this is only sped up cus i thought it was too long

in the summer of 2022 thats when i met you
getting vaccines for school ooo
u were so sweet and kind so pretty and devine
i wanted to end my life but you
showed me that skys werent grey
that there was always happy days
turned my heart into clay 
i really miss you babe

to think abt all those months we spent last year
through fall and autumn and winter and summer
we talked and we talked and we had fun alot
and u were always gone but it was fine i didnt care

we were so happy u'd call me on instagram
and we would talk abt our days and id play guitar for you
and u said not to cut my hair cus u liked it long
and then i cut it when u were gone and i wrote this song

"juli says not to cut my hair she says let it grow"
well i will let you know

its hard to look at all the funny moments and the laughter
and the memories right after everything has gone to shit
i think abt the months we spent and then the months before that
and all i can think abt is how i wanna go to florida 

i dont hate u i was hurting i said shit i never meant
i handled the aftermath poorly and thats why you came and went
i know that if i was more mature or if i just used my words instead of screaming and yelling
then you wouldve still have been following my instagram and liking all my stories
we could just be friends and then something

i cant laugh look at the photographs
that shit it makes me sick
i hate it i hate it
i wanna die

now everything reminds me of you
like the nhk poster in my room
but its not too late we can still reconvene-

bugcatcherjuli (komi cant communicate season 2 episode 6)

lyrics:
(sillyemo124)
this is a song abt a girl i want to notice me
notice notice me
notice notice me
im not a loser
shes just more cuter
i wish i knew her
i cannot fumble her

nanananana 

notice me notice me
come my way baby
i see ur posts daily	
maybe i should call you

we could be together
live our lives forever
take my hand whenever
ill be with you wherever 

this is a song abt a girl i want to notice me
notice notice me
notice notice me
im not a loser
shes just more cuter
i wish i knew her
i cannot fumble her

nanananana 

(bloodsekai)
do you like me like i like u
i just want u cuz ur so cute
call me fool cuz i'd die for u
see u crying in the back ima cry with u
this is a song for a girl
i want to notice me
notice me
notice me
i want her to notice me 😦
attention, affection
i just want it all
i just want it all
i just want it all

(sillyemo124)
i just want it all (4x)
i just want her
and i need her
i want her to notice me

notice me w/ bloodsekai

lyrics:
load my head with some ketamine
blow my brain with amphetamine	
want it all
want it all
give it all to me

i think i saw you last night
standing by my door
think ill lose my mind
if i take some more   
of my drugs
but at least ill see you
youll never leave me

im so fucked up
super fucked up

stick the needle in my vein
and pump it all
i just wanna end the pain
and punch a wall
cut my wrist and watch the blood drain
its all my fault
i need to die
its not fair
my life sucks
im bruised up 
by my mistakes
got nowhere 
got no bucks
to spend on 
shit to fix me  

load my head with some ketamine
blow my brain with amphetamine
want it all
want it all
give it all to me

i think i saw you last night
standing by my door
think ill lose my mind
if i take some more   
of my drugs
but at least ill still see you
youll never leave me

stick the needle in my vein
and pump it all
i just wanna end the pain
and punch a wall
cut my wrist and watch the blood drain
its all my fault
i need to die (2x)

ketamine

nxp cover :P

lyrics:
Left on read
I wish I was dead
I need some love
I need a hug
I need to get my fucking dick sucked
Stare at my screen till my eyes bleed
I need some love
I need a hug
I need to get my fucking dick sucked
When you send a text
That's just too much
What do you expect
You're so out of touch
Feeling bored and kinda sad
Want to chill, want to love, want to get a fucking blowjob
Feeling tense, and kinda mad
Want to kill, want to fuck, want to blow my fucking head off
When I send a text
That's just too much
What did I expect
I'm so out of touch
I was left on read
I was left on read
I was left on read
I was left on read

left on read (cover)

if home is where the heart is then
moving is the hardest when
i just wanna make amends
i just want us to be friends x2

