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prequel: MMXXI

80 proof inside my veins yeah
always drinking cause I miss you 
how am I ever gonna see you 
Only see you in my dreams 
Love broken right at the seam 

I’ll Reach for you 

it’s never the right time 
I always feel so blind 

always run away 
cause I don’t know what to do 
facing down my fears 
Of living my life without you 

don’t think I’ll be okay 
I only wanna be with you 
I swear I’ll find a way 
I’ll light the flame for our breakthrough 
distance keeps coming between us 
so distant 
but we’ll fight for our love 

Seasons change 
and our love went cold 
sing to you like i'm post malone 
never wanted you to be alone 
FaceTime every single call 

Wake up in the middle of the night and you’re not there 
Wish I can hold you through the dark when you get scared 
Alcohol is on my mind 
drink and drive to you tonight

prod. @hellahaunted / @jolst

miss u. (prod. Caves x Jolst)

ft. @skrxwd // prod. @sogimura

Rain clouds in my head 
Always pourin down inside 
feeling like I lost the best thing that I ever had in life 
Cause I’m trynna reach you 
but all I hear are dial tones 
I hung up the fuckin phone 
I hope that one day you will know
You always kept my heart beating 
no matter what 
and I just can’t ignore this feeling 
I fuckin miss you and 
I dreamt that you were still here 
I fuckin wish 
So I just dream of better weather 
Dream of better weather 

SKRXWD: 
I just wanna call you up and tell you that I love you 
You’re the only reason that I’m breathing and I want too
Hold you close, I don’t wanna let go
I know it gets hard no matter what, I’m standing ten toes Wasted through this season got me fucked up
I don’t wanna think too much and that’s why I get fucked up yeah 
Head in the ceiling 
Losing all the feeling in my body 
I wanna feel something 
Blame it on the weather 
Just wanna get better
Take me back to nights when you were sleeping in my sweater 
It’s a lonely weekend 
It’s a lonely feeling 
Baby come over and maybe we can pretend 

GXLKE:
Crying from the thought of you calling someone your sunshine 
that person should be me but I just never learned to not lie 
so I’m taking some more medicine 
wishing you would let me in 
I know I fucked up all those times 
but I just gotta try 

Look you right in the eyes 
I say I’m sorry it’s alright 
Again and again 
I’ll always admit to my mistakes but never learn from them 
honesty, honestly isn’t hard, it’s just embarrassing 

Always having an excuse so I blame it on the weather 
looking at the Polaroids of you wearing my sweater 
Doing drugs, staying high I hope this makes it better  
replaying the moment when you left when I read your letter

Better Weather (Feat. Skrwd) (prod. Sogimura)

all I hear are dial tones
As I call you on my phone 
3 am I’m all alone 
wishing you’d pick up this call 

I called to tell you that I love you 
how much I fucking care about you 

all I hear are dial tones
As I call you on my phone 
3 am I’m all alone 
wishing you’d pick up this call 

hey
how are you 
how’ve you been?
I’m going crazy 
cause you’re living in my head
I hear all the fuckin words you’ve said 
replaying in my head 
missing everything about you 
Just wanna hear I love you too 
text you but I see the message turn to green 
always thinking about every single fuckin memory 
every time I see your picture I forget to breathe
sleep paralysis and you’re the only thing I see 


lucid dreaming about our love and how you made me feel 
even through the darkest of times you always kept it real 
I fought for you ever single time we couldn’t hold our bond 
break apart just to find each other, we do this every fuckin time 
I can see it in your eyes 
you were tired of the lies 
replaying all the moments where i felt so dead inside 
regretting all the times where I would always run and hide 
Hate myself so much not even therapy can save my life 

Smoke 
smoke until I choke 
hit a line of coke 
pop my pillys every day 
I just wanted you to know 
I never wanted you to go 
break my heart again 
I’ll do this everyday until I’m dead 

