i wish i was someone you could look up to

please leave me under the cabinet
lost abandoned and forgotten
i'll keep in mind your promise
i'll make an effort next time
i'm not the hero of the story
please don't give me all the glory
it belongs to someone that's worthy
and you know i'm far from perfect
we know that this isn't working
fight over things unimportant
i know that you're more important
i wish you just thought the same
i wish no one was to blame
it feels like everything changed
you lay your head down in shame
as i throw mine on the blade

but hey now it's fine
we'll just talk around in circles
ignore every obstacle that's in our way
pretend that it's alright
and just go our separate ways
cuz that's life
it's no myth
it's no secret of the world
but i'll miss you that's for sure
or at least what i thought you were
and hey now it's fine
i'll just keep it moving forward
and know better than before

i wish i was someone you could look up to
i wish i was someone you could belong to
just push me to the side
don't even bat an eye
you know that i'll be alright
even if that was a lie
i wish i was someone you could look up to
i wish i was someone you could belong to
just push me to the side
don't even bat an eye
you know that i'll be alright
even if that was a lie

a hero you could look up to (prod.pr37)

@pyu
@1luvpurp

you could give me one more kiss
i feel like a piece of shit
i wish i didn’t exist
i would touch your fingertips
hold them til my body slips
hold you til i wanna live
hold you till you’re gone again
i wish i was really fine
i wish i could go a day and night without missing your eyes
i wish i could show you that there’s still light on the other side
i wish i could fall into your lies and trust you every time

i wish you would leave me alone
never make me feel at home
i miss being something whole
i wish i could be a ghost
never missed me anyways, i try but i still feel so dull
i wish i could, i wish i could be a ghost
but i guess thats typical
i feel so invisible
i mistook a broken heart for you being invincible
we’re back at the part again where i’m bit by the winter cold
we’re back at the start again but this time my heart isn’t yours

until ur gone prod meta & luvpurp

additional production by h3artch3rades

there wasn't too much to say
only thing that i could say
it's been a long time coming for me
god took one look and said you ain't where you supposed to be
another lost soul to keep the devil's men company
he stripped the halo and the wings from me yeah
trumpets and angels that were weeping over me
feeling the fires and the burning beneath (inside)
i heard the words that said you're right where you're supposed to be

i know the lord's keeping secrets from me
but know i'm trying to try to keep the devil away from me
i don't know what it was that's keeping me peace inside
but i can't keep going knowing i'll never go
through the fires and trials and tribulations
through the hardships, heartbreaks, and the hard things
pressing my skull against the wall until i'm blacking out
moving in silence but i just can't figure it out

trapped four walls and i'm closed in in silence
covered in clothes that hide signs of violence
nowhere to run to
nowhere to hide in
trapped in four corners of my mind don't tell nobody
what it was i experienced on the deep end
am i wrong for trying to find what i'm seeking
trying to hear the words i never heard before
trying to find out if i was even good for it

i know the lord's keeping secrets from me
but know i'm trying to try to keep the devil away from me
i don't know what it was that's keeping me peace inside
but i can't keep going knowing i'll never go
through the fires and trials and tribulations
through the hardships, heartbreaks, and the hard things
pressing my skull against the wall until i'm blacking out
moving in silence but i just can't

god took one look and said (prod.soma & dose)

i want to make a difference
i'm trying to be different
all signs pointing to a bad outcome in the end
i'm far away from innocent
my life is filled with many sins
reaching out high and low
trying to walk the distance
always reaching my hand out where it's not needed
far away from being where i want to be when you're calling
i fell once again yeah i feel like i'm broken
but can't break or show emotions
sink deeper than the ocean
waves on the boat simply going through the motion
only hard times await
losing focus
constant emotion
only hards times that you seem to know so well

my life is in your hands so hold it close
the world is in my eyes so i'll look out

these better days
i know these better days
i know these better days were long coming for sure
in other words
i sense in other ways
i sense another way to pull me to the light
i'm wide awake
i will not fall asleep
won't fall for false dreams pulling me further away
the light of the day 
holding me far away from where i want to be 
sinking me into the night
i found a way to fight
so long i tried and tried
sinking like a stone down to the bottom
until i found away

sink deeper than the ocean
my life is in your hands so hold it close
so hold it close

i want to make a difference
i'm trying to be different
all signs pointing to a bad outcome in the end
i'm far away from innocent
my life is filled with many sins
reaching out high and low
trying to walk the distance
always reaching my hand out where it's not needed
far away from being where i want to be when you're calling
i fell once again yeah i feel like i'm broken
but can't break or show emotions
sink deeper than the ocean
waves on the boat simply going through the motion
only hard times await
losing focus
constant emotion
only hards times that you seem to know so well

sink deeper than the ocean (prod.kidu)

