part of that Power which still produceth good, whilst ever scheming ill

it's all in your head

how to never stop being sad

"against all odds, you did it, you found the closure you were looking for. There is only one challenge ahead of you, and that is whether or not you will accept the end, it's time for you to let go. Will you be able to? "
Enter: VI

@ketsai
@mitsooya
@victxrw


[ketsai]
so tell me baby should i go
or should i leave u here alone
im holding on & on
for you to come around
so baby dont let me down
I'm in love... ill cross the line that's blocking us
if its our last night, ill make it to e(u)phoria

[mitsu]
idk lol sorry

[hook 2x: ketsai]
so tell me baby should i go
or should i leave u here around
im holding on & on
for you to come along
so baby dont let me down
I'm in love... ill cross the line that's blocking us
if its our last night, ill make it to e(u)phoria

euphoria ft. mitsu (victxrw)

i fell in love and fell apart again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/afterlife66

(after everything, the last thing i thought i'd hear was i love you
but, i guess it never mattered to you like it did to me,
i'm sorry)

i'm the worst 
and god i know that
cause by now i realize
the reason it all ends bad
cause i keep breaking 
and you couldn't take it 
so i just lay down in my bed
and dream we made it

and there's so much more that i had planned
and now i sit alone with shakey hands
disregard all the blood i bled,
i wish that you were here instead
i thought that you'd be here to hold me
i remember all the words you told me 
you'd never leave like this 
i couldn't prepare for all the things i'd miss

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

medicine, my lungs turned black
i know you're not too sad
left a knife in my back 
i ruined everything we had 

i'd run away before you don't want to
if i get close i know that i'll hurt you 
run away before you don't want to 
if i get close i know that i'll
hurt you 

okay, alright 
i like when i feel numb,
i don't know what to feel like
okay, alright 
i'll fool myself into every pretty lie

i don't wanna fall in love and fall apart again
i don't know if i'm okay enough 
so i keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect
(what did i expect)

and someday soon
your eyes will light up the whole damn room 
when you mention someone else
like they did,
when i was your everything 

i fell in love and fell apart again 
i can't keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect

medicine, pt. 2 (prod. afterlife)

a bond stronger than blood.
composed by: ketsai & victxrw
vocal mix by: ketsai & victxrw
mastering by yeezo
produced by: victxrw
performed by ketsai
background vocals by: victxrw
written by ketsai

so hold on tight
I guess I’m looking for
somebody I can’t find, i tried my best
just to get you out my mind
It’s do or die (it’s do or die)
for one last time (for one last time)
stay by my side
so hold on tight
I guess I’m looking for
somebody I can’t find, i tried my best
just to get you out my mind
It’s do or die (it’s do or die)
for one last time (for one last time)
stick by my side

broken glass and the sound of our laughter
hold me down so i cant chase after
im going away, there is no point for me to stay
the more you hold me down
the more ill start to degrade
so please recycle me
my blood and tears are the key
to our love & I trust
that you won't give up on us
no you won't (2x)
yeah, give up on us

so hold on tight
I guess I’m looking for
somebody I can’t find, i tried my best
just to get you out my mind
It’s do or die (it’s do or die)
for one last time (for one last time)
stay by my side

(ketsai & victxrw)
so hold on tight
I guess I’m looking for 
somebody I can’t find, i tried my best
just to get you out my mind 
It’s do or die (it’s do or die)
for one last time (for one last time) 
stick by my side

lunarX101(victxrw)

@user-931075232
@kyoakyo

lyrics:

u don't wanna forget me that's okay
everytime that I see you, you make my day
I hope that you won't leave me, I'm in pain
u help me when I'm down, u are my saving grace
ur engraved in my brain
don't know what to say
ur my saving grace
you take my pain away

I want us to last
I don't want us to crash 
they say we move too fast
I love you so bad <3

I cannot explain the way you make me feel
and if we're ab to crash then you know I'll take the wheel
couldn't hide it at all, feelings have been revealed 
ever since you entered my life, my heart has healed

@user-931075232:

まだ僕は眠りたい
ここよりも夢にいたい
前よりも冷たい

まるで天使みたい
ただ歌う君に届くように
僕らはいつか星になる
から生きるきっとまた出会える

僕ら行き急ぐ
日々を過ごす
頭狂う
構わないで
先は遠く
夢を描く
逃げたいよすぐ

@1akura:

u don't wanna forget me that's okay
everytime that I see you, you make my day
I hope that you won't leave me, I'm in pain
u help me when I'm down, u are my saving grace
ur engraved in my brain
don't know what to say
ur my saving grace
you take my pain away

I want us to last
I don't want us to crash 
they say we move too fast
I love you so bad <3




ur my saving grace +kurona (kyoa)

i don’t own this song, neither the tiktok audio.

all rights to the creators.

but i wanted it to be you. (how to never stop being sad.)