I just hope you’re doing fine
I always have you on my mind 
always missing all your vibes 
and all the love we made at night 

I’m still waiting on your call

prod. @sogimura

Dial Tones (prod. Sogimura)

Got no motivation 
feeling like I’m satan 
Always getting wasted 
all this time I’m wasting 
gotta find some patience 
cause I be impatient 
this life in hell I’m facing 
In my whip I’m racing 
follow dreams I’m chasing 
trynna make progression 
out of this depression 
changing my expressions 
you always asking questions 
got so much aggression 
Here’s a list of my confessions 
You were always my obsession 

I think I found the anecdote 
That has the secrete antidote 
I’m indigo 
and I got no self control 
no audio 
 I’m still playing on your stereo 
you had to go 
I still haunt you through the radio 

every time you hear my songs 
I hope you always sing along 
even if you hate my guts 
I love you and I always will
and that’s tough.

Antidote (prod. Sogimura)

self prescribing my own prescriptions 
To feed my addictions 
cause I never listen 
everyone will have their opinions 
So I keep my distance 
my mind in a prison 

wish that we could bridge our division 
it was my envision 
And now  I’m stuck missing 
Reminiscing Times we’d be kissing 
we’re in this position 
from my manic condition 

There’s no remedy 
So forget me 
The love I give is so fuckin deadly 
There’s nobody here that can save me
can’t even save me from myself 
yeah I’ve gone crazy 

Livin life 
I’m afraid to die 
bloodshot in my eyes 
feelin right 
cause I’m getting high 
hiding from my mind 
No reply 
When you lose someone 
that won’t come back like other times 
I crossed the line too many times 
And now you said your last goodbye 

I’m facing life back on my own again
back driving on the fuckin road again 
drinking away all of my pain again 
And doin drugs so I can make it end 

I’m Positively negative 
you’re the voice to my life’s narrative 
I’m sorry if I always get insensitive 
just give me drugs and alcohol those are my favorite sedatives 

give me more and more and more and more 
I ...just want...to be alright....

Manic Condition (prod. Sogimura)

You’re always finding different ways to break me down again 
I’ve been stuck in hell where I can’t heal these scars I have 
you’ve cut me so deep inside 
I’m talking to myself 
God I’m so fucked up all the time

I’m fucked up all the time 
And I just wish that I had you here
stopped in my tracks 
Just like when you blind a deer 
losing all imagination 
getting old, yeah that’s my fear 

I’m so afraid of this 
So I smoke my cannabis 
your love I miss 
your memory will not dismiss 
your touch was bliss 
now I sit in emptiness 
so far from it 
I’m drinking all the time I’m lit 

Why? 
you’re always asking why I haven’t changed 
Just ask me 
Why ?
I’m always running from myself 
I always wonder 
Why ?
Depression got me by the throat 
crashing waves will sink this boat 
you’re wondering when you should go 

numb the pain and give me some Novocain 
play my heart and treat it like it’s a game 
I promise that I’ll let you win it all okay? 
I can’t cum unless I hear you say my name 

My heroine 
You’re my heroine 
Come & save me once again 
I hate losing my best friend

(prod. @afterlife66)

fxckedup.

fxckedup. (prod. Afterlife)

It’s empty inside my heart 
I’ve got Nothing to give I feel so torn apart 
300 miles away from you, it’s too far 
Wish up on a star 
to heal up all of my scars 
I had to go 
I feel so emotionally unavailable 
you’d never know 
cause I’ll always stay so unstable 
I feel so emotionally unavailable 

so lonely it’s inescapable 
I know that you’re so irreplaceable 
your love was gravitational 
my damage unforgettable 
every time I lied 
you became more observational 

Now I sit in silence 
fuck all of the violence 
sick of all this fighting 
broke my heart I’m crying 
I just need some guidance 
Cant you see I’m trying 
to change my ways, your highness 
I present you with this diamond 

