this the closest thing to heaven we have on earth

(@violetxx9)

(@4maya)
i got cuts all down my sleeve
promise me that you wont leave
dont leave me
i love so much pls believe me
yours tears fall like rain drops from the sky
hate being sentimental
so im getting high
jus to leave the past behind
watching all our memories fade away
now i feel the pain reside
and i feel the light shine
from deep inside
when nothings going right
i always find myself
going deeper and deeper
and now everythings out of sight
feel my breath fade in the distance
now ur gone and i really miss ur presence
synthetic skin oh ur perfect like pearlescent
my pain makes me feel whole
try my hardest but whats the end goal
i stride for my purpose baby thats my goal
thats my goal

(@h3artch3rades)
hide my heart under my sleeve
so that you wouldn't see
i know it's hard to sleep
when someone's not by your side
you're giving your all to me
and putting your arms on me
and giving me what i want
can we make it through the night

you keep your eyes on me
your hearts pulled me to and fro
if i realize it's over
i just might never go
you just might never see this
you just might never know
you just might never notice
what it was you meant to me

need you to show love
can you show love
need you to show love

your love forever after
but we found it the hard way out
i saw it on you
yeah it's written all over your face
it was so surreal
it was so surreal
it didn't even feel real when you told me

synthetic skin w/ h3artch3rades (violet)

i love my gf as per usual
cover by https://www.instagram.com/everyymomentt/

how i rly feel (bmud)

@177p & @pw4prez

lyrics;;

i told that hoe to catch Me out in NY
ME&YXNGI on the stage they know we the best guys
3 years ago, Didn’t have this right 😞
Catch me in Miami, w/ the heat tucked right

no i ccant fw a lame ya
if u fw them that means ur the same ya
remembr i went 2 insane ya
saying that u lov me whats my name? ya haaa

me&diego counting bands up
was down bad, feel like haze i had to stand tall
uh look me in my eyes, this that xan love
uh got a bad bitch, she from sri lanka

hit that boy w a lagswitch
flag on the play, throwing bullets like its madden yaaaa
2 days for the package
ya i was down bad, went from g-shocks to a patek yaaa

ya, aint this a sight to see?
told her wipe me down, like its laundry
pink ramune in my cup, like its fallen leaves
this world is urs, like its odyssey

uh, dirty ksubi jeans
i mix the raf, with evisus they like who is he?
im gonna prevail
well connected like a USB
we stuck in hell
baby listen, its just YOU&ME

lagswitch (sochi & 177p)

FT. @ch2rms

h3artch3rades:

same computer screen
everything's the same
nothing seems to change so
i think we can case close
i can barely sleep at night
i can barely stay alive
do you want me to stay alive
this is my day in the life
i can feel it day and night
inundate myself and i
feel it eating me alive
it's only me myself and i
i just need myself and i
i'm the only one i like
yeah that's one of my problems
know that you can't solve them
running out of options
my heart's open for auction
am i feeling better yet
let's just change the topic
don't want to have discussions
look in the mirror disgusted

feeling nauseous
i can't stand the toxic
situation that i'm in when i'm with you
you get under my skin when i'm with you

you blame me for things i never would do
you know i didn't do

feeling nauseous
i can't stand the toxic
situation that i'm in when i'm with you
you get under my skin when i'm with you

ch2rms:

feeling starstruck
i can't take it what's the point
hater's on my timeline
i can see it i can see it more
shit is changing oh my god we not coming back
too many percs inside this bottle laced a heart attack
you wanted more than try for me
feeling super sorry for you because you cry for me
i ain't even have the tears why'd you lie to me
look me in my face and tell me that i'm fine please
it's too much to handle it's fine for me
you living like that oh it's so sad to see
oh what's the point if it's bad for me
she trying to say that she's sad for me

i've been changing FT. ch2rms (prod.soma & elxnce)

