it's all in your head

how to never stop being sad

i fell in love and fell apart again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/afterlife66

(after everything, the last thing i thought i'd hear was i love you
but, i guess it never mattered to you like it did to me,
i'm sorry)

i'm the worst 
and god i know that
cause by now i realize
the reason it all ends bad
cause i keep breaking 
and you couldn't take it 
so i just lay down in my bed
and dream we made it

and there's so much more that i had planned
and now i sit alone with shakey hands
disregard all the blood i bled,
i wish that you were here instead
i thought that you'd be here to hold me
i remember all the words you told me 
you'd never leave like this 
i couldn't prepare for all the things i'd miss

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

the medicine, my lungs turned black
eight letters i won't hear back 
couple pills, i can't relax
it's so fun when shit gets bad

medicine, my lungs turned black
i know you're not too sad
left a knife in my back 
i ruined everything we had 

i'd run away before you don't want to
if i get close i know that i'll hurt you 
run away before you don't want to 
if i get close i know that i'll
hurt you 

okay, alright 
i like when i feel numb,
i don't know what to feel like
okay, alright 
i'll fool myself into every pretty lie

i don't wanna fall in love and fall apart again
i don't know if i'm okay enough 
so i keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect
(what did i expect)

and someday soon
your eyes will light up the whole damn room 
when you mention someone else
like they did,
when i was your everything 

i fell in love and fell apart again 
i can't keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect

medicine, pt. 2 (prod. afterlife)

#stain produced by @lovefelt
@terastic
@kurse11
@v2nthan
@owtiss

tera + kurse11 + venthan + owtiss - forever 💫 (lovefelt)

dust

i don’t own this song, neither the tiktok audio.

all rights to the creators.

but i wanted it to be you. (how to never stop being sad.)

prod me

@domerrz

art - https://www.instagram.com/5555555555/

all these racks up on the table
dig my grave a cradle
yeahh u call me the worst
blood is seepin thru my shirt
and i cant pinpoint where it hurts
i like ya company
but what u want from me
what do i got that u want
these problems weighin a ton
but they dissolve on my tongue
i do what i can to cope
until im comatose
until im crippled over
im goin coast 2 coast
see u in da layover 👋
say that u know me
theres no us
girl, idk ya. . .
late nights; paranoia
i cant be there for ya
put it on the line
for one last time
i got a flight
so make up ur mindd

comatose ft dom

track 2 of 7 on my EP #me
@diegointhedark
@oiwassupp
@aeriiith

@terastic
my mask is peelingg
open up i cnt get rid of this feeling
fall apart cause i cant conceal it
talkn bout problems i got problems to the ceiling
i cant take a step i feel like im outta motion
i got done wrong thats why i cant show emotion
im so fuckin dazed so im feelin like im floating
divide ur boy up with the nine whats the quotient? (@myequalmind ref)
yea im not just whats on the surface
i tried my best, how u tell me that im worthless?
i remember times u would tell me that im #perfect
we had good times but we knew it wasnt workin
now i gotta cut u off cuz im hurting
all day stalkin my ig i see u lurkin
take a left take a right now we turnin 
burnin my heart like it was in a furnace

@diegointhedark
gillette n my palm ima squeeze it
heart on a floor made of tile 
i dnt need it
take my hand i cn fight off your demons 
all the xans tht we did 
i duno how we r breathing 

crush it up snort a line off an ipad 
watchN #everyone around #me 
thruu an eyeglass 
time Passes ion kno where we left off
Host Team Link <3
talk down , ,, take his head off

take my LiFE
find my hard drive n trash it 
tragic ,
ion wna work 
pay the $$$ 
made her bend the knee 
for the free 
if ure asking 
let me pockets bleed
blue n green beauty pageant

i stick to myself 
its a cruel world 
sacrificed your bag for an egirl
there’s no light in my world 
please dnt think so 
kpin in a sippy cup ,
let me breathe slow

