HOW I FEEL EVERYDAY FOR YEARS

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Baby, are you free tonight?
Broken down bad, but with you I'm alright
I've already heard it all, so please don't lie
Cause I'ma stay true 'till the day I die
Till the day I-, yeah
As long as I'm alive, I'll be down to ride
Bloodshot eyes in the backseat high
I've been running from the reaper, but I can't hide
Sinking even deeper, growing cold inside

Watching years fly by, fake friends come and go
Standing by your side through the highs and the lows
I'll be right there for you, I'm always close
If you're down for life, just let me know

I don't like to talk much but she likes to move fast
I don't wanna fight, why you gotta do that?
Tell me I'm a mess, you already knew that
We got something special, I don't really wanna lose that
Maybe I'm just looking for something I'll never find
Baby, I just shouldn't have let you in my life
Told me you were down for forever, that was a lie
And I'll see you tomorrow if I make it through the night

I've just been tossing and turning, the bridges are burning
I'm wondering, what have I done to deserve it?
I'm living and learning and constantly hurting
And I've given it time, I swear nothing is working

Baby, are you free tonight?
Broken down bad, but with you I'm alright
I've already heard it all, so please don't lie
Cause I'ma stay true 'till the day I die
Till the day I-, yeah
As long as I'm alive, I'll be down to ride
Bloodshot eyes in the backseat high
I've been running from the reaper, but I can't hide
Sinking even deeper, growing cold inside

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Balet

produced by @ihateshinigami
engineered by heartbreak jake and shinigami
written and performed by macho randy and shinigami

I'm so sorry for what I did last night at that party with her :(

SHINIGAMI & MACHO RANDY "IDK why I'm like this"

just something laying around

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay

no i'm not fine
don't tell me that it's better this way
i miss your hair, when it falls on my face
you're the right one, shoulda let you in though
i'm in a cycle, flowin like the wind blow
but you missed it now you're all up in my business
hit the right lane now you switched up doin cocaine hung over
she still rockin chokers but my shawty rockin boulders 
ya you don't know her

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay

now i got a gun to my head
i don't really give a fuck 
cause i feel so cold
i got time on my hands 
no blood on my knife
but i feel so cold
and i came thru in a fast pace 
all eyes in the hallway
with a past tense demon 
i feel his teeth sink into my veins
but i feel like i'm a nothing
suffer the name, so stuffy
tell me i'm facing something

my baby so goth got lipstick on my blunt
and now she left me i'm like wtf
i'm so toxic, you could catch me at the mall in hot topic

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay

don't enter pt. 2 (prod. pretty boy ron)

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me
Had hopeless feelings
Since I was 14
Just wanna fade out
This world is plain now
This scene is played out
It's all the same now

I hope I wash away
Bring the rain down
I'm smoking everyday
It help my brain out
Cause it's a fucking mess
Lately I'm close to death
I think I need to rest
Cause I don't feel my best
Feel pain inside my chest
It's hard to catch a breath
So I just need a sec
To keep my life intact
Sometimes I feel so lost
And I don't have a map
Don't know where I'm at
Looking for a sign
Wish I could go back
To the better times
To the better days
And the better nights
When I was just a kid
Never questioned life
What was wrong or right
Never really cared

Still don't really care
I can take you there
Welcome to my world
There's sadness in the air
Depression everywhere
Don't feel like waking up
God I fucking suck
Feel so fucking stuck
Walking through the mud
I know I'm not enough
I just wanted love
But now I have no trust
I just got the drugs
And now my feelings numb
Please don't hit me up
Im higher than the sun
I know we had our fun
But that shit's over now
Left me here to die
Looking like a clown
Left me here to die
Bleeding on the ground
But I made it out
Yeah I made it out

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me
Had hopeless feelings
Since I was 14
Just wanna fade out
This world is plain now
This scene is played out
It's all the same now

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trust me (prod. blackmayo)

watching stars die ft. tommy ice (prod. jakkyboí)