@owtiss
prod @decago

finally finished this song (3 months later lmao)

you paint everything i say in a bad light
cant pretend that im ok i cant act right
i cant take all of the weight imma flatline
it dont matter what u say its the last time

lately i feel like im not enough
look you in the eyes and i cant help but fall in love 
every time you stay
i just go away
memories we made
they just fade away
im not the same
i hope that ur okay ;/
which way we take
promise i wont make you wait!

i cant stop myself from falling in love with u
u say that u hate me i feel so abused
play a character like idk who's who
wish u knew what it was like inside my shoes

flatline (decago)

@owtiss
prod @decago, @1altr, @owtiss

doing drums rly is fun :)

i dont wna take it back
everything that i said
ur all that i had
everything is a mess
i never was enough
i just wna give up
im never growing up
i just wna move on :/

i rly cannot think
i cannot hear a thing
all i hear is a ring
its rly getting to me
theres still so much to see
but im stuck here w me
drown in anxiety
will i ever be free

is my head on the right way
how'd i find myself in the middle of the highway
starting to think theres no way
hold my hand like always
always on a cold day
how'd i find myself in a place where im not me

everything (decago, altr, owtiss)

https://www.instagram.com/01domerz/
https://www.instagram.com/hartfxlt/

@domerrz
@hartfxlt

prod @hartfxlt

[@domerrz]
you can ask anything, I wont lie
lost time, cant rewind
i still cry, ill be fine
intertwined in your eyes 
you can ask anything, I wont lie
lost time, cant rewind
i still cry, ill be fine
intertwined in your eyes

[@hartfxlt]
I won’t waste ur time 
u still pick me up when no one else tries
u showed me true love for the first time 
count my lucky stars you’re still by my side
our souls are tied, it’s just u and I 
I’m intertwined, in your eyes, your eyes

SPOTIFY

intertwined (hartfxlt)

to be loved is to be changed

i tried to kill myself two days ago and no one noticed

tysm for listening to my music <3 sound clips from your lie in april
prod @prod_promise

lyrics:

if u want
i can lie
i need you here
by my side
i dont want to cry
im looking in your eyes
in your eyes

i can see your shadow
its been following me everywhere i go
i dont want it to leave now
im too attached i dont want to be on my own

i cant wait
let me see your face
something i cant ever hate, oh
i could never bear the weight of
thinking of someone in place of you 

"You're a weird guy. You know that friend A?"

ur in my head i cant talk anymore
sitting in my bed i cant open the door
i just really wanna be yours

i know i make it hard sometimes
and i might not be the best choice for you
but please ill do it all for you
i guess thats the best that i could do

"You've given me more than I could ever repay. But still, isn't there anything I can do for you?"

i still cant forget
every time that ur upset
i just feel that im not ready yet
i dont want to lose what we have
i cant forget

cant you tell?

i need you here
by my side
i dont want to cry
im looking in your eyes
in your eyes

i need you here, by my side

i need you here, by my side (promise)

Hello April! We're still alive!

@remiliaxd
@fabs4k
@prodarisu
@jichuuu

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@remiliaxd :

now i gotta go again
i don't need no problems
save it for the end
and i hope that we can solve 'em

run away again
meet up at the garden where we'll lockdown
it's so quiet, hear my heartbeat, feel my heart pound

okay baby take my hand, don't let it go
you're the only one i trust, when i'm walking through the snow
oh, let it go, i promise i'll let you know
let you in on my reality where we can take it slow

oh oh oh
love you for who you are
slowly dancing under stars
i feel so safe now that i know that's who you are
baby take me in your arms
baby never let us part, oh

it's for you, it's for you, it's for you
yeah all you, all you, all you
show my love and prove it's true
baby show me something new
i would give my all for you
it's for you, it's for you