@terastic again
take a flight to dubai with my passport 
i got too much money now idk what to ask for
makin songs i guess thats my fkin dad lore
spammin my texts dk what tf u mad for
yea im going up, now u mad, for what?
all this bad energy is bad for us
i cant get attached guess im bad for love
had to kick u out the backdoor uhhhh
yea im not just whats on the surface
i tried my best, how u tell me that im worthless?
i remember times u would tell me that im #perfect
we had good times but we knew it wasnt workin
now i gotta cut u off cuz im hurting
all day stalkin my ig i see u lurkin
take a left take a right now we turnin 
burnin my heart like it was in a furnace

#perfect w/ diegointhedark (oiwa & aerith)

to be loved is to be changed

i tried to kill myself two days ago and no one noticed

feels so good to be back i missed this
prod me and @makemeapromise featuring @remiliaxd

me :

oh, i know im not like before
words can’t reach me anymore
and I’m tired of feeling like a corpse
like a corpse

i just need space
and i cant relate
is this all for them or me?
i cant tell anymore

i cant do it
lets just drop this
i cant stop this
everything is calling
calling me now
and I don’t know how
i can stop my path
from going south

@remiliaxd :

i can't hear you calling
why can't i stop myself from falling down
idk what's left tonight
beware my love, don't hold me tight

let it go
so alone
lost control
but i don't know where to go
oh, but i don't know where to go
gotta find another light, gotta find you love

me :

oh, i know im not like before
words can’t reach me anymore
and I’m tired of feeling like a corpse
like a corpse

i just need space
and i cant relate
is this all for them or me?
i cant tell anymore

i cant do it
lets just drop this
i cant stop this
everything is calling
calling me now
and I don’t know how
i can stop my path
from going south

spiraling + remilia (me + surgeon)

@prodkirian @kyoakyo ^_^
amv! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSfzd9EE4ng&pp=ygUGYml0ZWtp

listen 2 my heart
all my pain is real can u see all my scars
tryna better myself everyday but dunno where 2 start
i miss ur hand on minee
just tell me everythings okay jus look me in my eyes
yea its getting hard
i cant do this alone
i really trusted u i cant believe u left me cold
i really really loved u more than u will ever know
its such a shame
its down the drain
now i sit n i cryyyy

cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rot
cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rottt

(i miss u more than youll ever know but this loves a tragedy)
(js know ill be here when ur feeling down even though its not meant 2 be)
(oooh ohhhh ohhhh x2)

listen 2 my heart
all my pain is real can u see all my scars
tryna better myself everyday but dunno where 2 start
i miss ur hand on minee
just tell me everythings okay jus look me in my eyes
yea its getting hard
i cant do this alone
i really trusted u i cant believe u left me cold
i really really loved u more than u will ever know
its such a shame
its down the drain
now i sit n i cryyyy

cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rot
cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rottt

tragedy (kirian, kyoa)

credits://
@antag01
@rewind/hazel

lyrics://
i cant say too much
i cant lie that you been in my head too much
and i cant get myself up out of bed so what
and i think that i would rather be dead so what
be, be dead so what
x2

ive been sick sick 
grab that shit like pick six
talkin wit the devil contemplating triple six six
hit em wit that treble he wont even kno what hit him
you aint even on my level so stop askin how i did this
like whats ur business why u always trippin
get yo wick split start from the beginning
we some misfits push it to the limits 
why you acting like u never went n did it...

I know you missed
ive wondered ever since
talkin wit my brothers im confessing all my sins
lost too many people now i gotta represent
keep it to myself now i cant get out of my head

my god i wound be you 
you so damn see through
oh lord
i should need to 
but i think i need you
x2 

i cant say too much
i cant lie that you been in my head too much
and i cant get myself up out of bed so what
and i think that i would rather be dead so what
be, be dead so what

too much.

@kyoakyo @jonsve #remedy

having doubts
u bring me down
im hearing sounds
they're getting loud
i never wanted to end but u tune me out
again
i tried for u
it doesn't matter
i hate me too
at one point i had her
i hate 2 lose
my mind is shattered
fuck all the cards
so ill play them better

hurts me 2 cry
i cant sleep at night
u cared, no
so ill tie the ropes
u take the knife
n u take my life
im tired of u 
but ill make it thru
get me outtt
ima drownn
is it over? im falling downn
give me closure, i want it noww

@jonsve
you shot a bullet through my heart
it left a hole
through which love for you departs
and forms a pool
at the bottom of my mattress, i die
i mean, how could i forget this goodbye?