i dont wanna see yo face
sorry baby i'll be late
i dont wanna go on dates
lose my mind i go cray
tell me something i can say
tell me what would make u stay
been going through this too much
hop on a flight to la
hop on a flight to la
karma a bitch
we kick him out of the mix
touch a mic i get rich
that boy dumb he a fish
you not gonna blow u a dud
you not my gang not my bud
we spend a rack on grub
you cant tell me its all love
but you know i love you
i just hope that you love me too
will you still try to love me
after all that i put you
dont wanna let you go
i wanna let you know
that you're all that i know
i want you no more
i want you no less
big hole in my chest
pull my hair i stress
turn me to a mess

karma (violet)

tell me what you'd like
i can make it happen for you at the perfect time
my body may reject you but it comes down to the mind
i know im scarred up and u can see it in my eyes
its all mental with you
i dont think i can fix it with you
when i go to cities they flock bitch i cant kick it with you 
you do a good job hiding but you're mentally screwed

where is your backbone?
im scared to leave you here by yourself
you dont know how to be alone
its the truth
i dont wanna waste my time trying to fix you

baby look in my eyes and tell me whats the issue
its this something therapy can fix or just a tissue
ok you're mad at me now  
what can i do
dont ask me to trust you
cause believe me
ive tried to
and tried to
ive tried to
and tried to

scar prod meta

@blxty @cranessssss @popilization

i know you tried, i know you did
you know i'd die to ever live
we crossed a line, attached our lips
my favorite prize, the sweetest gift
another night and day alone
another try at finding home
my favorite prize, the sweetest hope
you blessed my eyes i turned to stone

did you notice? i tried but i'm hopeless
i'm stuck in my motion, i move in slow motion
you said you're not mad so then switch up your tone then
i'm moving with caution don't know where i'm going

can we act like we never met
put my heart back like it never left
i just wanted more
and you wanted less
i feel like a mess i feel like a mess
so much scattered pieces
you said that you’re leaving
don’t go away
i promise that things will change
no no
i wanna hide but what for
i feel dead
slumped up against the door
my bodies hot
take the coldness from the floor
i don’t wanna feel like this not anymore
can you save me can you tell me i’m okay
you’re medusa your beauty stuns me everyday
why can’t i have faith no why can’t i see straight 
i just want to see your face can you come don’t want to wait

medusa w blxty prod cranes pop

you miss the love 'cause it's gone away
yet for a long time you were not there
there isn't that much more to say now
prove to me your love is true uh-huh oh
is your heart in the right location
now there's a hole in my heart supposed to be filled
it's unmistakably a weakness
we do it all the time 
but now it's time to let you know

too many moments at all the right times
had all the right ways to say that you wanted more
too many new twists and surprises
found in your life to catch yourself wide off guard
these new relationships you gain lead to a new foundation
new routes you take to get away is new salvation
new feelings ain't going away
look at what they did to me
you can find happiness too
don't be surprised when you see things in your life upside down 
that you couldn't turn right side up
untraceable artifacts in your heart that you'd never expect
that you'd never expect as you know

you miss the love 'cause it's gone away
yet for a long time you were not there
there isn't that much more to say now
prove to me your love is true uh-huh oh
is your heart in the right location
now there's a hole in my heart supposed to be filled
it's unmistakably a weakness
we do it all the time 
but now it's time to let you know

yeah something hard to believe
you felt that arrow in your heart and realized you could bleed
but you never thought that the feeling could make you concede
a point you never expected to make
how much more can a heart take
yeah i feel the weight on me shifting away
burdens on me lift away
my feelings for you one and the same
yeah of circumstantial evidence that i found inside
'til our worlds collide one in the same

you miss the love 'cause it's gone away
yet for a long time you were not there
there isn't that much more to say now
prove to me your love is true uh-huh oh
is your heart in the right location
now there's a hole in my heart supposed to be filled
it's unmistakably a weakness
we do it all the time 
but now it's time to let you know

love letters (prod.blxty)

nowadays i can get anythin i want 
pull up n tht foreign 
like yo bitch its topless
hoe im off a couple foams got my ass so gone 
n i thot u had  the swag 
huh btch u lost it 

why she play me like tht 
play play play melike tht u_,u 
i jus spent 3k 
we make mke maaek it rite bck
she crazy  i like tht 
cray crayyy crayzz like tht 
n my wrist bleedinnnn
think i  need n icepack 🤒💔

it ain nuthin 2 me 
i jus wnt my fukkin money 
ugly hoe im dubbin
she ride dick jus like a bunny
these boys lookin funny 
they ain takin nuthin frm me 
bitch i seen yo shit 
boy we all kno u look up2 me

why my gf cry 
i jus wana mke u mine 
u can tke my life 
giv it 2 u 50xxxx
angel wings  she flyyy 
30mg i can die  😂
say he finna slide 
pussy boy quit tellinglies

a hero you could look up to (prod.pr37)

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