I’ve never felt so fucked send help my love I’m going under
I wonder what you think of me tell me is it over
wish I didn’t love you so much
I’ve been getting used to what it does
trying to loosen my grip
girl I know I won’t get anywhere by
holding on too tightly I’m trying
not to lose my fuckin mind
you’re so confusing all the time
I don’t wanna lose you ill do anything
damnit I think you’re gone already

I wonder what you think of me but
god I know i shouldn’t
fall apart every time that you come when
I’m standing still alone and fucking stuck
wish I didn’t care about you so much
miss the way we used to talk
lately you’ve been gone
so far off from what I thought I would want
I love you so much 
you can use me just know I love you and

I’ve never felt so fucked send help my love I’m going under
I wonder what you think of me tell me is it over
wish I didn’t love you so much
I’ve been getting used to what it does
trying to loosen my grip
girl I know I won’t get anywhere by
holding on too tightly I’m trying
not to lose my fuckin mind
you’re so confusing all the time
I don’t wanna lose you ill do anything
damnit I think you’re gone already

I don’t wanna waste my time with you
spend a couple months now I’m back into
this game that I hate and I know its forsure
that you’ll leave me broken when you walk out the door
wish I didn’t fall so easily
cuz I feel you start to walk away from me
and I know I gotta get my self together now
feel so small underneath this ground
can you tell I’m breaking
with every word you’re saying to me now
all my bones are shaking trying my best somehow

I’ve never felt so fucked send help my love I’m going under
I wonder what you think of me tell me is it over

gonna keep loving you
cuz its the only thing I know how to do
I’m useless I’m used up
your perfect I’m in love
holding onto pieces that would keep us connected
pouring out my heart I should have kept you protected
I don’t wanna lose you after all that we went through
if it has to be this way ill never forget you

send help (feat. kaiyko & familypet) [prod. curtains]

i try
to keep the things that i feel hidden inside
it looks like everythings alright from the outside looking in
outside looking in

i cried
when i walked away from you it didnt feel right
now im back inside the place where time just flies by
watching shooting stars explode into the night sky

maybe everything will be fine if i jus stay here for the night
where did all the time go
used to spend my days in ur bed like it was my room
now im wide awake and i have nowhere else to hide to

walking between all the street lights
babygirl u kno its my time
one wrong turn and its all over
ill never forget this octobers

wrist slit from the diamond cuts
bitch im drained as fuck
i could never give a fuck
i feel like im bladee
red lights in the distance
i been off them sad blunts
never passed a piss test

shooting stars! [prod. jay vee]

check out the bros::
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/yungaxstn
lyrics 

kais:
i, saw u in the back an
i, did a little to much then
its gettin harder to sleep now, really wishing that i could be real now x2

snow on her dress watch us fade yea,
snow on her chest heart break yea,
she told me we should take break yea,
im lookin at my phone
dumb, stressed out, and i feel all alone,
don’t
try to use yo dome,
if i break out i jus hope i go home,
stressed out in the back so im sippin on crone.

lil skele:
I took a lil too much 
I be moving slow shawty I ain’t in a rush 
yeah black out in the backseat
I’m a lil too fucked if u ask me 
yeah
it’s like bury me in Louis v 
I been hella faded my eyes getting hazy 
Ion love that bitch she crazy 
ion ever leave the house chill by my lonely 
i fw anybody don’t pick my phone up when it’s ringing 
bumping dg and I got wrist on icy 
feel like guitarboi sipping on peace tea
I been steady stacking bands I got the money

yung axstn:
The nicotine helps me get over 
I’m not your friend you’re never sober 
my girl yeah she wants me over 
i feel the same just wish you were closer
now if you don’t mind I’ll be back in a bit
Cause the shit in my head it makes me wanna quit
and I’m sorry that I can’t be there 
and I know that you want me right there
and I’m sorry that I can’t be there
you miss me all the time I just wish I was right there

kais:
i, saw u in the back an
i, did a little to much then
its gettin harder to sleep now, really wishing that i could be real now x2

it's getting harder to sleep now (w/lil skele & yung axstn) [prod.nejdos]

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it's getting harder to sleep now. (w/skele & yung axstn) [prod.nejdos]

delusional [prod. outby16 x grxgvr]