you planned the ending from the start
you're the burning in my soul 
i don't know when to play my cards
should i play the cards at all?
i need closure to restart
i need closure to be whole
i need closure to be, whole
i don't need anything to help the pain to fall
i like hurting when it's you that caused it all
you make me feel so small, i need your voice on a call
i need your chapter to close, so please make sense of it all

hurts me 2 cry
i cant sleep at night
u cared, no
so ill tie the ropes
u take the knife
n u take my life
im tired of u
but ill make it thru
get me outtt
ima drownn
is it over? im falling downn
give me closure, i want it noww

closure +jons (kyoa)

@pw4prez @arid @huntyomg @remedysnuts

i cant get away from the mess that i created
replaying in my head all day n i cant take it
your touch, your smell all these things i miss ab u
fall deep in hell really start to hate myself
againn
at this point it doesnt matter 
heartrate getting faster 
tell me whenn
when ur ready for me
yk i cant be perfect

@pw4prez 
she said i cant be perfect
baby can u tell me im worth it
we in the SUV , swervin
me and rico in the cut like a surgeon
i cant do no wrong
put the pain in my palm
even when im gone, she gon be singing my songs
i cant go with u, i cant fw u 
its a remedy, when you're with me i can't lose:)

@arid
yea would u love me with ur eyes closed
reaching still not breathing
on the edge saying that u would take it slow
i dont think i wanna feel it now
all my wounds here they got deeper how
on the right hand i wanna see u now
walk another mile just to see u cowl
left it all behind like a hand me down

i cant get away from the mess that i created
replaying in my head all day n i cant take it
your touch, your smell all these things i miss ab u
fall deep in hell really start to hate myself
againn
at this point it doesnt matter 
heartrate getting faster 
tell me whenn
when ur ready for me
yk i cant be perfect

imperfect +sochi & arid (sochi x hunty)

sorry for being gone all the time im really trying to get better

@prodfeature, @yashio20k <3

lyrics:

tell you everything man i wish u understood me
never take my word but u still say that u trust me?
break all of our contact i dont want you to love me
everyday i wake up and i realise that im lonely
(AaaAAAA)
you never cared about me anyways
tell me thats its all my fault, but theres no way that ill change :p
u cant pretend to be in love if u still dont like my face
and there is nothing we can do cuz in my head its not okay

why is everybody always tryna leave up on my sight
i thought i was telling the truth but guess im never fucking right
i try to keep u on a leash so you would make it thru the night
tried to show u something new but still my head is full of spite
i know i got a shitty past but im still trying to exist
and if u keep on talking down then ima put u on the list
i tried to show love in my words but always ends up into gifts
and when i try to talk about it then theres words u like to twist

and honestly im kinda getting sick and fucking tired
cuz i been putting so much effort but i still cant say im fine
i got a couple people telling me that i should rather die
if u keep pushing me again then i will fucking end my life
cuz everything u said to me has put me on the verge
and i cant say that its your fault cuz i dont want to see you hurt
theres so much in the way but its my heart thats getting burned
i really wish that i moved on but theres like no one in this world

and i dont wanna second guess all of the things i do
i thought i was the only one well guess im number two
your stuck inside my head like your some fucking sort of glue
and if i had a chance there is so much i would redo

but i cannot get away x8 <3

i can't get away (feature, yashio)

health

prod. @tsuki_uzu
dont gotta be like them
You just gotta stay with me
Even when the monsters die
I dont wanna let you leave

Ya this city is a dangerous place
So I dont wanna spend our days a part
Even if I know your safe
I Hate not knowing where u are 




This whole town is numb
Cant trust in anyone
The time has come
When we barely see the sun

Found a way
Through the sewers
They would never find
Ya
 ill make sure that we never die

Hear the feet storm through the front gates
Gunshots and blood in the air ways

New world
Last breath 
For the innocent

Screams in the wind 
From the kids that I grew up with

I Dont wanna think of it

i hate not knowing where you are (.Uzu)

Back 2 Uu dropping soon <3
@remedysnuts
@afterstoryx
@1straycats
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@foryourheart

guns.lol/1akura

closure +jons (kyoa)

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