@kggn @sjr-beats @user-882451933
📸@twikipedia

u dont love me baby are u sure?
take these mellys till my tummy hurt
i remember i was never heard
now they flocking to me like a bird
check my pulse ya just like a nurse
make it pop ya just like a nerve
never first i was always third
shawty how im supposed to take ur word

do it wrong, all i do is do it wrong do it wrong
take ur problems break them all in half 
and now i'm moving wrong (i'm moving wrong)
only wanna come back when i'm moving on
see u round the corner who u snooping on
look me in my eyes i dont wanna sign off
i cant love u i dont wanna lie ugh
if i like it then im gonna buy ya
tell me how am i supposed to make it right ugh

i was never first i was always last
i wanna go back i wanna go back
make me feel so hurt make me feel so mad
she gonna make me crash my heart has a crack
we was supposed to last
my heart broke u wont take me in one piece
already dead swear 2 god i'm a mummy
built this from ground up and burn me to nothing
i wont lie i miss you, and i know that you don't
is it wrong if i love? cus im falling in love
and enough is enough i'm calling ur bluff
why are you so rough why am i still here

pulse (kuru sjr 23)

additional production by h3artch3rades

there wasn't too much to say
only thing that i could say
it's been a long time coming for me
god took one look and said you ain't where you supposed to be
another lost soul to keep the devil's men company
he stripped the halo and the wings from me yeah
trumpets and angels that were weeping over me
feeling the fires and the burning beneath (inside)
i heard the words that said you're right where you're supposed to be

i know the lord's keeping secrets from me
but know i'm trying to try to keep the devil away from me
i don't know what it was that's keeping me peace inside
but i can't going knowing i'll never go
through the fires and trials and tribulations
through the hardships, heartbreaks, and the hard things
pressing my skull against the wall until i'm blacking out
moving in silence but i just can't figure it out

trapped four walls and i'm closed in in silence
covered in clothes that hide signs of violence
nowhere to run to
nowhere to hide in
trapped in four corners of my mind don't tell nobody

what it was i experienced on the deep end
am i wrong for trying to find what i'm seeking
trying to hear the words i never heard before
trying to find out if i was even good for

i know the lord's keeping secrets from me
but know i'm trying to try to keep the devil away from me
i don't know what it was that's keeping me peace inside
but i can't going knowing i'll never go
through the fires and trials and tribulations
through the hardships, heartbreaks, and the hard things
pressing my skull against the wall until i'm blacking out
moving in silence but i just can't

god looked at me and said (prod.soma & dose)

FT. @hiseph

h3artch3rades:

that's my eulogy
something else my family's gonna hold over me
full body in effect
crushing weight is over me now
feel it deep down
shirk responsibility
give up on longevity
how could it ever be
through the weight of pills that's holding me down
drag my body from the water bring it back onto the shore
positive identification just to make sure
ending perfect tragedy
thinking about what it could be
close your eyes imagining
worst thing that you've ever seen
something's wrong behind the scenes
nothing's ever as it seems
ripping tearing at the seems yeah
you're falling apart

seph:

you don't need to call back now
even with my head so loud
i need someone to call when it all falls down
don't look at me appalled when you let me down
camera, action
take a shot
you just wanted a reaction
losing too much
i'm sick of looking back and forth
i got what you want
i can't stop now

my eulogy FT. seph (prod.soma & seph)

guard yourself inside your walls
due to things that i could tell
now you think that life is hard
drop the cage and draw the bars
to make your life much easier
spread your wings and fly away
ready for your destiny
i dreamed of the words to say
words i thought i'd never say
i see the world through ancient eyes
power cords and cable ties
sometimes it's hard to stay alive
i pray my world will stabilize
even if i don't believe in all the lies
guard your eyes and hide your knowledge
don't upset the higher powers
living takes a long time
repetitions abound
people come from up and down
all i see are things i want
things i want i'll never have
rope me in with something bad
take me down the sunken path
i know that i'll never come back

you see the world through white lies
you'll never go back
you'll never know how it feels
to let your heart win
you break me down to the core
like i've never felt before
give me a piece of yourself
and i'll turn it into whole

guard yourself inside your walls
from the things you fear the most
things that only i could tell
all your scars you hide them well
to make sure no one sees at all
you will never open up
you will always hide yourself
because you're scared of what you see
your heart's filled with entropy
so you're scared to look inside
open up your doors
and let the light in
shone bright through the silence
you're somewhere always hiding
in the dark keeping quiet
keeping secrets from me
everyone has a dark side
that no one wants them to see
ooo i feel the tremors lately
the world has changed around me
i feel the cage around me
ooo the world has taken from me
known many people like me
i put this down in writing as

you see the world through white lies
you'll never go back
you'll never know how it feels
to let your heart win
you break me down to the core
like i've never felt before
give me a piece of yourself
and i'll turn it into whole

god looked at me and said (prod.soma & dose)

h3artch3rades

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