Soft Emo

i walk thru the snow and i know i will find u
i will take u back home to the place i designed you
i connect u with wires and wax
everytime i blink u blink back

ur mine
ur mine
i made you
i made you

ur mine
ur mine
i made you
i made you

i know that its never right
i havent been thinking right
i been thinking bout it twice tonight
for u its suicide

maybe i should let u all go
what if i love u and u dont

ur mine
ur mine
i made you
i made you

ur mine
ur mine
i made you
i made you

i know that i made it 
not so human
know that i named it after u and
know that i put it out for u then
know that i feel ur revenge
i know its gonna stick to the end

i designed you (with3r+michaelwarren)

i must live in a snowstorm
cuz all my problems snowball
u said u don’t love me at all
i guess ill just lay down on the cold floor
closed blinds locked door
don’t call me ill just ignore 
dont meed ur help dont need ur love
dont need ur hand dont meed a whore

i c ur face shining baby its moonlit
wearing the same clothes i did last week
momma keeps telling me that i look sick
if only she knew whats goin on w me
cant sleep cant eat im so weak 
almost died last night goin highspeeds
paradox that shit makes me wanna live
outta box thinking people always called me weird (2x)

i must live in a snowstorm
cuz all my problems snowball
u said u don’t love me at all
i guess ill just lay down on the cold floor
closed blinds locked door
don’t call me ill just ignore 
dont meed ur help dont need ur love
dont need ur hand dont meed a whore

snowball (santana)

im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us
im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us 

fucked n im not high
baby got my heart tight
with all ur lies 
why don't you act right?
mind aint alright
that's why i can't sleep at night
shits hard or am i~ 
swimming against the tide

i pray to see u once again
either its heaven or hell 
i hope ur resting well 
dad ur my fucking champion
will love you til my lifes done
till earth does its last turn (2x)

im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us
im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us(2x)

slow down, take a smoke in the porch (lavendertxwn x pekarot)

spirit son of god
where's my halo?
probably within reach if atonements able
if i didn't second guess and became your angel
would you help me grow my wings?
cause the feathers falling off
i can't seem to stretch them out no more
so sorry if i'm sad, i can't get me off of life support
now flatline in my bed
can you add, peace of conscience
take a stab
feel your spirit like you're god
with a change of heart, i'll show im heaven sent

temptation of every kind inside
let's take what we want it's fine
cause you're melted in my life
it's fine

birth brings mortality, be open to hell  
choose christ like it'll make me prevale
eternal life, seeing white like i can't tell
that the white will kill me if it gets the chance oh well
i want to know me but i passed that chance unwell
no i can't tell
no i can't tell
birth brings mortality, be open to hell

spirit son of god (prod. Pinomin)

https://linktr.ee/AGAINSTTHEGRAINN MERCH
doing this my way
i think that u conceaded
im getting high today
when she off a flat she tweaking
i feel like the script
im alive but im barely breathing
pouring up a mix in this cup
imma drown my feelings

if u really say so baby imma lay low
i know that u need me baby pls dont k hole
i want u to keep everything is so slow
i dont wanna go home when im home im all alone

when im home im never known
when im home the love is gone
in my zone im getting on

im not the best at this
but i aint gotta tell you that
theres no meaning to it 
came home from the show with 2 racks
we got a bad romance
but baby i could get you a bag
if i tell you this
i dont fall in love that fast


doing this my way
i think that u conceaded
im getting high today
when she off a flat she tweaking
i feel like the script
im alive but im barely breathing
pouring up a mix in this cup
imma drown my feelings

its not that  deep at all
its not that deep to call
take the weekend off we can sit and talk
i have wasted years of trying
this time its my turn
done this shit forever
but this time its not a blur

its not a blur i swear
always tell u things 
that i keep dear
this is about the things i hear
thats my only fear

doing this my way
i think that u conceaded
im getting high today
when she off a flat she tweaking
i feel like the script
im alive but im barely breathing
pouring up a mix in this cup
imma drown my feelings

barely bbreathing [subaru]

@xobroken @jolst

I feel guilty because I didn't write you back
The letter that you sent still had your heart attached
I've been driving round at 3:00am 
driving through the streets again
I've got to adjust the seat again
Because your not there

Yeah you're around his and probably fucking kissing him
Fuck that
Shoot him
Dump my mag
I'm skrting
Ruger might solve my problems
But i know I'm fucked up
Gucci might solve my problems
But i know I'm fucked up
Don't hit me up and want my heart back
Don't hit me up  and act all sad
Hugo boss yeah Hugo boss
Lacoste on my feet I'm feeling sick
Don't hit me up and want my heart back
Don't hit me up and act all sad
Hugo boss yeah Hugo boss
Lacoste on my feet I'm feeling sick

