𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆

imagine relating to this rn, also Crona, I love your art :)

I haven’t seen you on my recomended for so long

I remember when I listened to this at school through Bluetooth earbuds and halfway listening to my teacher lmao xD

no ion think u understand i need ur art in my blood atp

𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨: 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘺 𝘗𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘱𝘦 𝘚𝘤𝘰𝘵𝘵

The Upload

song ;; my alcoholic friends
by the dresden dolls (slowed).

lyrics :
i'm counting back
the number of the steps
it took for me to get
back on the wagon of the weekend

i'll use the autotimer to prove that
i got home with my imagination
if they find the body in the basement
"in the very house that she was raised in!"

i'm taking down
the number of the times
so when we get the sign
from god i'll be the first to call them

i'm taking back the number of the beast
cause 6 is not a pretty number
8 or 3 are definitely better
a is for the address on the letter
to my alcoholic friends

i'm trying hard
not to be ashamed
not to know the name
of who is waking up beside me
or the date, the season or the city
but at least the ceilings very pretty
and if you are holding it against me

i'll be on my best behavior
taking shots for mother nature
once my fist is in the cupboard
love is never falling over

should i choose a noble occupation
if i did i'd only show up late and
sick and they would stare at me with hatred
plus my only natural talent's wasted on my alcoholic friends
my alcoholic friends.

'𝐂𝐀𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐒𝐈𝐗 𝐈𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐀 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐘 𝐍𝐔𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑.

|×∆>You Are A Walking Second Place Medal.<∆×|

my alcoholic friends but its self sabotage

around the world - daft punk (sped up)

smells like teen spirit - Nirvana (slowed, muffled, reverb)

Vundabar - Alien Blues (slowed)

love me back | slowed + reverb | trinidad cardona

𝐈 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧’𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐫

𝐂𝐫𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐬: 

𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐠: 𝐅𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐁𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐲 𝐏𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐒𝐜𝐨𝐭𝐭 

𝐄𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝐌𝐞 

𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝐌𝐞 𝐠𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐑𝐀𝟏𝐍𝐁𝟎𝐖𝐆𝐔𝐓𝐙𝐙 𝐨𝐧 𝐃𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐀𝐫𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐀𝐫𝐭𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

F 𝐏𝐎𝐕: 𝐘𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞

They won't understand" ~  vent playlist

I'm Tired...    Vent Playlist.

devil town.

alien blues but w/ wilbur soot

🎉🎃Queen - Don't Try Suicide SPED UP🎃🎉

Bitch Came Back - Theory of a Deadman [Nightcore]

Part editing, Mixing and Mastering made by Powertoast Music

A shoutout to Powertoast who helped me remaster the song
https://soundcloud.com/powertoast

“Caretaker” is my story about being the parent to my own mother. I was the one cooking, calming, cleaning up, talking her down from pills and panic, carrying the weight of her addiction and illness while trying to hold together a life of my own. Every time I tried to leave to save myself, she collapsed, said I was all she had, and threatened to end it, so I kept coming back, convinced that loving her meant keeping her alive.

The song starts at the moment I finally broke and said I could not do it anymore, and then gets to the call two days later telling me she was gone, pills on the floor. It sits in that ugly mix of relief, anger, love, and survivor’s guilt that keeps whispering I killed her by choosing myself, even though I know her life was never really in my hands.

“Caretaker” is me grieving not just her death, but the years I spent fading into her chaos, and the mother I never really got to have. It is a goodbye from someone who did not like who she became at the end, but still hurts because she is gone, and is only now trying to believe that walking away does not make me a monster.

Caretaker

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