@fabs4k :

yea i wake up feelin lovely
yea i'm with the bros we sit down, we feelin comfy (@1aprilshowers)
it's our happy day, yea i'm posted with my buddies
she callin me a klutz, i jus end up feelin clumsy, yea yea

gonna strike a pose like we're gonna take a flick, yea
capturin the moment yea it only takes a click, yea
she said that she love me, now my heart be racing quick, yea
she said she been hinting, now it hit me like a brick, yea

i don't wanna hurt u
ur so sweet like honey, i cannot desert u
yea u know i can't desert u
desert u, yea yea yea

the garden +remilia, fabs (arisu x jichu)

Produced By @pyu
@diegointhedark
i Miss Uuu

lyrics;
interlinked, i cant let u go
read this like a suicide note x.x
my body twitch but for u im froze
still tryna figure out where ts went wrong

say im haunted
im unresponsive
i want u here by my side
when i drop dead
say i cant fall in love
but for u im all in
its just u and me
ur the one im calling

tell me to sober up
but ur loves my favorite drug
i cant get enough
u make me feel like enough
told u im right here
get you everything u want
see the time pass
ive been waiting so long

i feel alive
i think its time
to say that im head over heels for u
i was so blind
to look away
i cant see me with anyone else but u

you think that i grew up
but im really the same
feel like its been too long
without seeing ur face
i tell u hold on
karma comes my way
tell u be strong
wipe the tears from ur face

@diegointhedark
dreams of betrayal
   n fighter jets above
   dirt nn my nails 
   they dnt wna show u love 
   fendi purse full of my drugs 
   lifeless body full of slugs
   going unresponsive 
   this is what u wanted 

   whn i look in the mirror 
   i feel nauseous
   guts in ashtrays 
   my heads never been getting clearer 
   hearing voices frm my hallway
   plastered faces on the cover 
   undercover frm the runway 
   i cld never do wrong by my brothers 
   but i kno theydd  switch up on mee

Head Over Heels w/ diegointhedark (Meta)

@domerrz
@owtiss 
@77mending
@yashio20k

www.instagram.com/01domerz/
www.instagram.com/owtiss1/
www.instagram.com/77mending/
www.instagram.com/yashio20k/


think it's the right way
but it's the wrong one
I couldn't mask it
I know it's all dumb
It's really difficult to ask you when it's all done
so I'm doing what I want...
what do I want?

when u see it
would you believe it, on the worst day of our whole lives?
I'm barely breathing, but you don't see it
I'm in the right place, at the worst times...

and I don't feel okay
stuck on the floor again
it never goes my way
I'll try to play pretend
can't find the words to say,
I try to run away
think I can change my fate
there's no other way

got a hole in my chest, got my heart in your arms
if you say it then mean it, I'm falling apart
it's the first in a long time, I've been feeling scarred
it's the worst day I know it
it's feeling so bizarre

SPOTIFY!

when u see it (owtiss + 77mending + yashio)

@owtiss
prod @owtiss again lmao

dawg like idk what happened but shit man something happened
like i went nuts DO YOU HEAR THESE 808s?????

i dont wna wake up
idk why ;/
everything is hurting
why am i alive??
care ab my feelings
did i get that right?
i dont wna see u anymore
im fine

barely tell me anything ive had enough!
its just one thing, then the next..
think im done with love :)
dont have to remind me
im not enough
im just tired of fighting
im giving up!

an apology?
i dont rly want it
now i rly cant breathe
on the ground
think im dying ;-;
did u even rly love me at all?
when u said i love u did u rly mean it?

why am i alive?? (me)

@kyoakyo @jonsve #remedy

having doubts
u bring me down
im hearing sounds
they're getting loud
i never wanted to end but u tune me out
again
i tried for u
it doesn't matter
i hate me too
at one point i had her
i hate 2 lose
my mind is shattered
fuck all the cards
so ill play them better

hurts me 2 cry
i cant sleep at night
u cared, no
so ill tie the ropes
u take the knife
n u take my life
im tired of u 
but ill make it thru
get me outtt
ima drownn
is it over? im falling downn
give me closure, i want it noww

@jonsve
you shot a bullet through my heart
it left a hole
through which love for you departs
and forms a pool
at the bottom of my mattress, i die
i mean, how could i forget this goodbye?

