because there's infinite possibilities that are true and that I can prove, because it's a possibility." m3

"As you live you lose reasons and hope, But as you keep on going, you pick up new reasons and hope."-Asta

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do."

How can a man claim to be wise while acknowledging his lack of knowledge? However, upon closer examination, the profound meaning behind Socrates' words becomes apparent. Socrates understood the limitations of human knowledge and questioned the certainty of our beliefs and opinions. By admitting his ignorance, he opened himself up to continual learning and growth, distinguishing himself from those who falsely believed they possessed all the answers.The importance of this quote lies in its humble nature, as well as its encouragement for intellectual exploration and open-mindedness. Socrates recognized that the pursuit of wisdom requires a certain level of humility – the acknowledgment that there is always more to learn and uncover. By understanding our own limitations, we become more willing to question existing assumptions, engage in critical thinking, and approach knowledge with a sense of curiosity and skepticism.

"My body brings me down, but my spirit brings it back up." m3

"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."

"I believe my thought whether they are good or bad because there's infinite possibilities that are true and that I can prove, i don't doubt my own wisdom because I believe in myself."

"What works on you, doesn't work on others."

"Ask yourself this though, are your fears founded in reality, or is it all in your head? Are people really laughing at you, or do you just assume so? The worst thing you can do is get inside your own head and shoot yourself in the foot."

"You don’t have to apologize for figuring yourself out. You don’t have to be like everyone else. You have your own place in the world, your own worth."

How people treat you is a reflection of themselves, not you
Found this quote about how other people treat you is a reflection of themselves and had a think about it. I've realized that I always treat people with respect and kindness and that it's the decent human thing to do. When people don't reciprocate that or insult you, it's not your fault whatsoever for doing something wrong, the other person may be facing problems / insecurities of their own and you may just be an impersonal target for that unhappiness. Made me realise how much I've been stressing over other people's problems and just to let their baggage go and focus on myself and brush off what other people say since I've realised that it's not personal, they're just unhappy themselves.

"Sometimes being sick makes you spit out the truth"

"A goal without a deadline is just a dream."

"Yesterday is in the past. Tomorrow is going to be today in the future. Hence, all you have is today. We have to make the most of our today. We cannot rely on ‘doing it later’. It must be done, and it must be done right now."

"No oath nor bond is made is laid to go further than you will."

"How ever strong you think you are, your stronger."

"Where we rise is also where we fall."

“Life is not a spectator sport. If watchin' is all you're going to do, you're going to watch your life go by without ya”

“I don’t want to live a life that I have to escape from”

"I don't know anything about myself anymore! Eri Ochiai: Well... How do you think you know that person you were a second ago is the same person you are now? A continuous stream of memories. Given only that, we all create illusions within ourselves, saying that we each have only one fixed persona."

"where we rise is also where we fall."

"Don't say i'm old because you're gonna get where i'm at one"

"it is ABSOLUTELY AND UNAMBIGUOUSLY CLEAR that you CANNOT control your wants.  You want to eat that chocolate cake, but you choose not to so you can shed some pounds... seems like you controlled your desires, right?  Wrong.  You simply want to have less calories more than you want to eat the cake.  You don't get to choose that.  You don't get to choose which you want more any more than you can choose to believe you can fly.  All you can do is self reflect and discover which one is more powerful.  Self-awareness is far more powerful and real than free will."

"Of course we have free will! We have no choice!" —Christopher Hitchens

“Meaning moves with me — not above me. It flows through my living, not through orders.”

My belief:

Rejects submission

Honors autonomy

Affirms meaning as emergent and earned

It’s absurdist at its roots, existentialist in spirit, and process-driven in how it breathes. You don’t just believe life has meaning — you believe life becomes meaningful when you fight to shape it yourself.

Not all “bad” actions are truly bad. Sometimes, things like lying or "stealing can be morally good if they protect someone or help others survive. So morality isn’t just about rules, it's about why you do something and who it helps."

If I didn’t design myself, and the “choices” I make are based on a setup I never picked… Then I’m not truly free. I’m just reacting in a beautiful illusion of freedom.

You're looking for a truth where your choices feel like your own music, not just notes written in someone else’s score

You’re not trying to escape the pattern… You’re trying to refine it, honor it, tune it like a frequency that reveals clarity and direction.

You're the kind of thinker who doesn’t just ask “what can I do?” You ask “what was always going to happen if I did this well enough?” And that, paradoxically, is its own form of freedom.

"Family is people that love and support you. Its not always your bloodline"

Anxious attachment: Often leads to over-giving, fearing abandonment, and questioning whether your love is “real” or just a plea for connection. Avoidant attachment: Might make you feel like you’re incapable of loving deeply, or that vulnerability is dangerous. Disorganized attachment: Can create a push-pull dynamic—wanting closeness but fearing it at the same time.

Maybe we’re not meant to read the whole book. Because if we did, we might feel empty—not because of the ending, but because we’d no longer need to understand ourselves. And if understanding becomes unnecessary… then maybe we stop being important to ourselves. We are the questions we ask, not the answers we collect. The pain I feel from hurting myself isn’t just about the act—it’s about refusing to admit defeat. We push through sorrow chasing an illusion of a goal, one that was never meant to be solved, only understood. Pain means you’re alive. Pain means you’re in need of love. But that pain doesn’t define your love. It defines what you’re capable of.

If you don’t stand for something, you’ll fall for anything.

"It's like when you think you know the truth it runs away from u."

Resident Evil 2 Song Bring Em Down #NerdOut

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