Remember 
every winter comes with this weather 
The same breeze that we felt in December 
reminds me of all the times 
I drove for miles just to see your face 
I wish that I could do this right but it’s too late 
left alone with scars on my heart 
you didn’t want to move far 
and now I’m broken so I try to live through my art

emotionally unavailable (prod. Afterlife x Xxajii)

I’m always changing up my mind 
To change up how I feel inside 
impulsive cause I ride to die 
Get high as fuck to feel alright 
I dont think that I’ll change 
I know I’m stuck I know Im never gonna be okay 
I’m addicted to all of this god damn pain 
I can’t make this go away 

( @denverkell )
i take my meds
feel the side effects
i don’t think that i would be here 
without all my friends 
i still uh pay the price 
i genuinely can’t uh change my mind 
i’m praying for the day they stand in line 
i make these songs so i can save a life 

i don’t wanna pay somebody just to talk to me
so i record another song to get it off of me 
apparently this is my therapy 
my thoughts racing now and theyre scaring me 

i still want you to give me that look you used to 
before the weed and alcohol that i abused 
they say don’t let the past control you let it fuel you 
well i’m still somewhere stuck in limbo i can’t choose 
i might just go take my meds i might just go take

(GXLKE)

Shift my mind up with the seasons 
Close myself up, there’s no reason 
To feel like this, but man I’m bleeding 
black from my heart, I don’t believe in myself 

I don’t believe in Myself, 
I don’t take care of my health 
spending all of my wealth 
Smoking on that top shelf 
Drinking truly like hell 
Staying crossed can’t you tell 
Faded under your spell 
miss you and our talks about 
nights where we always fell 
in love again 
I fucked up yeah i know I did 
You always wanna think about
feelings but I’m too shut out 
always make myself left out 
self inflected shout me out 
that’s all I ever think about

How I Feel Inside (Feat. Yung Kell) (prod. Afterlife)

you tore my heart apart 
now I try to put it back together 
you’re my only love 
I wish that I could be with you forever 
Yeah I fucked up and now you’re gone 
and I don’t know what to do with myself 
Every days the same 
I can’t wash away the pain
so I switch up my meds 
can’t sleep in my bed 
cause I’m always wondering if I’m in your head 

wakin up every day to this life it Fuckin sucks 
Always having you on my mind and I wanna wish you luck 
wish we could’ve worked, I’m always drinking now, I’m fucked 
im going days without eating and only filling up my cup 

I’m running on empty 
cause I don’t have you here anymore 

I do the same thing every day 
Getting high is my escape 
so I don’t have to think of all the problems 
how I couldn’t solve them 
so I write these poems 
singing how I feel so numb 

nothing works anymore 
I’m so empty down to the core 
you closed up all of your doors 
left me here on the floor 

I’m feeling so anxious 
Cause I be fighting this depression 
I never learned my lesson 
always waiting for a message 

God don’t even listen to me 
answer all my questions 
I am always fuckin stressed 
living without any direction 

You were such a blessing 
gave so much affection 
just enough attention 
a beautiful connection 
I always see your reflection 
When I am looking for perfection 
writing songs about you 
fuck, I’m feeling so depressive

everyday's the same (prod. Afterlife)

I don’t wanna do this anymore 
leave me dead here on the floor 
I don’t wanna sleep in bed 
Since you left me all alone 
I feel your presence everywhere 
your voice is in the air 
I wish you didn’t think that I just never fucking cared 

I’m falling apart again 
I get no rest at night 
heart beating, I’m alive, I’m never getting high 
cause I’m broken from the feeling that you left inside 
my heart, cause It was hard for me to stop feeding you all those lies 

there’s no excuse for my shitty behavior 
maybe you just fuckin did yourself a favor 
I’m a fuck up and I don’t deserve you 
5 years of every memory I’ll never forget you 

I don’t blame you for leaving me alone 
Cause I know, you’re better off without me 