you planned the ending from the start
you're the burning in my soul 
i don't know when to play my cards
should i play the cards at all?
i need closure to restart
i need closure to be whole
i need closure to be, whole
i don't need anything to help the pain to fall
i like hurting when it's you that caused it all
you make me feel so small, i need your voice on a call
i need your chapter to close, so please make sense of it all

hurts me 2 cry
i cant sleep at night
u cared, no
so ill tie the ropes
u take the knife
n u take my life
im tired of u
but ill make it thru
get me outtt
ima drownn
is it over? im falling downn
give me closure, i want it noww

closure +jons (kyoa)

@1akura @rewind214 @yashio20k @afterstoryx 

##

so turn me to ashes and turn me to dust
u know i dont want it if it isnt us
u made me feel like a monster
&& everything stuck
u watch me step in the picture
22 keep us one

if its me vs u know i dont wanna lose
when im battered and broken
black and im blue 
tell me all i can do

now that i finally have you

@1akura

now that i finally have you
i cant live without you
so baby dont leave 
just wanna be around you

if all i could see
is your face in front of mine 
then bae i dont mind it 
im scared of the silence

yeah i need u to call me back 
its the end of my world
think im falling fast
u are my only girl

i dont want u to cry
give u my life
its not worth being alive
if our futures not us together

ashes&&dust +akura (rewind, yashio)

@victxrw @ihateukidu <3

the silence is scaring me
its getting too loud
i lost a person thats close to me
i miss u around
i know ur miles away
this shit keeps me up awake
pls dont forget me
im begging
keep me in ur mind

cus im terrified, dont know where we'll be
cus im terrified please stick close to me
need a piece of mind, tell me that ur safe
so ill close my eyes and ill do what it takes

someone tell me that its all in my head
all these haunted memories cant forget
took a piece of me the day that we met
i dont wanna live this life with regrets

i keep falling for ur lies
this happens everytime
its that look thats in ur eyes
it keeps me so deprived
baby i live in my mind
it keeps me up at night
so ill stop chasing the high
and leave our love behind

@victxrw
woah, yea i'll leave it all behind me
if u dont then i know what ur hiding
the everfrost upon my fingers just wont let me let go
u tell me all the different wrongs i did i already know

i cant lie i cant help but think of u
tell me all the things i couldnt do
the catacombs of my mind are filled with u
u ruined me u never thought it through
can u blame me
cant save me
going crazy trynna not go crazy
can u blame me
cant save me

akura:
someone tell me that its all in my head
all these haunted memories cant forget
took a piece of me the day that we met
i dont wanna live this life with regrets

(cant save meeee)

what it takes +victxrw (kidu)

everytime u cross my mind 
I get that dumb lump in my throat 
so I close my eyes pretend ur by my side 
as if nothings changed at all, changed at all 
u moved on, dont care its done, its done 
thought I learned but im dumb, so dumb :( 
id do it again just to feel what its like to love, what its like to love 

from strangers to lovers to strangers again
no I couldnt hate her she let me in 
hope u see this song and u listen 
where did it all go wrong, whats different? 
fall asleep at day break 
dream all day, then at night im awake 
u “fall for me” but still push me away 
I shouldve never expect you to stay 

stayyyy, stayyy (i shouldve never, no no no)  

everytime u cross my mind 
I get that dumb lump in my throat 
so I close my eyes pretend ur by my side 
as if nothings changed at all, changed at all 
u moved on, dont care its done, its done 
thought I learned but im dumb, so dumb :( 
id do it again just to feel what its like to love, what its like to love

as if nothings changed at all (rewind + hartfxlt)

prod. @tsuki_uzu
dont gotta be like them
You just gotta stay with me
Even when the monsters die
I dont wanna let you leave

Ya this city is a dangerous place
So I dont wanna spend our days a part
Even if I know your safe
I Hate not knowing where u are 




This whole town is numb
Cant trust in anyone
The time has come
When we barely see the sun

Found a way
Through the sewers
They would never find
Ya
 ill make sure that we never die

Hear the feet storm through the front gates
Gunshots and blood in the air ways

New world
Last breath 
For the innocent

Screams in the wind 
From the kids that I grew up with

I Dont wanna think of it

</3

hina