i got drunk made another mistake
i didnt mean to text you today
but i did and maybe i dont regret it
i dont regret it i dont

another damn day you mixed up your messages
i dont care just say youre done with him
i dont know why i am still a bit
in love with you girl im so sick of this

if home is where the heart is then
moving is the hardest when
i just wanna make amends
i just want us to be friends x2

home is where the heart is

ur so mean

wickerfaerie album still in the works :-)
just felt like recording a little cover 

maoist girls (xo willow cover)

recorded this to test out some new production methods

i have waited for too long for you

ready or not

lyrics:
please don't leave i'm not equipped to be by myself
and i'm so scared i can't help it
so scared i can't help
please don't leave i'm not equipped to be by myself
and i'm so scared i can't help it
so scared i can't help

break me down i'm not enough
just shoot me in the head
i tell you all the things about me 
that i never should've said
you say you love me but 
how much of that is true and truly meant
bc no matter what i do or say
ur hanging out with friends
instead of-

who cares
i'll feel better in a day
i swear
i'm not tryna make you change
it's not fair
this shit sucks
but no matter what i do
i can try
i will fail
i just wanna be with you 

i just wanna be with you
i just wanna be with you


who cares
i'll feel better in a day
i swear (i swear)
i'm not tryna make you change
it's not fair (not fair)
this shit sucks (shit sucks)
but no matter what i do
i can try (can try)
i will fail (will fail)
i just wanna be with you

who cares

If this song got you shrugging, smirking, or squirming, man, please pause... and tell me why? 

🩸🩸🩸

@bananasutra lyrics:

[Intro]  
They say it’s “too much.”  
Too bloody.  
Too messy.  
Too loud.  
Too real.  
So I ask…

[Verse 1]  
Why’s it taboo to talk of blood,  
When half the world’s got cycles that flood?  
Why’s it shameful to name a cramp,  
But not to wave a warlord’s stamp?

Why is “discharge” more feared than lies?  
Why do men squirm while a woman dries—  
her tears, her womb, her sleepless nights,  
while they debate her basic rights?

[Chorus]  
Taboo for who?  
Who made the rules?  
Who taught us shame  
in sterile schools?  
It ain’t biology that’s the crime—  
It’s silence weaponized through time.  

Taboo for who?  
'Cause I’m not scared—  
I’ll sing what’s real  
since they don’t dare.

[Verse 2]  
Why is menopause met with a shrug,  
while old white men get pills to plug  
their shriveled pride with pharma might,  
but women sweat through silent nights?

Why is "hormonal" used as a slur,  
when the whole damn system *depends* on her?  
Why don’t they teach us bone will thin?  
Why ain’t that in the doc’s quick spin?

Why is a womb a ticking clock  
unless it births, then it’s forgot?  
Why is my pain dismissed as flair—  
while men’s complaints get urgent care?

[Bridge]  
It’s not taboo 'cause it’s grotesque,  
it’s taboo 'cause it shows who’s next.  
It shows resilience, mess, and might—  
and that’s what gives the boys a fright.

[Interlude]  
Let’s be honest.  
It’s not about discomfort.  
It’s about control.  
And they’re losing it.

[Final Chorus]  
Taboo for who?  
I call your bluff.  
Your squeamish pride?  
Ain’t good enough.  
This ain’t shame—it’s sacred truth.  
It’s guts and fire and ancient proof.

Taboo for who?  
I name the cost—  
Of every silence  
and line we’ve crossed.  
So take your fear and go regroup—  
the grown-up talk is in this loop.

[Outro]  
If it makes you flinch,  
it probably matters.



[14] Men-Oh-Pause • GROWsutra I Burlesque You Not Psychedelic Punk ROCK

demos & throwaways (main is @h4rtbrkr)

i delete stuff alot and then spam upload and then reupload said deleted stuff

bugcatcherjuli (komi cant communicate season 2 episode 6)

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