I’m going days without eating again 
I’m broke and I’m barely getting out of my bed 
I’m getting fucked up every chance that I get 
cause I never want to feel this feeling of regret pounding my chest 
In my head it’s always gonna be my fault 
I’m closed off and I bottle up everything I should talk about 
it’s so hard for me to say it out loud 
But I am not okay and I don’t see a way out

i don't wanna do this anymore... (prod. Afterlife x Pekarot)

meet me in the grove 
Yeah we getting litty 
Yeah we gotta let it flow 
pouring up my cup 
you already fucking know 
80 proof vibes and the truly’s drinking slow 
I don’t fuck with hoes 

meet me in the grove where we start the night 
Pop open the bottle got you sitting lookin nice 
wearing that black dress 
girl you’re lookin too fine 
undressing you with my eyes 
Got me so hypnotized 
yeah 
taking you out 
to the city we go
Wynwood brickell 
Where do you wanna go? 
Out to south beach 
we could drink out some mo 
got us so drunk 
we see life in slo mo 

rollin up the Jane 
Got us Floatin on this magic 
flying so high tell me all about your passions 
drop top jeep 94 that’s a classic 
in the eclipse swervin through Miami traffic

in the 305 and 786 
you 954 bitches 
yeah you ain’t shit 
still sipping on my drink 
bitch Im getting lit 
Take you back to the grove 
how romantic 

strollin down Mary street into coco walk 
green street cafe yeah I heard it’s all the talk 
fireman dereks now you got a fuckin WAP 
walk you back to my crib yeah you know what up! 

fuck it let’s get crazy 
amp it up and pop my pillys so you can see that shit don’t phase me 
get on top 
That ass is too amazing 
roll my blunts and treat me like a king 
Fill my cup we lit we blazin 

 laid back in my flow 
show you round the loft 
In the middle of the grove 
Crib too lit 
gotta let the neighbors know 
that we fuckin 
scream my name
they can hear all of your moans 

sit up on my face 
lick your pussy till you cum 
pussy too good gotta slurp it till you’re numb 
fuck I can’t wait bend you bang you like a drum 
play you like a guitar gotta show you how I strum 

now I take you down to key Biscayne 
you like my tattoos so you stopped to give me brain 
rollin up another blunt smoke away the pain 
when you’re with me I’ll always make that pussy rain

Meet me in the Grove (prod. Lxnely)

I’m never good enough 
no matter what I do 
you’ll always find a way 
to make me feel so fucking blue 
you play me on a queue 
my heart’s so fuckin screwed 
use me and lie to me like I never fuckin knew 

I’m Drinking every night to break my heart over and over again 
cause you keep telling me that all we’ll ever be is just friends 
& can we make this end?
you’re just an actor always wanna fuckin pretend  
that you don’t feel shit but get jealous every time I fuckin get it in with someone else 
get mad at me like every time for sticking to the plan 
hot girl summer hot girl bummer you playing your fuckin self 
catchin feelings, never healing, movin on to someone else 


I always think I’m not good enough 
and always shutting down my heart cause 
there always was another man 
waiting for his fuckin chance 

Every time we broke it off 
we’d fight we’d yell 
we’d make up and fuck 
we’d start the cycle again 
He’s still there trying his luck 
you’re with him now 
and I’ve been learning to not give a fuck 

I’m finding excuses to pull the knife out 
baby shut the lights down 
kiss me like he’s not around 
tell me that you really love me 
And not this asshole of a clown 
Can I ever make you proud?