@xobroken

Got me feeling guilty but I know you’re with him
I’ll fill that boy with hollows while I do it with a grin
What you sayin baby? You just make me wanna sin for you
Sorry I didn’t write you back, I can’t stand what I did to you.
I was mixin chemicals
Always Overdosing i swear it’s so typical
I can feel the distance between all your words it’s hurting me.
Everything you said fucked up my head I let you murder me

I feel guilty because I didn't write you back
The letter that you sent still had your heart attached
I've been driving round at 3:00am 
driving through the streets again
I've got to adjust the seat again
Because your not there

Yeah you're around his and probably fucking kissing him
Fuck that
Shoot him
Dump my mag
I'm skrting
Ruger might solve my problems
But i know I'm fucked up
Gucci might solve my problems
But i know I'm fucked up

blameworthy w/ xobroken & jolst

darling
its so hard 
will i wake up
and ur not laying here
maybe we should make up
and these birds pierce my ears

close the blinds
i will forget
theres a world outside this room
i be right down the road 
sit and stare into the moon

know my words they never count
but it was hard to figure out
what comes to you comes around
i was there was never down

it was painful
but it was the best way ill give u that
i know the pain grows but i will leave
and i wont see my past


darling
its so hard 
will i wake up
and ur not laying here
maybe we should make up
and these birds pierce my ears

close the blinds
i will forget
theres a world outside this room
i be right down the road 
sit and stare into the moon

im ona thin line
ion wanna fall
ion hate u baby no not at all
i got everything i need got it all
dont pass the phone i wanna talk
on a sidenote when im high i feel home
im that guy i gotta know
do you ever think of me?
do you ever think of me
am i somewhere in between


darling
its so hard 
will i wake up
and ur not laying here
maybe we should make up
and these birds pierce my ears

close the blinds
i will forget
theres a world outside this room
i be right down the road 
sit and stare into the moon

birds [with3r]

take my breath, my blood out
run away fast doublej like a scout
bonk on my head cuz of this loud
blow out os, take ws all year around
take my breath, my blood out
run away fast doublej like a scout
bonk on my head cuz of this loud
blow out os, take ws all year around

red dot, scope 
i don't really miss a shot 
bread brings, hope 
and i gotta get my shot 
all day low 
so at night's time to get high
roll the smoke
open fl and feel the vibe 

lil bitch on her knees
my contact 4 her is dentist
the way i whiten all her teeth
a pro not an aprentice

double J im faded 
anotha j im jaded 
dont care bout a thing no more 
and this high i feel amazing

double j go crazy 
im prime u a fugazi 
the way u try to be me
just shows how ur fuckin lazy

doubleJ (branwen)

I loathed the feeling of you inside me
I felt her sickness pulling on me 
Like a needy animal 
How could I be responsible
For another life, when it terrifies me
I’ll be relieved when you die
And it’s freighting
Life terrifies me, cause what if this is it
(This is it)
My hands nailed, I repent

So I’ll hurt you til’ you know what it feels like to suffer
I’ll lay with your bones in my backyard
You don’t have to wonder
If I love her too

My spine uncurls from the box that I rot in
And my pond eyes see you
So back to my box I climb in
I see death in 
I see death in 
I see death in
I see death in
I see death in you
I see death in
I see death in
I see death in
I see death in you

So I’ll hurt you til’ you know what it feels like to suffer
I’ll lay with your bones in my backyard
You don’t have to wonder
If I love her too

x (prod. neverforever)

i cant believe im back here again
by myself i never got no friends
isolate, i cant keep up with trends
im busy fighting demons in my head

its been a long road down, im at the end
finally broke i found i cannot bend
i just want to finally make amends
right now with this letter that i send

im so sorry, anything that ive done
if life is a game then i lost and it won
at the end of the day we all have setting suns
i know it seems soon, im not running, im done

if there was only one thing i could say to you
i thank you for the smiles, really got me through
cant look up in the sky cause i see the moon
but theres solace in the knowledge that ill be there soon

i float up, straight up to the moonlight

"up in heaven always seemed so boring"
tell myself while im in purgatory
thought my soul would float up til im soaring
instead im just rotting, no restoring

finally sleep, cause its peaceful now
not a peep, body feeble now
life went fast, but its speeding now
i had a plan, i dont need it now

back here again

Spotify

i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

unsightly

count my losses (prod. dercept)

you don't act like you used to.


cover art by .philo  
twitter @philosophimage

neither here, nor there.