@hammy

lyrics:

know she see me scoring 
4 in the morning
i should be asleep, it don’t look like i’m ignoring
candles at my feet
counting bands like i’m hoarding 
i can’t get attached to results and rewardings
sometimes i feel broken 
that’s why i been saving up my potions 
and i’m always gonna change i’m in motion 
i can’t keep the light i’m not good with my devotion 
got divided i’m the quotient 

always in the forest or the park 
Juliet we’re apart
when i’m 3d i play my part 
on the tree in the stars 

rolling up this flower 
i got magic powers 
u can wear my rings now 
everything is ours 
meeting with the fairies 
feel like close encounters 
silver left a burn on my wrist
smokin sour 
reborn in an hour 

hammy:
always smoking loud
dont wanna hear u now
after hours at the park im just walking round
off a heavy dose
im such a lonely ghost
deep inside the ground is where i wanna go
underneath the dirt and inside the flames
nothing of me left only ash remains
i got frozen blood running thru my veins
Vivienne charms on my silver chain

always in the forest or the park 
Juliet we’re apart
when i’m 3d i play my part 
on the tree in the stars

motion w/ hamilton

Going insane
Imma fiend
I can't fucking stop it
Always staring at my screen
I wanna drop it down

When i think about it all
I wanna end it
Always messy in my head
I'm feeling manic now

Always lonely and confused
I don't what the fuck to do
All my friends keep falling through
But now I know that's nothing new

Bitch I made it by myself
I don't need your fucking help
I'd be better off in hell
Always hiding my shell
Wishing I was someone else
Oh well oh well
I'm just playing with the cards
That I was dealt

Always gamble with my life
This game is do or die
So I roll the fucking dice
And you can't live it twice
So I'm up like every night
I wanna feel alive
But I know I'm not alright
I know I'm not alright

Going insane
Imma fiend
I can't fucking stop it
Always staring at my screen
I wanna drop it down

When I think about it all
I wanna end it
Always messy in my head
I'm feeling manic now

Always lonely and confused
I don't what the fuck to do
All my friends keep falling through
But now I know that's nothing new

when i think about it all (prod. malloy)

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

I got way to many problems
I can't deal with them at once
Voices in my head
Always say I'm not enough
Roll another spliff
And you know I spark it up
It's hard for me to trust
When you cover me in cuts
Acting like you gave a fuck
But deep down inside
I know you hate my guts
And everything about me
All you do is doubt me
Imma make you sorry

Always stressin
Always second guessing
Lost inside my life
I got no direction
So imma do these drugs
Till I'm seeing heaven
Waking up in hell
I don't know what happened
Demons at my door
And they always knocking
When I try to sleep
They tell me I'm nothing
And it's driving me crazy
I feel like everybody hate me

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

I got way to many problems
I can't deal with them at once
Voices in my head
Always say I'm not enough
Roll another spliff
And you know I spark it up
It's hard for me to trust
When you cover me in cuts

Acting like you gave a fuck
But deep down inside
I know you hate my guts
And everything about me
All you do is doubt me
Imma make you sorry

cuts (prod. jody)

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth  

Silvertab jeans
With the Vivienne's on me
No sleep
I'm a strung out zombie
Can't count the grams I'm burning
5am in the morning
Pull up on the beat I burned it
Talk bad bout me
I heard it
But when I come around
It's quiet
When I come around
It's silent

Paranoid shy and anxious
I don't want no new friendships
All they do is make me nervous
Staying lowkey and cautious
A lot of people out here toxic
They never got your best interest
But I already know how it is
I've been on my own since a kid

I've been alone
For so long
Don't know the place I belong
Just floating round like a ghost
I can't let anyone close
I'm crying on my cracked screen
Wishing you would hear me
Wish I could rest in peace
Lay me down underneath

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth 

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth 

Silvertab jeans
With the Vivienne's on me
No sleep
I'm a strung out zombie
Can't count the grams I'm burning
5am in the morning
Pull up on the beat I burned it
Talk bad bout me
I heard it
But when I come around
It's quiet
When I come around
It's silent

trust me (prod. blackmayo)

hamltn

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