I Was Never Good Enough (prod. Jolst)

It’s 3 AM 
and I called you again 
and I’m lost in my head 
I don’t know what to think 
I just know 
that I gotta get it off my chest
I just gotta tell you how I’m feeling so depressed 
go ahead and take a guess 
I’ve been drinking every fuckin night 
My life’s a mess 
and I carry too much fuckin regret 
I couldn’t come to kill myself so I fill my cup instead 

so I fill my cup instead
fill my lungs with smoke 
it’s getting clouded in my head 
rainstorms in my heart I’m bleeding black and red 
you always left my texts on read 
you even look the other way when we lay up in our bed 
baby shut the door, I’m dead 

I could feel it inside your heart 
that you really didn’t wanna go 
It took everything out of you to say fuck it and let me go 
I told you that I’d change but every time I kept on getting worse 
now you’re gone and I can’t reach you so I’m writing this fucking verse  

It fucking hurts 
I can’t fill the void 
im only getting worse 
I become a small town drunk 
Fuckin up my liver, till it doesn’t fuckin work 
I guess that it’s my turn to hurt 

I’m guilty as charged 
I scarred you for life 
and I carry that in my fucking heart 
baby be ruthless 
make me feel your pain 
Make it slow 
let me drown in the rain 
this storm won’t end 
I’m going mentally insane 
Lately I haven’t been okay 
but I deserve to be hurt 
baby I’m so ashamed 



I’m so ashamed 



Pour me up another

baby, i'm getting worse (prod. Afterlife)

pour me up another shot 
of this liquor 
pour me up another shot 
cause I miss her
filling up my broken heart 
every fuckin night 
45 nights, fuck, I don’t think that I’ll be alright 

I don’t think that I’ll be alright 
drinking every night 
bloodshot in my eyes 
I do it every time 
mix it with the sprite 
drown in liquor 
got that shit on sight 
80 proof until I die 

I don’t know why I always think 
that if I drink that it’ll bring you back 
and now that you are gone and that you had to go 
and let me go I wish that I could let you know 
That I’m trying everything that I can so I can learn to grow 

facing my demons every night they’re always haunting me 
ran out of ways to run away 
Its fuckin killing me 
taking these shots to numb the pain 
Its so hard to believe
baby I miss you and I promise I’d do anything 

baby tell me that you love me
Tell me that you want me 
tell me that you never really wanted to ever leave me
baby I swear that I’m coming back 
I’ll do anything for you and you know that’s a fact 


I’ve been trying to keep it together 
in this lonely weather 
storming clouds up in my head 
won’t last forever 
I’ll take another shot to make this go away 
fuck it baby you know I’m gonna find a fucking way 

it doesn’t matter how much medicine that I have to take
it doesn’t matter how much therapy that I have to face 
it doesn’t matter how many songs that I have to make 
baby I promise that we’ll be together finally

Forty Five Nights (prod. Sogimura)

left here stranded and torn 
break me down again 
pour me another four 
looking for all these answers 
in all the wrong places 

Handful of pills yeah,
I drink just for the thrill 
Yeah, I’m going to the bar like every fucking night 
I always feel alone and I just wanna die 
Lying in our old bed 
with all these different women 
You’re still running through my head 
just wish things weren’t different 
I don’t really know what it fuckin means 
When we still talk and you got me down on my knees 
just watch me cut my throat, and bleed 
just popped another xan, can’t see 
I’m drowning in your Hennessy 
remember, you were my Tennessee? 
give me pills and alcohol, and sex and drugs we do them all 
I’m always waiting on you call when you leave him, drop him, let him fall 

JeffreyAlexander.
I never  really knew you until I met you 

Pour another shot of that shit when I fucking see you 
I’ve never felt like this until you turned me into dark blue 
Now I’m losing everything inside my mind that’s the truth 

I just wanted to be okay 
I stay inside my pills that are laced 
I’m on my way six feet under my grave 
Is where I my dues are paid 
Is where you’ll see my face

left here, stranded & torn (feat. jeffreyalexander.)(prod. Afterlife X Jolst)

I’m tired & lonely 
I’m bleeding black internally   
leave me covered up in scars 
and bury up my god damn heart 

I’m so sick of it 
I’m feelin some type of way again 
I’m so sick of it 
cut me let me bleed make sure that I’m dead 
I’m so sick of it 
following my heart was the worst thing I ever did 
I’m so sick of it 
yea 
I’m so sick of it 