lyrics:

ive got too much to die for
3am and my eyes sore
i think i smoked more
then i was good for

she says that she loves me
layed out naked in the pine leaves
she said baby its cold out
but ive got my own heat

please can u hold me
these memories haunt me
so please can just control me
and pretend u love me

i need it so bad
i hope that u know that
these scars dig in so deep
my mind was never one to hold back

all u left was ur coat 
i could float on my words if i chose
i could choke on the do and the donts
i fix everything i had wronged
but ud pick it apart and just tell me i should go

tell me i should go
rum is in ur coke
i could see the bag that u were using for the blow
i dont fuck with them
but i guess i fuck with u
so if u want me to go i guess that thats what imma do

u tell me im lost 
but i fell in love with u
im really only lost
cause i know im losing u
great ok thats cool
guess its bye from the door
id say text me when ur home but i never hear from u

please can u hold me
these memories haunt me
so please can just control me
and pretend u love me

i need it so bad
i hope that u know that
these scars dig in so deep
my mind was never one to hold back

luv me (prod. kryptik)

Life's fucking crazy
I think I'm fading
Always in the background
That's where I'm staying
She gunned my fucking heart down
And replaced it
I have nothing left now
Man I hate it

Even if you tried to
You couldn't save me
Always getting lied to
My life is wasting
I'm so fucking tired
My dreams are dead to me
I'm not gonna make it
The reaper next to me

Watching over every move
So much sleep I lose
Every night I contemplate
Like what the fuck to do
I don't wanna feel this way
I'm so stuck in place
All I ever knew was pain
And fucking rainy days
I can't get outside my brain
I'm smoking purple haze
Make the demons go away
And all my thoughts erase
Don't know why they fucking hate
It makes no sense to me
I just wanna help myself
Discover inner peace

To me I am the enemy
There's something wrong with me
The chemicals inside my brain
Are fucking hurting me
The memories keep coming back
It's like their haunting me
Lying to my fucking face
Just tell me honestly
You ain't got no loyalty
I hate this fucking town
Wish that I could burn it down
All these snakes around

Life's fucking crazy
I think I'm fading
Always in the background
That's where I'm staying
She gunned my fucking heart down
And replaced it
I have nothing left now
Man I hate it

Life's fucking crazy
I think I'm fading
Always in the background
That's where I'm staying
She gunned my fucking heart down
And replaced it
I have nothing left now
Man I hate it

spotify

fading (prod. cartier)

eh something different


I didn't know 
nobody told me
that this how it goes 
when you're important

pull up in a f150
UU tee with the gucci
smoke another blunt now I'm waist deep
ya see me on set but I'm finna lack sleep no
got the money stretchin like play-doh
eyes so low at the table
ya I'm sad when you leave
imma miss you 
she broke my heart with a needle

I didn't know that this how it goes 
when you're important 
but I'm finna find out
ya losin my grip
feelin like shit

you ain't feelin this so leave my bed, this is bad.

I didn't know 
nobody told me
that this how it goes 
when you're important

nobody told me (prod. young taylor)

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool 

let go of the feelings that you felt right here
ask me how i feel i'll say i'm feeling like shit
open up my eyes, see you in disguise
just tell me you're here

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool

it's been a minute and all the tension is killing me
i been driving for hours 
yeah fuck a meal or a shower 
I just been waiting to see you 
dressed in hot pink 
but this time the colors 
will fade into nothing
quit saying that you don't remember 
crying on my sweater 
i tried to make it better 
you just pulled over 
said that me and you can never be together
tears so soft like a feather
wait, the darkest heart cannot be harmed
we've had enough time to depart
you have my heart dont leave it broken here

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool

crash inside ur pool (prod. pretty boy ron x van beats)

prod @ericslake & @1fun1
featuring @swoopyy
mix by me

whatever ft swoopy (prod ericslake & funfriend)

@1fun1 

i heard them say
not to trust you but i really dont care its ok
im hurt again
u trip me up and then i fall like everytime is the same
its worse today
say u love me but u really dont care for me bae
im on my way
think about u everynight and its causing me pain

this lifes a game
youre the only one i need but you dont know my name
i like your face
nicotine protein codeine cocaine

youre the antidote to the poison
bno shit bring da boys in
sorry if my loves cloying i dont really wanna be annoying

bb i swear your love is damaging
i introduce you to the family
i dont wanna talk about my enemies
u know i love you but ur bad for me

i check my breathing its a fear of mine
i smell the pollen from the edelweiss
i buy a package of it every night
im losing hope but it will be alright

Soft Emo

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