don’t blame me when you learn how I feel

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

@akumuh - no favors (prod. dopeboi)

song 2 off our upcoming collab album "The Greatest Story Never Told" releasing the end of this month.

Told You My Secrets (Rxseboy & Drex Carter)

@sadboyprolific

Put in work until I'm hurting that's what's needed to excel
Lately I aint worry bout nobody but myself
But I remember they aint really give a fuck bout how I felt
Bitch I though I already told you, you should worry bout yourself
2am in LA on the water all alone
4am in Brooklyn while I'm cooking on the stove
Don't know why these thoughts always gotta haunt me where I go
I don't try and hide the pain it just prolly doesn't show
Whether I'm awake or I'm asleep I see a ghost
I hear your voice inside my dreams and it keeps haunting me the most
They said I'm a liability, they try and keep me close
I learned to say the least and let my actions speak the most
Turn this song, trynna take my head off through this scope
But that wasn't the true meaning behind even out the scope
Getting current with the top gotta circumvent the flow
Welcome to the underground this is working with your soul

Yo
Sick of hearing that the best is yet to come , I see
Grass is never green, just another field of mud 
And they say the only way to make it grow is with your blood
And so I grabbed the blade and sliced away like I was fucking drunk
How am I supposed to follow heart and mind
My mind tells me to die
My heart tells me to try
And every single second I'm alive I question why
Got me second guessing every decision in my life like
Was it real? when you told me that you loved me
I don't feel the same about myself i put you way above me
I'm self destructive and i've never been too trusting 
Work all by myself until i make it, i been hustling
Rolling with the mud, and it gets tough in rainy weather 
Keep my head up cause i know this shit aint gonna last forever 
I keep telling myself things are gon get better and I mean it
It's the last thing that you said to me that's written in your letter

Haunted

Spotify

Skitall, SadBoyprolific - Haunted

A quiet holiday becomes a slow unraveling.
Rain outside, silence within.
Two people grow distant without knowing how or when.
The words are few, the days long,
and what remains is the feeling of something quietly slipping away.

Clouds over Chalet 9

Featuring @sadboyprolific
Prod.By Stan Beatz

Overdose ft. SadBoyProlific (Prod. by StanXun)

not my song 
By - https://soundcloud.com/rxseboy

rxseboy - the day i died ft. Powfu

Produced by M.E
Artwork by David Kiernan

Kam Michael
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youtube.com/c/KamMichael
twitter.com/kammichael_
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Jerome
http://www.soundcloud.com/kingjerome01
http://www.facebook.com/KingJerome01
http://www.twitter.com/JeromeThePrince
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What's Wrong With Me? (ft. Jerome) [Prod. M.E]

OUT NOW ON SPOTIFY AND APPLE MUSIC
</3 cover taken by @deslynnkardal on instagram

i hope we stay together even when we fall apart
when you tell me that you hate me its like a knife right through my heart
i dont know where i should start
maybe with apologies and pretty please dont leave
i see your back so much more commonly
im missing all our memories 
like road trips and conversations bout our future family
we could have lived so happily
but now im all alone
lost my purpose to survive
staring at the ceiling i dont even feel alive
anymore
i knew it would be hard but never did i want to lose you
i knew we had our stuggles but i never meant to use you
i understand im reckless, im selfish, and im sorry
i implanted in your heart a seed of pain and babe im sorry
never can i get the point across enough im sorry
as you move on with your life i pray to god you know im sorry

i told you i would change and baby girl i tried
but it never was enough to stop the darkness thats inside
i just wanted to be loved
and thats exactly what i got
when i had to give it back was like im running in one spot
tired of the yelling we are breaking i cant take it
i thought that i was good enough i guess i was mistaken
i wish you all the best because
thats what you deserve
ill learn from my mistakes, ill sit back and ill observe
now that youre not in my life i feel worthless
im hurting but you dont, no you dont deserve this
im all alone in my bed i feel worthless
im hurting and i do, yeah i do deserve this

i dont know if i can survive but
i know i dont want to die yeah
im all alone when i cry yeah
now that
youre not
in my
life

my fault (interlude) [feat. Rxseboy]

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