I don’t really give a shit 
bout my life just let me breathe 
let me take take my fuckin pills 
i swear I forgot how to breathe 
brain dead in my head 
I wouldn’t be here without friends 
it’s hard to lie when I barely want to make it out of bed

I barely feel alive 
I barely feel alive inside

tired & lonely (prod. Afterlife X Irby)

yeah I wanna ride ride 
in the city under all the lights 
I wanna fly fly 
Stay 100 till the day I die 
goin for a drive drive 
I wish I had this every fuckin night 
bring me back to miami so I can stay with you for life

I always said it out of anger 
I was tempted so I just became a stranger 
i don’t know you anymore, do me a favor 
kill me now, leave me here and say a prayer 
I just know how all this works out 
you won’t call me anymore and then I’ll fuckin figure out 
that you moved on from my life this is what it’s all about 
you found better for yourself that I can’t be sad about 

I can’t help it anyway
I decay my life away 
im on the poppin pills with the liquor chasin 
off the xan got my heart beat fadin

City Lights (prod. Afterlife X Irby)

yea I’m stressed out
fuck I’m stressed out
got this feeling in my chest 
Imma pass out 
popped a xan and I’m staying locked up in the house
Got no texts, hit my line, please just hear me out 

Flowers for you: 
Yeah I’m stressed out
Try to leave you in the past and I’m still sad now
You said to never hit your line
Now what was that about
Guess there’s nothing left to do but get this cash now
Running up a check I hit the gas and tap out
You never wanted this
And you’re right that we’ve both had enough of it
So I stay inside and try to deal with it
Try to numb this pain so I can’t feel shit

And if I’m being honest 
I wish I never lost it
Waking up I’m screaming stop this
Your love was always toxic

Gxlke: 
just hear me out 
I’ll let it out 
I’ll tell you all the things that fuckin stress me out 
you stress me out 
off the addy and the xan 
Im droppin out 
I’m focused now 
so I write these lyrics 
get you feelin down 
I’m feelin like a motherfuckin let down 

you still haunt me like a ghost that always sticks around 
you don’t even wanna see me when I pass through town 
I could use another shot, just bring the knife back out 
cut me open let the bleeding fucking take me down 
im stressed out 
without you 
You’re always on my mind 

I bleed black 
I’m dark blue 
you’re still painted in the sky 
I know 
that you’re through 
wish that I could call you mine 
Sadboy aesthetic
I’m always faded every night

stress me out (Feat. Flowers For You) (prod. Afterlife X Irby)

gone now but you’re never forgotten 
years of all these memories are growing in my garden 

God damn, man, I never got to tell you 
I threw away the pills 
Now I have to find a will to live 
Cause you were taken too damn soon 

remember all the times we spent 
perfecting songs with our old bands 
I’ll never heal from this my friend 
cause you inspired me the best 
you are my best friend and I take that to my grave 
I won’t stop ever writing this music 
you’ve always shown me the way fuck man I’mma lose it

gone now, but never forgotten (prod. Jolst x 5head)

I’m falling right back into you 
i know it’s time 
that we give each other everything 
You know I’m right 
we can’t break apart the love we have 
can’t fuckin hide 
fallin’ over and over again 
over and over again 

lately
you told me that you miss me 
you told me that you think of me even when you’re with him 
baby please don’t lie 
you’re telling me exactly how you feel 
and at least for me your presence still gives me the fuckin chills, so fuck the pills 

you hold me hostage, you carry my heart
I’ll play the part  
and paint a picture with my words 
and show we can’t be torn apart 
through all the distance and time spent far 
baby I know it’s hard 
yea I know it’s hard 

kiss me like he’s not around 
I won’t say a word, I won’t make a sound 
just tell me that you're leaving him
I never thought that i'd be here
I’m down begging on my knees 
baby I fuckin need you

falling (prod. Afterlife)

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